Christmas once again Erin. It is a different one this year. Spending Christmas with Sharon and family on the West Coast. It only took 52 years to accomplish it. The only thing to make it better is if we were all together. Not here in body but you are with me in my heart always. I miss you more than words can express. The holidays are difficult. You feel disconnected some how. Some of your cousins have faced challenges and will need strength to overcome them. If you can Erin shed some peace over us all. I love you baby girl. Looking for a Christmas Miracle. One day......   XO Mom

Erin once again my heart is broken. There is a special golden boy who was part of my life for over 12 years. He came to live with me in 2011 and was so special to me. His name is Farley and he is a golden retriever. He is the sweetest boy and I know that you will adore him as he will you. Please watch out for him and introduce him to Ziggy. I know you will all be good friends. Please take care of him until I get there and we are all reunited. I love and miss you beyond words. I miss and love my Farley boy now too. I am devastated to be alone once again. Mom XO

The years are slipping by so fast Erin. There is so much on my mind and in my heart that I would so much love to share with you but it is not to be. Not that I don't talk to you all the time though. I often wonder if you can hear me. If you can hear me I hope you hear how many times I have told you that I love and miss you with all my heart. The world has changed so much and I wonder what you would think of it all. There have been so many changes over the years since you left. There is nothing I can say that I have not already said over the past 26 years but know that I miss you and love you and hold on to the hope of being with you one day. "Never say Never"! XO Mom

❤️❤️❤️ still missing you ❤️❤️❤️

Here I am writing my thoughts once again on your birthday Erin. I woke this morning remembering the moment that your Dad opened the door to our friend who had come to our home to look after your sister so we could go to the hospital for your arrival. He opened the door and banged his head and had a small cut on his temple. He was tough though and just shrugged it off, after all, we had bigger things to attend to. I am pretty sure that you have heard that story a time or two. The fact that today you would be 44 is very hard to comprehend. If I had one wish in this world today it would be that you would be here celebrating your birthday with your family and friends. However, I have come to realize, sadly, that wishes don't come true. At least not for us. I can't express in words my feelings other than to say that I love you and miss you. Hope you are celebrating with your Dad today. I love and miss you both so much. MOM XO

 
                                  "BELIEF"                                          


I have to believe
That you still exist
Somewhere,

That you still watch me
Sometimes

That you still love me
Somehow,

I have to believe
That life has meaning
Somehow,

That I am useful here
Sometimes,
That I make small differences
Somewhere!

__ Ann Thorp

Another Easter without you Erin. Reflecting on all the egg hunts and fun we had. I would give so much to have those days back. I miss you so much and the way we were. I love and miss you with all my heart. 

You are heavy on my heart today Erin......    

— You Don’t Just Lose Someone Once —
You lose them over and over,
sometimes many times a day.
When the loss, momentarily forgotten,
creeps up,
and attacks you from behind.
Fresh waves of grief as the realization hits home,
they are gone.
Again.
You don’t just lose someone once,
you lose them every time you open your eyes to a new dawn,
and as you awaken,
so does your memory,
so does the jolting bolt of lightning that rips into your heart,
they are gone.
Again.
Losing someone is a journey,
not a one-off.
There is no end to the loss,
there is only a learned skill on how to stay afloat,
when it washes over.
Be kind to those who are sailing this stormy sea,
they have a journey ahead of them,
and a daily shock to the system each time they realize,
they are gone,
Again.
You don’t just lose someone once,
you lose them every day,
for a lifetime.
© Donna Ashworth Words
—

Well Erin here we are once again. The time passes so quickly. I did not sleep very well last night, tossing and turning because I kept going over in my head what I could say that I have not already said. The truth is that even as time passes I still have the same feelings about you being absent from my life. My mind keeps looping around about all that could have been. Questions like, would you be married now; would you have a career; children? Then I ask myself if you would live near to me or afar. Whether you lived near or far I know in my heart that you would still be a part of my life. Where ever you are now I feel you near me. Christmas has become nothing to me now. Too many changes in my life. Losing you changed me and everything fell apart through no fault of my own. I miss you so very much Erin. You should be here.  I live with the hope that one day we will be together to celebrate all the holidays. I miss you with all my heart. XOXO Mom

Erin:   BROKEN

Maybe people can't see a broken heart, but it doesn't mean it is not broken. Since you have been gone, I feel like every part of me is broken. You were part of my heart and my soul. I MISS YOU! 

