- 60 years old
- Date of birth: Dec 12, 1949
- Place of birth:
Chelmsford, Essex County, United Kingdom
- Date of passing: Nov 2, 2010
- Place of passing:
Wichita, Kansas, United States
|"Because of Annie" You were my Bright and Shinning Star. I will love and miss you until my memory fades. Thank you for sharing your life with me. Love you sweetie, Bobby xo|
This memorial website was created on on 4 September 2011, in the memory of our loved one, Annie (Barber) Harrison, 60, born on December 12, 1949 and passed away on November 2, 2010. We will remember her forever.
ADDED 21 Nov 2013: Excerpt from "Because of Annie" coming soon.
The setting is in my living room, Annie is in her hospital bed: It was now time to start comfort care (End of Life Care) which was being administered by my daughter Melissa. We didn't use Hospice.
Excerpt: I asked for some private time with Annie, and then laid my chest across hers, put my arms around her, and lost it. I cried like a baby, as I was so hurt. I know it sounds like it's all about me, but that isn't even close to the truth. Over the course of the illness, Annie and I became one. I hurt for her because she had to die, and for me, I was losing the love of my life. While I was crying, all I could feel was her right hand with the sports bandage on, rubbing me up and down my back. Annie was dying and comforting me. I gave her everything I had for thirty months. In return, she gave me enough love to sustain me forever, and some of my most incredible memories.
As I rose up off her chest, I looked her in the eyes, told her I loved her, and she said, "I love you too." I rubbed my hand across her forehead, letting it gently slide down over her hair. After a soft and tender kiss, I turned and disappeared into the dinning room.
I truly believe in some way, beyond the imagination of many, I was kissed by an Angel.
After I left the room, Melissa walked back into the room, told her momma she loved her, and immediately started comfort care. The time was 2:00 P.M.
ADDED 14 Sep 2013: "Because of Annie"
"If You Love Someone Today, Try to Love them More Tomorrow"
Written 9 Months Into Our Cancer Journey: Annie was my bright and shining star, and I loved her more every day. She was so helpless, defensless, and precious. In my mind she was a true gift, and I was beginning to understand love in a way that many people never will. As I was starting to find, true love penetrates deep into your soul. There is no anger and no resentment. It's not conflicting and I found it very spiritual. It seemed my goal in life was to keep Annie safe, and to share every minute I could with her in happiness. I always loved Annie, however, I have to realize and accept that I never really knew the true meaning of spousal love until now. As chaotic and sad as our lives were, we were always taking time to "Smell the Roses." Sometimes we'd look at each other and laugh for no reason. We'd both found the "Perfect Love," but what a price we were paying.
ADDED: 3 Aug 2013: ~Lost DVD~ On Dec 10th, 2008, while in the hospital, my daughter Melissa and Beverly, at my request, were going to set up a surprise birthday party for Annie. It was going to be held on the evening of the 12th, her actual birthday. Annie had defied the odds a few times to get this far, so we all made an effort to make the party special. During the party a DVD was made with some videos mixed with 220 pictures. The computer containing all the pictures and videos was unfortunately fried during a lightening strike and I lost everything. I was really upset when I looked for the video after she passed, as it contained the last recordings of her voice and the last chance to see her beautiful smile as it happened. After several months of searching for a copy of the DVD I gave up. Now 32 months post death, my sister Marcy located her copy, and sent it to me. I've had it two days now, and I have to say it's one of the greatest gifts I've ever received. It invoked many memories, and yes, many tears too. I purchased Annie a new candyapple red walker that you will see her using, making her walk to the surprise party. For some reason the video is in three short segments, but still, it's very beautiful and heart warming. Annie thinks she's walking to a traditional Christmas Tree lighting, her response when folks start singing happy birthday to her is "Priceless." Keep in mind, the day before this party Annie received a very special gift too. She was told she was in an improbable remission, after 6 cycles of chemo, 21 days on and seven days off. She had a very aggressive cancer, and when diagnosed was given 3 or 4 weeks to live. So for this moment in time she was all smiles.
ADDED: 6 May 2013: Titled~"The Circle of Life." When I started writing this memorial on forevermissed, I had many reasons for writing, but the true significance only came to me tonight. Today is our daughter Melissa's 40th Birthday. Bitter sweet day, but nothing compared to the event taking place on June 13, 2013. On that day she is going to be induced in labor, and give birth to a healthy baby boy. This child is being gifted to this family through Melissa and her husband Van as a true sign that there is life after death. He will be the first "Post Annie Era Grandchild." All the rest got to meet and be loved by her. He won't have that privilege, but through Annie's memorial he will come to know and love her through my writing, stories and many pictures. He will know things that would not or could not have been possible without her legacy. With this new child, the "Circle of Life" will be complete. We lost someone that we all loved dearly, and this child will help this whole family heal in a way I would never have thought possible until tonight. I'm now going to start expanding the memorial to include the family, as we're all connected in the circle. Annie will be the missing link, but he will see her and know where it all started. I posted a picture of Melissa on here tonight in the gallery or under stories. From my heart, I know this is going to be so important for the child. Life can be a real mystery, but given time things come into focus. You just have to find the direction, and I unknowingly found it here. I've been struggling lately, wondering when this would all end. Now I know, it's just the beginning of something very special, and I have a new sense of direction. June 2nd, 2013: First picture of Baby Beaux, is now posted under galery/photos this site. he's a cutie! Born 3 weeks premature!
ADDED: 4 Jan 2013: For those of you that are hurting, or want to share in a loss you can email me via this site. We all need to talk, and share, at some point in our grief. It's taken me two years to come out of the darkness into the light, but I've made it, and everything is going to be okay for me, and in time for you too.
When I look around at other memorial sites, I can't help but wonder how so many beautiful people passed. Annie was unfortunate; all blood cancers are rare, but many can be successfully treated. Myltiple myeloma is in the family of blood cancers, but is not considered survivable beyond 2 to 5 years, with the rare exception. It is listed as one of the 4 nasty cancers. When diagnosed, Annie's prognosis was maybe 3 weeks, followed by "why is she still alive." Annie's journey lasted thirty months. Her oncoligist, Dr. Moore Sr., had been an oncologist for 39 years. He said Annie was probably the worst case he'd ever seen. She was a tennacious fighter with a strong will to live. As you look through this memorial at her pictures, you'll notice that there is a story under each one. Pictures do tell stories. My intention was, and will always be; helping others through her story..
When Annie passed the world lost one of it's little known, great humanitarians. Not only to me, and my family, but to the unsuspecting stranger that needed some help, or just needed a compassionate ear, listening to and understanding their distress. She seemed to always have an answer, or knew where to find it. She especially loved the children of the world. If she could have, I am sure she would have bundled them up and brought them home with her, with a big smile on her face, all the love in her heart, and say to me, "look what we got." She would have rescued them all. Annie was a great loss to society, but where there is one there is more. I have to believe that!
Annie was a uniquely different person! She made it clear to me what her wishes were. She didn't want a funeral. She wanted to be cremated as quickly as possible, as she didn't want to be in the morgue too long. She wanted to be flown home to her motherland England and have her ashes sprinkled near her mother and two sisters. She was cremated 22 hours after she passed, and at the 36th hour, she was back in our home. A week later her ashes were flown to England and sprinkled in the beautiful "rose garden," at Chelmsford Crematorium where her mother and two sisters are resting, as she wished. Love her! xoxo
I've been on forever missed since Sept 4th, 2011! I found it by accident. This has been one of the greatest finds of my life. When she passed on Nov 2, 2010, I was hurt, lost and in desperate need of guidance. Then, one day I was searching the web for someplace I could write about Annie. I stumbled onto forevermissed.com which changed my life; as I set up her memorial that day, I knew I would have a safe place to go and visit her as often as I liked. Today is the 25th of May 2012. I still miss her terribly, but having access to her on a daily basis helps with the grief. I know that now, because when I look at her I don't get that overwhelming feeling of sadness and tears. I can now think of the happier times. We were married 39 1/2 years. Annie was special, as all loved ones are.
Sept 4th, 2012: Today was ANNIE'S ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY on forevermissed memorial web-site. What a wonderful place to store memories to last a lifetime, and into the future for generations to come. I want to express my sincere thanks to the staff at forevermissed memorials for providing such a wonderful site.
On May 15, 2012 I started building a facebook cancer page, dedicated to my wife Annie. If you would like to view it, just click on this link. www.facebook.com/BloodCancerAnnie it will take you to her page. Please click on the "Like" icon if you like the page.
Feb 22nd 2013: Coming out of grief In mid December 2012; I was fixing my breakfast and found myself singing and dancing around the kitchen. When I realized what I was doing I felt a rush of panic come over me, so I took a seat in one of our dining room chairs. I needed to sit down and digest this strange new feeling in my head. Apparently my emotional connectors were pulling me out of grief in a way I never expected. For a few minutes as I sat and thought about what had just happened I started getting sad, as I wanted to go back to the darkness where I felt I belonged and was my comfort zone. It didn't matter, my emotions were starting to drag me out of grief, and left me little choice but to move forward. In other words I couldn't go back even if I wanted to. After 25 months of relatively heavy grief I was getting well. I think my body's self defense mechanism was kicking in and telling me enough is enough. Two months later I feel reasonably well, and instead of grieving Annie, I find I'm celebrating her life. Grief is very selfish, unpredictable, and deceiving. It can keep one locked up forever, if the body doesn't take over and regulate ones emotions. I know I will always grieve Annie, but it is different now. The overwhelming sense of loss is no longer there. I'm now of the understanding, if I had it to do over again, I would have fought more to celebrate her life, then to grieve her loss. Annie would not have wanted me to suffer the way I did. I know that now. We somehow have to learn to control our grief and not let it control us. I failed miserably at that, but there were no instructions on grieving. I now have instructions. My hope is that if you get caught in the nightmare called grief, you'll try to prove my theory. Try to celebrate the life of your lost loved one, and stay out of that black hole as much as possible. I know it won't be easy, but possible. This is just a theory, but I don't ever want to go back to the darkness again.
"I was just looking at this website and came across your memorial . This is so beautiful ! She would be so proud of you! Once again, glad I happened along and saw and read this love story.Beautiful!"
