My dear friend. I know that you are smiling down from the heavens looking over us all. You speak to me often still. Thank you. And I'm trying, the struggle is still so very real. I know that you are proud of everyone. And Violet is as beautiful as ever. And Marshals girls are beautiful and precious as well...Im sure they have made you proud. For you understand us all. I talk to Emily and Bf recently.. I saw Marshall, my God he's so tall and so much like you. I look out as best I can for them from a distance without interfering too much with their lives, as I know you would have me do. I forever will. And yes, I Know I have got to get with Bf.  And we've got to get on top of a few things. You keep telling me...I know ,I know...lol. I've got you! My friend j miss you so very much .you standing at my room door. Waking me up by calling my full government name..lol. to tell me Millissa said come here....I miss meeting y'all down at the lake.. you tell me to stop it with the miss you's. That you are good, you are so happy and free. To concern myself with us down here ..Yes, I know.. and I know that your still helping guide this other..i hear what you are saying, I can't just let it go. My heart.wont let it go.....you are so very important to me. I want and I need that for you..Yes, it is important...but I do hear what your saying to me, and im try to let it go. When, you know that I can t and really not going to...so you stop, Eddie Posey,.telling me too. You deserve it so much. I need that for you. I need to know that you have that. Please always continue to come see and speak to me....please. Forever keep your watch over us all ..and I can not wait until I see you again.,.  Oh what a day it will be ... My friend I love you and I love Bf and the children and grandbabies, always !