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This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Audrey Speckman, 89, born on July 2, 1925 and passed away on May 1, 2015. We will remember her forever.

July 2, 2023
July 2, 2023
Happy Birthday, Mom!! Your lily bloomed this morning, right on schedule, and the first one of the season as usual! Love and miss you always, Karen
May 1, 2023
May 1, 2023
Mom, eight years have passed and you are missed as much now as then! Deb is up visiting us in VT at the moment and we toasted you and Nancy last night. I think she is the perfect person to gift one of your handmade Icelandic sweaters to - Deb speaks often and fondly of you as her 2nd Mom. You were one of the best!!! Much love always, Karen
July 3, 2022
July 3, 2022
Mom, it barely seems like 7 years have slipped by since you passed away. I thought of you yesterday on your birthday - I wasn't at home to see whether your lily bloomed, right on time, but I trust that it did. A most sweet remembrance of the sweetest mom! Love you now, love you always, Karen
May 1, 2022
May 1, 2022
Seven years gone but never forgotten, Mom! Loved you then, love you now, love you forever, Karen
July 2, 2021
July 2, 2021
Mom, today's your birthday and true to form, my lilies are blooming now! When I see a flower garden, I am reminded of you, your beautiful gardens, and the joy you always put into bringing things to life.
Love and miss you,
Karen
May 1, 2021
May 1, 2021
Mom,

Six years have come and gone since you passed away, and you are with us as much as ever! Now Dad has joined you and Curt. You are all sorely missed, but Kim and I know you are in a better place. Every time a lily blooms in my garden, I think of you and how much you loved flowers. You live on in our hearts and memories in every beautiful growing plant we see. Love Karen
July 3, 2020
July 3, 2020
Mom,

Yesterday was your birthday, and I thought about you. Dad is with you now, and I hope you're both with Curt. You waited patiently for many years. Rest now and know that all is well. We miss you and love you!! OXOXO Karen
May 1, 2020
May 1, 2020
It's been five years now, Mom, and you are missed as much today as ever! Love you always, Karen
July 2, 2019
July 2, 2019
Today's your birthday, Mom, and true to form, today is the first day of bloom for the lilies in my garden! Love you always, Karen
May 1, 2019
May 1, 2019
Mom, It's been four years today since you passed. You are forever remembered and loved in our hearts! Your absence in our lives is eased by the knowledge that you are at peace and in a better place. A place that is filled with the joyful companionship of dogs, our most faithful and loyal friends!
Love you forever, Karen
July 2, 2018
July 2, 2018
Mom, today would have been your 93rd birthday. I think you would find it remarkable to know you reached your 90th! Those Murray genes got you there, just like your Aunt Mary. With your birthday being the day after mine, there's no chance of letting the day slip by without remembering and thinking about you. So today I'm remembering all those birthday angel food cakes you baked, loaded down with summer strawberries and an entire mixing bowl of whipped cream that you let us slice into just four pieces! Love you now and always, Karen <3
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018
Three years passed, and you are forever in our hearts! Love you always, Mom. Karen

A Mother's Love  by Helen Steiner Rice

A Mother's love is something
That no one can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
And of sacrifice and pain,
It is endless and unselfish
And enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
Or take that love away...
It is patient and forgiving
When all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
Even though the heart is breaking...
It believes beyond believing
When the world around condemns
And it glows with all the beauty
Of the rarest brightest gems...
It is far beyond defining,
It defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
Like the mysteries of creation...
A many splendoured miracle
Man cannot understand
And another wonderous evidence
Of God's tender guiding hand.
July 2, 2017
July 2, 2017
Thinking of you on your birthday, Mom, and remembering how you made all of our birthdays so special! Kim made me an Angel cake with chocolate swirled in and covered it with berries and whip cream just like you used to do. Love and miss you, Karen
May 17, 2017
May 17, 2017
Dear Audrey,
It is not the same here at RiverWoods without you. Fred and i enjoyed
two years having dinner at night with you and Al. we loved your stories about dachshunds and flying and having a garden. you have two daughters who frequently come to be with Al. I'm sure you inspired them
to care and be with him often. Al just sent us a photo of Kim's Blue Tick Hound. I will frame it. Karen is here each week.Kim comes every few months from Montana. Al is lucky to have all three such women.