"Hi Sweetie; Shared thanksgiving with Melissa, Van, and the four grand kids. Van fixed a superb dinner, and we had a few laughs. We Loved you in memory. This was my 4th Thanksgiving without you, and if anything it gets a bit more difficult. It's been tough without you, and even tougher during the holidays. I have no idea what Thanksgiving must be like in heaven, or if there is even such a thing. Heaven would be full of different nationalities, some of which don't celebrate that holiday. I suppose it could get quite confusing for some. So in my imagination I believe heaven only celebrates Christmas, the birth of "Baby Jesus." If that is correct, send me a feather floating gently in the air. I'll be watching for you. I love you sweetie, xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, won't be long now. I'll be sharing you with many more people. Your inspirational story of "Because of Annie" will be published late December or Early January. Haven't got an exact date yet. I received a draft of the cover the other day and it is absolutely beautiful. I posted it on facebook, and the private messages started rolling in. I posted an excerpt from your book on my Fb wall, just over a short paragraph long, and I received this post from a gentleman in California on my wall: "Bobby, I'm a sobbing idiot right now." Annie, you're inspiring people with just one paragraph. Imagine the impact your gonna make when they read "Because of Annie." For many it has the potential of changing their lives. I wish/I hope in someway you can see it. I love you Annie, and I'll keep you posted as things move forward. xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, Another year has come and gone, the autumn leaves are falling and our yard looks beautiful. Andre has been here for a week now, and we've had a real good laugh. We talked about you and his mum, your sister Wendy who also passed from cancer. It's very comforting having someone here that was so close to us and whom we both love. We shared good memories. Luv U,sweet dreams. XO"
"A beautiful English lady lost her fight for life three year ago..I know her husband Bobby,And her family miss her all so so so much...Let the memories of her keep you all going..Annie your husband has a heart of gold..And you are a amazing woman..you held on to life has long has you could..A pleasure to met you and your loving family xxxxxxxxxxxx"
"Hi Sweetie, Three years ago today, my world changed forever, and this day will forever be known as the day Annie received her Angel wings. Annie, I love you as much now as I did then. Grief has been hell, and I'm beginning to think I understand what it's really about. It's about love Annie.I believe the more you love, the deeper you'll grieve. We don't see tomorrow, we only see today.LUV-U"
"Hey Annie, i already know you are an amazing woman. Having a book coming out and all. I cant wait to get my autographed copy by your super amazing husband. I also have a super amazing husband up there with you. Tell Jack hello for me. So now i know 2 really super people in heaven. Thinking of you and your beloved Bob on year 3. hugs to you Annie."
"Hi Sweetie, it's that time of the year again; it will soon be your 3rd Anniversary of "Life After Death." I just can't accept that when we pass on, there is nothing left waiting for us but a hole in the earth. I know, to many that is not the case; but I believe it is, and to me that's what makes life worth living. Looking to the heavens, there has to be more; so complex. I Love You xoxox"
"Annie, two days ago Hannah, Andrew and I went to the Annual Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's Light the Night Walk, which is their biggest fund raiser of the year. It once again brought back beautiful memories of our first walk with you when you were wheelchair bound back in 2008. Except then we had a whole group of people with a big banner that said, "Annie's Angels." What a night. LUV U"
"Hi Sweetie, we're now approaching the third anniversary of your passing. It seems like it was only a short while ago. I never thought I'd ever make it this far. But I did, and still sharing your story. You're touching so many people. Cancer seems to be everywhere these days; I wish instead of having to find a cure, they'd just get rid of the things that cause it. I love you Baby.XO"
"Hi Sweetie, The past two months I've had the pleasure of taking care of an Autistic child every Thursday and Friday afternoon. His name is John. He's fourteen years old and is non verbal. Him and I have a blast together. He's so funny at times, and carries an innocence that you would truly love. He's the second Autistic child I've cared for; nobody seems to want them. I do! Love you"
"Hi Sweetie, spoke to my editor Friday, and was told I'd possibly get the edited copy of "Because of Annie," back this weekend. As soon as I get it, I have to give it a quick look over, then it goes to the publishing company for what they are saying will be a Christmas release. So many more people are going to be touched by your story. Your character during cancer was amazing. I love you X"
"Hi Baby, Spent the day with our daughter Melissa, little Baby Beaux and Gracie. We had a good day, talked a lot about you, and wishing you could be here to see this little baby smile. You would have adored him. He's big, 3 1/2 months old and 19 pounds. Annie, I think of you every day, and am always left feeling the same way; I wish I could see you, hold you, and touch you. I love you Bobby"
"Hi Sweetie, I'm really missing you tonight. When I write about you to others on various sites, telling them your story of so much love and hope, while on your journey through cancer, it really makes me sad. Guess that's the price I pay for sharing you with the world. Annie people are visiting you from all over the world. Your star shines bright. I love you, and always will. Sweet Dreams"
"Annie, It is bitter sweet knowing that God loved you so much that he used cancer to get your attention. He wanted you to know Him and love Him so that you could spend eternity with Him. You lost the battle with cancer but you won eternal life with your heavenly Father. I am certain that many lives were changed for the better as they watched how courageously you fought the fight. Love you"
"Hi Sweetie, "Because of Annie." That's you kiddo. When you were diagnosed with multiple myeloma, you agreed to let the scientists follow your case. At that time there was no hope for survival of this cancer. 2 years later things have changed dramatically. Over half the newly diagnosed patients will now live 5 + years LUV U Thanks"
"(Cont from Previous Tribute) these kind of miracles before, but in all his years as a cardiologist had never seen one. His heart is that of a 27 year old, with absolutely no damage from the heart attack, no blockages, no stints, no heart disease and had shrunk in size. His only explanation was "God." Amazing! Love you xoxo
"Hi Sweetie, Van went in on Monday and had his heart checked, the ultrasound showed his heart was still enlarged by 20%, as diagnosed 5 years ago when he had 3 stents put in. Guess what, Dr. Fahart who saw his enlarged heart 5 hours earlier, when he did the catather it was of normal size and the stents were gone. Melissa asked him how that could happen, and he said he'd heard of (cont)"
"Hi Sweetie, Last Saturday Melissa's husband Van had a heart attack. He surivived, and a few hours later with no sign of heart damage, left the hospital. He refused to stay. He's been on Nitro spray all week, and going in at 8 AM this morning for some tests, which I'm sure will lead to more stents. He's already had three. I write about you every day, I'm really missing you. I LUV U XO"
"You are the stars to me, you are the light I follow.
I will see you again,this is not where it ends.
I will carry you with me, till I see you again.
Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking, but I stay strong and I hold on, because I know. I will see you again.
I love you Nanny."
"Hi Sweetie, had a little miracle happen today. The video we took of your surprise birthday party back in Dec 2008, after searching for several months I received a copy of it in the mail today from Marcy. It's got 220 pictures, and 4 priceless videos. I've looked at it over and over. Hearing your voice, seeing you smile as it happens is humbling and a true blessing. I love you darliing XO"
"Hi Sweetie, your spirit has been very active lately. In the early morning hours of my sleep I awoke to your beautiful smile. In my dream you were lying on the hospital bed at the opposite end of the bed. You had a most beautiful smile on your face. As I smiled back I think I got so excited I woke thinking you came back. Come back and visit anytime Annie, I'll always be waiting. I Luv U"
"IHi Anne ,I went to a boot sale on Sunday and as I walked round ,you came into my mind .I remember how excited we would get when we wereon our way ,you told me you loved going with me because i would always get the price down .I miss those days so much sister of mine and the poain of losing you wendy and tracey is still stronge .I look foreward to the day I see you alll again .lots of love"
"Hi Sweetie. Been a very busy two weeks. It seems like I haven't spent much time with you, but the truth, as you know, I've been spending 3 to 5 hours a day working on your story. So your always on my mnid and in my heart. It's not easy reliving all the trauma, but there is a trade off, I'm reliving all the wonderfully good times too. We did have a laugh Annie. I love and miss you xox"
"Hi sweetie, I now know that xanax is nothing but a mask. Throughout the time I was taking it for my grief, I thought it was helping me. I guess it was just a disguise. Now that I've been off the xanax for 8 days I can feel the difference. The old sadness and dreaded memories are once again in the forefront. Not as strong, but there to relive. It's tough Annie~I love you, Bobby xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, After you passed, I went into heavy grief. Everyday was a struggle. I was put on xanax to cut the edge off my anxiety. They say one can't cry when on xanax. I cried a million tears. Now 32 months later, the xanax was stopped at my request. It's been 4 days, and the old menories and emotions are coming back. I loved you in a way I dont quite understand. And I still love you. x"
"Hi Annie; It's now been just over 32 months since you passed. I was in my weekly visit with Dr. Bryant today, and although I'm doing much better, when we discuss your tenacious battle with blood cancer, it still makes me cry. Your battle was epic, and of biblical proportions. In about 3 or 4 months your story, "Because of Annie" will be out for all to see. It's very inspirational. LUV U"
"Hi Sweetie, Little Baby Beaux is now 15 days old, and cute as a button. He is still a bit premi, but starting to gain some weight. I've already spotted one of your habits in him. When he's sleeping he holds one of his arms straight up in the air, and keeps it there until it suddenly drops, But unlike you he's not mastered scratching it with his other hand, yet. He surely will. I Luv U xo"
"Some days go by and I am fine with enjoying life with knowing you are .o longer here, but watching over me...and then there are days like today when the pain of missing you is unbearable and I can not help but cry in pain.
I wish I had a little more time to let you know how much I loved you."
"Congratulations,wow Bobby he adorable,You must be all very proud.Well done Melissa.Bobby your Annie has already met little Jase before any of your family,She too must be looking down very very proud.Its all part of the master plan,I know its very hard,But you all got a gift from god has you already know,send me some more pictures of baby Jase,I so happy for all of you WELL DONE MELISSA xx"
"Hi Sweetie, Congratulations, you're now the proud "Nanny" to a wonderful little boy~Beaux Jase McMullen, 6 pounds, 6 ounces. He's a cutie. I'm happy, but sad too. He'll never get to feel your loving arms around him, smell your sweet scent, or feel the baby kisses that only you can give. I know, there's life and death. Over the last 31 months I've seen both. Doesn't make it easier. LUV U XO"
"My darling Sis Anne ,Well your 8th grandchild has been born ,I know you already know and I am sure you kissed him gently .I can just see you now up in haven mum wendy you and tracey all looking down at him .So happy for you Anneis adorable isnt he .Miss you lots so lost with out my best sisters xxxx"
"Hi Sweetie, Melissa had a false alarm about 12 hours ago. She started having contractions, five minutes apart. It went on for about an hour. She talked with her doctor, and as she is a high risk pregnancy, they had her go to the birthing center for a check-up. She had an ultra-sound, the baby boy has jet black hair, and is very healthy. She has started dilating. Won't be long. Luv U XO"
"Hi Swetie, I just spent my third Memorial Day without you, and things just aren't the same anymore. We spent every holiday together for 39 years, so I guess I still have a ways to go. I find it strange how holidays always seem to twig a certain memory that always makes the day more lonely and difficult. As you celebrated your day with the vets in heaven, we honored our losses. LUV U~Bobby"
"Hi Sweetie, Melissa had her baby shower on Saturday, 18th May, 2013. It was a wonderful event, and we were able to celebrate the upcoming birth of our new grandchild. It was very bitter/sweet, but I know you were there in spirit. I guess what bothers me the most is that he'll never get to feel your loving hugs, and be smothered with your "Baby Kisses." I'll make sure he knows you. xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, "Happy Mothers Day" I wish you were here. You were the center of this family's wheel. Been a rocky ride without you. Putting on a moms apron on special occasions like this and being a dad is not all that easy. I've had to learn to think like you at times. You know that is complicated. lol I think I am making you proud, I've learned it's the little thing that mean the most. XO"
"Hi Sweetie, we're now into the first hour of our beautiful daughter Melissa's birthday. She's 40 years old. It's really a bitter sweet moment. She has really turned out to be special. But, you knew that. Her humanity is amazing; she got that from you. When you passed, you left me behind, remember the discussions, we both wanted to die first. Here I am, with the kids. lol Its ok, LUV U"
"Hi Sweetie, Saturday evening 27th of Apr, 2013, I volunteered to work for the leukemia and lymphoma society at the man and woman of the year event. We as a group raised over 150,000 dollars. 75 percent of that money will go to patient care and research and development of new drugs. I volunteer to work for them often, and it's all because of you Annie. Thank you for opening my eyes.LUV U"
"Hi Sweetie, For the past three days I've been experiencing flu like symptoms. I don't think I have a bone, that don't hurt. It's been years since I've felt unwell. I'm sleeping alot. Your spine collapsed from cancer, you broke 4 ribs, two femurs and a hip. Yet you were always smiling and never really complained. I can't even imagine your pain. Missing you babe, I love you, Bobby xoxoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, Been a busy week. Our grandson London, is having a sparkling baseball season. On shortstop he's like a vacium cleaner. Gets the all, some in spectular fashion. I wish we could sit as we used to and watch the games together. And maybe we are. I feel your presence everywhere, at times. You were a powerful force in my life, thanks for sharing your life with me. I love you xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, The song I'm playing on your memorial, Three Times A Lady, is such a fitting tribute to you. I remember when we used to dance to this. It's such a beautiful love song, and has so much meaning from the heart. I would love that "one more dance with you" even if it meant going through the grief process again. Annie, I adored you, and always will. Your in my heart Annie, LUV U XO"
"I dreamed of you last night. I'm never going to understand why God would find taking you as something necessary to do, knowing how much I needed you. It sounds selfish, but what I wouldn't do to just have one more night to be able to be held in your arms again. Regrets consume me sometimes, knowing that I didn't take every minute to let you know how much you meant to me. Love, Britt."
