My dads birthday is coming up and I didn't want to really remember that he died right after New Years but it suck because after Newyears ever year he is always on my mind and I always tell my brother let be together on his birthday and the day he die no matter what so we can be there for each other like my dad would have wanted . Am very sad that his life end so fast but am grateful for the time God granted him to live this life. I very mad that he will nit meet the rest of his grand children and live out the rest of his life with his family. But am thankfully that he New Jesus and we will all see him again . we all miss him so much sometimes it feels like it would be easier to forget but how could we he is our "Dad" and now he is with our Heavenly Father thank you Lord Jesus for loving my dad to give him life on earth and giving Him a family who can't wait to get to know him more in the next life love you daddy today and always you are with me in my heart and memories.

It's really crazy how intertwined our lives can be, myself for on have not to meet my own father yet and here 1 glorious Thanksgiving day I met the father to this fantastic family and the best part was he was such a free loving spirit you could feel it the moment we met, that day I will never forget he even gave me and my family a little dance and we will never forget that. But it's so intense meeting the father to my wife the hardships he went through the memories he himself made and the amazing children he helped bring into this world will always be cherished he lives through them now and in our hearts mind and spirits he shall forever meet again. The really crazy part for me is his birthday is a day before my sisters and he was so awesome my first born son I had to give him the name Dean in memory of Dean because I was thinking about him while my son was born. He is on a much better place now no pain no gain right and until we all meet again for a Thanksgiving dinne much love Dean you will always be missed from the Stewart Family.

Dean my only brother who I loved so much was takin from me, as soon as I started typing I had to wipe the tears from my eyes! My brother had the heart of an angel if you really knew him he would go out of his way to please you and he was usually a very happy guy. Dean always told me how much he loved his kids and wanted to spend time with them he would cry when he told me this he was just down on his luck and needed a way out of his stressful life! When Dean was young he could play any sport and do it great baseball right left handed didn't matter he was great at football, basketball and no one could out run him! When he was in the police explorers he was always in second behind Seargent! He was also funny and could make anyone laugh and always had girls going after him. A week before he died I dropped him off and he looked at me and said we need to spend more time I said yes we do then he was crying and I told him don't worry we will spend more time I love you! He said I love you too! Then that terrible call to come to the hospital when I went there I thought he was alive on the hospital bed he had all the machines hooked up I was talking to him and the nurse came in and said you know he's dead I freaked out and I not could not controll my feelings, my dad and sister Kathy was on the way and they thought he was alive but they saw the look on my face and knew something was wrong his girlfriend didn't call anyone at all hours before he went to hospital how selfish that was! Sorry I had to write this part I know it might be sensitive for his kids to see! But Dean my brother I loved so much and he was gone way to soon! I want to see his kids more, they are the best kids in the whole world which whom I love dearly! I feel Dean's presence every time I see his kids and when I dream he is in a lot of my dreams they are good dreams but when I wake I get upset because he's not here! Yes he's with Jesus he always talked about the Lord so I know where he is and he will always be in my heart! I Love you Dean! And this 29th I will celebrate your birthday hopefully with his kids!!!!!