It's hard to believe it has been 5 years.  I still miss you every minute of every hour of every day!  There was so much more I wanted to do with you and your family.  Now the family is living out of state and I only get to spend time with them a few days each year.  Your daughters are the sunshine of my life and I love them more than anything.  Madelyn is growing up so fast and becoming such a great person.  Christiana is also growing up too fast, but is always a joy to be around her.  She is a very smart young girl.  Angela is doing an amazing job of being a mother to all the children, she is definitely a very strong woman and I admire her greatly.

I love you son and miss you more than words can describe.  

You are "Forever Missed"

Dad 

Today it's been two years.  Two years, but seems like only a heartbeat.  I still miss you each and every day.  I don't think that will ever change.  The pain I felt in my heart when I first was told you had taken your own life has dimenished, but the emptiness is still as strong, if not stronger today.  I will stop by and brush the dirt and sand off your grave marker today, and I will say a few words to you again.  I can only hope that you can hear them and know how much I still love and respect you.  You are my one and only son and that will never change.  Your little Christiana is growing up so fast, she is already 16 months old and looks so much like you when you were that age.  Madelyn is becoming more beautiful every day and starts 2nd grade tomorrow.  I will cherish and protect these two for the rest of my life.  

With all my love,

Dad 

The words come very hard today.  Each day I try to concentrate on all the good times we had together and each day the joy turns to tears of sorrow.   I never thought I could miss someone as much as I miss you being here.  I tell myself and know in my heart that you are in a better place now, but several times a day I fall back to being selfish and wanting to be with you, to touch you, to talk with you and hear your voice.  Today I am going to do my best to stay happy, joyous and free and celebrate your life and avoid being selfish.  I want to honor you today and have joy in my heart.  I will be spending time with friends and family and we will all be thinking of you and all the good times.  I love you with all my heart and am looking forward to the day we can once again be together.  

Happy Birthday my son, may you rest in peace.

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 You fit alot of wonderful things into your dash, you are sorely missed.

There'll be two dates on your tombstone

Everyone will read them

But the only thing that matters

Is the little dash between them

Vivelife