So here we are 1/4 of a century since you are gone Erin. It is a myth that grief has an expiry date. I will never stop grieving the loss of my sweet girl. I grieve not only for what I have lost but for what you did not get to complete by living out your dreams. There is no doubt in my mind that you would have achieved your goals and remained true to yourself. My funny, sweet daughter. Some days I still wake to the shock that you are really gone from my sight. The world is not a kind place now but having you in it would make all the difference, at least for me. Today I will go to your grave and place flowers and remember. I will try to focus on the love that you gave in your short time on this earth but that leads me to wanting more. Forever loved and missed and so cherished. Mom XOXOXOXOXOX

Erin you visited me in a dream last night. I can't understand why you came to me as a toddler. Is it because I could protect you when you were a tiny one? It is coming up on the anniversary this week when you left this world and I still struggle this time of year. Life is so uncertain and unpredictable and we never know what we will face from day to day. There are days I feel so lost and alone Erin. I have a few steadfast and loyal people in my life now. There are those that choose to see me as a decent person and deserving of care and love and then there are those that turn away. Those that choose to turn away.... that is okay, I will survive. I have gotten battle hard over the years. The one thing that never changes is my sorrow over losing you. My hope is that you are near me and can feel my love. I love you sweet girl and miss you more than anyone can comprehend. Your Mom XO

Thinking of you today and reallllly missing all the memories that never got made.

We miss you as much as the day you were taken away from us Erin. Your memory will never fade from our hearts. Life is moving on and so many changes have happened in all our lives. You may not be here for us to hug and hold but you continue on our journey with us in spirit.
Love, Aunt Sharon

The years are passing so quickly Erin. With every passing year it feels like I am leaving you behind. It is hard to wrap my head around the fact that you would be 43 years old today. I still recall the moment you were born. Your Dad thought you looked just like your sister. Maybe mothers see things through a different lens because I saw a different person. Wishing won't change the fact that we can't hug, laugh, play, live.... The one thing I can do is remember and wish you the happiest birthday. The thing that won't change is that I will always see you as 18 no matter how many years pass. I love you baby girl and miss you beyond measure. I will look for a sign from you today. Love from your Mom XOXOXOXO....

Another holiday weekend Erin. All I have to say is I love and miss you. Holidays are really hard. People say treasure your memories but I am selfish and wanted far more time to make way more memories. My heart aches for what might have been. XO Mom

I miss you so much, I wish I could hold you in my arms and smell your hair. I’ll love you forever you were the one.

It is Christmas again Erin. It is not the Christmases of years past. It will never be the same as when you were part of it all. As I sit here alone on this Christmas Eve my mind wanders back to the early days when you and your sister were wee ones, safe under my wing. So much has changed. So many family and friends gone now. The world is changing so quickly and I don't really feel like I belong anymore. So much uncertainty and turmoil. The one thing that I do know that it would not feel so bleak and dismal if you were here Erin. One day I hope to greet you face to face and embrace you and never let go. I miss you more than I can find words to express.  I hope you know how much you are loved. Merry Christmas where you are Erin. Love you forever my rosebud! XO Mom

Erin here we are once again. It is so hard to believe how fast a year passes and this past year has had its challenges for sure. Two of your uncles are with you and your Dad now. Uncle Chester in December and now Uncle Keith just a couple of weeks ago. Life is so strange these days. I am not sure where this world is headed but it is for sure not a good place. So much unrest and uncertainty leaves you wondering if and how it will be resolved. I reflected this morning on how our lives were before you left and I would give just about anything to be back there when you were young and healthy and under my wing. I miss you Erin more than you can imagine. Just once I would like to sit and talk with you. Maybe walk on the beach and go for ice cream. Nothing dramatic, just time together. My heart is broken. You would think that as time passes it would get easier but it doesn't. It doesn't take much to remove that scab that has grown over the wound and I am once more in pain over losing you. Life would be so much better for everyone that love you if you had not been taken from us. Please know that I love you and that one day I have hope that we will be together again. Loving and missing you my beautiful and funny girl. Mom XOXOXOXO