Love,

Fred & Val England
May 1, 2017
May 1, 2017
It's been two years now since you departed our world, and we miss and love you as much today as we did when you were still with us. We know you are in a better place, one without pain, and that you rest now in peace. You are forever in our hearts & minds, Mom!! Much love always, Karen
July 2, 2016
July 2, 2016
Missing you on your birthday Mom. When I was very young, you let me have my own little garden and you helped plant hollyhocks in it. Our rental farm has lots of flowering plants.. and today a few hollyhocks began to bloom. How fitting!
July 2, 2016
July 2, 2016
Today's your birthday, Mom, and seeing the lilies abloom in my garden reminds me of you!! Love always, Karen
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016
Every time I think of Mom; I think of flowers. She always surrounded herself with cheerful blooms. If I had a flower for each time I've thought of and missed Mom during the past year, I'd have a huge garden!
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016
Great memories of great shared times together do not diminish with time. We had many, and they live on, for which I'm grateful.
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016
Thinking of you and your family and remembering your Mom on this day! Memories help to fill the void left by your Mom.  Enjoy each and every memory of her.
Thinking of you!
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016
Remembering you, Mom, and missing you each and everyday, but especially today. Much love always, Karen

"I still miss those I loved who are no longer with me but I find I am grateful for having loved them. The gratitude has finally conquered the loss." Rita Mae Brown

~Prayer For Well-Being ~
May all be happy
May all be without suffering
May all think well of one another
May one's destiny be free from sorrow
 Julie Rappaport
July 2, 2015
July 2, 2015
Remembering Mom with loving memories on her birthday today. She is forever in our hearts! Love always, Karen
June 15, 2015
June 15, 2015
Stephanie Bovio remembers: In 1968 Aunt Audrey picked me up at Logan Airport and delivered me to college in Boston. That was the beginning of special relationship. We loved to spend hours at antique shops; we both loved dogs and Aunt Audrey had the best, each with a unique personality: Hans, Angus, Ian, Schatzie, Caleb & Clint. Dave, the girls & I will miss cross country skiing and wonderful days at the pool. Aunt Audrey & Uncle Spec always welcomed us in their home. We have many fond memories and we will miss her so.  Love, Stephanie
May 30, 2015
May 30, 2015
Among the nicest times Fred and I have had in Winnisquam Lodge at RiverWoods have been our dinners with Audrey and Al. We enjoyed their interests in dachshunds and aviation, but we especially enjoyed them as people. Audrey was so appreciative of Al's care during painful and difficult times. He was unusually considerate of her needs.
   There was a simpatico between us. Our time with Audrey was relatively short, but everything we saw in her is all that we like best in a friend.

