ts going on five years since your passing and i still miss you like crazy!  I still talk to you everyday and I know your with me its just not the same as you being with me.  Were together everyday and it was always an adventure.  You were not a boring person and you always wanted to put a smile on my face and you would.  I was hoping you would of been coming to me more in my dreams its been awhile.   Then last night I was woken up by you I could see you but you looked far away then as i woke more I seen you more clearly.  I kept calling you. You wouldnt answer me you just stood there with big smile on your face.  I tried to touch you but couldnt I wanted you to say something.  You just kept smiling.  You had been watching me sleep then you were gone.  I felt such a peace and calmness within that I havent felt since you been gone,  Then I remembered one day when you were sleeping you opened one eye and seen me staring at you and you asked I said "I never want to forget what you look lke"  and you said Ok and went back to sleep. I'll always Love You CL!!

This Christmas will be my second Christmas without you.  I will always remember how you loved this time of year, how we would go and get a tree and you would cut it down and bring it home and you and the kids would decorate it oh how you loved to decorate the tree, house and put the lights up.  I can still see your face smiling when the kids opened up the presents it brought so much joy to your iife to bring them Joy.   You were a Great father and husband, you had a heart of gold, and I thank GOD for allowing me to be your wife we had a lot of good times and great memories.  I know your in a better place but I just miss you so so much and my life will never be the same and Christmas is so lonely without you, I know you want me to carry on as before, I will try cause I know you want our grandaughters and grandsons to enjoy themselves and to know how much you loved this day.  I know you will be with us when we open up the presents we will always include you. I love you dad and my heart and soul belong to you   Forever Yours  your Sue

Me & you go a long way back, and we were best friends right from the start. You were always there for me when tears i shed you wiped them away and made me feel whole again. We lost touch for a few years in which so much had gone wrong in my life.  Then once again there you were to make all things right. You took me in and helped me out you made me see that I could be anything I wanted to be. You stood by me through thick  and thin, you helped me get my kids back and raised them as your own you are the only father that they ever known and you showed them so much Love right from the start.  You did this from your Heart. You said to me "I am going to help you raise them till the last one is 18 no matter what happens in between".  You were a hard working man and provided so well for us all, I could never repay you for what you did for us.  Once again time took a turn and we became more then friends, this is when you asked me to be your wife and I said "YES". We did go through so much , up's and down's but no matter what situation I was in you were always there for me.  You loved me unconditionally you were my soul-mate, my husband and best friend.  You have said to me "sue, I never knew love until I met you" and I said "I never felt loved till I met you" When all the kids were out and on their own, it was just me and you.  We had our problems and lived apart for a short time but you were still there for me and I for you.  We couldn't be apart so we moved in togehter once again, I promised you I would always be there for you and take care of you when you got sick. You did the same for me.  I never had to ask or say a thing to you when I needed something you took care of it without saying a word even when I wanted something you made it happen.  When you started getting sick I told you that you had to fight cause I couldnt make it without you and you said " I know Sue You can't"  so I asked you to fight and you did you fought for me.  I was by your side for the whole two months you were in the hospital and no one ever told me that you werent going to make it the doctor said you were well and that the only thing was for you to get your strength back,  so we agreed for me to go to the house get some things and come back and this is when you passed!  I wasn't ready this was not suppose to happen, now how do I go on without you Im so lost and confused and in shock I will never be the same.  I know your in a better place I just wish someone would of told me something then I could of said Goodbye!