"Hi Sweety, missing you tonight. It seems I can run, but can not hide from my emothins. The slightest little things just make me miss you, and want you back. I'm surviving, and I guess doing okay~but the hole in my heart can never be filled by another. So I don't look for a substitute, I just get on with each day waiting for the day when we meet again. I love you, wish you were here. XO"
"Hi Sweetie, Been working on my blog. It's time consuming and a bit confusing, but necessary. By the end of this week, I will start building my website, and hopefully that will be easier. My goal is, and will always be, introducing you to the world. Everything I do, everything I write, is always linked right back here to you. You've touched so many people Annie, Love and miss you xoxo"
"my god momma...i miss you so terribly much :("
"Hi Sweetie; I felt the love today. I received over 90 facebook birthday wishes on my birthday yesterday and there still coming in. Everybody needs to feel loved once in awhile. I guess it was my turn. In all honesty, the love you gave me was enough to sustain me for the rest of my life, but I can use the facebook love as my reserves if ever I have a bad day. Never too much love. LUV U"
"Hi Sweetie, today was my birthday. Melissa and the grandkids were here for awhile. Also I had a call from my brother Tim, your angel Beverly, and my friend Karen. As I speak to you, I've had over 80 people on facebook wish me a happy birthday. But most of the day I spent loving you. I let my birthday baloon float up to the sky until it disappeared. Anything is possible~I love and miss you"
"Hi Sweetie, I got a private message on your Fb cancer page from a lady that lost her husband two months ago. How sad! Her words were of a heartbroken lady, totally consumed in grief. Annie, because of you, I can respond to the lady in a meaningful way. I get it, and although my grief over losing you was very tough, it taught me so much. I now have your humanity; I love and miss you xoxoxo"
"Cont From Previous Post) After being gone for 37 days it was really nice getting a wonderful greeting from the grand kids at the airport. Thay have so much unconditional love. After visiting with them for awhile I drove down and had a look at Melissa's new house they just moved into. It's really nice, you would be pleased for her. In 3 months or so we'll have a new grandson.YES Lov U xo"
"Hi Sweety, made it home safe and sound. The flights were great. When I walked into the house tonight, for a fleeting moment I found myself looking for you. I'm missing you Annie. I know that's part of the ongoing process of letting go, but that's okay. It's something I will overcome with time. And if I don't, then I guess I'll just hang out with my memories of our love. (cont next Post)"
"Hi Sweetie, I'll be starting my long journey home in two days. I will have been in California for 37 days. I've had a great time, made some new and rebonded with some old friends. First time I've visited my family since you passed, that I've not been in heavy grief. Today I recorded a 40 minute keepsake video of my 85 year old dad. It was a lot of fun, and he made me laugh. Love you xoxox"
"Hi Sweetie, I went to Teddi's funeral yesterday, it was very sad for me. She was such an inspirational person in my life after you passed. She was the one that was always pushing and encouraging me to write. In a sense she helped me keep my head above water. Her family were very nice and had a lot of kind words for me. They even let me speak about their lost loved one. Sad! Love you xox"
"Hi Sweetie, I received some sad news Saturday night. After you passed and I started posting on Facebook, this lady named Teddi, started contacting me and encouraging me to write. She had a Masters degree in psychology, and worked with the terminally ill and their families. She loved my real life posts. We became good friends. She had just passed away at age 55. .I love you Annie xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, In a few days it would have been our 41st wedding anniversary. This time last year I was very anxious and unsettled. I'm taking a different approach this year. I shall celebrate our anniversary and not make it another grief event. I'm going to have a drink in your honor, and thank you for being my wife. I shall focus on the good times, not the bad. I love you more Annie XO"
"cont from prev tribute: some of the wonderful things that have happened to me since I started my journey of getting your story out. In a sense it will be the final chapter of our journey through cancer and my journey through grief and beyond. I'll never forget you, and will always look to your memorial for peace in my heart. Your legacy will be intact, and you tucked away in my heart XOX"
"Hi Sweetie, I secured the domain name today; "BecauseofAnnie.com" This week and next, I will be working on my website and blog so I can link your memorial and my facebook cancer page together with the website and blog. I'm starting to get excited, as I know in a couple of months I'll be looking for publishers and have enough of a platform to get one. I'll be able to include (cont)"
"Hi Sweetie, yesterday was a very chaotic day. Our little grandson got hit in the face while playing winter baseball. He has a fractured cheekbone, pooling of blood behind his eye and a concussion. But only needs bed rest for a few days. Thank God.Johnny, my brother-in-law and someone you loved had a major heart attack and going in for bypass surgery tomorrow. It's bad! Keep you posted XO"
"My Sweet Lovely Sister, Hi Annie just called in, to say I love you, and miss you so very much. I Bet you mum wendy and tracey are having a ball tonight, as its our mum's 90th Birthday today. Wish her Happy Birthday for me hon. So love and miss each of you. I always remember the happy times we all shared as a family, never be the same any more with out you all. Love you all forever. xxxx"
"Hi Sweetie, "A True Love Story Never Ends." I spent some quality time with you tonight, via your memorial. Years ago when you were gifted to me as my wife, I felt like the luckiest guy on the planet. Little did I know when you passed you would be a gift that just keeps on giving. I find sanity in this chaotic world through my visits with you. I got your back Annie!! I love you kiddo xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, Tim and I had a really fun day with dad. We picked him up at noon, reminded me of all the times I had to walk beside you to catch you if you fell. He's so frail, but hanging in there. We took him to Tim's to watch a Western Movie; Cowboys and Aliens. He said he loved it, but I think he found it a bit confusing or different. He did love being with his two sons. LUV U More xo"
"Hi Sweetie, had a good day today, did some fishing with two of my classmates from high school. Spent time with dad tonight, made him some dinner, that was fun too. Tim and I are bringing him to Tim's tomorrow afternoon, to let him watch some Western Movies. He loves them. Gonna bring in some good snacks, and make a fuss of him. I'm going to show him your memorial too. I love you xoxoxo"
"Continuation form Previous Tribute: lifestyle we lived kept us away. But I told him how much you loved him and passed on the compliment you always gave him each time you fixed fried chicken using his secret recipe. That's obviously my job now. If one of these days he shows up knocking on heavens door, let him in and throw a big party for him and mom. I love you Annie xoxox"
"Hi Sweetie, I was talking with my dad yesterday and he gave me a bit of a shock. He just had his 85th Birthday, and he said he woke up thinking about mom and missing her. He went on to say he thinks he's had enough of this old life, and I could hear in his voice he getting ready to move on and join mom. He told me he wished he'd got to know you better. Unfortunately the military (cont)"
"Hi Sweetie, being away from our home the past several days has been really tough. I think that when I went into grief being in our home around your creation was necessary but very difficult. So many memories. As I'm finding, coming out of grief and being away from home, I now want to be around your creation. I miss the feeling of your presence in our home. I'm learning to adjust. LUV U"
"Hi Sweetie, I've spent a good part of the past five days with my dad, and it's been fun listening to all his old war stories from WW11. He was telling me today how he drove an ammunition truck to the front lines dropping off ammo to the troops. He said when his truck came under fire his instructions were to get out and crawl under the truck. Must have been frightening. I love you baby xo"
"Hi Sweetie, I made it out to California today. Getting away from our home is hard for me, as there seems to be a giant magnet pulling me back. I miss you. Just this one day here, has taught me many things. Most importantly, I'll not feel restless again. I saw my 85 year old dad today, we had a great visit. He was so excited to see me. I'm going to take him out a few times. Fun! I Love you"
"hi momma...just wanted to stop on and let you know i am thinking of you today! i do everyday! today i went to the funeral of a beautiful 14 year old boy killed in a car accident here in derby. I was reminded there in very certain terms to remember the good times. celebrate life not loss. From this day forward i will try with all my heart to learn to celebrate you! i love and miss you! xoxo"
"Hello My Sweetpea, This is Our Lovely Sister Tracey Mor-day 11 years ago today. I hope your all having a lovely time there in that wonderful place together, I miss you all so much.I love you all so much. god bless xxx"
"Hi Sweetie, I decided to add your porcelain plaques I talked about in the tribute before this one, to your pictures. I am so proud of you. Now, I can send memory cards to your family member, and they can scan the card with their smart phone from anywhere, and spend some time with you on your memorial if they like. It's a very innovative idea that's sure to catch on in the digital age XO"
"Hi Sweetie, A few days ago I received a gift from a company called SmartMemorials.com. They had been searching for several months, looking at individual memorials from all over the country. They decided that your forevermiised memorial was so full of love, dedication and viability, it defined the meaning of online memorials. They sent me a gift, two porcelain plaques of you. Beautiful XO"
"Hi Sweetie, you must be an "Angel" with super powers. I was looking at our music, our life and found this song; Remember when I left for work in the mornings, you'd walk me to the door, and as you waved goodby, I'd turn up the volume on the old cassette player, and play "Once-Twice-Three Times A Lady," you always gave me a beautiful smile. Precious memories I won't forget. I love you"
"Hi Sweetie, It's amazing when I look over this page, how it was founded through your loss, with so much love, honor and pride. The pain, the suffering & torment were great. Because of you Annie, leading me to this page, I'm now a survivor, and I shall live on and tell your story, one of love, caring, & family. I promise you, I will continue to help others, in your honor. Night My LUV XO"
"Hi Sweetie, I had a good laugh tonight. Our daughter Melissa called me and asked if she could spend some time with me tomorrow. I thought, how nice, until she asked me if I had any leftovers from the roast dinner I cooked the grand kids tonight. Hey, whatever it takes right. We had a discussion, remember, I wanted to die first. Oh well, the kids keep me on my toes, it's all good Annie xo"
"Hi Sweetie, I'll be leaving soon to go spend some quality time with my Dad. He's 85 now. I'm going to get a chance to tell him all the things I've wanted to say over the years; words that were never spoken. As you'd say, I'm going to make a "Fuss" of him. Make him feel special. As for you, where I go you go, I know you're always beside me. This "KISS" is for you, "My Love." LUV U "Until""
"Hi Sweetie, There's been a couple of people watching your memorial for awhile now, and I didn't know that. I received an email the other day from a gentleman that told me my memorial to you is extremely moving, and that he feels as if he knows you. It humbles me and makes me smile. I said in your first tribute, I wanted the whole world to know you.Getting there, one person at a time.XOXO"
"Hi Sweetie, the last few days have really been hectic. Hannah is slowly recovering from the flu. Spends most of the day in bed, but I make her get up and move around so pneumonia doesn't set in. Hannah is a lovely girl. Mel is still excited with this new boy child in her. Her husband Van, is still up there on cloud nine somewhere. I'm sure he has the cigars by now, it's a boy! Love you"
"Hi Sweetie, Melissa just called a few minutes ago. "IT'S A BOY" we're going to be grandparents again. It won't be a little Annie as we hoped, but we are still very excited. I will make sure he knows everything he needs to know about you, and one day show him this memorial. After all, that's what this memorial is about, loving you and leaving your legacy for future generations. Love You"
"cont from previous tribute: Hannah first, then sat her in a chair. Jesus said you can stay if you want to, or you can go back to your family. It's not your time. He gently put his foot on the bar that holds the chair legs together and gently shoved her backwards. She woke up crying and worrying about the other girls, then realized they were staying in Heaven with Jesus! Thanx! Love you XO"
