Today we had a potluck meal. Long tables, chatting, happy laughter. This reminds me of so many happy family meals, so much happy laughter and Conner in the middle of it all. Today Amara, a little Sunbeam, asked me to tell the story of Adam and Eve for Children's story at church. She volunteered to be the snake, and she was a good snake, inspiring all the actors. She helped choose who would play Adam and Even and God. She reminded me of Cece inspiring siblings, including Conner, into doing their best. Adam was well played and everyone laughed as they would have laughed with Conner. We miss you Conner, this is not the way it was supposed to be. God, as you hold Adam in your heart, we know that you hold Conner in Your heart also.

We remember you, Conner, not just today but day after day throughout the year. You are so very missed. Eight years of wishing and longing to see you and interact with you again, to give you hugs and wish we could have known the unique and fine young man you would be today. We treasure our memories of you and look forward to the day of happy reunions God has in store.

Conner, you are so very greatly missed! We are gathering for a dinner and paint night today with your sisters and cousin, Beth. Lasagna, broccoli and french bread in your honor. Love you always and always. Mom

We continue to miss our much loved grandson, Conner. It has been eight years now. We believe that God's love for him was stronger than ours could be. We can trust that God cares and loves. We long for heaven and the end of sorrow and dying. 

Your 27th birthday Conner! Often/usually a beach celebration. Mark and i were so glad to be at our beach earlier this year. So many memories there. We look forward to being at the sea in the future together.

Today you would turn 27 and who knows where you would be on a life journey. We miss who you would be everyday! Today Dad and I are working down at the beach and Caity is here taking the week off. So many wonderful memories of all you kids growing up here and many family gatherings! Love you forever!

The girls headed to the beach to end Chani and Channin’s Spring Break. Dad and I came for weekend and Topher will be here tomorrow. Cousins Mano and Anthony made it down too. It looks like a rainy weekend so it will be food and games and movies mostly. So many memories here of you growing up. Miss you so much.

I’ve been thinking about you a lot, Conner, and wishing we could hear your happy laughter and see your mischievous smiles. You were so full of life and fun, spreading joy just by being you. Looking forward to the reunion Jesus gives us hope for and experiencing the joy that reunion day will bring. Love and hugs to your dear family today in the missing times.

Every year that passes counts up another 365 days of missing you, of being grateful that you were our family, and hugs and stories stored up to share with you on the golden morning.

Today Dad, Caity, Caroline, Chani, Channin and I gathered with the dogs at the beach house. The kids have a schedule full of beach and food and games for our time together. Cece has joined us by phone and Topher was home from the Army last weekend. We miss you so much!

It is now seven years since we have been able to see, hear or be with you. We miss your smiles and kindness. We hope to see you again when Jesus returns. We want to be ready when "the morning breaks eternal"

Thinking of you, Conner, as I sit at my bedroom/office window and watch the sunset pink, purple, and blue hues streak across the sky. Twenty-six years ago we were so excited to welcome you to the family. I wish you were still here to share in family fun. The sun set too early in your life. I'm looking forward to the day the skies are full of vibrant color when Jesus returns and wakes up our family members, including you, gone too soon. I love that you enjoyed the outdoors and places like the beach. I'm looking forward to hearing more about beauties you enjoyed next time we see you. You are missed and you are loved.

Today we celebrate the joy of your birth, of the years and days we were given. Mark has joined me in looking through the stories shared through e-mails on this site. Pool parties for your birthday, packing to go to the beach, fun camping and many other memories. You are alive in our memory. We long for the day when Jesus comes and you will wake up again in real life!

The days go by fast
Time spent without you here
Miss you every day

We went to the beach house this weekend - Caroline, Chani, the dogs and I. It has been months since we made it there except Topher and the dogs were there in April. The next door neighbor told me a deer was in our yard the day before - in your garden. We planted lupine that I started from seed in our little plastic greenhouse. Hope the deer can visit and those can still thrive to bring color! The rhodies had already finished blooming except for a beautiful pink one near the steps deck. We went swimming which you might not have enjoyed, but the other family fun you would have been right in the middle of. Miss you, kiddo.

