- 24 years old
- Date of birth: Apr 10, 1986
- Place of birth:
BROOKLYN ENY, New York, United States
- Date of passing: Jul 3, 2010
|Let the memory of ANTHONY JIHAD LEVINE-FOWLE be with us forever|
This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, ANTHONY JIHAD LEVINE-FOWLE who was born on April 10, 1986 and passed away on July 3, 2010. We will remember him forever.
"I know I said I'm not angry anymore about you being taken away but I am a little right now. Mostly because I just watched a movie called You Before Me. The ending the guy this girl loved was ending his life due to his disability. He made up his mind before they met to do it but to the point. She got to say bye. Of course you came to mind cuz I never said goodbye. I know I shouldn't dwell in the past or be angry but I can't help it sometimes. So many things go through my mind. So many times I replay our relationship and friendship in my mind and feel like maybe I could have done something differently. If I didn't have my family and your family didn't welcome me with open arms and hearts like they did I dunno if I would have made it. My cousin passed away and I couldn't stay at the funeral. I hold it all in. I just hope y'all are friends in heaven. Take care of each other. Love you then, now and until forever"
"I was outside looking at the stars and for every one I seen I gave a reason why I love you. I was doing good until I ran out of stars......."
"I miss you and love you always. It's amazing how you meet people and they can change your life forever. You were my first love and no one can ever take your place. It was amazing being with you and being your friend. I miss talking to you the way we did. You knew everything about me and could tell something was wrong with just one look. I miss the way we could talk on the phone for hours about anything and everything. I love that you were so caring and had a forgiving heart. I miss looking into your eyes and getting butterflies. I miss being silly with you. I just really miss you. I know everything happens for a reason and God has a plan so I am no longer angry that you are gone but have accepted it and enjoy the memories we had. I was going through some stuff the other day and found the pictures that we took together. All I could do was smile and cry a little. It's still a process but I will continue to work on it lol. Just know you were an amazing person and changed my life so much. You taught me how to love myself and how to love someone more then myself. I Love You Tony Then, Now & Forever"
"CONTINUE TO SLEEP IN PEACE, MY HANDSOME NEPHEW/SON....THE BABYSITTER/AUNT QUNICE. LOVE U FOREVER & A DAY. MISS U SOOOO MUCH!!!"
"Love & miss u always. HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY!!!"
"Happy 30th Birthday Tony!!!!
I almost forgot what today was due to me being sick but I was thinking about it yesterday. The big 3-0 I could only imagine the party you are having in heaven right now. I could only imagine the party you would be having if you were alive. I can see you know with that camera in your hand and smiling while taking pictures. I always seen the passion in your eyes, heard the passion in your voice and felt that passion in your soul when it came to photography. I just knew you were gonna make your dreams come true. I always wish for that for you. You were and are always in my heart. As I sit here in this hospital bed leaving this message. I think about the time I brought you that singing birthday card and it puts a smile on my face because it put a smile on yours. I wish I could go to the cemetery right now just to lay next to you. Play the song from my sweet sixteen that became our song (Slow Jam by Usher and Monica) and just talk to you even though I know you can't talk back. Just to do something that makes me feel closer to you right now. Today is a big day for you so celebrate in heaven and save a spot for me when the time comes for me to join you. I love you Then, Now, Until Forever......."
"I love you ..."
"Just wanted to say I Miss You!!!"
"Happy New Year!!
I've been thinking about you lately. I just can't help it. You always seem to pop into my head. I miss you so much. I took the A train today and as soon as I seen those 3 stops my heart started racing. You always seem to make my heart race. Your not even here and my heart still races. Crazy right? If I could turn back the hands of time. I would stop this heart break of you being taken away from everybody. You truly are one of a kind. Love you then now and forever."
"Looking at my internet pages on my phone and this one is in my bookmarks. It's been awhile since I wrote something to you. Only thing I can say is I miss you and love you so much. Wish you were here."
"It's been 5 years. I can't believe it. 5 years is a long time, not a day goes by that I don't miss you. I had to surprise mommy and dad at your annual BBQ. I absolutely love the look on their faces when they seen me because they thought I wasn't coming. So many people show up everyevery year and very year you can feel the love that so many people had for you. It is amazing how even thought your gone you can bring so many people together. By the time everybody leave they have gotten to know someone new, someone who's life was touched by you. Your family are amazing people and I love them so much. They have become my family. I know your mother says that i make her cry but she makes me cry because she reminds me of you. That loving and caring personality of yours. Your whole family reminds me of you. They took not only me into their arms but my family as well. I miss you so much. I find myself thinking about all the stuff we went through, the good and the bad. I thank god for allowing me to have you in my life for so many years. They say it is better to have loved and lost then not have loves at all. I believe that with all my heart. Words can't express the love i still have for you. You made me a better person. Your mother is gonna beat my butt if I don't come visit her lol. I miss you and wish you were here. I love you Then, Now, Until Forver. I carry you in my heart always........."
