well do miss dad alot and mum i did every day really ok but i got so usedto not seeing u really  i manged bye me self well sum time lol had my own life in the end but i did get weeker buy the time moved on did drink alot more and people didnt no y really kept it to my self things i did but i hoped i find my self 1 day but never did but oh so i all ways dressed like a ghost for 2 years  but i duno just didnt no who i was i supose in my own mind  never went our no more ive u see just stayed in and hid on the sofa ive ha so much dit to deal wiv  so year i did drink alot ok to deal with things but every 1 all ways got fed up wiv me in the so did i soo but did enyoy drinking but got fed up wiv now ten s years of it boun to be a lol  but it has taken over now but istill fight my self  to stay alive but 1 day id nevr wake up again  u c  but i did do alot in my time in my house didnt waist my life away like people think i did but any wat tc mum n dad love u xxxx

she wants song s played as van morrison bye brown eyed girl as jack jhon better together and in to the mystic  and 1  more is elton daniel my brother ok had daniel died to ok xxxxx not really got much stories as she was in care so no 1 really new her properly to say things u c but tc all xxxx