Sunshine and cold today. Facebook shows me previous posts on this day of the year with some Winter and some Spring like days amidst family fun. Missing you, Conner! So blessed for all the years you were gifted to us.

Six years where we have grown around the grief. What a helpful picture Caroline posted of how that happens. We still cry. Yet we grow. This year for me, i am not alone, what a blessing that is. Conner, we miss you. We miss your smile, your laughter, your making us laugh. We miss your quiet smile. We have hope.

Dad, Caroline, Chani and I got to spend yesterday at the beach house together. We added some flowering nuns to your garden for a spot of autumn color. We ate and played games and visited the ocean in your memory. The stars were shining when we headed home and I remembered how you slept on the porch to watch the stars in your last summer stay at the beach. Love you always. So eager for the Resurrection Morning Grandpa posted about.

It is now six years since Conner's long rest began.  We all miss his presence and long to see him again. Our prayers are that his family may feel comfort and hope today. Soon Jesus will come to take His family home. 

Its been 25 years since the day out in Boring Oregon when your whole extended family was cheering you out to join us! I spent time looking through pictures today in preparation for a picture book at my wedding. So many happy family times over the years, and you in the middle part of the gang causing a fun ruckus. And since you've been sleeping, it is not so happy, but we continue to celebrate your birthday. And we continue to choose JOY, to look for things to rejoice over. Caroline going to New Zealand, Topher and your dad meeting up with her there, Channin going to Hawaii, lots of meet ups there, Caity going to Arizona, Cece to Korea and more plans - including Mark and i getting married. We miss you each time, and your Grandma Rose. We choose joy and God pours out His love on us, yet we won't be complete until you both, and little Rachelle, are with us again. And I believe that this full joy, when you wake up, is coming soon!

Conner, today you would be 25 years old. And we would be gathering somewhere besides the beach to have a party for you since we would be out here before your day. We miss you and love your forever. Thank you, Father God, for holding our Conner in your hands.

Today would have been Conner's 25th birthday. We miss his presence and his participation in family activities. We look forward with hope to being united again. We pray that each of us will maintain our relationship with Jesus. Grandpa

A heartache time for our family. Missing Conner. A few minutes ago i joined a ZOOM memorial service of a dear friend, her 3 sons separated by continents, only one there, all alone, heartbroken. Conner experienced pain, his own heartache we didn't know of. 5 years have passed by, but our family each are heartbroken on this day. Someday soon it will end, all the heartbreak.

Loving and missing you Conner! Loved seeing Grandpa's post in your memory on 11/15/2020. We were at the beach where we have been gathering to miss you together every year at this time. We didn't have Channin with us to enjoy your favorite peanut butter fried egg sandwich, but we did have eggs and bread in your honor. The Pacific Ocean showed us the magnificence of King tides and storm surf and the surf sang us to sleep at night. Love you every day all the time.

Today is the fifth anniversary of your leaving. We miss you a whole lot and can only imagine how life would be if we could still have you here. We look forward to the resurrection morning and want to be ready every day for Christ's return.

Today we celebrated your birthday with ocean themed cupcakes and trick candles that wouldn't blow out and Topher's dogs howled along with our out of tune Happy Birthday. We played lots of board games and watched the Secondhand Lions movie. We flew the flag of Gondor and since "social distancing" no one asked us what it was. I enjoyed my foray through memories looking for pictures of you and your siblings and the love you shared with us. So many families and friends shared love with us. Our love for you is overflowing.

Conner, you would have liked all the meme's that Auntie Jane is posting. As i read them, laugh and see "funny" in spite of the terrible pandemic and problems all around us, i remember how you also always saw "funny" in spite of what was going on around. Laughter, it was a gift from you. I miss the joy and laughter that lit the room around you. And most of all i miss you. It won't be long now...