"YESTERDAY MORNING YOU WAS ON MY MIND AND I KEPT THINKING ABOUT YOU , IT WAS LIKE I WOULD THINK OF SOMETHING GOOD AND THEN I WOULD THINK OF SOMETHING BAD AND WOULD WANNA CRY BUT FOR SOME REASON EVERY TIME MY EYES START TO WATER SOMETHING FUNNY YOU DID TO MAKE ME LAUGH POPPED UP IN MY HEAD AND I WOULD START LAUGHING AND CRYING AT THE SAME TIME , I KNOW IT WAS YOU PUTTING ALL THE GOOD MEMORIES IN MY HEAD IT WAS LIKE I FELT YOU AROUND ME AGAIN, I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR AND SEE ME SO I KNOW YOU ALWAYS GET MY MESSAGE EVEN IF I LOOK LIKE I'M TALKING TO MYSELF LOOKING CRAZY STILL CONTINUE TO HAVE MY BACK AND WATCH OVER ME , I APPRECIATE IT AND I THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING YOU TAUGHT ME AND EVERY LESSON THAT WAS RECEIVED HAPPY 4TH OF JULY BABY BOY! HUGS N KISSES MUAHZZZZZ!! YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY THOUGHTS. AND I KNOW YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH THAT, I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU, YOU ARE THE VERY FIRST MAN I EVER FELL IN LOVE WITH AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT!! S.I.P I KEEP HEARING SO MANY DIFFERENT STORIES ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED THAT DAY AND I JUST WANT THE TRUTH, TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED FROM YOUR SIDE OF THE STORY"
"EVERY YEAR I WILL ALWAYS DEDICATE THIS SONG TO YOU!
MARSHA AMBROSIUS (FAR AWAY)! EVEN THOUGH IT'S REALLY A SUICIDE SONG THE WORDS EXPRESS HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU WITHOUT THE SUICIDE PART, I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT YOUR GONE, I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT YOUR NOT HERE! I MISS YOU! HE WAS MY PERFECT MATCH MY SOULMATE ( SAGITTARIUS & ARIES) WE KEPT EACH OTHERS FIRE BURNING!! GOD BLESS YOU , YOU'RE IN A BETTER PLACE! UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN! I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER! #TOMYFIRSTLOVE I MISS HIS TOUCH! I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HIS VOICE! I LOVE HEARING IT IN MY DREAMS ! I WISH YOU WERE WITH ME IN THE BRONX THAT DAY, THINGS WOULD'VE BEEN SO DIFFERENT, I JUST WISH I COULD DO EVERYTHING WITH YOU ONE MORE OR ONE LAST TIME"
"A LETTER TO MY FIRST LOVE MY TONY TOUCH!
word's can't express the way i feel for you or about you, i thought about you all day yesterday, about the ups n downs but mostly all the great times we had together , sometimes i wish it was just a dream cause you were just at my house the third week of June and of course we had alot of fun ( especially in the shower), i always try to remember exactly what we talked about word for word and i remember you telling me how you felt like you was a boy maker and you was skeptical about that little girl and you told me how you wanted to take your boys to see the fireworks for the 4th of July, you was always a good friend to me despite that you had a girlfriend named j that you told me that was too clingy lol you still came around, one day i remember you and the bestie kept telling me to get a facebook and if i wanted to contact you, you'll always be on facebook lol , so about a month later i finally signed up to facebook and i sent you a friend request you and the bestie were already friends and i asked her why you didn't add me yet? Me being busy with my kids and working i really wasn't on facebook , now it's the ending of august and the bestie n I are missing you like crazy wondering where you are since i lived in the bronx we went to brooklyn to look for you or somebody you knew, so we planned to go out there that weekend but for some reason it was like you were trying to tell me something the whole time, i felt your spirit around us , we kept joking about things you used to do and say from south park, i was telling brist how i missed watching you do tricks on the bike , how you taught me how to pick locks n stuff lol, i remember you being drunk a few times coming to my best friend house yelling my name out the window looking for me, i remember the first time you cut your hair and you just came from Kissimmee florida and i was the first person you came to see, i felt so special , i remember being caught by your aunt in your grandma house , i remember spending the night at rhanette house on new years and her mother caught us in the bed and she told me to go in the living room lol , i remember meeting your beautiful mother and grandma and brother Ness for the first time, long story short we had a lot of history i loved the fact you trusted me with your son one summer day your baby mother dropped him off and travis came upstairs at trini house and was like here you go step mother cause he was crying and i put him to sleep, So the weekend is here and we get on the 4 train to the 3 to new lots and as