"Hi Sweetie, How beautiful, I asked you to send down an "Angel" for Hannah. I had no idea Jesus was coming too. She was unconscious for four hours, when she woke, she told the story of everything being white and blue, an "Angel" flying down. Jesus was in a wooden chair, she was beside Jesus with eighteen diseased girls, nestled around him. Jesus extended his arms and held"
"Hi Sweetie, If you have any pull up there in heaven, we need your help. Hannah, our 18 year old granddaughter has just been admitted to the hospital. Her condition is serious. It sounds like out of control influenza, possible Encephalitis, and most likely pneumonia as she's been spitting up blood. I love you and know how much you loved Hannah, send down an angel please. xoxoxoxoxox"
"Hi Sweetie, Our daughter Melissa is pregnant with you 8th grandchild. It makes me sad to know the child will be born, and never get to feel your loving touch. You'll be the Nanny in heaven. She or he may see you only in pictures, but will come to know overtime just how special you were. We'll know soon, if it's a boy or a girl. I'd like a "Little Annie," but would love a boy too LUV U XO"
"Hi Sweetie, Had a decent New Years Day, although I basically spent it alone. I made a roast dinner for the grand kids. I wasn't quite sure what I was doing as I was working off memories of me standing in the kitchen watching you prepare and cook food. It turned out well, and as usual the grand kids came home, ate and took off out. But I get satisfaction, seeing them eat. Love you XO"
"Happy new year Annie,Has you know the English love to party on new year 2013 Where does time go,The years go so fast.We was talking About you,How you like a bargain,And You love shopping,So you never lost your English ways Annie lol,I hope you had your own party with your sisters,And other love ones.Save some Bargains for me Annie when its my time Has you know I love shopping xxxxxxxxxxxx"
"Hi Sweetie, Happy New Year, 2013!! I wish you were here, not only to bring in the New Year, but to enjoy the year with your family that loved you so much. We all miss you terribly and as I'm learning, each event, each holiday, is not the same without you You were like the center of our wheel. The wheel is still turning, but like in life, it will never be the same, and no one can fix it XO"
"Hi Annie merry Christmas your lovely husband Has made my Christmas The best gift I had,He made my day,You pick a good one there Annie,I will have A drink for you today Annie Thankyou for sending your Bobby to me He's one of my best mates,I can tell him anything,Thats if he can read it lol,Thank you Annie you did a good job on earth,And now you are in heaven you are also doing a good job xx"
"Hi Sweetie, the clock just struck 12:00 AM. Merry Christmas babe, I wish you were here where I could hold and love you. I can still do that, but only in memory. No one ever said it would be easy, but I really had no idea just how tough and meaningless life would be without you. I know those are selfish thoughts, but when the sun doesn't shine as much, it's not easy. Rest well my Love"
"Grief: From the day I heard Annie's prognosis, I started grieving. Annie fought a gallant battle with cancer for 30 months. Folks said I was lucky, I had 30 months to grieve the nightmare that was surely coming. I'm living proof it doesn't work that way. 25 months later I'm coming to terms with my loss. Please don't put a time limit on grief. Let your feelings flow. It's your loss! Hold-on"
"It's been 25 months since I lost Annie. It's taken all this time to come to terms with her death. If your in pain, just remember, "Everybody Hurts" over a loss, and "you are not alone." Christmas time is the hardest for me. You will battle your emotions every day, and it's a battle that you must win. Hold on, it will get better. XX"
"Hi Sweetie, being as your up there with our "Creator," did you know the world is supposed to end today. Makes me smile, being secure in my faith. I guess I never did take those sort of predictions seriously, and I certainly don't now. The only prophesy I believe in is the book of Revelations, and it does not say when, just that life as we know it will end with 1,000 years of peace. XOXO"
"Hi Sweetie, I just want to talk to you tonight. There's not a day that goes by, that I don't spend time with you. It's been 2 years now and seems as if it were yesterday. Does it get easier, yes in many ways, and no, in others. You were everything to me, and made such a profound impact on my life, it's hard to recover. I will, but candidly I'm just waiting "til" we meet again. :) Luv U"
"Hi Sweetie, just stopped by to say hello, and that I love and miss you. I know your going to have a good Christmas, and I'm sure everything is bigger and better in "Heaven," especially on "Christ's" birthday. As for me, I'm going down to Melissa's and spend Christmas Day with her and our grand kids. Should be a good day. I wish you well Annie, and that you were here. I love you, xoxo"
"Merry Christmas Annie,I hope Everthing is well And you are Partying in Heaven Like us English girls Know How too, I Talk you your Bobby ,He miss you so Much,Its a bad time of year Christmas without Some of our love ones,I just wish I could Of know you and your loveing family before you got sick,You got a good Family there Annie.You did a good job with them,Have fun Annie.xxxxxxxxxxxx"
""Happy Birthday my sweet sister, I will forever love you.God bless. You are so much missed. Love Dor- Dor xxx"
"Happy Birthday my darling sister..Love you.xoxoxoxoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, today would have been your 63rd Birthday, and I wish you were here. I wish that heaven had a phone so I could call you and hear your voice just one more time. I'm doing okay, but life will never have the importance or be the same without you. I'll have a new blog coming out in Feb~2013, some U-Tube Stuff, followed by your new book.I can't wait for more folks to meet you. XOX ."
"Hi Sweetie, I decided it was time I started sending out Christmas cards, as you always did, but I haven't since you died. Your birthday and death are so close to Christmas, it's kind of sucked the life out of me. It was impossible trying to pretend to be happy. I can't say I'm happy, but I am grateful you blessed me with a good family to love and love me. I'll see you one day. I luv U XO"
"Hi Sweetie, Thanksgiving day went well. Had a good time with Melissa, her husband Van, and the grand kids. You were there too, if only in our hearts. But, Melissa and I believe you were there in spirit too. We just felt the warm coziness of your presence. I learned something from Thanksgiving. Stop dwelling on the sadness, and remember and pay homage to you. I did that, I love you xo"
"Happy Thanksgiving Sweetie, getting ready to go to our daughter Melissa's today, and spend some time with her family and our grand kids. We will all miss you but your love is tucked away in our hearts, and as always we will speak fondly of you and all the memories you helped us all create. I'm sure you don't celebrate in heaven, but everyday is a party, and surrounded by love. I love U"
"Hi Sweetie, tomorrow is Thanksgiving, it's difficult for me to find things to be thankful for, but I'm doing my best. It's times like these when I seem to miss you more. Your personal touch to all the things we did on our holidays, were always so caring and loving. When I look back on the past two years without you, life is just a fog. But it is getting better. I love & miss U. Bobby XO"
"Hi Sweetie, your Angel Beverly is having knee replacement surgery on Dec 12th, your birthday. She is 74 years old now. I told her my birthday gift to you this year will be to help Gene take care of her. I will be there during her surgery, and hang out with her during her physical therapy. Took Melissa to therapy with me today, she shed some tears, and got to talk about her momma! Luv U"
"Hi Sweetie, I just added a new song to play for you, and for me to listen to while I spend time with you each day, That's now three I've chosen, and their all favorites of mine and very appropriate for your memorial. Plus Eric Clapton was one of the musicians you grew up listening to in your motherland England. I think your visitors will like it too. I love you "Poppet" RIP Annie xoxo"
"Note from my little Granddaughter!!
I love you NANNY I am7 years old NOW LOVE GRACIE"
"Of my safety! I love you nanny, and I know that you have never left my side you are in my heart, my mind, and a part of my very being. I love you."
"I do not care to keep around, especially when I have soooo many good memories to think about. I was going through my old emails from when I was deployed to Iraq. I came across a message between papa and I in which I was upset that you were having tests for a bone cancer...and no one even wanted to tell me! It hurts my heart that you were going through that and didn't want to tell me be"
"Hey Nanny. I miss you, terribly. I wish I had more time to show you just how much you meant to me..I really find myself striving for success while thinking about how proud you would be..it is so hard not hearing your voice. I had not even remembered today was the day that you passed, not out of carelessness, but because the time you were ill, and the day of your passing are memories that"
"my darling momma...i can't believe it has been two years! i miss you today more than i ever have. the pain is so great...so strong. i find myself living just to see you again. i know you wouldn't want that i just don't know how to fix it. you were not just my mum and my best friend you had turned into my child. i'm lost without you! love from your poppet xoxox"
"Two years, missing and loving you as much as ever. Love you miss sunshine. xoxoxoxoxoxo"
"Hi my darling Sister I miss you so much ,just looking at your face on my fridge door ,Still smiling with all you went through ,on your toy bike .I love you my darling sister.We shared so many wonderful times in our family before you had your own family,and after ,I miss the times we spent together .Two years today and i miss you even more now .laugh lots in haven see you soon xxxxxx"
"Hi Annie its been two years since you left your Loveing family,which there all love and miss you so much.I know what today will mean to your family So hard to get your head around why you are not here with your family,Have fun Annie with the Angels up in Heaven where u always be"
"Hi Sweetie, it's Nov 2nd 2012; two years to the day you passed. I'm loving and missing you today as much as ever. It's been 52 months since you got that dreadful cancer diagnosis, and it still seems like last week. I wish I could have a do over. I wouldn't need to change a thing, just spending more time with you would sustain me. Until we meet again my darling, RIP, I love you kiddo"
"Hi Sweetie, it was Halloween today. Went out and bought 4 bags of candy, but it was very quiet tonight. Guess I have lots of chocolate to eat. I forgot to tell you that Hannah and Andrew are living with me now. Hannah because it brings her closer to her college, and Andrew because he likes being near his sister. He did get the job at the Bank of America, and there both happy kids.LUV U"
"Hi Annie,I been talking to your Bobby tonight he loves and miss you so much,I try to keep him on his toes with my English spelling,I think it works well I hope it does,Annie I never even met you or your bobby but he knows me so well,your English has pay of on him,I wish i could of know you and your Family before things went so wrong look after him x"
"Hi Sweetie, The "Light the Night Walk" was very special. There was around 1,000 folks there, the night was glowing up with Red, White, and Gold balloons. They all had a little light in them. There was so much love and compassion there. As well as a lot of sorrow, sadness, and grief at the remembrance ceremony. I will forever walk that 2.5 mile walk each year in your "Honor" I LUV U xo"
"Hi Sweetie, tomorrow night is "Light The Night Walk," sponsored by the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. The family will carry Gold balloons in your honor. This year your gonna have company, as we're going to honor another fallen Angel. His name is Alan and he too is from England. I met his lovely family thru your memorial. I will release a Gold balloon into the sky x's 2. I Love you xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, your spirit is strong tonight. I just noticed the number of visitors you've had matches our home's address, which is now your earthly address. "9464" I'd love to see you again. Sometimes I'll be driving home and don't really realize you're not there until I make the final approach and reality sits in. I still can't believe you're gone, missing you tonight~and forever. Luv U"
"Hi Sweetie, You got a message from a lady named Joyce Perry today. She wants you to say hi to her mom and tell her she loves and misses her. She said maybe you and her mom can hang out together. How sweet! That's what you were always about Annie, helping others. I think Joyce came to the right place. If anyone can deliver the message, it's certainly you. I love you "poppet." xoxo"
"rest in peace god bless, you and my mom can hang out togeather
tell my mom i love her and miss her ok?"