Conner, the years keep moving along and I think today of how they are bringing us closer to being reunited with you at the same time as taking us farther away from the last times we had with you. I remember the 4th of July weekend of your birth. Family had gathered together in Portland for the holidays and we all anticipated your arrival. Uncle David had to go back to work in ID, but Justin, Janelle and I stayed behind to welcome you. You were so cherished from the start and still are. We miss you immensely... This week I am preparing for a backpacking trip with Justin and I wonder if that is something you might have joined us on, an adventure in the high Sierras. Miss your laughter and teasing, the banter between siblings and cousins, the special young adult you were.

Dad has been collecting flags, so many unique and beautiful flags, to fly at all sorts of occasions through the year. Two of his newest flags were a South African and a Lebanon flag to fly in honour of some of your uncles and cousins. The latest flag Dad showed me I didn't recognize. It is to fly on your birthday. It is the flag of Gondor from The Lord of the Rings - because you always added "Horn of Gondor" to your birthday wish lists. It is a beautiful flag and it will help us think of you with smiles, tears and love on your birthday.

I've been sorting through pictures to get photos for your baby sister Channin for her high school graduation and college. So many memories to cherish of you and all your siblings and cousins and family and the sweet, sweet times shared together. Love you, my baby boy!

Soon, soon, we will see Jesus coming on the clouds of heaven. We can't wait for you to meet your guardian angel Conner! “Every redeemed one will understand the ministry of angels in his own life. The angel who was his guardian from his earliest moment; the angel who watched his steps, and covered his head in the day of peril; the angel who was with him in the valley of the shadow of death, who marked his resting place, who was the first to greet him in the resurrection morning—what will it be to hold converse with him, and to learn the history of divine interposition in the individual life, of heavenly co-operation in every work for humanity!” Ed 305

Love you always, Conner.

Conner, four years ago i was able to join a marsh mellow grilling on the beach driveway on our 4th of July celebrations just before your birthday. And then as I was spending time later that year to encourage and be encouraged by your Grandmother and my Mom in October, you made a most lovely card for Grandma, telling her how she was your spiritual inspiration. But we didn't know how you were bravely fighting a loosing struggle with depression. We wish we could turn back the clock, we wish we could again give you a hug, say i love you and help you seek help. Your family is so courageous. Not hiding death by suicide. Raising awareness of depression, ways to cry out and crises care, even when every time it opens wounds that are healing, bringing tears and sadness. Now we share about helplines like https://www.crisistextline.uk/ and look out for each other, for friends and for acquaintances. And we still long to see you, play tag in the park, hear your stories and laugh at your funny jokes again. Even so, come Lord Jesus.

We are thankful for the days and years Conner was with us. We miss him today and look forward to a great reunion day before long. Love Grandpa

We are celebrating your birthday today, you would be 23 years old. We have been at the beach where so many of your summer birthdays were spent. Lots of sand time, a little swimming, sunsets to watch, camp fire and fireworks, food and games and movies. Missing you always. Love you forever.

Conner, I miss you every day, but some days like today are harder. It is Mother's Day and I spent the day with Dad and some of your siblings and saw your other two sisters this week. I've been hunting out pictures for the Paris girls and have found some lovely pictures of you from 2006 especially putting up with hanging out during Girl Scout meetings! At least you enjoyed the snacks while you got homework done. I am so blessed to be your mother and have had so many years loving you. I always love you!

Laughter & fun - Conner spread them like sunshine. Everyday there is a hole in life now without him. Hug tighter and more often, travel the distance to see and encourage one another. Connect, offer help, take help, we are in this together.

We have had three years of missing you, Conner. Today your Dad and I and your brother and sisters are at the beach remembering and missing you together. I love all the wonderful memories we made here with you for 19 years! Today promises sunshine and I can picture you napping in a sibling pile down on the sand in the sun. The yard has a harvest of fungi and your memory garden still has some brave blossoms. Love you forever, my dear.

I have been remembering you this weekend, Conner, with tears and smiles intermingling - remembering the weekend we anticipated your birth, remembering how cute, sweet, and exuberant you were as a little tyke, remembering the fun teasing and loud happy laughs you shared with your siblings and cousins, remembering the preteen years, your quick wit, your voice changing, a little reservedness added to your fun quips, the exuberant hugs shared with relatives shortening to quick hug touching as you grew into a young man. And then you were gone and we miss you, miss fun times we could have shared, more memories we could have made, miss seeing and hearing and participating in who you chose to be as a young man and all the activities and experiences that awaited you. I am thankful that Father God who created you knew you best and doesn't forget you. He understands our tears and our smiles and heartache. Looking forward with hope to making more memories together someday. You are forever loved.