soon as we're coming down the stairs we see deebo walking wit some girl so we stopped him like wassup where's everybody at? Where's my TOUCH? So all he did was pull up his sleeve and showed us his tattoo on his arm and we both looked at each other like stop playing you joking and he was like yea ya mad late this happened like 2 months ago , i tried to be as strong as i can but when we got on the 15 bus we both just broke down everyone was looking at us like we're crazy, i cried all the way home realizing that the whole time you was trying to tell us yourself us not knowing that we were really suppose to miss you for real , when i walked in the house the movie princess and the frog was just going off and the first song i heard on tv was by NEYO (Best thing i ever knew i needed) i will never forget that because i feel like you were trying to dedicate it to me so every time i hear it i become sad , i will never forget riding on the back of your bike and me saying slow down cause i was so scared lol I WILL NEVER FORGET WHAT WE HAD! I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FIRST LOVE!"
"Hey Babe. Just wanted to dedicate a song to you.
Long Distance by Bruno Mars
Basically he's saying there not much he can do to get back to the one he love. How he wish she was with him but can't be. How the long distance is killing him. How hard it is not being with her.
This song just hits my soul everytime I hear it and I always want to cry but I love the song and can't help but listen. I can't really tell you how I feel so I sing songs and hope they reach you in heaven. I love you then, now and forever....."
"Happy 29th Birthday Babe. I love you so much. I will take a shot for you lol. Wishing you were here to celebrate your birthday with your family and friends. It's crazy how much I miss you. You tend to creep into my thoughts a lot. I just want to hear your voice so bad. I want to look into your brown eyes and hold your hand. To tell you how much I love you again.
I was suppose to post this on the 10th. I know I'm late and I'm sorry. There is just so much more I want to say to you. Words can't express what you mean to me. If I was given the chance to turn back time. I would love you more, hug you more, kiss you more lol, spend more time with you, I would talk to you more. I love you then, now, until forever"
"hey big bro just stopping by took alot of energy to stop by like im feel with so much pain an with u missing its hard for me to move on cuz i still dont believe u gone but im stay strong an let the FOWLE LEGACY LIVE ON I LOVE YOU WITH ALL THE BLOOD IN MY VEINS AND MISS YOU MORE THE ANYTHING BRO"
"I had a dream about you last night. The bad part is it felt so real that when I woke up I was expecting it to be real. I was expecting you to still be here even though I know you not. It made my heart race and then I started to cry cuz reality literally smack me in the face that you are not here. That you are not coming back. That I can't do anything about it. To feel so weak and helpless. I would give anything to spend one more day with you. I love you always and forever."
"hey big bro damn i anit been on here cuz i still dont believe u gone it hurts me so much wen i cant see u cuzit so much i wanna tell u an i wish u was here cuz i dont kno wat to do im so lost"
""I know I will see you again I'm sure. No it's not selfish to ask for more. One more night. One more day. One more smile on your face but they can't take yesterday. They can take tomorrow and the plans we made. They can take the music we will never play. All the broken dreams. Take everything, just take it away but they can never have yesterday. They can take the future that we will never know. They can takes the places that we said we will go. All the broken dreams. Take everything. Just take it away but they can never have yesterday."
Yesterday by Leona Lewis
This song says everything I feel. All I have are the memories of you. The love in my heart and soul that I feel for you. Life is not always fair and in your case it wasn't. I just keep thinking God needed you more, that he wanted you by his side. It's not fair and it still hurts but I have to keep faith. I have to continue to believe I will see you again or I would have fell apart a long time ago. Although you are gone your love lives on in so many people. You had a presence no one can ever forget. I miss and love you always."
"“Why do we close our eyes when we pray? When we cry? When we dream? Or when we kiss? Because we know that the most beautiful things in life are not seen, but felt by the heart.”
This is how I feel. When I close my eyes I feel you in my heart and soul. I will always love you. It's been hard without you. I am grateful I had the chance to love you and be loved by you. I miss you so much. I love you babe. Then, Now until Forever!!!!!"
