In loving memory of Dionte-James Rooney

The minute I see you,

With your twin I knew what to do

I got some tissue and wiped my belly

After I had seen you and your twin on the telly

I was so happy to have two

But god knows best and left me with just you

Every scan every appointment

Never left me with disappointment

You then wanted to come u decided

But no! False alarm you still fighted

You were making me think you were arriving

But all along you kept surviving

we were in and out of the labour ward

You kept making me stare at ceilings bored

I cried in pain

I felt in sain

That I kept feeling pain again

But I knew everyday you were in was a gain

We loved the gas and air

9 bottles of it Who can compare

You kicked my ribs

I bought you clothes and crib

I was so excited to see you

I wanted you born and to pull through

When I see how small you would have been

I'm glad you stayed in because you were beauty to be seen

I am your mother

I had your brother

Along with your sister

Even though I really missed her

You kept me going on

And I'd love singing you a song

All the contractions were so long

But with another song they were gone

You fooled me you fooled the midwife

But bearing you is the best I've ever done in my life

You never had a daddy

but I was your daddy gladly

But my heart felt for you

Because that's all I wanted for you

I couldn't wait for your arrival

But little did I know it was your survival

They told me they couldn't trace your heart

That's when my whole world fell apart

When they found a heart beat

It wasn't yours it was mummy's rapid heart beat

The doctors looked confused

Somehow I was amused

Because our heart is one

And you are my angelic son

I wish I had of known

You would not get to be fully grown

Having you to me

Was just my responsibility

I love you and love you more

And I'm so sad u won't come through the door

You are a great brother

And the best little hugger and lover

I love your lips

Down to the shaking of your hips

Dionté-James what a smile

One I know I won't be seeing in a while

God if I realised you were an angel

I would have treated a lot more special

You love your music

And always drank your milk quick

Loving all of your food

Cheeky but never rude

I pushed you around everyday

Now I'm glad I felt this way

I stared at you sleeping

And recently you started creeping

Running away with a smile on your face

Nobody will ever take your place

You died in my arms a few days old

Just another one of your survival stories told

But you came back

And never did lack

When I said I was getting tired

I didn't mean you now I've been fired

I see you in my dreams

You completed me it seems

Ramiah and grace

Fell in love with your face

So did everyone

Of course they did angelic son

I miss your nods and your miss your eyes

And now your gone I'm flooded with cries

The night the angels took you away

You had one last thing to say

That was night night mummy

I was so proud I thought it was funny

On your last night

You checked I was alright

You took off my shoes

And helped me with things to do

You loved

You loved being all dirty

And when it came to the girls you were rather flirty

I'm sorry I never held you all of the time

But you are always first on my mind

I don't favour you more than your sister or brother

But you would have protected me like no other

A mouth full of teeth you had

And you'd throw your dummy when you were mad

The strongest baby I've ever seen

Mike Tyson would get a look in

You talked and walked most recently

Little did I know you'd be gone so suddenly

I love the greeting you give me

When I pick you up from crèche early

The biggest smile the biggest hug

But now your in heaven snug

You found a man gladly

Who you promoted to be your daddy

Whether he liked it or not

The bond you two had couldn't be forgot

I don't know why God gave you to me

But you definitely kept me strong and happy

Happy with a bottle and nappy

And when you were tired u snappy

Why didn't I know

You would have to go

My tears turn into a river flow

Every time you kiss me I shiver

One teardrop turns into a river

I am asking god why has he done this to me

Was I not good enough did I not make u happy

Over and over again I ask why?

Why would he take you and make me say goodbye

But we don't do farewells

Because until I get to that stairwell

It's son see u later

Until mummy's back with the creator

Son please keep me strong

And this time sing mummy a song

So that I may watch Ramiah and grace

Until I'm also taken to that final place

Baby boy give me signs

Send white feathers with designs

I tried to wake you up and get you back

Now I'm lost like a needle in a haystack

I know you'd never trade places

But god knows I miss your gorgeous faces

Please let me know I never let you down

So I know I too will also wear a crown

And to know you're reunited with your twin

Let's me know the love I have for you is within

Because no matter if you're gone

Mummy will still sing you songs

But this emptiness inside

Is so hard to even try to hide

I get to see you in the chapel of rest

With your arsenal kit puma sponsor at your best

If Wayne Rooney changes teams

It's cos you're the Rooney to change the scene

I just wanna hold u, my bubba boo

FATBOY made u laugh and smile

That's what I'd call you to distract you for a while

May you take a million trillion kisses from me

And return them to me for an eternity

Watch over us all our life

And make sure your brother gets a good wife

As for grace your sister

She ll have no chance with you mister

Tell me and guide me if I stray

Correct me and put me in the right way

You say hello to me daddy

And tell God I love him gladly

Follow me baby boy forever

So that we can always be together

Sleep tight my perfect Sagittarius man

Mummy your number one fan

Night and god bless my baby boy

I'll look after all your lil toys

Don't be scared, I'll be prepared

I know you hate mummy crying

But baby I can't stop the tears I'm trying

"You are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy when skies are grey you'll never no dear how much I love you so don't you take my sunshine away"

I have so much words to say

But the priest told me to write this yesterday

So I sat on the floor writing to you

And now when I'm crying I'll know what I'll do

I'll write love letters to you at night

So you keep us both safe and tight

Tell my sister,I really really miss her

Dionte-James Rooney what a pleasure to have had you for such a short time

But I am glad God made you all mine

Mummy loves you me do

Always and forever our hearts and souls together

Precious lord keep my son safe for me

Until you take me home and make me happy

Thank you Almighty god for your beautiful creation

And thank you son for your beautiful inspiration

I Love you my boy

Love mummy

Eileen Rooney