"Hi Sweetie, I've added Song Bird by Eva Cassidy as your new back ground music. I've had Lady in Red on your site for just over a year now, and needed a change. This is the song I played several times a day for months after you passed. At the time it was the #1 CD in your motherland England. It helped me with my grief. Love U xoxo"
"Hi Baby; Remember when we used to sit around and have that silly discussion about who was going to die first. I used to laugh and say you better not leave me with the kids. Well, the kids are fine, and doing well. Not so, for me. I never knew it was going to be like this. It's been twenty-three months and I still can't get believe your gone. It's a very lonely world Annie, I love U xo"
"Hi Sweetie, our grandson Andrew fancies being be a bank manager, so he says. He's passed his written test, made it through one telephone interview, and two sit down face to face interviews. He's reasonably confident he's going to get hired, but like he said, "with my exceedingly good looks and brains, who'd turn me down." He would have made you laugh. My~how you loved him! Luv U Baby xo"
"Hi Sweetie, my new book, Annie's Story~The Greatest Love Story Never Told~has to be at the publishers by the 27th of this month. I think it's going to be well received, and I know I did you proud. When people read the book, it's going to bring them right here to you. Their going to want to meet the leading character. It's been 22 months and I love you as much as ever. Amazing! I love U"
"Hi Sweetie, I gave my speech tonight for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. Last year my speech was about Cancer and your struggle, made many people cry. This year I got to tell them a couple sweet and fun stories about you, and how important they are in helping us raise money to help find a cure for these awful cancers. I did well, you would have been proud. Goodnight Sunshine Luv U xo"
"Hi Sweetie, about three weeks ago I was asked to be guest speaker at a Leukemia & Lymphoma Society fundraiser tonight. It'll be the third event I spoke at for them. People love hearing stories about your gallant battle with cancer. Sharing your stories is a real learning experience for others. You were a real teacher, so much love and grace. You're story is inspiring to others. Luv U xo"
"Hi my darling sis Ann, Had a dream about you last night ,I gess its cause I was reading all the cards you sent me before you left us .Telling me how you worry about my health,when you were the one so ill .I just thought I would look in and say I love you and miss you so much .Life can be so unfare ,all the things we said we would do when we were old ,you Wendy and my self ,.Tracey,and mum"
"Hello my darling Sunshine. I miss you very much. I finally had my surgery and all went well and i now feel great. Thank you for watching over me. Cause I truly believe you were. I have been looking at my photos on facebook of some of our adventures. Gosh did we have some fantastic times. Wish we could have more. Some times the memories are just not enough. I love you my darling sister."
"Nanny, I haven't visited for a while, but I think about you every day. Dealing with this never gets easier. I miss you soooo much. When I read what these people say that didn't even know you it makes me so happy. I wish they could've. I love you tons xoxoxo
"And Happy Anniversary Annie, 1 year Today since your Bobby Has set your lovely memorial for you A true English Lady,With a heart of Gold,Which I had the pleasure of Reading Her book,And The pleasure of meeting her Lovely husband,I hope you are Happy Annie,If you see My dad or Brother Tell them I love them,Take care Annie kiddo,Be Happy And party like us English girls do."
"Hi Annie,Been reading your Book,Who your lovely husband bobby Has sent me all the way to England,What a book,You was a very brave lady,So was your famlly,Melissa your daugther is a double of you Annie,So is your sister,I talk to your bobby on facebook ,Hes one a my good friends now,So I Hope that my dad who died of cancer looks after you,And my brother Dave who I know will look after you,x"
"Happy Anniversary Annie!! Today is Annie's one year Anniversary on forevermissed memorials. It still seems like yesterday I was struggling for a way to create her legacy. I found part of it here. I want to express my sincere thanks to the folks at this site for doing such a wonderful job in creating a place for us to visit with our loved ones. PRICELESS! Love to you all, you too Annie xo"
"Hi Baby, As I get closer to your one year anniversary on this site, I'm becoming more and more unsettled. I don't really understand why, but I know the feeling. I want the date to hurry up and get here. I want to post a special announcement of your accomplishment on facebook. My heart is full of pride when I think of your struggle with cancer and how you battled. Inspiration Annie Luv U"
"Hi Sweetie, I'm so proud of you. In Just over 11 months you've had over 8,000 visitors. Annie, that's a lot of people. Several have even taken the time to email me through your memorial. Some of your visitors are now my friends. Some of them just need someone to share their loss with, that will listen. I'm good at that. Their isn't a day that I don't miss you. Still a nightmare-I Luv U"
"Although i never knew Annie, my condolences to you and your family. I came across the page when i created my mothers memorial(Gloria Campbell) who also passed away from Multiple Myeloma in Feb 2012 after exactly 1 year of diagnosis. I purchased your book and already started reading! WE ARE TOO PRAYING FOR A CURE FOR THIS TERRIBLE BLOOD CANCER!!"
"Hi Sweetie, in just under a month you will have your one year anniversary on this memorial site. Hard to believe, even today, that your no longer with me. The ever present fog is still around me, not as thick as it was but still there. I know now that we were meant to be together, but we're not. I pray that question is answered one day. Until then I wait! I love you baby, BobbyXOXOXO"
"I never met Annie - but I just lost my mother that I took care of for 5 years. She had dementia. The brain cells were damaged - and I tried many things hoping the brain cells would rejuvenate. I believe when we go, it is the plan of God.
My condolences to the family of Annie"
"I didn't have the pleasure of knowing Annie but I came across her memorial website after my friend just passed away. She was so beautiful, and I can tell she lived her life in love. I can only hope I will be loved like she is. God bless."
"Hi Sweetie, I recently spoke to you about getting my high school class ring back that I lost in 1967. A news crew came over to our home yesterday and did a wonderful video on the story, of the lost ring. It was aired tonight as one of the lead stories on the KAKE news at 6PM. I spoke the way I feel; when the story ends, they zoom in on the blue stone to reveal your beautiful face. Luv U"
"Nanny, I miss you. Times go so fast these days, however when I think of the day I lost you it seems as though time has stood still, and I hurt so bad. There is so much I have learned, so much I have experienced, and so much I have overcome the past few years. There is so much I wish I could talk to you about, because you were the only one that I would feel would really hear me. Sometimes I feel li"
"Hi Sweetie, Saturday night and I'm missing you. It's been 21 months since you departed, and I still don't socialize well. I'm still frozen in time. It's as real today as it was yesterday and the day before. My grief is better, but life doesn't change. I so wish we had a do over, so I could love you and feel loved again. Sweetie, for a moment in time we had it all. I love you, Bobby XO"
"paakwesi you will be forever be remembered show the earthly people the the powers of God! your HEAVENLY powers are with us i miss you dearly"
"Hi Sweetie, about 2 months ago I reached out to a young lady form out of state, who has the same cancer you had. Like yours it's aggressive, and her prognosis is a couple of years if things go reasonably well. Annie she is only 28, and has a death sentence, with no hope of a cure. I promised to be her cancer buddy and be available for her calls. You know I will do all I can. I love you"
"Hi Sweetie, Guess what? As if you didn't already know. I received my 1966 class ring in the mail yesterday. It was dug up in 1998, by a gentleman that was digging down in the ground getting ready to put a cement walkway in. When I go back to Calif this fall, the gentleman is going to take me through the home to try to invoke a memory. 45 years later, just amazing. I love you, Bobby"
"Hi Annie and Bob,your bobby has be a angel for me and my famliy,I never met you both before,But is like I know you both all my life.Thankyou for the lovely words Bob just what I needed when I was feeling so so very sad and low.Thankyou annie and Bobby xx"
"Hi Sweetie, When I met you in 1971, I remember telling you about my high school class ring I lost in 1967. A construction worked dug it up 2 weeks ago in Northern California. It's been traced back to me here in Kansas. I got the call today. I have no doubt you had a hand in this, as the odds of getting it back 45 years later from a dig are just to great. That's how I see it, Thanx LUV U"
"Hi there,I was reading your beauiful story on your beauiful wife,I too Have lost my dad to this evil cancer in april this year.He is too on this website Alan lisle.I live in england ,The battle I went through with my dad Just the same has yours ,But how lucky you was too meet a lady like Annie,me too with my dad keep intouch bob,And good luck with her book you are a inspiration thankyou xx"
"Beautiful site. I am glad I found it!
Prayers to you!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Hi Sweetie, Over the past 20 months I shared many thoughts and several stories with others on your page. I've decided, as I know you would wish, to try to lighten up the memorial and tell folks about some of the strange, but in a way funny effects of cancer, and our experiences. It's hard to find positive emotions, but. it wasn't all bad, was it. I posted a new story tonight. I love you xo"
"Hi Sweetie, today you had your 7,060-th memorial visitor. Cancer may have taken your life, but you will live on in memory through forevermissed.com. In someway this will be a part of your legacy for others to see. Many folks have commented, written me letters, sent cards and emails expressing all the love they see on this page. This is how it was in life, so it shall be in death. LUV U"
"I think this is a fantastic memorial for your wife. May her soul rest in peace. Your wife reminds me of someone that's very close to me. I love the fact that even though she is gone she is not forgotten and you exhibit that each time by lighting a candle for her. Very touching."
"Hi Sweetie, Gosh I wish you would have had the opportunity to see how happy our daughter Melissa is. Her husband is a really good man. Taking great care of her. She's still suffering from grief though. When she comes over and looks at your memorial, she just sobs. I have my own issues living without you, but it is difficult watching her. She was your baby. I love you kiddo, always will"
"Hi Sweetie, the 4th of July came and went just as I anticipated. I didn't go out other than to get me a Subway sandwich for dinner. I could hear the fireworks everywhere, but without you in the front yard, our little safety warden, we haven't participated since you got ill 4 years ago. But I'm okay, I let my emotions drive what I do. At the moment I'd rather spend my day with you. LUV U"
"Hi Sweetie, it's now the 4th of July and I'm missing you. Holidays are always difficult The festivities are going on everywhere, but I just don't fit in. I'm not happy, I'm sad. It's been over 20 months and folks feel I need to get out and do more. I can't pretend to be what I'm not. There's no time limit on grief, I can only take one day at a time. I love you, wish you were hear.Bobby"
"Hello. My name is Julie, I live in Minnesota, in the United States. We don't "know" each other, but I feel a slight understanding of the devastation. My family lost a father just over a year ago. I survived cancer, lost a beloved pet two days ago. Anne was, I am sure, an amazing woman. She's watching over the family she loves so very much. God Bless and give you peace."