"Hey babe I miss you so much. My birthday is almost here and the one thing I want for my birthday I can't have. I wish you were here. I've been having a not so good month and really needed you to make me feel better. You were always great at that. A friend of mine tried to kill their self and your passing popped into my head. All the pain I felt from your death and my friends and my uncle, etc. deaths just came rushing into my heart. I couldn't breathe it felt like a ton of bricks fell on me. That feeling is horrible and I try not to feel it but it's always there. It hits me sometimes when I least expect it and my eyes start tearing. You were my rock. My light in the dark. I miss and love you so much. I love you then, now, until forever.."
"OMG I remember how your voice sounds. I remember your touch. I remember everything. I just woke up from having a dream about you and started to cry cuz all I wanna do now it call out of work drive to Brooklyn wait for you to open the door grab you in my arms and never let go. Kiss you and tell you I love you. I realize I can't and my heart breaks all over again. In my dream we were arguing before I woke which is funny cuz we only had about 2 arguments out of the 10 years we knew each other. I wanna say sorry and I don't even really know what is was about. I dunno what to do. 4 years babe, 4 years of missing you and still loving you and not being able to see you, touch you, hug you or kiss you or even call you just to tell you I love you. I went to the BBQ at your father's house and had a great time with your family but I was missing you and wishing you would walk through that door hug everybody and say I'm ok. It was a really bad dream. Sit down eat joke and laugh with everybody. I dunno what to do. What do I do?"
"Gone yet not forgotten, although we are apart, your spirit lives within me, forever in my heart. Our hearts still ache in sadness and secret tears still flow what it meant to lose you noone will ever know."
"In the car, seat all the way back looking out the sun roof. Thinking about you and what you said to me about the stars. I can't believe it's gonna be 4 years. Feels like yesterday to me. The pain is crazy. Like someone took a part of my soul and heart. Wishing you were here. Love you then, now and forever."
"Another night of not being able to sleep. So I'm up watching RENT. There's a scene when one of the characters die in the hospital and her lover is holding her. Then of course they have a funeral. Everyone says their goodbyes and of course I'm crying cuz I wasn't able to say goodbye. I don't remember the last thing I said to you. I just wish I could remember if I told you I love you for the last time. I wish I could have held you in my arms or kiss you. That's what hurts the most not being able to say my goodbye...."
"I wanna call you and tell you I'm writing poems again problem is it's about you. I wanna call you and curse you out lol for making fall so deeply and madly in love with you and for loving me the same way then leaving me. I know it's not your fault but it hurts so bad everyday. I try not to think about it or you but the more I try not to I do. There's this ache, this pain, this hole in my heart and in my soul that I can't get rid of. I'm stuck with this big what IF. I want to scream and yell and cry all at the same time. I don't know what to do sometimes. You know I married Mitchum but now he's in Afghanistan and I guess I have this fear that he's not gonna come home and I'm gonna loss someone else I love. I just need to hear you say everything will be ok, that you are always here for me."
"Hey I hate that your not here. Everything reminds me of you. The A train, the long island rail road, Brooklyn, etc. I walked pass the tree on my block. You know the one that grows the lil white flowers I love so much. Of course you popped into my head. I thought about the time it started raining and we ran under that tree. You looking into my eyes with those beautiful brown eyes of yours and then we kissed. I was in heaven. My heart was racing. Just like it was today when that memory popped into my head."
"It's 2 something in the morning and I can't sleep. All I wanna do is talk to you. To fall asleep while talking to you like we use to. To laugh and cry and talk about everything. Our hopes, dreams, future. I was just thinking bout the first time we said I love you to each other. Thinking of you makes me smile every time. Miss you so much."
"Happy Birthday Babe! It's your birthday and I wish you were here so I can see you and give you a gift and birthday card. So since I can't I will give you something else. I will tell you something I never told you before. I never believed in love at first sight then I saw you for the first time and my heart spoke to my soul and said he is the one. My soulmate. You are and will always be my soulmate. I will always love you. You made me a better person and I thank you for that. I miss you more everyday. I don't like to dwell in the past but when it comes to you I do it a lot. You are my heart, my soul, my bestfriend. Miss you so much. I love you then, now and forever."
"Missing u each & every day. I use 2 love babysitting u. U were such a good lil boy. Ur mom & my big sis Terry would go out & I would watch u. U turned out 2 b a great man & a fantastic father. Gone 2 soon. We all love & needed u but God needed u more. I know u hanging out with Auntie Terry & Grandma Cook. R.I.P."