   Fred and Val England
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015
I know deeply in my heart, there is no real death, only to the vehicle we use to carry our souls...Audrey is a wonderful soul, that has just crossed over to another dimension, that we cannot see, but we will feel her presence many times when we quiet our minds...she was always so easy to be around, very caring to humans and animals alike...and loved life and family to it's fullest...she will always be with us...
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015
My Samoyed dog, Kumo (Cloud), and I used to visit Audrey when she lived in Crawford in RiverWoods. They were always overjoyed to see each other.
From Robin Tenny
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015
Your whole family has always been as close to me more than is known by most. I will miss Audrey immensely. She was a true inspiration to my everything since I was a toddler. My sympathies to her passing. janie and family.
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015
Dear Karen, Kim and Family,
Henry and I have so many great memories of your mom...always connected with flying! We enjoyed the many times we had the opportunity to go to Fly-Ins together, special flying trips and landing somewhere and walking to a restaurant for lunch. Of course, Henry added that after carefully reviewing the menu...your mom and dad would always order a BLT! :) One flying trip that was memorable was the trip to Eastport Maine and staying at a cabin for two nights. We always enjoyed calling them and saying, "Hey, are you up for a trip to Markey's for supper? Meet us at the Hampton airport!" Most often along with your mom and dad would be Carol and George and off we would go to get some clams...steamers for your mom! On the ride we would visit about our kids and what they were up to and this, that and everything...always a good time. Another special time was the 50th anniversary party at the Balsams. The was great! They shared a few milestone family birthday celebrations at our home for us and became part of our extended family. Our son Heath and daughter Kate were also fond of Audrey and were sad to learn of her passing. We are so glad that we had the opportunity to know her and spend time with her over the years. Love, from the entire Lynch Family
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015
Audrey Speckman will live on in the memories of all those whose lives she touched. She will be missed , but not forgotten. Airlines, airplanes,
ski mountains here and abroad, family, and deeply rooted friendships -
all paint a beautiful collage.
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015
Audrey Speckman will live on in the lasting memories of all those whose lives she touched. She will surely be missed, but always remembered. Airplanes, airlines. ski mountains here and abroad,
and deeply rooted friendships - all paint a beautiful collage.
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015
Karen and Kim,
  Cherish the memories and know she left you with so much in her years here. There is a part of her within both of you and at the quietest of moments you will hear her. 
   So sorry for your loss and am thinking of you today, Mother's Day and knowing she is too.
With my deepest Sympathy,
Susan Schafer
May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015
One Christmas, Aunt Audrey sent me one of my all time favorite books, "Island of the Blue Dolphins". Another gift, a confirmation gift I think, was a lovely tiny pewter Celtic cross. Favorite memories are visits to the wonderful house with the quarry pool and getting acquainted with whatever much loved canine (some huge, some small) was in residence. Aunt Audrey and Uncle Spec made us very welcome whenever we could visit. I wish we had been able to visit more often. We are thinking of you all.
May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015
Some of my fondest summer memories are from visits to Aunt Audrey's house...
 -picking blueberries
 -making forts and secret passages in the rocks
 -floating on "Miss Allie" the alligator in the pool
 -playing with all the troll dolls

Rest peacefully Aunt Audrey, you were loved!
May 5, 2015
May 5, 2015
There is one woman known to many of us, and as each human creature knows but one on earth, and it is upon our knowledge of that woman that we base our certitude - Olive Schreiner 1911
May 5, 2015
May 5, 2015
Thich Nhat Hanh in “No Death, No Fear”

“The day my mother died I wrote in my journal, “A serious misfortune of my life has arrived.” I suffered for more than one year after the passing away of my mother. But one night, in the highlands of Vietnam, I was sleeping in the hut in my hermitage. I dreamed of my mother. I saw myself sitting with her, and we were having a wonderful talk. She looked young and beautiful, her hair flowing down. It was so pleasant to sit there and talk to her as if she had never died. When I woke up it was about two in the morning, and I felt strongly that I had never lost my mother. The impression that my mother was still with me was very clear. I understood then that the idea of having lost my mother was just an idea. It was obvious in that moment that my mother is always alive in me.
  I opened the door and went outside. The entire hillside was bathed in moonlight. It was a hill covered with tea plants, and my hut was set behind the temple halfway up. Walking slowly in the moonlight through the rows of tea plants, I noticed my mother was still with me. She was the moonlight caressing me as she had done so often, very tender, very sweet…wonderful! Each time my feet touched the earth I knew my mother was there with me. I knew this body was not mine but a living continuation of my mother and my father and my grandparents and great-grandparents. Of all my ancestors. Those feet that I saw as “my” feet were actually “our” feet. Together my mother and I were leaving footprints in the damp soil.
  From that moment on, the idea that I had lost my mother no longer existed. All I had to do was look at the palm of my hand, feel the breeze on my face or the earth under my feet to remember that my mother is always with me, available at any time.”

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July 2, 2023
July 2, 2023
Happy Birthday, Mom!! Your lily bloomed this morning, right on schedule, and the first one of the season as usual! Love and miss you always, Karen
May 1, 2023
May 1, 2023
Mom, eight years have passed and you are missed as much now as then! Deb is up visiting us in VT at the moment and we toasted you and Nancy last night. I think she is the perfect person to gift one of your handmade Icelandic sweaters to - Deb speaks often and fondly of you as her 2nd Mom. You were one of the best!!! Much love always, Karen
July 3, 2022
July 3, 2022
Mom, it barely seems like 7 years have slipped by since you passed away. I thought of you yesterday on your birthday - I wasn't at home to see whether your lily bloomed, right on time, but I trust that it did. A most sweet remembrance of the sweetest mom! Love you now, love you always, Karen
Recent stories

From Granddaughter, Johanna

May 11, 2015

This is the poem I'd like you to post for Grandma. Everyone knows how much she loved her dogs, and it made me sad that she didn't get to spend any time with dogs during her last years. I'll never forget how she perked up and smiled when I showed her a picture of Gatsby the last time that I visited her in November. I hope this is what happened for her.

