Happy 35th Birthday B. We love and miss you every day. I wish you could see how grown up our babies are getting. Our oldest is about to start driving. They are both so smart, you would be so proud. Love you always!!

I was just reading my journal from around the time we met..and most ofthat first year....we were so happy and looking forward to a long life together...even if we couldnt be together in the end it would be the most wonderful thing to have you here to help raise our boys who are struggling so bad with the fact of losing you...i know all things happen for a reason and god took you to be with him for a reason but knowing that doesnt fix all the hurt and pain that was left behind...families have been torn apart and our poor babies lives have been destroyed...they r precious and im not really sure how to fix this for them or if it even can be fixed...tomorrow marks the one year anniversary of you being taken off life support...last night would have been the night your neurologist called me at the nurses station to say he agreed from the new testing your brain is gone...on the 9 th you would have had the most horrific seizure that felt as if it last forever...i held your hand, cried, amd begged the nurse to save you...logically i knew she could not she had done all she could do and the rest was up to you and god himself...i knew id lost you forever at that point, and it hurt like hell...no matter how much i begged you and god to let u come back to me and our boys your body just was not strong enough...i still feel so much lain over your loss, and no matter how im moving on i dont think the pain will ever go away completely...you are forever loved and every anniversary is still so fresh in my mind leading all the way up to the end...i love u and so do so many others...R.I.H

Its been almost two years this valentines day since u went to heaven...It feels like so much longer...Wish u were still here to see our two handsome boys grow up...they are amazing...

So many memories!!!! I remember when everyone was over at my apartment in Jeffersonville and Karla went with me to take a pregnancy test and she said I will just take one for FUN!!!! Lol boom there was Josh!!!!! It was amazing to be there when Josh was born!!! I remember coming out to the house in Corydon and hanging out... Wish you were still here to see your boys grow up, they're amazing!!!!! I'm sure you're looking down on them and watching over them

So many great memories with my brother. Wish I had a chance to relive them with him. Like the time I had a brand new white shirt on and he had this great ideal to throw a hand full of mud on it. Or when we went to get his 300z from Louisville and we raced back across the bridge. I was a fresh drive just learning to drive a stick, so I loss. Loosing you Brian is one of the roughest things I've had to deal with. I can't stand to walk into your home because I want to brake down. As much as I'd love to see your boys more often, I just can't deal with it. Tho that oldest boy is a spitting image of you. So many great memories with you that'll never be forgotten. I thank about you every signal day. I see your pic every singal day I walk into my home and/or open that tool box at work and just can't wait to get to spend anther day with you. Can't wait to work on anther car together and watch you get butthurt and hit it with a wrench. I remember how much you loved chase and i wish you could of met carter. I love you brother and I wish everything would of happened differently. I thank back to that night every damn day and just wish I'd of heard my phone. Just wish I'd of been awake because I wouldn't be feeling the pain I feel along with others. Wish life had a rewind button. With love from my family and I, RIP Brian Justin Lawson. We miss the hell out of you.