"Hey I really need you right now. I could always get help from you when I need it and right now I need you. I need you to help me feel better. I'm stressing and you can calm my nerves. I'm kinda lost without you. I feel like a part of me is lost and no matter how much I keep looking I just can't find it. They say you never know what you have until it's gone but I already knew. Reality is now I can't do anything about it. I can't just say f it and come looking for you. I wish and wish but I guess I have to let go and let god. You are always in my heart, in my mind, in my soul. I love you...."
"Happy New Years Babe. I can't believe it's another year without u here. I know you are in heaven partying like no tomorrow and sending your love and blessings to everyone you love. I miss u so much and wish u were here. Sending you all my love (not all gotta save some for your family, my family and friends lol). Love you always."
"I want to talk to you so bad. Just wanna pick up the phone dial your number and hear your voice. You always made me feel better after talking to you. You always knew how to make me smile. I'm needing you so much right now. Never really know what you got until it's gone. I just wish you were here. I miss you so much. I love you then, now and always….."
"I miss you so much. I been thinking about you a lot lately. You are always on my mind and in my heart but I'm really missing you now. I love you then, now and always......"
"It's been 3 years and it seems like yesterday when I found out. I think about you everyday. You are the one always on my mind. I still love you so much. I am around the people who love you and you feel the love all around. You left a big empact on everyone in your life. I miss our talks and how no matter how bad my day is I could talk to you and you make it all better."
"Happy Birthday Daddy/ Uncle...... working on another collage for you .... I kno you can see wat im doing in my life right nw bt i just wanna tell you that i really miss you an i gt excepted to the art institute of charleston an wen im done wit that im working on doctorate in music composition i will always love you an please continue to watch over me. I love you soooooooooooooooo much! :)"
"Happy Birthday Tony!!"
"Happy Valentine's Day Babe. I was at work and I felt someone behind me but when I looked there was no one there. Then the time you surprised me at work popped into my head and I knew you, were checking up on me. I miss you so much. I wish I could just call you to hear your voice and just talk like we always did. I Love You. Then, Now, Forever"
"i love u cuz u will always be in my heart i would have done this earlier but i just found out about i love yall"
"I miss and love you always!!!"
"It's been 2 years and it still seems unreal. I keep waiting for you to call me and tell me your ok. I keep waiting to see you and look into your brown eyes then hug you and never let go. Then reality sets in and then the pain hits me harder then before. My life was taken over by such joy and love that words can't explain."
"it's been 2 yrs and i'm still loss for words,all i can say is mommy finally put you tomb stone down on your grave we don't have to look at the grass were there is a empty spot, we have your stamp down and i thank god for making it possaible for me to do it ,i wasn't easy but with god help i did it, mommy love you and miss you so much rest in peace my angel."
"I had the urge to call you. I just wanted to hear your voice to hear you laugh. I miss talking to you. I miss being able to hang out with you. I miss us being us when we're together. I just miss and love you so much."
"As the days turn into weeks and weeks into months. It's still hard hard for me to believe that your gone. It seems like yesterday when I fell in love with you. I wanna say thank you. You showed me what true love is. You loved me from the time I was 15 and a tomboy until the day I became the women I am now. All I really wanna say is I Love You. Then, Now, Until Forever. Miss you so much...."
"Don't know what to say just i miss you so much ,rest in peace my badyboy"
"As salamu alaikum, wa rahmantullah, wa barakatuhu. Ramadhan Kareem my ibn. I pray that you are in a healthy spiritual state with ALLAH. I pray often that ALLAH forgives you for your mistakes and shortcomings. That He grants you paradise. Words can't explain how much I miss u. Luv"
"Tony is and always be the best big brother and he tried his best to be a good brother and I now isthat cause im his little sis and will always be his lil sis.And,you are the best big brother and I love you alot Tony."
"Life is becoming overwhelmed with me trying to remember the good times. Nonetheless I'm going to do my best to live life to the fullest. You are my guiding light to the limitedless sky. Your smile keeps me focused to live on."
""As salamu alaikum Jihad, Just wanted to let you know that you are a guiding light in my life. Your passing lets me know that I need to get right with ALLAH before my time comes. We all miss you and pray that you are in Heaven making the Angels laugh"
"Days are going by and its getting no easier. Looking at your pictures makes it real, but I don't want to feel. God is comforting me and for that I'm grateful. Hoping one day when we meet again and it will be everlasting. I love you Jihad."
"Today you would have been 25 years old and God knows that you are all that and a bag of chips. Hope you partying with the angels and God is pleased with you. Just know we missing you and wish we had more time with you. God needed you more than we did"