chris and i first met at southend bus station we had spoke on phone and decided to meet up .i remember the first time i saw chris dressed in white blouse and black and white check dress chris looked lovely . we decided to walk along seafront .we stopped at esplenade pub and told each other our life stories .chris was 40 i was 41 .the year was 1991 i remember on my way home bus stopped at carpenters arms roundabout and didnt go any further i didnt mind i had to walk into wickford .didnt matter i had met a lovely lady .i asked chris to marry me in keddies restuarant chris was shocked and wanted time to think about it .we got married 23-7 1994 we was both so happy its was a boiling hot day .we had18 years of happy marriage .chris was diagnosed with bowel cancer in may 2011 it was terminal the news tore my heart apart i was so in love with chris why did it happen to such a lovely lady i tried everything i could thing of to save clinical trials was last chance but didnt work chris died july 26th i wish it had been me instead of chris no one has ever gave me so much happyness love you always and forever chris