It's been 2 years since you've left us, Duncan, but please know how very much you're missed by so many! You'll always be loved and will stay in so many of our hearts forever.

From the minute I met you, my life changed forever. You knew me better than I knew myself ... you taught me so much about myself and oh, how much I grew ... and what a better person I've become since that day you came into my life.

Ironically, this year, I've had to face my own bout with cancer, and honestly, I don't know how well I would have, or will continue to handle my particular situation ... if not for the example you set for me Duncan! You fought so very hard and always stayed so strong and so very positive ... and handled and faced everything with such courage, dignity and grace, rarely complaining about what you were dealing with, but instead, always showing more concern and care for others rather than for yourself. I'm not sure how my journey will end ... but please know, how much I thank you Duncan, for absolutely everything ... for not only coming into my life, teaching me so much about myself, helping me grow so much as a person, bringing so much joy, love and happiness into my life ... and indirectly, as who knew?, influencing and helping me deal with my own experience with cancer by setting such an admirable, if not an astounding example, on how to deal with cancer. Yes, I definitely could have done without the whole diagnosis and situation ... but thank you Duncan! Hopefully, the current treatment I've had will turn out to be succesful ... but you know what?!! Knowing your determination and all you endured while staying as positive as possibe the entire time ... if I need to continue treatment ... what an example you've set for me ... I'll try my very hardest and my very best to stay as strong, positive and determined as you did Duncan!

I know you have to deal with the cards life deals you ... so I'm OK about it!

Oh Duncan, I miss you so, so very  much ... but if I have to be perfectly honest, with a brand-new 3 week old grandaughter, I'd like to stick around for a little while longer ...so! Although I'm looking so forward to seeing you again ... could it be a little bit later, rather than sooner?, lol!!!

Oh Duncan ... love you and miss you ... and I know I don't need to tell you again, you'll forever be in my heart! xoxoxo

You're always on my mind and in my thoughts, love, I miss you so very much every day ... but today, the first anniversary of your passing, I'm having a particularly hard time, knowing it's the last time I kissed and held you and told you I loved you with all my heart and soul. My mind is flooding with memories, remembering all the wonderful times we spent together ... talking and talking for hours and hours upon end, taking walks together, watching "Father Ted", "Podge and Rodge", and "The Sopranos" together, meeting your absolutely wonderful friends and loved ones, remembering your wonderful wit and sense of humour and how you made me smile and laugh so very much, your complete kindness, generosity and unselfishness, how you put such an incredible amount of love and thought into every thing you did, your strength, your positiveness, your fight until you took your very last breath ... I could go on and on and on but suffice it to say, love, my life changed completely when I met and fell in love with you. You brought so much love, joy and happiness into my life. Although our time together was far too short, I will forever be grateful for having you in my life. You were, and always will be, my inspiration. I love you so very much Duncan. Forever in my heart. xoxoxo

Duncan, my love, it doesn't matter to me which song is playing on your memorial site ... no matter what wonderful and meaningful song has been chosen by others, the most powerful song, the song that means the most to me, the song which describes my exact feelings will always be "I'll See You Again" by WestLife:

Always you will be part of me

And I will forever feel your strength

When I need it most

You’re gone now, gone but not forgotten

I can’t say this to your face

But I know you hear

 

Chorus:

I’ll see you again

You never really left

I feel you walk beside me

I know I’ll see you again

When I’m lost, when I’m missing you like crazy

I tell myself I’m so blessed

To have had you in my life, my life

Chorus  

When I had the time to tell you

Never thought I’d live to see the day

When the words I should have said

Would come to haunt me

In my darkest hour I tell myself

I’ll see you again

Chorus x 2

 

I will see you again

I’ll see you again

I miss you like crazy

You’re gone but not forgotten

I’ll never forget you

Someday I’ll see you again

I feel you walk beside me

Never leave you, yeah

Gone but not forgotten

I feel you by my side

No this is not goodbye x 3

Gone now but never forgotten. Always in my heart, forever and always ... and I'll see you again. xoxoxo

Doesn't feel right getting ready without you .......Rubyjane had her Nativity play and she did very well you would have been so proud of her. Rhys got into the choir and is doing his first Carol service for the community in Ballyroan tonight and I know if you were here with us you would be by my side tonight .

I miss you so much but u do still reach out to me on my bad days because I can feel you here with me and when things fall from the presses we always say "hey Duncan stop your messing"!!!

Rhys is 10 tomorrow and were going to let a balloon off into the sky for you because he wants you to know that just because your not here this year for his birthday he is still thinking of you we all are..

Happy christmas Duncan Love you forever xoxoxo

Her tail is fine all over and done with stitches are out I know you were worried about her after she lost it in what we think might have been an attack from a wild animal but she is great..

Ok you need to help me with the rabbits though she just torments them all day she pounces out from behind everthing in the garden she has nearly stopped my heart on more than 1 occasion...poor Pepsi was fast asleep today and she jumped from the wall down at her side and ive never seen a rabbit jump 4 foot into the air but poor Pepsi did.

Lily well she is fierce she will not run from Ash at all and its so funny because Ash doesnt understand how to play with her when she doesnt run away.

Pepper and Poppy just hide all the time so now u need to tell her to stop annoying them because when I tell her to leave them alone its like she is looking at me saying who are you to tell me to be good she is very naughty :0)

Khameo and Ash just love eachother I never though they would have got on so well but even before you and Judy went home to Canada Judy could see the bond they have.

Pippy is a different story she just keeps hissing at her and spitting but first thing in the morning when I call them in for there breakfast they touch noses and then when there finished there food they start hissing and spitting again its funny really.

You did such a good job on her though she is so good and has never made a mistake and wet the floor so well done there Duncan

Chat soon XOX 

People keep telling me it will get better with time........I hate this I just want you here with us, how selfish does that sound :-(

I finished doing all the stuff I promised you I would do, can still hear you telling me things and making a laugh of me when im constantly smashing glasses and stuff around the house and every night I see your Harvest moon. Your picture is in pride of place in the sitting room and your plant is beside it still alive I havent killed it I think that might be down to you though. The hardest thing ive had to do so far is close your front door knowing I will never see u wave me goodbye again brought me to my knees, I miss you so much 

The sound of Rhys trying to playing your ukulele makes me smile because I know you are just loving it but to be honest Duncan my ears are killing me..... 

Rubyjane goes around the house all the time with Daisy in her arms and really hasnt put her down longer than school time and when she gets home then she heads back upstairs to get her.

I know you know how much I miss you so never leave my thought and keep talking to me

XOX  

Judy and I just brought you home to my house where you will stay till Judy brings you to Canada where you always wanted to go and make a new life well now you can stay there with your true love forever.

The sun is shining so brightly today and I know that, thats you telling me your happy to be back in your true loves arms where you belong.

Rhys rubyjane and I will take you to Stratford too where we will leave you in the town you held so dearly in your heart where you fished walked and played with your children.

Iam so glad you are at peace Dunc we miss you everyday XOX