Today is your 41st bday, i know if you were still here you would have had a nice time today. love you so much

I herd the saying time heals all wounds, but for some reason this feels like a wound that will never heel and that I will never recover from. I still dont want to believe that you are not here it feel so crazy when i think about how we went from talking almost everyday or every week to now not talking at all this is so painful, people say that a person should not grieve for as long as I have but its still hard on me and the whole family. I really miss you and your amazing personality. Ive learned TIME does not heal all wounds.

Everyday I think about you my love..... wondering were we would be right now if you were here. Would we be planning our wedding, planning for our new baby or both. I will never know because you were taken from me. I see you in my dreams and wake up in more pain cuz ur not lying next to me, so the nightmare plays over and over again. You never got the chance to be the father you always wanted to be and show the world how a real G can change his life for the better. As I sit here broken hearted i just reflect on the last words you said to me. I still love you Shonny.....always and forever. #loyaltyislove# #iloveuboobutt# #iwantuback#

The Days are not the same with out you

And everyday I sit here and mourn for you

It seem like you were only here for a short time

There is not a day that go by where u are not on my mind

You were truly one of a kind

You had crazy moments in life but always created a good time

Around you no matter what you had going on in your life you always made me feel protected

You told me big cuz take care of lil cuz and that's what I respected

I have to be honest I wasn't ready for you to go

When I herd that you left us I shouted no no

In the beginning it felt unreal until u didn't message me back

I called u and everything hoping that you would call back

In our family you are a soldier who fought long and hard

A legend yes that's what you truly are

You had so much love to give and you left a piece of you with everyone

This is not the end of you your journey because your journey has just begun

With the pieces of you that you left behind

It's enough to make the whole family shine.

You no longer have to suffer or be in pain anymore

I really miss your voice and talking to you which I adored

In the loving memory of my cousin who I miss EVERYDAY

You stole something from me and I need it back

 You stole something from me so near and dear to me

You stole something from me I suggest you return it now

You stole something from me and you can't give it back

 You stole something from me, a puzzle piece with nowhere to go

                Fucking Thieves, I love you brother always but you knew that

Rhonda Lewis-Mayo