AARON,
 YOUR MOMMA IS REALLY TRYING TO GO ON, BUT I CAN'T. I MISS YOU TO PIECES. I'M BROKEN...I'M HURTING. I KNOW  I SHOULD BE STRONGER FOR YOUR BROTHER AND THE KIDS, BUT I DON'T WANT TO. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME BEING LONELY AND UNHAPPY. I DON'T FEEL LIKE LAUGHHING. AARON, IF YOU EVER KNEW ME, I LOVED MY TWO BOYS. IT'S NOT THAT I LOVED ONE ANY MORE. IT'S JUST THAT I'M SELFISH AND I WANT BOTH MY BOYS STILL. I WAS A GOOD MOTHER. WHAT ABOUT ALL THE TERRIBLE MOTHERS WHO NEVER HAD THIS PAIN. WHO'S SON LIVED TO BE WHATEVER THEY WANTED AND EVEN LOVED THEIR TERRIBLE MOTHER, BUT I DIDN'T GET THE CHANCE FOR YOU TO GROW OLD ALONG WITH ME.I AM GETTING OLDER AND I WANTED JUST MY TWO BOYS AND THE CHILDREN YOU GAVE ME. I COULD HAVE HAD MORE CHILDREN, BUT IT WAS TOO EXPENSIVE AND I WANTED YOU AND BEE TO HAVE EVERYTHING AS A CHILD AND GO PLACES. AND HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT,SO MORE CHILDREN DIDN'T FIT THAT BILL. I CAN CLOTHE TWO, I CAN FEED TWO, I CAN TAKE TWO ON VACATIONS I CAN GIVE TWO NICE BIRTHDAYS AND HOLIDAYS. YES, I MADE A CHOSE TO HAVE AND LOVE JUST THE TWO OF YOU AND YOU BOTH MEANT THE WORLD TO ME. I LOVE YOU AND I'LL NEVER STOP WISHING AS LONG AS I LIVE, UNTIL I TAKE MY LAST BREATH THAT 'I WISH I COULD BRING YOU BACK'

OH MY, WHAT A DAY FOR ME. I KNEW IT WAS THE DAY DEEP IN MY HEART, BECAUSE I WOKE UP CLEANING. I WASHED, I CLEANED, I MOVED FURNITURE AROUND, I MOPPED, I WAXED, I COOKED DINNER, AND THEN I DECIDED TO REST. HE WASN'T DUE UNTIL TH 26TH, BUT MY HEART SAID THIS IS THE DAY. MY GRANDMOTHER BROUGHT ME SOME STRING BEANS WITH WHOLE BABY RED SKIN POTATOES AND SLICED TOMATOES. I ATE LIKE IT WAS NO TOMORROW AND IT WAS SO GOOD. I SAT A WHILE LONGER BECAUSE I WAS SO FULL, I WAS JUST UNCOMFORTABLE. MY MOTHER SAID GIRL, YOU NEED TO GET UP AND WALK SOME. YOU CAN'T LAY DOWN ON ALL THAT FOOD. SO I GOT UP, WALKED UPSTAIRS TO GET READY FOR BED AND COULDN'T EVEN SIT ON THE SIDE OF THE BED. I CALLED MY MOMMA AND SAID I HAVE A CATCH IN MY SIDE, I CAN'T EVEN SIT DOWN. SHE TOLD ME I OUGHT TO STOP BEING SO GREEDY EATING ALL THEM STRING BEANS, BUT UNDER HER BREATH, I HEARD HER SAY..SHE GONE HAVE THAT BABY TONITE. I WENT BACK DOWN STAIRS AND TRIED SITTING IN A CHAIR,BUT AS I SAT MY WATER BROKE. I LOOKED AT MY MOMMA AND MY MOMMA LOOKED AT ME. SHE JUST PICKED UP THE PHONE AND CALLED MY SISTER AND SAID, BE READY. THIS GIRL GOING TO THE HOSPITAL TONITE. HE CAME SO FAST, READY TO SEE THIS CHALLENGING WORLD. THEY NEVER EVEN HAD A CHANCE TO PREP ME. AND THAT NITE AT 11:59 PM, MY BABY'S LIFE BEGAN.EVEN THOUGH IT WAS ONLY 38 YEARS, HE LOVED IT AND LIVED IT TO THE FULLEST.GOD GAVE IT TO HIM AND HE MADE THE BEST OF IT! HE GREW UP TO BE A REAL MAN, WORKING HARD EVERYDAY, NEVER CALLING OFF...ONE OF THE BEST FATHER'S ANY CHILD COULD ASK FOR AND A GRANDSON THAT HE DIDN'T GET THE CHANCE TO SPOIL WHICH MIGHT HAVE BEEN A BLESSING BECAUSE HE WOULD HAVE BEEN HOMELESS OR MOVING BACK WITH ME TO GIVE THAT LITTLE ONE EVERYTHING.HE MADE ME PROUD. AND I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF. I DID IT MY WAY WITH GOD'S DEVINE HELP.I STEERED HIM TO BE A MAGNIFICENT MAN, SON, BROTHER, FATHER, GRANDDAD, UNCLE,COUSIN,  FRIEND, AND CO-WORKER.SO AARON, 'MY BABY' AS YOU SIT AT AT THE FEET OF JESUS, NEVER FORGET 'HEAVEN IS WHERE YOU BELONG' I LOVE YOU AND 38 YEARS WASN'T ENOUGH FOR ME, BUT AS I SIT HERE REFLECTING ON MY LOVE FOR YOU, NO AGE WOULD HAVE BEEN ENOUGH!!!!!          MOMMA