Erin I am struggling this morning with what my feelings are and trying to put them down. My mind wanders to your first birthday. Funny how that is. Why your first birthday is so prominent this morning I am not sure. I do know that it was memorable. Nothing spectacular but it was a very sunny day and we celebrated outside in our yard. I still remember your little flowered dress and your panda bear cake that I so lovingly made for you. If I could make you a cake for your birthday today I wonder what you would request. I wonder a lot about the things that you would desire, would have accomplished, if you would still live near me, if you would be married and have kiddos of your own. I placed a flower at your grave yesterday. I can't seem to go there much these days. To be honest it hurts too much. I prefer to go to places you loved and reflect on the good times. 

So Erin your Uncle Keith joined you this past week. It was sudden and the family is in shock. I hope you are all together, your Dad, grandparents, cousins, aunts, uncles. The family chain is shrinking on this side of heaven but it is linking up where you are. One day it will be my turn. I hope the first face I see is yours. 

Missing you always but especially today, your birthday. My little rosebud that grew to a beautiful rose but never got to bloom to your full potential. I hope you know how much I love you. Happy Heavenly birthday Erin. XOXOXO Mom 

So here it is Christmas again. The years appear to go faster and faster now. Maybe it is my age, not sure. It is the 23rd Christmas without you here physically. I say physically because you live in my heart and your spirit stays with me every second of every day. Life is so different now Erin. So many tragedies this past year. Pandemics, mass murders, unrest everywhere. I think often about how would you would handle it all. 

This month Uncle Chester joined you. I hope he has reunited with you and your Dad and grandparents. So many leaving us. Our loss but your gain I hope. 

So many Christmases to remember but the one that stands out in my memory is the year I was sick with pneumonia. I remember your father going out the day before Christmas Eve to get a tree. He ended up buying a poor old tree off a lot for $5.00. He brought it home and asked what I thought of it. I looked at it and said fine, put it in the stand and lets get it decorated. Well he disappeared for a little while and reappeared with yet another tree and went to work drilling holes in the first tree and used branches from the second tree to fill in the gaps. I was so sick that I didn't care at all. We did not have much baking done and we did not have our rabbit meat pie prepared for Christmas Eve. I was feeling so weak that I told your father that if he wanted the pie he would have to make it himself. He went to work with my instructions and the pie was pretty much perfect except for one thing! I got up to go to the bathroom and on passing by the stove I broke a tiny bit of pie crust. Oops, it was bland, very bland. He forgot to put salt in the crust. You and Shannon were so young. You were 4 years old at the time. I will always remember you staying by my side on the couch for hours hugging me and being so concerned. Your light shone so bright that I think you helped me recover. It was a minimal Christmas but it was a beautiful one and everyone was happy. 

Life is unpredictable now. I guess it always was and always will be but things are very strange in the world. There was a question asked the other day on the radio "if you could have dinner with only one person who would that be?" Well Erin that is an easy one. I would say my Rosebud every time. I miss you with all my being and love you until the end of time. Wishing you would send me a subtle sign from where you are to where I am. Love you and miss you with all that I am. Your Mom. XOXOXOXOXOXO

Can’t believe it’s been 23 years since you were stolen from us. Still think of you everyday, wishing you had the chance to live out your life. You’re missed so much by so many, love you forever and always

The day of the year I dread the most. Erin you will never know how much your leaving impacted my life. It has changed me forever in so many ways. We should be celebrating your accomplishments in this life but you were robbed of that. Your murderer is no longer of this world and for that I am glad. He can't hurt anyone else. I would not want anyone to feel that pain. You are with me every minute of every day and sometimes, just sometimes, I find myself smiling. Memories are bittersweet and I don't want to go down the road today of the memory of losing you. I will try to focus on the sweet and happy times we shared. Summer was such a great time for us. Now summer is not a good thing for me anymore. When you and Shannon were young and out of school for summer vacation it was such a fun and special time. I could never understand when parents would get excited for school to open in the fall. I would always dread that. Things change and summer for me now is not the same and there is not a lot to look forward to. Looking for you among the clouds, flowers, stars.... Missing you with a broken heart and loving you always and forever... Mom. XOXOXO

