Hey mom its me thought I'd write to you well got a lot on my mind today an I can't stop thinking why is it when your in love everything seems so hard at times an at other its like the best thing ever

Hey momma well today your lil girl is now 18 can't believe I'm growing up so far it's been good my baby boy has kept me smiling I miss him right now while he's at work 

That beautiful lady right there is now my loving beautiful angel that I miss so much an all i wish is For another day with her ugh everyday is harder an harder without her since she's passed away my life has just been hard man I hate it I lost my best friend my other half my true solider use to fight everyday for her life through the sickness an pain she had to go through since I lost my mom all I do is feel worthless an ask my self all the time why am I still here why did he have to take my mom an not me I don't wanna be here anymore :( I miss hearinh her voice everyday I miss being able to Tell her everything man I miss waking up to seeing her beautiful smile an her asking me bout school I miss taking care of her I miss everything since my mom passed lately ive been feeling like just leaving this world all i tell myself is why am i here all i do is fuck up i dont do nothing right seems like i keep failing at making my man happy im afraid hes gone leave me even though he says hes not man hes the only one i have left hes the dad to are lil girl Emma Rose Flores that is due in 3 months i cant to see my lil girl <3 im just scared what if im not a good mom what if i cant be all that im supose to be with her im still worrying about getting everything ready an still have to buy everything before she gets here i hope i can get everything in time an hope i dont fail at making my lil girl happy im just thankful he's been there through thick an thin an still standing by my side an I'm thankful for that I love him so much an he's the only one there to wipe my tears always when I'm crying the only one to ever ask if I'm okay an keeps me happy When I'm feeling down he's the one that brings me back up he treats your Lil princess like you would love an hopefully soon there would be a ring on my finger which means forever because thats what i want with him an my lil girl :* I'm so happy with him like no one would understands that's but hes the reason I'm still here because if it wasn't for him I think I would Of gave up on my life because of the way ive been feeling an thinking i just keep thinking why am i here i make my boyfriend feel alone an like he dose everything by his self i make him want someone else i guess i dont show him love or show i care so wats the point of even being here 3 I miss you so much mom I love you more then you will ever know an I'm sorry for the fight we had before you passed away im sorry i never got to talk to you or see you for the last time i never got to say im sorry or i love an i hate my self for that :(

Hey momma I miss you an love you today I woke up in a bad mood an every lil thing is getting to me idk what's wrong with me just feel like today ain't my day idk why maybe just got alot on my mind with all the stuff going on with my boyfriend an turning his self in idont want him to go in BC idk what could or would happen i don't wanna go days or nights without him by my side an thinking bout you an everything else like idk what I'm feeling right now :(

Hey Momma just stopping by to say I miss you alot an I love you wish you were here with me :( I wish It could be how it use to be when you were with us.where are the times when a family can be happy together where are the times where a kid can come home to there parents an not worry an stress so much bout family I wish I could go to them days :(

Happy birthday mom the big 37 lol your getting old up there I wish I could of spent this day with you well I'm lay down I don't feel good I love you mom an miss you so much can't stop thinking bout you ughh your on my mind like crazy :'(

Hey momma it's your lil girl just wanna say I miss you tomorrows your birthday I wish I could see you on your big day :( your gonna be 37 tomorrow wow your catching up bet you still look as beautiful as always :* I love you momma :*

Hey momma stopping by to say I miss you alot an everyday I think of you an it's hard sometimes to put up with the fact that your gone now wish I could spend one more day with you just to see you smile again an hear the beautiful laugh of yours an hear your voice I miss that everyday I use to be able to see you an tell you I love you an have a girl bound with you but now I cant all I can do now is just write on this website that's for you that sucks so bad I just wish everything was back to before when you were back at home :(

Well going to the beach right now with my love today's been good with him we had a lil argument here an there but not like we usually do an I'm glad bout that but today I woke up thinking alot bout you an Jake I miss him but my main thing is I miss the bound we use to have I miss talking to him an everything but since Sam came in the picture it's like I've been blocked out :(

Hey mom well watching your favorite movie grease thinking bout you alot I miss you

Good morning Mom well just woke up not to long ago got you on my mind right now I miss you alot I wish I could spend one more day with you your birthday is in a couple of days wow your getting old but I bet still looking beautiful as always can't believe your gonna be 37 soon catching up to aunt Mary lol well I love an miss you so much
Gone but never forgotten:* 02" 13" 10

Today I went an seen the manatees with my love an all I did was think of you BC the last time I been there was when we went an picked up your ashes I miss you so much an wish you were here :(