"continued previous tribute: it could have been the problem. You used it for 20 years. In the article I read, it said it can cause blood related problems, as over time the toxins enter the blood stream. You did have a blood cancer. I'll probably never know, but I will keep looking for the smoking gun. But you were exposed to the potential causes. I love and miss you as always. Bobby"
"Hi Sweetie, you know I've accepted the fact that your gone but I can't accept the fact that there is no clear answer as to why you got this cancer. I've now learned that pesticides are now on the list of potential causes. I wish we would have known that. I found out yesterday through research, that your Angel perfume is made with pesticides and chemicals. I guess in theory that (continue)"
"Hi Sweetie, been thinking about a you lot today. I still have those days where it's difficult being on my own. Tracey's little girl Sammy had her birthday today. I posted a picture of you, her mum Tracy, and of course sister Wendy on her facebook wall. Three beautiful sisters, caught up in the insane world of cancer. I guess that's a question with no answer. I love you Annie, God Bless"
"Hi Sweetie, on the 15th of May I started a cancer page on facebook for you. It has pictures, stories, and most importantly information on your deadly blood cancer. I thought it would be nice for others to see. All they have to do is go to their facebook page, address bar at the top and type in www.facebook.com/BloodCancerAnnie and if they like the page hit the like button. I love u xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, Four years ago today, I received that dreaded call from the cancer center, telling me my beautiful wife, and love of my life for 37 years, had maybe 4 weeks to live--followed by, we can't figure out why she's still alive. That was my 9/11. Still, I got to love you for 30 more months. I will cherish the memories we shared, until my mind fades. That's my promise to you, Love U"
"Wow Bobby I ran across this by accident. I am truly touched and couldnt quit reading as the music played I saw you both dancing into the forever land of love- She is one very blessed woman. I hope I didnt intrude, but I am looking forward to reading more about her.
"Hi sweetie, in 7 days it will be four years since we received your dreadful diagnosis/prognosis. I've taken down your fall autumn colors and lit the candles. It's not a special day, but the day our lives changed forever. I can't make it go away, I wish I could. You've been gone about 20 months now, and life is as difficult as ever. I miss you every day. Love you tons, Baby, Bobby xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, took our grandson to the game tonight. His good buddy DC, was the first batter. I was doing a video of him. The 4th pitch hit him in the face. Lot of blood, but he is okay. I can't handle trauma anymore. Watching you lose ground each day for 30 months, with all the traumatic events, has emotionally scarred me. I couldn't even go to him. Blood scares me. I love you Bobby"
"Hi Sweetie, since I started this memorial you've had over 6,000 visitors. Honey, that's pretty good and hopefully makes you proud. I know it does me. I want as many people as I can reach to know about your struggle with cancer and just how much courage and compassion for others you had during your 30 month battle. There is much to be learned from your battle. I love and miss you, xox"
"Hi Sweetie, Missing you tonight. My love for you is as strong as ever. I knew you for forty years Annie. I loved you from the day we met. Life can be so cruel at times. I thought I had life all figured out, then watched it fade into the darkness. I know you're okay, but life is not and will never be the same for me. My loss is overwhelming. Thank God, I can come here each day and visit."
"Hi Sweetie, Our beautiful daughter Melissa was married this evening. We would have given most anything for you to have been there. You would have been so proud. We missed you. I think she found her prince. His name is Van McCullen. He's got some Irish blood in him. Although, not sure he's ever been there. He's very protective of her, and the love is in his eyes. I love you Annie XO"
"Hi Sweetie, Got to go see our granddaughter Hannah run in the high school state championships at Wichita State Sat evening. Her 4x100 relay team finished third. The first three teams were separated by .6 tenths of a second. Photo finish! You would have been so proud of her. She ran the third leg. I wish you were here to see the kids and grand kids. They all miss you, as do I. Luv U"
"Love you Anne ,Miss you lots and all the crasy things we used to do when you came home ,went to see you wendy tracey and mum today had a chat so preetty just sittting there with you all.Ill never stop missing you alll love you xx"
"Hi Sweetie, another Saturday night, sitting at home doing what I do best. Thinking about you, still trying to come to terms with being on my own. I know, and have been told by many I need to start living my life, but I don't even know where to start. For the moment I'm comfortable just spending any time I can with you. I see your presence in our home, it's comforting. I love you, Bobby"
"Hi Sweetie, tough night. Your song, "Lady in Red" for whatever reason will not play. When I reset it, it just goes off, won't save. I know it sounds silly, but I don't want you to get lonely in here. It really does sound silly :). But, that's me. If I didn't have this site to visit with you each day, what would I do. It really helps me with my grief. Lady in Red was our song. I love U"
"Hi Annie, well, you went over 5500 visits yesterday. What an amazing number of visitors. You've only been on here just over 8 months. As I'm the administrator mine don't count. Baby I will hang in there with you until we meet again. I will always try to connect with you through others or anyway I can. I will never forget you, I promise. Ann, there is so much love in loving you. SWT DRMS"
"Hi Sweetie, I started building a facebook page on your cancer a few days ago. I thought as you get so many visitors, I would like to share your story with them. I've only loaded a few stories, but I have so many to tell, and so much to say about you and cancer. On their Fb address bar at the top of their page type in www.facebook.com/BloodCancerAnnie hope they press the like button. Luv U"
I MISS YOU. It has been almost two years, and time is not healing ANYTHING. I wish I could pick up the phone and call you, have a chat. It really is not fair that you are not here. There are so many other people that I could think of that I would have been fine with taking your place! ;) Love you soo much. -Britt"
"Hi Babe, I met this guy named Randy on facebook. He lives in Florida. I've known him a couple of months. He saw where I was retired USAF and contacted me. We were stationed with him at RAF Bentwaters in the 80's. He has just about finished reading your story. He said he would love to have known you, but maybe we'll all meet in the after life. Made me feel warm inside. Love you, Bobby"
"Hi Sweetie, Melissa got Engaged today. All prim and proper.I know that will make you happy. Hopefully, when my time comes I will be able to join you with peace in my heart.Got a favor to ask. Look for a 15 year old boy, his name is Blake. His mom is a friend, she's been missing him for ten years now. Still struggling. I believe we connected for a purpose, say hi to Blake for her. Love U"
"Hi Sweetie! Today was Melissa's birthday. I'd just like to tell you she is doing okay. She still misses you deeply, and has her sad moments. You were her precious momma. Remember, when she was a baby, she'd wrap her little legs around one of yours and sit on your foot while you moved around doing whatever. She wouldn't let go either. She loved her momma! Annie, we all love you XOX"
"Hi Sweetie, I had a note on here to you from a Les McKee wanting you to say hi to his/her mother at Gods table. It made me smile; you always said hi to everyone you came in contact with. But this is a request, so say hi from Les.. See how your touching people. For people of faith your messsage is so important. Lets keep sharing for the good of all people. I love and miss you-Bobby XOXO"
"Hi my darling sis Anne. Well we had another funeral on friday .our Brother in law John ,it was truely a lovely funeral Paulette had Bag piper playing all the way to to gave side.So Anne you have someone else to chat with now .Your sister Paulette is deverstated,finding it hard to cope with out her husband of 48 years .All we can do is be there for her and help her through .Miss and love"
"Hi Sweetie, In a few days I will be starting my 19th month without you. It's strange how I know that my visions of you seem to get a little farther away each day. I also know that as I age a few more years and my health starts to deterioriate, I'll start getting the visions back, and start looking forward to the day we meet again. Living without you is more difficult then imagined.xoxo"
"it is touching to read about your story and your wonderful love, your love is greater than any of departure and you are a fine example of life for me. god bless you"
"Death is nothing at all. It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened."
"Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, and you are you, and the old life
that we lived so fondly together is untouched,
"Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow."
"Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes
that we enjoyed together."
"Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort,
without the ghost of a shadow upon it."
"Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity."
"What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?"
"I am but waiting for you,
for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just round the corner.
All is well.
your smile is my happyness"
"Today was a good day Annie, We went to Hanna's signing. She's received a scholarship with Division 1, Wichita State, to run track. She is going to be an heptathlete. She will be competing in seven events. She's doing well. It was a big day for her, bless her. Wish you had been there you would have been so proud. That's been her dream since childhood, run track for WSU. I love and miss"
"Hi Annie, wow what a night we had on 14 April. We had a reported 90 tornadoes in Kansas that day. It was crazy! Then just after midnight a large one went through our neighborhood, it's a real mess here. We were blessed in that we only lost one large tree. It was uprooted and thrown over our new privacy fence. A portion of the fence is gone. I think God is protecting me for now Luv U"
"Hi Sweetie, more news from the home front. Had an email yesterday from the Christian Broadcasting Network, their the ones that hosts the 700 club. They want to read a copy of your book. I sent one out this morning. So once again we wait. Seems we're always waiting. Annie, you know I'm doing everything possible to get your story out. I want to share our love with others. I love you xox"
"Hi Annie, I don't know what's going on, but I'm finding myself back in the grief mode. I saw my psychologist, Dr Bryant, last Thursday, and he wants to start seeing me once weekly, again. I thought I was through the tough times, but your impact on my life was just too profound, and the effects, possibly everlasting. I'm ok with that, it's just makes me so sad. You were loved Annie, Bobby"
"I didn't know Annie but I can see that her family loved her very much. Annie, please say hi to my mother at God's table tonight."
"Hi Sweetie, your book is touching so many people. I now have three people I'm helping, by supporting them through their cancer or grief. Selfishly, I want to help you, but we did that for 30 months. Now I'm going to help others, which is what you would want. It's hard, cuz it keeps me in that cancer world. You always helped everybody, I'm just taking your place. That's a good thing LY"
"Hi Sweetie I miss you, my life has really changed in that I really don't have a life. I wish you were here It is so lonely without you. Your love set the bar so high. I know I can never find that wholesome love you gave me so I don't try. I will always be lonely and miss you. That is my destiny. I think your gonna be waiting for me, how beautiful that moment will be Loving u Bobby"
"Nanny, I'm missing you tonight. Tonight I'm mostly missing your hugs. I was going through my things and saw something you wrote, and at signing you left rows of x's and o's. I would give just about anything go be able to be embraced in your arms again, I always felt most loved, and safe when I was with you. Feel a little lost now without you. Love you nanny."
"I don't know any of you, Annie or Bob, but you have made my evening slightly better because of sharing your pain and grief. I lost my dear son 15 months ago and March 25 is his birthday. I know I am not alone since you are all so verbal in expressing your grief and loss of Annie. May God bless you for your love and devotion."