Today we are remembering Conner's birthday. A beautiful day at the beach with sky and sand and birthday cake. The last time i was here in July was in 2015, another beautiful time at the beach. This time there is a hole, a hole that cannot be filled. We miss you Conner. We long to see you soon at the return of Jesus.

You would be 22 today, Conner. We are celebrating at the beach with your Aunties Ann and Jane and cousin Esme. Caity headed home early from a week here and Topher stayed in Portland to do some Inventory jobs, so we will facetime them tonight when we eat your cake. Our love for you is forever. I am so glad to trust you to God.

Today would have been Conner's twenty-second birthday. We miss him and remember his love of family. Our determination is to be faithful to our God and Creator by His grace. We pray that we will be reunited as a family at the soon return of Jesus. We pray for God's protection and guidance for each life. Love each of our family members.. Grandpa

Today is the second anviersary of the day when Conner went to rest until the resurection morning. May God in His love bring us comfort today "God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes: and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be anymore pain: for the former things are passed away" Rev. 21:4

Your family is a great tribute to the family values you share. While we do not have the answers to all of life's situations and sadness, we are so glad that you were able to enjoy Conner for 19 years. So many blessings that are now memories --Love Roland and Carol Stickle

7 July 2003

Dearest Loved Ones and Friends

Today is Conner Hall's birthday!!! Happy Birthday to a fine grand-son. 
Also, this morning though we think it is mighty cool, the birds are singing their good-mornings. Conner, can you hear them singing "Happy Birthday" to you? We can be thankful for God's love and watchcare no matter the weather, no matter the place , no matter the time.  We know the birds will be singing in heaven but we do not think it will be 'so cool'.  Let's make a date to visit with you all then!...

....We love you all.

Herb & Rose, Dad & Mom, Grandpa & Grandma

I agree with Wendy. It was an honor to know & camp with Conner! He will be forever missed but NEVER forgotten! ((BIG HUGS )) --Ronda Bruck Eikenberry

It was an honor to have been a small part in Conner's life. Love, Light and Prayers for all of you. ❤️
Happy Birthday Conner!!!!! -- Wendy Hustad

Happy Birthday Conner miss you terribly. Hugs to the family your in my thoughts and prayers. --Annette Hall

New Year's Eve 1999 I remember giant slumber party with all the many Cs and my kids and I remember asking Barbara how she ever corrected Connor and kept a straight face as he was an unusually funny child at a very young age. She said" I can't" and we both laughed out loud. He kept us laughing the entire weekend. I remember telling her he reminded me a lot of his Uncle Edwin who is also a joker.

It's your birthday, Conner, and I am missing you! I miss your mischievous grin, your quick smile, the teasing in your voice, the cracking voice when you changed from young boy to young man, the little boy Conner who flitted through the house and yard with joy and enthusiasm, your happy hollers & squeals, the way you flicked your hair out of your eyes when it grew long, the quantity & quality of fun and teasing that went on around you when you were present - because you were in the center of it, the gentleness and thoughtfulness you showed in more serious moments, the camaraderie you shared with your brother, and the great relationships with each of your sisters too, the talents, personality, and skills you possessed, and the ones who were still developing - just ever so many things about who and what you were and not being able to spend time with you to get to know that 'you' better as a young adult. I remember waiting for your arrival that 4th of July holiday 21 years ago, visiting the Pestes family and wondering when you might make your appearance. It was fun to be there when you did arrive and welcome you to the family. Thoughts, hearts, love for you and so much missing...till we meet again.

Star Wars will forever mean so much more to me than it already did. Board and table games as well. Laughter and criticizing movies. Cracking stupid jokes and joyfully teasing all of the 13. These all are forever changed and made much more precious. I miss you.