Have you ever stop an seen what's in front of you an appreciate everything you have well I do everyday when I look at my boyfriend Guillermo all I do is appreciate an think how luck I am to have him :* he's the best no matter what he thinks he is an he makes me happy even though he don't think so he does an I put that on everything I wish I was a better person so that he dont feel like I give up on him or that I don't try I'm sorry I'm not the best girl friend I mess up alot I just wish I could show him like I want to but it's so hard to BC growing up all I did was get hurt no one showed me anything so now it's hard to try an learn on your own I just miss you mom

It's another day without you miss you alot well today's 5months with my love an so far it's been good I hope it stays like that all night because I don't wanna be fighting with him well I got you on my mind right now like always but that's never gonna change because there not a day that goes by that I don't think of you I wish you were here :(

Hey mom its me I just wanna say I miss you alot thinking bout you right now well today's been good so far but I hope that my night stays good I don't wanna start fighting with my boyfriend today tomorrow is 5months we been together an I'm thankful for that I love him alot I hope things work out for us BC I see my future with him an starting my lil family with him he's all I need an want don't want anything else :*

Hey mom well I just got done cleaning up some an cooking for my love today's been a kinda bad day but we're going through it all I can say is I really love him an everything he dose for me :* well I miss an love you

Well I wanna say good night mom an I love you an miss you so much I just finished listening to yours an my crappy dad song dreaming of you :( just wonder an ask myself what's wrong with me why did he have to leave me but no one else why he make me suffer an go through all the pain over the years why did I have to grow up fast why do I have to stress my self out so much BC I know I don't have a family like I was supposed to BC my dad wants to walk out of my life why do I even stress over his ass is what I really wanna know he ain't worth my time

Hey mom its me umm I wanna say I miss you so much got you on my mind right now I wish you were here I gate knowing that I wake up to knowing I have no parents to go to when times are hard as a lil girl I use to always wish an dream bout being able to have a family I come home to my parents but nah never that till I have my own lil family with my love all I know is when I get my own lil family I ain't gonna make them go through what I had to :(

Today's my first day back to school an already having a bad day everyone's been telling me that Mackenzie been talking bout me since iv been gone funny how you can have a best friend for 16 years an they still betrade you no matter how go you are to a person you always seem to get hurt still :( its w.e tho

Looking at the sky at night makes me think bout you way more :(

Word of the day is "love " I love you so much mom an wish u could of spent the day with you one more time but instead I'm with my love an I couldn't ask for a better place to be at I love being with him an his family I feel happy an like my self even tho we fight alot at the end of the day we always know we have each other an that's all that matters iv been waiting for him since 6grade an now I finally have him I anit letting him go for nothing I hope to last as long as you an my dad did 11years together that's a long time but I wanna go longer with him he's everything I look for in a guy he's the best always be there for me no matter how bad the situation is he's right by my side an I'm thankful for that idk what I'd do without him he's the only reason I'm here still an he's the reason im always smiling even tho sometimes I brake down from are Fighting but what relationship don't have tears in it an don't fight ? But I'd rather go through hell an back with him then find someone else an start over he's my world an probably soon to be the father of my kid I wouldn't trade or change nothing bout him for nothing in the world I love him just for him I feel so safe with him he keeps your lil girl going an makes sure I'm okay if you were here to met him it would be even better BC I think you would love him just like I do :*

Happy valentines day beautiful tell that to everyone else that is up there with you :( I miss you so much I had a bad day yesterday I'm glad it's over with :( I love you mom

"Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say an now it's to late to show you " I miss you so much mom I don't wanna believe that it's 6years without you iv been trying all day to not cry only reason I haven't cried yet is BC my love has been keeping me smiling an laughing I'm so glad he's here with me he's the only reason I'm still here if it wasn't for him I would of ended it awhile ago ughh I wasn't ready to let go an say goodbye :( they took my best friend my half my most loving an beautiful mother that has 4 kids that miss you a lot its hard knowing that I have to go everyday without my mom an knowing I'm the only girl an you was my closet friend its hurts even more :'(

I don't wanna believe it's 6years without you it sucks knowing that man I miss you so much

Another year without you :(

I guess every strong girl has to brake down sometimes an just let it all out . what sucks though is when you cry about one thing you cry about everything :(

Missing my angel so much :'( I wanna cry man just so much going through my head right now idk what to think or do about not having you here man I wish I could have one more day with you just to tell you I love you an that I'm sorry bout happen at the nursing home before you died ugjj can't believe we got into a fight man it was the last time I talked an seen you on very got to say goodbye or I love you or I'm sorry I feel like its my fault your no longer here :'( that's what I tell my self almost all everyday :( but I miss you so much mom an I wish you were here with me to watch me grow up to what you would want me to be :(

Every Lil girl wishes she was a daddys Lil girl but me I wish I was still with my momma BC I'm her Lil girl an that queen an I'm her princess an nothing can every change that an I'll make sure of that

I miss her so much there so much we didn't do together