"Hi Babes, two things. Today I was guest speaker at a senior citizen Sunday school luncheon. It really went well. They prayed for you all through your illness and wanted to meet me and hear all about you. I did you proud, they love you too. Not even one of them fell asleep. haha Also, I've picked up two book signings at perfect peace book stores in April. Missing you as always! Luv U"
"Hi Babes, we really had a good day at the book signing.I know you were there in spirit. Your story is starting to take on a life of it's own. People are so fascinated with you. You were a little miracle, and people just shake their head in awe. I met Carol there today, she really loved you, one of your greatest friends. So many of us loved you, what a tragedy Annie! I love you!! XOXOX"
"Hi Sweetie, today is the big day. Book signing at Barnes and Noble. It's your day, your "Star" is shinning bright. I will now get to share you with more folks. I will tell them about a beautiful lady that fought one of the most tenacious battles with cancer, ever! . In the end, you may have lost the battle, but you won the war. Your spirit and soul still live on in our hearts. Love U xo"
"Hi Sweetie, big day on the 17th. Barnes and Noble book signing. I'm going to set the signing up special for you, and will honor your sisters as well. I know that would be what you wanted. I love it when I get the chance to talk about you, and how beautiful you were and are in my heart. I will meet many people, their going to be amazed when they hear your story. I love you, Bobby xo"
"Hi Sweetie, "Happy Anniversary!" The is my second one without you. I do wonder how many times I will go through this day without you. But, there is nothing I can do about it, except thank god for giving me the pleasure of knowing and being loved by you for over half of my life, and to be thankful for what we shared together. It's a strange place to be in. I love you Babe! Bobby xoxo"
"Hi Annie, I don't know that I ever told you this, but I used to get so excited when I was coming home from work to you. Especially on Sat evening. You always had a good spread of food ready, and we'd sit, eat, chat, and watch our favorite English comedies. Wasn't it fun. We used to laugh our heads off, even thought most of the shows were repeats. I still can't believe your gone! Love U"
"Hi Kiddo, been another one of those long days! No motivation! You always kept me motivated with your "honey do list." I miss that part of my life as well. You know how men are without structure, we tend to do a little bit to much TV watching or whatever. I'm hooked on the military channel. But, "I was a career service member." Thank you for hanging in there with me. I love you, Bobby-XO"
"Hi Babes, Dr Moore Sr called me yesterday, he had just read your book. He was amazed and fascinated with your story, even though he was your oncologist. He wants me to get a copy off to the Leukemia and Lymphoma society, as well as the International Myeloma society. He said they need to see this book. It will touch so many people. Your testimony is powerful Annie, I love you baby, xoxoxo"
"High Babes! Today is Valentines Day! I'm beginning to realize I miss you most on the special occasion days. I guess that's part of the grieving process. Over the years I became a professional at cutting out valentine cards for you. You really liked them. You always commented on how pretty the card was and the best part, it was free! You loved the personal touch! So did I Annie! Luv U"
"Hi Sweetie; A gentleman that Melissa knows has been diagnosed with myeloma, which is the cancer that you had. He's 70 years old and really scared. I don't know him, but I spoke to him on the phone and promised him I would be his buddy and make sure he received quality care. His oncologist is Dr Moore Jr. We knew him well! You know I will do all I can for this gentleman--Love you babe"
"Hi Sweetie, I saw Dr Farhat on Friday. I told him how I was feeling and he said "I have to move on." I understand, but you're the first thing I think of each morning, and last thing at night. So they say "move on," but don't have a clue as to how I should proceed. So, I believe moving on is not an option, until my feelings change or my memory fades. It's only been 15 months. Luv U"
"Hi Annie, feeling a bit better since the last two tributes I posted. I was put on some medication that really messed with my head and emotions. The meds seemed to make the intensity of your loss, as strong as it was in the beginning. Never do that again. You've now been viewed 2500 times. Bless you Annie! Your star is shinning bright, and touching many lives. God bless, Love you xo"
"Hi Annie, I'm a mess! I knew losing you was going to be tough, but it's more than that. Life has just become a state of being. With no beginning or ending. Like being stuck in the "Twilight Zone." I miss you! I don't know what I'm supposed to do. So I wait, I love you, Bobby"
"Hi sweetie, having a rough time tonight, I miss you. I think life seems unfair at times If Two people are in love and one is passing, the other one, in this case me, should be able to enter the "light" with the other if desired. Unquestionably, I would have went with you. Instead, I live with all our dreams and aspirations. It's tough! Their now becomming distant memories. LOVE U X"
"Hi Babes, I received a call from my publisher. Your book has been selected out of many thousands to be one of the twenty books being exhibited by your publisher at the Los Angele's Times Festival of books on April 21/22. biggest book fair in the country. Brought tears to my eyes. I will be there signing books and representing you with all the love we shared, in my heart. I love you!"
"Hi Babes, you truely amaze me. People are being drawn to you in death as they were in life. You just went over the 2000 mark in visits. That's wonderful, being able to share your story with so many strangers. I just pray they get the message. One of the most important things in life is to love and be loved. We sure had that! I miss you evderday. But your here for me each day. Love U"
"Hi Sweetie, you now have 1968 visits. That's significient! That's the year I enterd the USAF, and sent away to this far off country, England, where I eventually met you, and found the greatest love I have or will ever have known. What fun we had! God puts people in places. He knew you were gonna need me to help you with your cancer journey. It was an honor being the chosen one! Love u"
"momma,i need you so much right now. i have a constant ache in my heart for you. i often close my eyes and pretend that you are only on the other side of the screen door, standing in the kitchen, pretending to be busy so that i can relax and play. when i open my eyes i realize that you are now up in heaven busy watching over me so i can relax as i wait to sit on your foot and dance again ;)"
"Hey momma...I guess there is a first for everything! on our way home from Hannah's basketball game today, on our way to see dad, i was talking to Andrew and playing with my hair. As i touched my bangs i began to get excited, i couldn't wait to get to you to show you my new haircut. it took me a few seconds to realize you wouldn't be there. it absolutely took my breath away...i miss you <3"
"Hi Sweetie, it's been just over 15 months since you went to heaven. It still seems like it was yesterday. My memories of your last two days are still so vivid. You were so graceful. I just pray, that when my time comes, I will be as courageous as you were. No signs of stress, no anxiety, fully aware, and yet you were not fearful. I love you, and as time flies, a bit closer to you. xoxox"
"Hi Sweetie, we got the last laugh, didn't we. Remember when we got marrried. Some of your family members didn't give us six months. 38 1/2 years later you went to heaven. In the end we had the greatest love of all! We were as one! It was a real honor and blessing being your husband. I shall never forget-- and you will always be in my heart. True love is powerful & sustaining. Love U"
"Its remarkable to me how many people lives you've touched. Whether they only met you for a minute, their whole life, or never got to meet you at all. You're truly the most amazing woman I've ever met. I try to live my life the way I feel you would like me to. The best thing about it though, is that you have always been proud of me no matter what. Something I will cherish forever"
"The pain is still so overwhelming. I love you and and miss you so much nanny. But I know that you're still watching out for me as you always have. I was so blessed to have had you in my life. I just wish you didn't have to go so soon. But we'll all be together again one day. What a beautiful day it will be. I love you."
"Annie, The clock just struck 12, it's now 2012. I wish I could hug you at this moment, and give you a happy New Year "kiss." You know, one of the first things I do each morning is come hear and visit with you. It's also the last thing I do at night. It's a rather strange emotion, getting comfort and so much sadness, at the same time. That's my burden! I love and miss you, holidays?-xoxo"
"High Babes, it's now new years eve, tomorrow will be the first calendar year I've lived without you. It's been difficult, very long, and I love you as much today as I did yesterday. The one constant in my life since you passed is my love for you. It's as stong as ever, and keeps me grounded as it did when we were together. Nothing wrong with that, I just wish I could hold you. I love U"
"Hi sweetie, I guess it's time to let folks know why I selected this song, "Lady in Red." We were on our way home to Ipswich from Chelmsford, we had Wendy and Andre with us. We stopped at a little convenience store, it was late in the evening, you looked stunning running into the shop. You had a red skirt on; this song was playing on the radio.. LOVE IT--PRECIOUS LOVE TO YOU, Bobby xoxo"
"Hey Baby, I put a song on my facebook page today for you. Bruce Springsteen, "This Guns for Hire." A few days after you received your 4 week prognosis, you received two units of blood. Melissa asked you who's blood you would like to imagine it came from. Your little exciteable laugh was so cute when you said, "Bruce Springsteen. You were so elegant Annie, always smiling, Love you xoxo"
"If your reading this, you've probably lost or will lose a loved one someday. I don't know how I would survive if I couldn't use this forum to speak to Annie, whenever I want. In some strange way, and of course I or no one else knows the real truth, but just maybe she reads my posts. One can but hope! If she isn't, it's still a grief buster, if she is, she would be very pleased. Love U"
"Hi Baby, it's Boxing Day back home in England. (Dec 26th is historically the day the Queens servants get to exchange gifts and have their own festive Christmas) For Annie and me, it was another day to celebrate Christmas with left over minced pies, lemon tarts, sausage rolls an a sundry of other things. Annie, your living in eternity, & I'm just waiting. I've got a story to tell. luv."
"Annie, I've got some news for you! My publishing company has selected your story, Gods plan for Annie, as one of the fifteen books their going to exhibit at the Los Angles Times Festival of Books, April 21 & 22. Biggest book festival in the country. I'm going to go, so I can sign some books and meet people to insure the continuation of Gods Plan, & introduce you to all I meet. I Love U"
"Hello momma...Merry Christmas! i miss you so very much. I really hope your looking down on us and seeing just how happy we are. i have met a man i want to introduce you to, his name is Roger. he loves us and we love him too! you would be so proud. he's a funny guy...you'd really like him. It's so hard without you, we are trying very hard to keep your traditions going. xoxox"
""My sweet Ann" The second Christmas without you has come and will soon be gone. Life goes on, but has lost so much of it's meaning. I look at your pictures, and so much want to reach out and hold you. I'm so sorry, despite your tennacious fighting ability and will to live, and all the hard work by others, we couldn't save you. But, God had a plan for you. You're now safe & warm. luv-u"
"Hi Baby, it's Christmas eve! I never really gave much thought at how much you put into organizing a successful family event. I'm in charge now, and it's utter chaos around here. But, as you would say, "pull your socks up and get on with it." That's what I intend to do. I have done all my shopping, we kept it light this year. You were such a giver, I'm more restrained, and lost! luv u"
"Hi Annie! It's Christmas time again, and I not sure this Christmas isn't more sad than last. Last year you had just passed and my grief didn't allow me to think about Christmas in a meaningful way. This Christmas, 13 months since you passed, has given me time to see a world without you. I don't like it. I struggle every day, trying to get through, I miss you so much! Love you, Bobby"
"Hi sweetie! Spent the afternoon helping Melissa and children move to their new home. It's larger, and will be much more comfortable. She's met a wonderful man, and he seems to be well grounded, and makes her feel secure. I know you would be pleased. I remember sitting with you and her at the dinning room table when you looked at her and said,"Remember, you were always my peace! xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, your book, Gods plan for Annie, why she had to die, is still doing well on amizon.com, and barnesandnoble.com. as well as local bookstores. Beyond a doubt, you are a part of Gods plan for the world. Your battle with cancer, is probably one of the greatest testimonials written in modern times. Why would God love an athiest so much, against all odds you found salvation ? xo"
"Hi sweetie, made it home safely! Thanks for the lift. I did look to the heavens a few times, blew you some kisses and gave you a few waves. We were actually flying at 35,000 feet. I did see a small orange glowing ball in the distance while it was dark outside. At first I thought it was another aircraft, but it wasn't. It was definately there and I saw it. Made me think! I love you"
"Many Happy Returns on your Birthday My Darling Sister Annie..XOXOXOXOXOX
LOVE YOU MILLIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Happy birthday Annie! I know you are in heaven having the best birthday ever celebrating with Jesus! You were the most courageous woman I have ever known. Your laugh and smile were always there even during the toughest of times.I look at the stuffed animal I bought you during one of your hospital stays and it reminds me of you and makes me smile! Love you!"
