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This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Carl Spencer, 69 years old, born on February 17, 1946, and passed away on August 20, 2015. We will remember him forever.

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Cheryl Spencer
August 20, 2016
August 20, 2016
Oh my god I didn't believe that I would ever hurt as much as when losing you but it's killing me I don't know how people gone it's hell every single day I miss u so bad !! I want you back more than anything I ever wanted in my life I'm mad I'm deviate Ed I feel so cheated of how our lives were meant to be !!! I love you with every breath I take. I want to b e with you and there is no way at all to make that happen I can't do anything to be able to hold you feel your love touch you !! Nothing and that so registrations . Everyday I have to make it thru knowing I can't see you or talk to you , or see the way you looked at me with so much love and say I Love You Baby and kiss my lips .. After all the pain and suffering wanting the pain to leave , it now starts all over but somehow it's so much worse !! Maybe realizing you really will never come back !! I just love and miss you mr Carl Spencer , you were and always will be my million dollar man I love you sweetheart now an forever .... And Alyssa loves and misses you with all her heart !! You will always b her hero
Cheryl Spencer
June 1, 2016
June 1, 2016
My darlin husband , i love you sweetheart i miss u more than u could imagine ! i catch myself living in the past all the time its a little easier that way, i relive our days together in my mind and my heart comes alive as if your still with me it feels so great i just want to stay there i just want you so bad !! i picture u laughing and i laugh, i close my eyes and i remember how it felt to be in your arms i can almost touch u , i remember how we laughed so hard, held each other and tell jokes, and how we could just lay there and not say a word but feel each others love ... we shared the best i love you with all my heart ! as long as i remember how much we love each other and can hear your voice and feel you i get by, it ddont seem possible your gone, i still chase you or go to call you when excited and want to tell you something, or see a van that looks like yours i go to yell , you are forever with me . at times when it hits me that your really never coming home that your really gone it kills me i cant take the hurt its horrible.... i dont let myself go there. everytime i think of us i smile , my heart comes alive ! you are the one and only million dollar man , you are the only one of a kind most amazing man in the universe the best of everything .. i love you sweetheart heart an soul !
Cheryl Spencer
June 1, 2016
June 1, 2016
dad.i miss you and love u with all my heart u were a good father to me and i love it when you bought me stuff you was a good father.
Cheryl Spencer
February 25, 2016
February 25, 2016
my darlin husband i havent got to b here for awhile im sorry ! it has been so hard ,a new yr without u still so hard to deal with.. valentines passed boy it sucked i didnt even wanna get up i hated it!!!!! and then your 70th birthday wow, that really really sucked i had to sigh some papers at alyssas school an when had to date it automatically i put 2-17-46 omg it hit me like a car ran over me i got so sick inside i just froze so lost, it was horrible .. the lady corrected me i just said i know just give me a min. it is so so hard i miss you so much i love u more an more and cant even tell you. we were to spend both our lives to gether till death we both part not me without you!! i love you with all my heart mr spencer... you are my world my happiness my everything... i love you forever an ever...
Cheryl Spencer
January 1, 2016
January 1, 2016
My precious husband, I love you sweetheart with all my heart an soul ! It is 4 min until the new yr I have been trying to avoid but it is happening anyway oh my God it is ripping me apart without you.. but I'm happy for you it's the first day of a brand new year for you living a new life whole and happy with jesus. That makes me happy , I love you Carl happy new yr sweetheart fireworks are going off so it's 2016 this second..... I miss you soooo bad these seconds right now had u still been with me I would b in your strong arms you bending to kiss me just like our first kiss then looking me in my eyes you would tell me you love me and can see and feel it , just as much as you knew when I tell you., then we would laugh and squeeze each other and say happy new yr... I would give my life to have this moment ... Happy new yr honey I love you
Cheryl Spencer
December 18, 2015
December 18, 2015
My darlin husband I love you and miss u more everyday, it's devastating without you ! I always told you I loved u more each day and did , but now I miss u more each day . I would give my life to feel your arms around me once more or be able to see you wink and say I love you baby . I know it can't happen but I want that more than anything .. I know I am blessed so much to have the gift I have ,, I do see you every single night I sleep you are in every dream I have whether it's funny or so real , or were really old or young , whatever it is I dream you are in my dream !!! I thought it was odd that the first woks you were in my dreams every night but after 4 mos I just realized oh my god that's it it's not just odd or just special I am sooo true my blessed, you are showing me every single day you are with me, that is the last thing I asked you to do some way some how I needed to know you were with me or I couldn't make it with out you ,,, wow I'm still the luckiest woman ever!!! You continue still to show me your love !!! I love you Carl earnest Spencer!!!!
Cheryl Spencer
December 18, 2015
December 18, 2015
My darlin husband I love you and miss u more everyday, it's devastating without you ! I always told you I loved u more each day and did , but now I miss u more each day . I would give my life to feel your arms around me once more or be able to see you wink and say I love you baby . I know it can't happen but I want that more than anything .. I know I am blessed so much to have the gift I have ,, I do see you every single night I sleep you are in every dream I have whether it's funny or so real , or were really old or young , whatever it is I dream you are in my dream !!! I thought it was odd that the first woks you were in my dreams every night but after 4 mos I just realized oh my god that's it it's not just odd or just special I am sooo true my blessed, you are showing me every single day you are with me, that is the last thing I asked you to do some way some how I needed to know you were with me or I couldn't make it with out you ,,, wow I'm still the luckiest woman ever!!! You continue still to show me your love !!! I love you Carl earnest Spencer!!!!
Cheryl Spencer
November 5, 2015
November 5, 2015
Carl, I love you with all my heart , I wish ide wake and this all been a horrible dream ! But everyday I wake and realize its not , you are really gone and never coming back... it's horrible I see you , I hear your voice I get so excited inside but find its just another. Then I get sick inside !! I dream and your there it feels so great, but I wake and find it was just a dream.. I hurry to try and sleep again before ur gone but it's to late... people say it gets easier well I hope their right Caz all I see is its harder, the pain grows, the missing you is more ! The heartache gets heavier, it's. Horrible the love of my life, the man I was to spend the rest of my life with isn't here, and isn't ever coming back.... I go to your grave almost everyday and I talk to you , set with you then I feel crazy I know your not there your in heaven. ... but still I have to be near u somehow, we'll sweetheart today was our anniversary of our 1st wedding .it's been a bad day all day, but I can look forward to sleeping where I'll spend our anniversary with you !!!!!    All my love darl'n...
Cheryl Spencer
November 1, 2015
November 1, 2015
To the most amazing man, I Love You Sweetheart , and Miss you soooo soooo bad everyday !!!! You gave me so much love , and showed me what true love is , you made me a better person , Thank You for Loving Me, and giving me your best .... I love you !!!!

