Matthew became a Daddy March 25 Marcus Edward . Matthew is such a good daddy.I have not got to meet him yet. they live in Denver, but they are coming in in may for they're anniversary. the house did not sell, and you know why. the roof, foundation etc. I was wanting to move on after you being gone 7yrs. you are the one who told I would need to move on. well I tried and smack me in the face. Still miss you so much Love you 

miss you so muc

was born to day he is Marcus Edward Clemons. march 25 2019. I finally got the house sold. I just could take care of it. out side & inside I feel that you understand

"I shared your site today,thinking people would leave you messages on FB, you remember it, I had that game Farm Time. I need to get in to another game to take my mind off somethings. since you have been gone everything has going to hell. you were the 1 that pulled are kids together. I have Laura , Matthew but loss Stephanie, she has done something am not happy about and i know you would too. it's just has been tough. I plan on coming to see you again soon. bringing up some fall decor for you and Taylor and lil Robert. I just miss you so much. and want to join you, but it's a sin to do anything like that. and i want to be with in Heaven when its my time to go.   I don't know if you can see this or not, but it helps me being get things that is bothering me. which is that your gone. i need to get it out some how. there is know one to talk to, they are tired of hearing it i guess. remember are talk several years ago, i was talking about when one of us dies, if either one of could go on, and i said i couldn't and you took my hand and told me you have to go on. well it's the truth I can't go on. i have tried a few times with friends but then i come right back to you. you can't just walk off after 36 years, were a part of each other, and will always be.I will keep you up dated on pictures, if not on your grave they will be on here."

"Having a hard night Eddie, I feel like i can't make it, with out you. it's been 3 years but it still feels like yesterday. why did he take you first ? I will never know why. you took care of me for so long and did not realize it till you were gone. I have to depend on other people now. So i don't get out much. if it was not for church, I would never get out except for once a month for the DR and Grocery. I never dream of how hard it would be. and me not being by your side when you crossed over. I had to be back to my nursing home by a certain hour. were you waiting for me to leave, so i would not get so upset. it was only 45 min after i was gone. you had all the time did stuff like that, you did not want me to get upset. I guess you protected to much. God I Miss You !!!!! I just don't know what to do any more. I cry all the time. and want to join you so bad. But I know I can't, I want to be with you not in hell for taking my own life. am hoping to get up there soon. put you out some fall stuff. So many people you are not there anymore. but the body i loved is still there. the person i love more than life it's self. I was able to let go with Taylor. we had her 3 days and love each and everyone, you on the other hand, was 36 years. not something to get over, ever. I have a real good friend I can talk to, she knows what it is like and is going through the same thing as me. She really means a lot to me. her name is Connie Green, Pats sister, she has been to are house before when she was young. she hanged out with Stephanie. Now on Stephanie she has not grown up. you more than likely see it. Laura and Matthew you would be proud of. Laura is still with the ass hole that beats on her, and James is scared to death of him.you can see it in pictures. I told Laura last week to start bring James to me when she has to work OT. He is a handful lol but if its just me and him he is a good baby. Momma gets home he turns in to a wild child. Love that  stinker to death. Christine is a sophomore in high school, she does not have time for Granny anymore. teenager thing, Brandon Lives with Stephanie. but he is at the age he can do for his self. I don't know if i ever told you this. She walked off from Christine , Brandon. Faye raised them and still raising Christine. She just took Brandon about 10 months ago. he is 12 and she does not have to do anything for him, but supply a roof over his head and food. and a made a comment to her after she left them. and it pissed her off. and she is not in my life any more.but thats fine it does not hurt me at all. Laura and Matthew are plenty. funny tho how Stephanie says she was so abused, and Laura and Matthew say I didn't. I just gave her to much. she never wanted for nothing. and in return you had to work your ass off, because I was spending to much on the kids. and if I could go back and change it I would. am going to take me another trip in March, yep Rod Stewart again. but this time i got some people to go with me and were going to stay 2 nights and 3 days. So Far it's Going to me Wilma and Pat, Gloria has not decided yet.the offer is open to everyone. oh and maybe a high school friend Debra. it just something for me. when i sit and think of it I get excited about it. Like March of this year. my 33 hour trip. time i left Louisville till the time I got back to Louisville was 33 hours. not as young as i used to be. i slept 2 days straight. that was a bit to much on me. if I can save 200 a month it will give me a nice trip. but that does not make me miss you any less.I sit alone 24/7 in this house. I did get a life alert. is something ever happens to me, where i can't use life alert ( heart ache stroke ) I would lay here for a week or better. I have told connie if she does not see me on FB to get hold of someone. FB is a everyday thing, it's my entertainment. I started me some new games on FB. Love you Miss You and Look forward to being with you again someday. you remember when i was so afraid of death. not know more, I know I will be with you again. and that makes me happy.  <3 X O"

14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe also in me. 2 My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. 4 You know the way to the place where I am going.”

5 Thomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?”

6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 7 If you really know me, you will know[b] my Father as well.From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”

8 Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.”

9 Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? 10 Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. 11 Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the works themselves. 12 Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to. 

15 “If you love me, keep my commands. 16 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[c] in you. 18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19 Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20 On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21 Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”

22 Then Judas (not Judas Iscariot) said, “But, Lord, why do you intend to show yourself to us and not to the world?”

23 Jesus replied, “Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them. 24 Anyone who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.

25 “All this I have spoken while still with you. 26 But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubledand do not be afraid.

28 “You heard me say, ‘I am going away and I am coming back to you.’ If you loved me, you would be glad that I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than I. 29 I have told you now before it happens, so that when it does happen you will believe. 30 I will not say much more to you, for the prince of this world is coming. He has no hold over me, 31 but he comes so that the world may learn that I love the Father and do exactly what my Father has commanded me.

“Come now; let us leave

1 The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2     He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3     he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
    for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
    through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
    my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
    all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
    forever.

If anyone try's going out the door in to the Garage from in the house. He attack your ankles. He has nailed Matthew my Dad, Gloria, Mark,Jake,Jessie.me & Anita Just anyone that goes through. That door.and could not know why he does it.Dad and Gloria were over last week. we were talking. That is how Eddie went in and out all of the house, and he remeber's it. and attack us, Because he still think's Eddie is still out there & he is protecting him. It sounds dumb.I know. But anyone can come through the front door or side door & he just barks from A distance.both of us. were real depressed for a long while, after Eddie passed away.I do not know where i would be without Gizmo. I have never loved a pet. more than I love him.


If you push him back, with your foot.  He get's so mad. i have to run him jn the bed room .. he is my buddy