I miss you. I wish you could come back. I know no one will visit here, so ill lay down my thoughts. You and mom argued a lot. If it weren't for me, I guess you would have left. I'm glad you didn't. I appreciate the small amount of memories of you I have left. My life went to hell awhile back. I think if you were here, that would have changed. I still had thoughts of committing. I wonder if I did, would I see you there? If I could talk to you one more time, what would I say? I guess maybe id tell you what I'm writing right now. I wonder if you'd tell me what everyone else does when I'm going through something. Would you tell me that im doing it all for attention? Or punish me for the same thing over and over because no matter how hard I try I can't get it right? Or would you understand what the last straw was, or how your human and its okay to be flawed? I doubt you would. Not all the stories I've heard from you are positive. But all my memories are. And one day, those memories will slip my mind, and I'll forget. I remember that game we used to play with that giraffe. I was so upset when it was gone. Just like that giant pink bunny I had. Everything that gave me memory of you was gone in an instant. I wish, and hope. That if not you, those items will come back to me. I want something to hold onto. I'm in middle school now. Time really flies. Its been years since I've seen you. I didn't even know a website obituary existed. When my friend found it, I asked her to post my thoughts I gave her on a sheet of paper. (Thank you, by the way) ill do my best to post every month or so. Wait for me till then.