❤️
Happy Fathers Day
Happy Birthday
Happy Fathers Day
I won’t forget
13yrs on the 9th
Your laugh and humor
Fathers Day
Happy 47th Eric
7
3/14-6 ❤️
2/28
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Remembering your mom today 2/28.
Not only was she your mother, but I consider her a mother figure to me, and a good friend. Her unique insight made a big difference.She was the one who shared in not only my sadness from losing you, but in every aspect of my life afterwards. She reassured me, she shared memories of you and your siblings, your thoughts I was unaware of, your childhood adventures, your family stories, your art, your poems, your letters, your random off the wall ideas and even your pain.She gave me strength when I didnt have any. Lots of insight, lots of history and lots of truth. I cherish everything she gave me, especially her time. She gave me a plant that shes had for a loooong time and I named her Teresa. So I talk to her and make sure she thrives :)
She made me believe. She gave me so much comfort and she convinced me that we will all be together again one day. I miss her and our talks. I miss our breakfasts every few months to catch up and I think of her just as much as I think of you. Today she passed a year ago. I know you two are together, and all your earthly worries, are no longer a thought. But, just because our "problems" in life are not a worry in your minds, I know you protect us on a daily basis. We now have a tag team watching out for us.I am thinking of you two always. Your mom mattered to many, and I wanted to acknowledge her on this day.
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Down in the Hole
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWK0kqjPSVI
Reminded me of you...
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Happy 45th EMA ❤
Lights
Lemon
Eric bought this CD and I fell in love with one of the tunes "Lemon" on the "Zooropa" album. So I borrowed it often. Don't think he knew how many times I borrowed it. But he didn't mind.
So oneday he decides to go to "Amoeba" to sell some of his cd's. "Zooropa" was one of them.
I went to look for it and it was gone. I asked him where it was and he told me he sold it. I was a little annoyed.
Some time passed and we went to "Amoeba" to look for videos etc. I decided to check and see if by chance "Zooropa" was there and It was and I was happy.
Eric comes home and I am playing "Lemon" and he picks up the jacket and says
"Hey, this is my CD ?!" I replied "It's mine now-ow" with a wink. First he looked puzzled then he looked annoyed and then he just smiled that big beautiful loving
smile and we both laughed. He knew it was meant to be. He borrowed it often.
I understand Bono's deceased Mom, who was wearing a Lemon colored dress in a "Super 8 film" (Eric would love that) was the inspiration for this song.
Proverbs 11:11
"LEMON"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iyed5qd7FmQ
Lyrics here:
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/u2band/lemon.html
thinking of you...
In Memory
In Memory of Eric's Uncle Stephen Michael
DOB 9/03/1951
DOD 8/03/1973
In a strange coincidence, Eric was found on the Street almost in front of the very
meeting place of The Murderers who took his Uncles Life. Stephen would be one of the first of many victims.
Eric was found lying there unresponsive 3/03/2013............39 years and 7 mos Later.
Eric and Stephen were both First Born Sons and First Grandsons..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bpsfiCaxHDM
your voice
Your voice still lingers, along with your presence. I see you for a moment out of the corner of my eye, then blink and you are gone. The feeling of you is still there, though. But, with a presence like yours, how could that ever fade? It cannot.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-369FoJ16k
Your blessings live on and not forgotten
Your face
I was talking about you today . This song came on. I know it's you and we don't believe in coincidence .
I see you . Everyday . And I love you everyday . Loving him is loving you.
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Happy Birthday Eric❤️
Birthday Memories
Thoughts of Eric and past adventures
A Loved one is lead to this poem
not a coincidence
Eric's Birthday May 27
"Song of Myself" by Walt Whitman
Exerpt
"I celebrate myself, and sing myself,
And what I assume you shall assume,
For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you."
More Here
https://depts.washington.edu/lsearlec/TEXTS/WHITMAN/SONGSELF.HTM
May 19, 1979
3:33
You Know
Just Breathe
I woke up to this song today .... the words ...
This song can be for anyone and move in all directions. Can be to him or it can be from him to us. You are in our hearts everyday for sure.
3.3
3.3.13- Eric, This is the day you were taken away, and it will forever be engraved into my soul. It's autonomous. I think of you every day, and keep you in my heart until we are in the same place again. I miss you completely and will love you until I no longer am breathing ❤
redemption
Merry Christmas
Light
Just one of the many images that Eric took on his camera.
...and it reminded me of what this Season is about .
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Rdycn_22kI
A Prayer
Eric and I shared many things with each other. He was very well read. He was a seeker of Spiritual things and Hidden Truths, Hidden History, Music Art. We both like this song very much.
Eric felt things on a level most people will never experience or know this kind of depth. People will tell you that to experience anything with Eric was unforgetable.
His laughter also was just as powerful. He could lighten a heavy room with a couple of words as well. Light or Dark, no inbetween. He was not lukewarm..ever..
A Heartfelt Memory..
Thankyou to the maker of this beautiful video for bringing to my attention.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=osih6Ruyk1k
The Truth is Never Far Behind
"Masks of identities are always changing in a Temporal World of need and demand, but remember within each disguised, is the Truth we All seek...
and to see yourself in All things is to realize the HERE and NOW is the PORTAL of TIMELESS SPACE". = Eternity
Love ERIC
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IV1axd4znNQ
The Fear Goes Away
Forgiving
"No Dear,
Forgive yourself.
Being uninformed is not being stupid.
Especially when you were seeking the Truth
and you were deliberately misguided and misdirected by those you trusted.
It is they who withhold the Truth that are truly lacking a heart and possess dark souls.
And those kind most always blame and mock the Victim to elevate themselves.
They only decieve themselves as those with good hearts see them for who they really are.
Some evolve, some don't.
Change for the Greater Good must be desired and it begins with the realization that the only thing that heals is Unconditional Love
The opposite of Love is Apathy
When the Good do nothing... all is lost
Time reveals All...Time ends All...
Pray for them, They need you"
Rose in Blue
Red Light
Image taken June 20, 2016
It was vaguely visible with the human eye..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mgwz1JBon2E
Happy Fathers Day
To Reach You
My last Picture from Eric's Cell
We were apart..."Miss you Mom" ...2012
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hp-Bs0ihI_4
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Happy birthday Eric.
I wish you were here, so that I can say it directly to you, but you truly know what is in my heart and spirit. Although, each and every day I think of you, May 27 is your day. I miss you and I love you.
Happy Birthday Big E :)
"I am glad your mom liked your dad enough to have you "
:)
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Happy Birthday
Thoughts
Feather from Heaven
Miss you Eric ♥
Please speak to me
Through word or pen
Or whispers unsaid
Show me your face
Here in our
Unresolved place
Tell me you love me
That you'll eternally
Haunt me
You changed my life
Into the most beautiful
Tragedy
That no pen, no author
Nor storyteller
Could capture
For our love transcends
Time and space,
Life and death
I miss you every day. This poem reminds me almost every single letter or card you have ever written to me. I keep them close to my heart. They are a treasure and I will continue to keep reading them. When someone else reads them after I am gone, they can experience the emotion and absolute love that you put into writing them. I hope that they can also absorb the feeling of love and longing that I feel when reading them. These letters are our story. Like a movie. A true love story that ended in tragedy. Me losing you in this life, is my tragedy.
I love you Eric. Thinking of you always.
All that is Hidden
Remembrance
Just remembering a song..The one that was my favorite when Eric was born ...
and..
I would like to talk with you Chloe...I think you could answer some questions.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g_insxlS5jU