I was so scared for you to have a baby because I didn't want another child to grow up like me. I can assure you that Cinnamon roll has been such a blessing in my life. I am so thankful for him and all the times that you and Ladonna entrusted him to me. I promised that he would always have a special place in my heart. Dad thank you for giving me the little brother I never had growing up. I treat him, as he is my own, as well as trying to be a great big sister. I know you and I didn't seee eye to eye the way you were to him, but that was me being my over protective self. .Dad he and I will always have each other and our bond is so strong. You gave he and I so many lessons and I promise I will teach him what you wanted me to. I still have your letters that you wrote to him when he was little, I did let him read them a couple of years ago. He knows they are safe with me. One day when he gets on his own and has a family, with children and a wife, i will be there for them, as well. Please watch over him Dad...

It was thinking about Chase's first birthday over at Arthur Lee's. We had so much fun! The day was hot and I can still see your smiling face, with your pinkish red polo shirt on... you and I were covered in cake from head to toe, as well as all the kids.