I love you so much... You've been such an inspiration for so many people.. My Grandfather has waited over 30yrs to be able to dance with you again and hold you in his arms. I'm happy for true loving being reunited and for the beautiful life you've been blessed with. People would pay to have such a long and joyous life. 7 kids, 21 grandkids,43 great grandkids to have lived to 93 & your children their children & their children all alive and involved full in your life & blessed with not having the pain of death by one is a very rare blessing.. To have found your true love and to have built such a strong foundation with morals & respect the structure.. Grandpa passed away over 30yrs ago and seeing how you never let anybody else fill that void if loneliness because in your he was never gone which is how true love is a love that is always strong no matter what.. A kinda of. Love I pray I'll be blessed to enjoy and share with someone.. There's so much to be happy about when I think of you and your life I've not been able to grieve because I didn't want to be selfish because I miss you and never wanted this day to come for me to face.. It's been a year and a half now &I hardly come out my room and my house hasn't been finished from the day I found out you. I've noticed from not grieving how I needed to I've superseded it inside and gave up on things I was dealing with before you died but gave up on the fight afterwards, like my will got up and left me scared when I died and seen you, you did not talk to me like everyone else then u said to me you need to go home now bye.. At the time I couldn't understand why until I woke & was told I died. It makes sense you wouldn't speak before my actual time.. The whole dying and coming back thing has me scared of he reality of my health... My sadness is my own fault and I know why it's been easy to do and hard to all at the same time.. I believe it's my memories have been in boxes from when I was redoing my house I boxed everything up so wouldn't get broken well I've not finished painting my house so everything is in boxes still. I need to be get my lifes motivation out and back on my walls so I feed off what's always made me who I am and happy not like I died that day.. I know I do and am because I know you'r telling me to....