Hey austin I miss you bro happy new year... it seems like just yesterday when youd be at my house kicking it with chilling and playing call of duty. I miss you homie. Save me a place up there.

This is a new year and one closer to being with you son. Miss you like crazy. Give anything to just be able to throw the football with you again. My heart will never be put back together without you . I love you son! Daddy will see you soon.

Austin, I miss you so much. My life has changed so much since you left to go be with our Lord in Heaven, Some times I wonder just how my heart is still beating. I don't really know how it keeps going. I really thought the day you left I would not be here any longer than 6 months at the most. That I would be with you in Heaven with our Lord. It's been 3 years and 7 days now since you left, I am still here. I know that one day I will be with you again, to never be apart again. God has Promise me that. I worry about your Daddy, I guess maybe God wants me to keep looking out for him. I see the hurt, and pain he carries with him every day. It hurts so bad, I can't take away the pain like I could when he was a child.I pray for him every day. They say with time the pain I feel and carry in my Heart will heal. No I don't think so. It some times feels like my Heart is going to burst .Don't think I am not grateful for my life here, I am. I just miss you so much and want to put my arms around you and hold you like I did that last night we were together. I thank God for the time he let me have you here on earth. But I still miss you. I will always remember the last words you said to me on that Christmas night, You said Ganna I love you more. then you ran down stairs and was laughing, because I couldn't catch you and tell you, No I love you more. I remember looking down the stairs and seeing you laughing,and that Beautiful smile on your face. I thank God I am able to remember that last night.when I think of the smile you had on your face that night, it brings a smile to my face. People have told me I need to let you go, but as you know I can't do that. I never will be able to. I guess you know that by now. Austin, I'll stop for now, but remember that I LOVE you and MISS you so very much. Never forget this my baby boy. Please don't forget our promise we made , I Love you, never forget. Love you Austin, Ganna

Happy New year son! I wish that you and I were together but we will be really soon. My life is hardly worth living since you been gone. You were the one person I knew I could count on no matter what everyone else thought, you loved me unconditionally and I miss your love son! You are the one person that if something happened I knew you would still love me and not withdraw from me and you never did anything to hurt me, ever! I love and miss you so much! Only God understands the true pain that I'm living now. It's by no means easy as I have come so close to ending it myself just because I can't take anymore! No one knows of cause I haven't and don't have anyone I can talk to that even cares. Like I said when you left I have no one else son. God I hope I'm with you soon! This life here is only suffering for me. I love you and hope to see you soon my son! Watch for Daddy!

Hey Austin, I miss you buddy and I love you so much! I can't wait til I am with you again soon.

Hello my boy, I am just laying here missing you so badly and wanting toput my arms aaround you so bad son, that the pain is so alive in me it feels like ice needles going throughout my insides. I often as in always have you heavy on my heart and mind. When you left son, a major part of me died that morning along with you! I only now wait until Jesus sends those angles to come and get me to bring me to reunite with you. That day cannot come soon enough for me if it was yesterday! I want to be with you now . I pray each day for God to end my suffering and let me die now! My life Austin, was only a real life when I had you son! You made me feel that I was loved by someone special even if no one elsein the world did. I need you Austin! I love more than anything in this world my precious son! Your daddy wants to get to you very bad! I am so sorry that I let you down. I pray Austin that you can forgive me? Goodnight sleep well my son, daddy misses you always! Til I see you again know i am always thinking of that day that is coming! I love you my son!