 

The Rainbow Bridge by Unknown Author
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. 
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, 
That pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. 
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends 
So they can run and play together. 
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, 
And our 
friends are warm and comfortable. 

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. 
Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, 
Just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. 
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; 
They each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. 

They all run and play together, but the day comes when
One suddenly stops and looks into the distance. 
His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. 
Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, 
His legs carrying him faster and faster. 

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, 
You cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. 
The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, 
And you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, 
So long gone from your life but never absent from your heart. 

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together.... 

Children's Poem "Love You Forever" by Robert Munsch

May 9, 2015

A mother held her new baby and very slowly rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And while she held him, she sang:

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be.

The baby grew. He grew and he grew and he grew. He grew until he was two years old, and he ran all around the house. He pulled all the books off the shelves. He pulled all the food out of the refrigerator and he took his mother's watch and flushed it down the toilet. Sometimes his mother would say, "this kid is driving me CRAZY!"

But at night time, when that two-year-old was quiet, she opened the door to his room, crawled across the floor, looked up over the side of his bed; and if he was really asleep she picked him up and rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. While she rocked him she sang:

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be.

The little boy grew. He grew and he grew and he grew. He grew until he was nine years old. And he never wanted to come in for dinner, he never wanted to take a bath, and when grandma visited he always said bad words. Sometimes his mother wanted to sell him to the zoo!

But at night time, when he was asleep, the mother quietly opened the door to his room, crawled across the floor and looked up over the side of the bed. If he was really asleep, she picked up that nine-year-old boy and rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And while she rocked him she sang:

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be.

The boy grew. He grew and he grew and he grew. He grew until he was a teenager. He had strange friends and he wore strange clothes and he listened to strange music. Sometimes the mother felt like she was in a zoo!

But at night time, when that teenager was asleep, the mother opened the door to his room, crawled across the floor and looked up over the side of the bed. If he was really asleep she picked up that great big boy and rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. While she rocked him she sang:

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be.

That teenager grew. He grew and he grew and he grew. He grew until he was a grown-up man. He left home and got a house across town. But sometimes on dark nights the mother got into her car and drove across town.  If all the lights in her son's house were out, she opened his bedroom window, crawled across the floor, and looked up over the side of his bed. If that great big man was really asleep she picked him up and rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And while she rocked him she sang:

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be.

Well, that mother, she got older. She got older and older and older. One day she called up her son and said, "You'd better come see me because I'm very old and sick." So her son came to see her. When he came in the door she tried to sing the song. She sang:

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always...

But she couldn't finish because she was too old and sick. The son went to his mother. He picked her up and rocked her back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And he sang this song:

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my Mommy you'll be.

When the son came home that night, he stood for a long time at the top of the stairs. Then he went into the room where his very new baby daughter was sleeping. He picked her up in his arms and very slowly rocked her back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And while he rocked her he sang:

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be.

Kim’s Memories of Mom

May 9, 2015

I was maybe four when Mom bought nice, new white bedspreads with bright blue flowers all over them for the twin beds in my room.  Mom loved flowers, so I got a pair of scissors and cut bunches of flowers out of the bedspreads and  gave them to her.  I don’t remember if I got in trouble, but I do remember that Mom sat down and sewed all those flowers, by hand, back into those bedspreads.

On my first day of school in second grade, I wore brand new pair of shoes. I walked to school in those days and by the end of the day I had angry, raw blisters on both heels.  I miserably limped toward home. A couple blocks from our house I sat down on the curb and had myself a good cry. Before I knew it, Mom was there. I don’t remember what she said or did, all I know is that she was there for me when I needed her, and she made everything all better.

Mom made huge Easter baskets for us every year.  They were covered in colored cellophane tied with  satin ribbons, and they were filled with lots of chocolates and jelly beans. Easter is still my favorite holiday!

Birthdays meant Mom’s angel food cake.  She always let us split a whole cake between us, saying “it’s mostly air” and we smothered our pieces with lots of ice cream and fresh strawberries!