So here I am again to send my wishes to you in Heaven for what would be your earthly birthday Erin. In my mind you will always be 18 which is the last earthly birthday we celebrated together. The years are unfolding so fast I can hardly believe that you would be 41 today. It is hard to think that 23 birthdays have passed that we should be celebrating together. I watch your friends with their lives, having families now, some with kids that are the age you were when you left us and wonder what might have been. Your niece will be 18 this September. I see a lot of you in her. It is a very different world without you in it. My sweet Erin I will honour you today and remember all the sweet memories we shared. Happy Heavenly Birthday baby girl. I love and miss you so much and wish I could see you and talk with you. XO Mom <3

Well, I just found out that the one that took you away from us is gone!! There is peace in my heart knowing Mom will no longer fear having you go out now. I miss you so much!! Wish you were here!! You Should Be Here!! I know my messages are short, but know that I love and miss you more now than I ever did!! So between now and then, until I see you again, I'll be loving you, Love me!! XoXoXoXoXoXoX!!

So here I am again Erin on this Christmas morning 2019! Our last Christmas together was 1996. Little did we have any clue that 8 months later you would be taken from my life. I woke early this morning with an ache in my heart and a deep longing for your presence. All of the Christmases past came flooding into my memory and I listened for the rustling of paper and shrieks of pleasure when you and your sister realized you got that much anticipated gift from Santa. But it was just a memory from the past. I miss those days and life and celebrations have changed forever as have I. So much sadness has replaced those happier times. I miss and love you Erin and wish that you could speak to me and give me one of your warm hugs and hear your sweet voice and laughter. Knowing that won't be possible I will look for a subtle sign from you and cherish what we had and dream about what might have been. Til the rivers run dry and the earth passes away I will love you and cherish you. Mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Another Thanksgiving is upon us and I am wandering down memory lane today. It has come to my attention Erin that it is exactly 23 years ago this weekend that you and I and Shannon took a trip that would be our last Thanksgiving together. We did not know what the future held and it was better that we did not know. That time together was precious for me. I only wish that we were still together to share these special holidays! I love and miss you more every day. If I could have given you the years that I had left I would gladly have done so. Your hopes and dreams were extinguished in an instant. Every leaf that falls I remember our times together. XOXO

Why is it so hard to believe you've been gone this long??!! I hate that all this time keeps passing and why have so many horrible things happened since you passed?? I wish you were still here!! I love and miss you so much it hurts!!
Your Lil big sis. Xoxoxoxoxoxox!!

❤️

Twenty two years ago on this very morning our family was changed forever Erin when we were told that you could not survive. Sadly I remember looking into the eyes of the doctor as he told us the news that we were dreading after 72 hours of waiting, hoping and praying that you would survive being injured so horribly by a very selfish person. My heart was broken and life has never been the same and can never be the same without you! Your leaving changed me and I miss who I was when you were in my life. The years are passing quickly now and I feel a bit of panic because each year puts more distance between us. So much has happened in our family since that horrible day! Some good things but a lot of sad and awful times. So many have joined you where you are. I do acknowledge that I continue to get your messages and it does give me some comfort and hope! I love and miss you Erin and you are in my thoughts constantly. My heart remembers everything about you. I will never understand WHY this happened. It NEVER SHOULD HAVE HAPPENED! 

Erin: Today is an extra sad day. Wish you were here so we could all celebrate like we used to. I will carry your sweet and beautiful memory with me forever!! I wish so many things had been different. I miss you so much!! That laugh like Nanny Harker's, that beautiful face. Such a caring, strong, open minded, talanted, honest, woman you were and still would be all of these. Thank you for the time we did get to spend alone. I really miss them days. I would also be a different person than I am today if you were still here. Happy 40th, birthday, Erin. I love you!!

Gone too soon.