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Cheryl Spencer
August 20, 2016
August 20, 2016
Oh my god I didn't believe that I would ever hurt as much as when losing you but it's killing me I don't know how people gone it's hell every single day I miss u so bad !! I want you back more than anything I ever wanted in my life I'm mad I'm deviate Ed I feel so cheated of how our lives were meant to be !!! I love you with every breath I take. I want to b e with you and there is no way at all to make that happen I can't do anything to be able to hold you feel your love touch you !! Nothing and that so registrations . Everyday I have to make it thru knowing I can't see you or talk to you , or see the way you looked at me with so much love and say I Love You Baby and kiss my lips .. After all the pain and suffering wanting the pain to leave , it now starts all over but somehow it's so much worse !! Maybe realizing you really will never come back !! I just love and miss you mr Carl Spencer , you were and always will be my million dollar man I love you sweetheart now an forever .... And Alyssa loves and misses you with all her heart !! You will always b her hero
Cheryl Spencer
June 1, 2016
June 1, 2016
My darlin husband , i love you sweetheart i miss u more than u could imagine ! i catch myself living in the past all the time its a little easier that way, i relive our days together in my mind and my heart comes alive as if your still with me it feels so great i just want to stay there i just want you so bad !! i picture u laughing and i laugh, i close my eyes and i remember how it felt to be in your arms i can almost touch u , i remember how we laughed so hard, held each other and tell jokes, and how we could just lay there and not say a word but feel each others love ... we shared the best i love you with all my heart ! as long as i remember how much we love each other and can hear your voice and feel you i get by, it ddont seem possible your gone, i still chase you or go to call you when excited and want to tell you something, or see a van that looks like yours i go to yell , you are forever with me . at times when it hits me that your really never coming home that your really gone it kills me i cant take the hurt its horrible.... i dont let myself go there. everytime i think of us i smile , my heart comes alive ! you are the one and only million dollar man , you are the only one of a kind most amazing man in the universe the best of everything .. i love you sweetheart heart an soul !
Cheryl Spencer
June 1, 2016
June 1, 2016
dad.i miss you and love u with all my heart u were a good father to me and i love it when you bought me stuff you was a good father.
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memories dont fade

December 15, 2015
by erica sawyers

I love and miss you dad i think about you everyday life is not the same without you i constantly think about you youre ALWAYS in my heart forever on my mind keep smiling down on me youre the best dad and a hard memory to forget i love you carl spencer

 


my dad is my hero ....

November 2, 2015
by Cheryl Spencer

My dad is the best dad ever hr loved me more than anything he would always tell me I was what made. Him alive, my dad loved going to fairs and carnivals Caz he got a kick out of watching me on rides and he loved getting me an mom the biggest stuffed animal they had and me dad and my mom would get buckets of rings and throw on bottles for knifes sometime I got my dad alot... my dad beat me at races and games and liked to scare me and mom he would hide and wait on us and grab us my dad loved to sick we always got cupcakes or cookies at harmony house everyday after school and my dad loved to play play do with me him and my mom always would make same things almost dad made a arm mom made a foot we always had fun.I miss my dad everyday I want him to come home I'm glad my dad don't hurt and me and my mom got to be with him when he went to heaven but I still miss him I love you dad you make me happy

One In A Million..

November 1, 2015
by Cheryl Spencer

Carl was a a very special man ,he was the most loving, caring ,funny ,big hearted, intelligent man, I've ever known ...everyday with him I loved ,he made me laugh more than I've ever laughed he showed me more love than I could ever imagine .I didn't never have to worry about anything no matter what it was he would take care of it !! if I really wanted something he would tell the person I don't care what it takes she wants it make it happen ,,I learned years ago don't look at anything twice because if I did he would go behind me and buy it and surprise me with it later,. Carl loved life, love meeting people, having fun taking trips, and most of all being with me, and the girls ,especially Alyssa. Alyssa was Carl's heart he loves that little girl more than his self or anything... they made each other laugh everyday,, carl got the biggest kick out of teasing erica, and darrinda he would do something or say something.and set back and laugh waiting for them to get it...and shayna he had more expectations for he was stronger with her,,  he cried when he found out she was making accomplishments said he was so proud of her and that he would b sittn on the front row when she graduates..and he still will b in spirit.. Carl showed me what real love is  and I'm so blessed that God gave him to me for the time he did, I got to experience more love, and happiness in that time than ever in my entire life !!!  I Love You Carl Spencer Forever In My Heart And MIND ... Your One in a Million..  I Love You.....

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