"Hi Sweetie, sitting at the airport in San Francisco, thinking of you, and through the wonder of computers, your always right beside me when I travel. I hope your birthday is as special as I imagine it might be. Or, living in Christ, do you even have a birthday. I suppose living in "perfect love & peace" is the greatest gift of all. I want that too! I love you, enjoy your blessings. ."
"Wish I could have known you, Happy Birthday. You have the Greatest of Family, they Love and Miss you Much....."
"Happy birthday sweetie, today is your 62nd Birthday. In a few hours I'll be flying home, watching for you all the way. I know, I'm looking for a miracle, but in your case, all things are possible. I wish you were there waiting for me! Warm and cozy! For now, I will live on with your star shinning brightly inside me. "And" I wait! Love you, keep an eye on me today. XO"
"Tomorrow is my sister Annie and my son 'sBirthday ,so my darling sister how could i forget yours .I only wish you were still here so i could talk to you like i always did on your Birthday ,.Happy Birthday in haven with Mum wendy and Tracey.Love you all and miss you so very much.xxx"
"There is so much beauty in life
Beauty is a gift of God
Beauty is in the heart which touches another
Simplicity is beauty
Beauty is you,
And thoughts of you make me smile x"
"I love you soooooo much. <3"
"Nanny, I'm sorry I haven't written to you sooner. My heart is just so broken still, I can barely see through the tears to write this. I really miss you. I've been thinking about you all the time. I tell my friends all about you. I'm really sad you didn't get to meet some of them. You are SO special to me. Its really hard for me to think about living the rest of my life without you."
"Ann never knew you, but you have one Great Family. Bob and Melissa have become some of my Best Friends. You are truely love by your family, that I know forsure. I can say that I have learned how to Love unconditionaly, from the two of them... Love You"
"Hi Sweetie, I am truely amazed and humbled at the amount of views your site has received. I visit you most days, but mine don't count as a view. I know over 95% of the views are not family. As in life, people are still being drawn to you. Gods Plan is strong, your are being loved by so many people. "You're making a difference in some folks lives. That has to be God's plan. Love u xo"
"Hi Sweetie! I love you! I've got a plan! On your birthday I'll be flying at 39,000 feet. Won't be in heaven, but closer than I've been since you passed. So, as I don't know what happends in heaven, if you get any special priviledge's on your birthday, don't forget about me. I'll be looking to the heavens and waving; sending you all the love that I still feel in my heart for you. xoxo"
"Annie, I love you now as much as I did the last time I kissed your sweet lips and held you in my arms for the last time. You touched my heart in a way that most people will never understand. I'll be yours until the end of time. Thank you for loving and sharing your life with me. I fought so hard to save you, now all I have is the memories and what if's? WE did find the "Perfect Love" xo"
"Hi sweetie, Just left Melissa's office, she is doing well. She's had a few nightmares about you lately, she just needs more time. I remember when you lost your mom, you were so young, children to raise. Pain was immense! Well she's where you were! Like you, in time her pain will become an ache! As for me, I wait! One day, we shall meet again in perfect love. God bless Bobby xoxoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, your book, Gods Plan For Annie Why She Had To Die, was released Oct 6th, It's held steady at the 10% mark out of 8,000,000 paperbacks, 7% out of 12,000,000 hardbacks, and your best selling format is kindall, I've had some lovely reviews from readers. They are acknowledging your courage, strength, and pain.You were a beautiful lady and I miss you with all my heart, love Bobby xo"
"HELLO MY SUNSHINE:) I LOVE AND MISS YOU JUST AS MUCH AS EVER, IF NOT MORE. I KNOW YOUR LAUGHING RIGHT NOW, I AM RIGHT THERE WITH YOU. :)"
"My Darling Sissy Annie, When ever you walked in a room it lite up, you were always full of laughter and fun,your lovely smile, your love, your grace. A True wife, Mother, grand-mother, sister, auntie, and friend. Your Love will always lite up everyone`s heart forever. I will always cherish you my truely wonderful brave sister. Miss you so much girlie. Love your sis Doreen xxx"
"My Darling Sister Annie, A whole year has passed! I love and miss you so very much,MY SWEET-PEA, you had so much beauty grace kindness and love for every one. I will always remember the care you showed me through out my life, you were the one person who understood me, we shared secrets and lots of laughs you were an amazing sister, i will love you for ever more. Love Your sister Doreen xxx"
"Miss you, Ann."
"Momma...i miss you with all of my heart! I used to be afraid of death....sounds I kinda strange I know, but I'm not any longer! I am so excited to see you again! Not a day goes by that I don't think of you..i miss your touch....your smell...your smile...your voice! love you loads and loads! XOXO sincerely your Poppet"
"Hi Annie ,its been one year since you left us .the pain is fading ,but boy do i miss hearing your voice .I will keep in my heart all the lovely memorys I have or shared with you .I love you so very much my darling sister,I can hear you now with Wendy and Tracey ,laughing together miss you all .I look forward to the day i see you again .always in my heart .your sister Jacqueline.xxxxx"
""My Sweet Annie" it's been a year today--Lesson learned, is still as it was when you passed. "If you love someone today, try to love them more tomorrow! Throughout your cancer, our love got stronger each day. It was the "Perfect Love." I miss you so much, I feel like life has evolved into a state of being. No longer a beginning or ending. Wait for me, I'll see you again, Precious luv"
"I love you Nanny. xxxxxxxxxxxoooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxxx"
"In an hour it will be November 2nd. This date marks a year since your passing. Let me tell you Nanny, the first year of my life without you here and its almost unbearable. Many days this year I've woken up, hoping it was all a nightmare, many times I've picked up my phone to dial your number to hear you say "hello darling", but I was never relieved of the pain. I miss you terribly."
"from nathan pharris auntie ann was the kindest person i have ever met ,even when she was unwell she made me a blaket of hot air balloons because that was her dream a dream that unfourthnely she never got to do but we will always remember her in our hearts and our prays we all love you auntie ann and miss you"
"my Auntie ann was a loving and kind person and even when she was unwell she managed to make me a blaket with a design of hot air boolin on but even those she is not with us anymore her memory will live on in our hearts and thought my uncle bob's book please everyone buy a copy if you have got a little spare money we all love you auntie ann by nathan pharris"
"My darling sister Annie ,I miss you so very much less that one week and it will be one year since you departed from us and it seems like forever ..Those last moments of your life ,while i was talking to you on the phone, will stay with me till the day i join you wendy traceyand mum and dad.I miss you so much ,you always knew how to make me smile even when i was sad .Sleep well my darling s"
"Hi Sweetie, I was at Melissa's office a little while ago. She showed me a card you sent her on 19/11/99, it was beautiful, the words, well, they were from the heart and all that you are. It made me sad, I couldn't wait to get home and write you a note. I love you Annie,"
"Miss you, Ann. I think of you often. When Zachery was a baby, you gave him a green stuffed Gund Frog, which Zoe now sleeps with. And every day Zoe and I use one of the blankets you made us. Thank you for everything. You were such an amazing woman to know."
"Hey Sweetie, I did it your story is out and selling well. It's a beautiful book babe, I'm sure you know that! This book will help with the funding on finding a cure for such a dreadful blood cancer. Love you milllions xo to see book go to www.godsplanforannie.com XOXOXOX"
"Hello, Annie - A few years ago, God placed on my heart that I needed to spend time with you. What a glorious week we had. You are now with your heavenly family in a place that knows no pain or sorrow, watching over your earthly family. Your love still remains with us. We miss u"
"Momma...i feel so blessed to have been your child! I miss you with all that I am. You are my first and last thought of each day. You were my bestest friend,taught me the true meaning of unconditional love and how to laugh simultaneously with tears! Love always "poppet"xoxo"
"I LOVE YOU ANNIE!!!!!XOXOXOXOXOX"
"Annie, I miss you so very much!!!!My heart aches. I often think of the times we went shopping, and how much fun we had. Your beautiful smile, your grace and sense of style. How you waited on the porch for me to come home from work. I miss it all.. I MISS YOU.XOXOXOXOXOX"
"Wow Annie, I set this site up on Sept 4th, 2011. You've already had 362 views. I always said, anyone that knew you was blessed. The world doesn't know it, but a great humanitarian was lost when you said goodbye for the last time. They will know you through your story! Bobby xoxo"
I miss you. There are no fancy words to say, to express the pain in losing you. You were my hero, and Im sure now your my guardian angel. I love you."
"Miss you Annie so much. I have so many fond memories of us growing up in Cheviot Drive, memories I will always cherish. All the mishaps I got into as a child you were always there to help, such a caring person even at that young age. Love you and miss you."
"LOVE YOU MILLIONS AND MILLIONS "GIRLFRAN"
"& I need you more than ever right now. this RN program is getting harder & harder, please stay beside me so I can get through this, you were so excited for me to start, and had alot of faith in me, and I'm gonna get through it for you I promise, Thank you for all your support!"
"Hey Auntie Ann & Uncle Bob,
Love those funny pictures of Ann that you put up Bob gave me a good laugh, I miss you so much Annie, but I know your still with me every step of the way!"
"Annie, I'll post the release date of your book as soon as it's available. The book will guide people not on the site to you. So thay can see you and leave a tribute if they like. I opened the site up for the general public tonight! It's time! I love you. xoxo"
"Hi Sweetie, in about two weeks the world will start meeting you. I can't wait. I know I can't hold on to you forever, I think it's time to share your beauty with the rest of the world. "Gods Plan For Annie" will reveal all. I am so proud of you, it won't be long now! Love you"
"Hi Annie, been really stressed tonight, but not sure why. I decided to turn on your memorial and see if perhaps that would help. Seeing your beautiful face does help. I think I just need to see you, but this memorial and pictures is all I have. It's tough Annie. Love you xoxox"
"Hi Annie, I see you through my tears, the pain is easing, but I gotta tell you, your mark was left on my soul, and when my big day comes the thought of perhaps seeing you again will make me smile. I know your up there, but heaven is a big place. "I will find you!" XO"
"Annie, your Sisters Wnedy and Tracy were your 9/11, unfortunately and sadly you were my 9/11. We were getting ready to leave for work together doing an estate sale on 9/11. Through this memorial, and your story, you will live on forever and always in our hearts! Love you xoxo"
"Hi Annie, you've had 54 viewers on this site and they aren't family. I going to open it up soon to family and friends. But I get to go first, and I'm having a long turn. It's not that easy to share you, even the book has caused me anxiety, but you already know that! xo"
"Annie, Remember what you said, we must learn to laugh at ourselves, I added some new picts for the family hopefully they will have a good giggle. Your fighting spirit was second to none. The book will tell the world just how special and blessed you were. We became 1!xoxoxoxoxox"
"Annie, I let Melissa see this tribute today,I now realize that she was so busy trying to take care of me that she didn't grieve your loss properly.I've never heard her cry like that before, it really pulled at my heart strings. I promise, I've got her back. She's going to be ok.x"
"Annie, sent the edited copy of Gods Plan For Annie back today, will have a formatted book on your computer in 10 days, cover and all. Can't wait to see it. Once I ok it, it goes to publishing and marketing. Won't be long now sweetie! Gods plan will come to pass! The "Book"xo"
"Annie, your "Story" will be out soon. "Gods Plan For Annie." You were an amazing person, and undoubtedly one of "Gods Favorite "Angels!" I want the world to know about you and your courageous battle with cancer. You were the inspiration for so many people! Love You Forever, Bobby"
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