I had three best Christmases thanks to Mom. The first was when I was four or five. I begged for a pink plastic toy called “Penny the Poodle”. Mom said it was a stupid toy and told me she wouldn’t spend good money on such junk… but she did!  A couple years later I really wanted a “Fright Factory”, and once again, Mom came through.  The very best Christmas of all was when I was eleven, and Mom surprised me with a black velvet covered helmet and a riding crop. 

And there were all those lessons…  First, Mom took me to ballet lessons hoping it might make me a bit more graceful. When this proved to be hopeless, she let me switch over to tumbling.  Next, Mom took me to art lessons (because she thought I had talent… not so much!).  Eventually, Mom was able to engineer things so I could have the horseback riding lessons that really I longed for. Dad wasn’t keen about horses (he said he didn’t trust anything that ate while he slept (?!), but Mom talked him into it, and she never seemed to tire of the mind-numbing hours watching me going around in circles trying to learn how to sit a canter & post a trot.  Later, when a horse-owner neighbor had to move away and wasn’t able to take her horses, Mom told Dad that one would likely be put down if we didn’t adopt him, and so I got my first horse. My biggest dream had come true!

Once, when Mom was helping “muck” out the horse barn by pushing the wheelbarrow out to the manure pile, she slipped and fell headlong into the pile. I tried hard not to laugh, but Mom could see I was holding it back, and that made her laugh, Then we both just busted up laughing. Thanks to Mom, horses have remained a central part of my life to this very day. 

Yes, Mom really spoiled me: when I was in high school she let me paint the furniture in my bedroom bright orange, and when I was in college she agreed to have the walls in my bedroom (in her new house) painted purple.

During my freshman year at the University of New Hampshire, I came down with a bad case of strep throat. Mom and Dad were out of town, so I called them to say I was headed home.  When I got there, I crawled right into bed and feverishly passed out.  What seemed like a short time later, I opened my eyes only to find that Mom was there holding my hand.  She had talked Dad into turning around and coming right back home.

Mom was always game for any crazy adventure.  Following my junior year in college I took a summer job in Grand Teton National Park.  At the end of the season Mom flew out and we drove back across the country together.  My favorite memory of that trip was camping out in a tent alongside the Missouri River. The mosquitoes were thick and it was raining. We dumped Jell-O cheesecake mix in a water bottle, shook it up and drank it for dinner. We listened to the radio and Mom seemed to really enjoy herself, but we both got thoroughly sick of listening to one song that played over and over and over again: “…like walkin’ on broken gla-aa-ass…”

Another camping adventure worthy of mention was the time we (along with Dad) camped out of the back of my Datsun pick-up truck during a snowstorm at Pueblo Bonita in northwest New Mexico.

Have I mentioned Mom’s hats?  Mom loved hats: big brimmed sun hats, helmet type ski caps, big furry hats, you- name- it hats. I think the only hat I never saw Mom in was a ball cap.

Mom was a glutton for punishment. She unhesitatingly hopped into the front seat of an old Aeronca Champ while I was a very green pilot learning to fly tail-draggers from the back seat.

Her love for dogs is widely acknowledged.  Mom didn’t always remember the names of people she met, but she never forgot their dog’s name.  She loved elegant dogs, Irish Wolfhounds in particular.  When I moved to Alaska and wasn’t able to take my dog Caleb; Mom agreed to adopt him.  The only snag was that Caleb was a far cry from a Wolfhound.  He was in fact, just a mangy old Bluetick Hound, but Mom loved him nonetheless.

Mom had a good sense of humor and she really liked O.J.  A year or so after we eloped, O.J. told Mom the courthouse forgot to have us sign the marriage license, and since we were in the middle of a move, the  notification of this fact never caught up to us for the better part of a year.  Mom smiled and said “well now you have a second chance, so why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?”

Perhaps the thing I hold dearest in my heart about my Mom was how she always seemed sincerely interested in every utterly boring thing I wanted to talk about, and she always laughed and acted as though I was the funniest person she knew. 

When I think of Mom, I think of so many things… French toast and mimosas, walks on the beach, puppy dogs, bouquets of fresh-cut flowers, watercolor paintings, sterling silver, and candle-lit dinners every night of the week. Mom made everything extra special and I miss her with all my heart.

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