Wish u had open up to your friends & church members. I'm truly sorry my luv. We both know our own issues we had & try to work on. Wish u hadn't lost patience or hope. U said that you'd never leave me or ur daughters. We also both know the wedge & what that certified letter was. They have to get thru their own guilt. As do I. I'm in a religous nice caring grief group. Wish many would realize this was ultimately your choice. For them to stop putting blame on others. Be considerate of what each person is going thru. Your life was too short. You know I would of always been there no matter what. I know it doesn't help when work is not being understanding. Wish you would of been brave enough to go in & get the help u needed. I couldn't make u walk thru that door. your Family's animosity needs to quit. Urban ex-wife & mother of your kids needs to be a better example that any family is for life.
 I know that you are watching over us from heaven. & with your grandparents & other family. I know I'll see u again one day. I may never come to understand choices you've made. But wish my/ our friends would reach out more to check up on us. Luv u xoxo truly miss u. (Very concern about my step daughter having the same illness of depression /med school etc)