Dearest Erin:
The years are passing fast.....all the joys of growing old sometime make me shudder but then I think .....your choice to age was taken from you. To try and picture you at 40 years of age is difficult and it angers me.... knowing what a wonderful Wife, Mother, Aunt, Daughter-in-law you could have been. Erin you had a shine about you..
a special light.... I remember when you stayed with me for a visit and you looked up at the clear Cape Breton sky that was sprinkled with bright little lights and said “ I wanna be a star!”. I think you were, you are and will always be a twinkling star Happy Heavenly Birthday to the brightest star. Love Aunt Paula, Uncle Leo & Janean

❤️

Here we are 22 years later and should be celebrating your 40th birthday. Sadly, you left us and we all miss you and wish for the impossible, that you could come back.

I know with the loving and generous heart you had you would have been a wonderful mother and given your Mom and Dad the grandchildren they so deserved. You and they were robbed of so much joy and happiness. 

On what should have been a milestone for you Erin, I wish you a happy birthday and shed tears for the fact I can’t lavish you with hugs and kisses. My love for you is never ending.

Happy 40th Sweetheart

How do I say Happy Birthday to you when in my mind and in my heart you will always be 18! You would be 40 today and I continue to wonder what you would look like now, would you be married, would you have children? The questions are endless and my heart knows can never be answered. What if we could spend the day together Erin? They say miracles happen but I have lost hope of that a while ago. I will honour you on your special day and hope that you know how much I love and miss you. I hold so many precious memories of all of your birthdays we shared and I will draw on those today to help ease the pain of not sharing this one today. Butterfly kisses being sent to you Erin.... xoxoxoxoxoxo Mom 

Erin on this Mother's Day I will be looking for a special sign, message, anything from you that will carry me through. After all these years without you has taught me that time is not significant! I miss you with every breath that I take. I would give anything to hear your laugh and see your sparkling blue eyes! It would be a privilege to have you pester me today or any day. The saddest thing for me right now is the fact that you will never experience the love of being a mother. I know that you would have been an awesome mommy. Loving you and missing you with all that I am. xoxoxoxoxo Mom <3

Erin I woke very early this morning with the remembrance of your first Christmas and then a flood of other Christmases throughout your short time on this earth! Life is so changed from those times past! My life has changed so much since you left us and I am not the same person I used to be. To say I miss you just does not tell what is in my heart!
If you have any knowledge about what goes on here on this earth you will probably know that Joey is very ill. It is hard to find good news these days. You, my sweet girl, are in my heart always and there is no day that passes that you are not carried with me as I go about my business of living! 
I saw a verse on a Christmas card many, many years ago and it made such an impression on me that I never forgot it! "Never a Christmas Morning, Never and Old Year Ends, Someone Thinks of Someone, Old Days, Old Times, Old Friends"! And YOU are foremost in my thoughts this Christmas Day! I hope you are celebrating with your Dad, Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins and Friends in a most special way! Wishing you were here and missing you with all that I am. 
Merry Christmas my Beautiful Rose! 
Please make your presence known to me today! Mom......  X0X0

Hey Linda...yet another year has come in which we must stand strong, together...regardless of who or what may try to destroy such a wonderful reminder of our precious Erin...she was and is unforgettable. ..and there are none who can say that your beliefs are wrong because not one of us can tell God what, when, how, why, and where He can or might use whatever means that He employs to alliviate the pain one owns at such a loss as our family has endured time and time again. The one thing I do know is that forgiveness is a must and that no matter what anyone says or does will ever keep us from seeing our loved ones again one day in the not too distant future. I remember as I was traveling to Halifax to attend Erin's funeral and how I was looking at the rolling fields outside of Antigonish and how I saw a vision of Erin running and laughing over the fields with long ribbons trailing behind her and her long flowing hair flying out behind her as she ran laughing onward, assuring us she did not die but lives on, waiting for all who loves Jesus to join her and our loved ones someday. She may be gone physically but her precious memories in our hearts do live on...it is part of our blessed hope...a hope we never dismiss...no matter what. I love you and always remember that huge tent that you guys...all three of you...Erin, Shannon and you as you set that monstrosity up in my yard...lol...a memory never far from my mind and heart...wish it were possible to once again have it back. I know God watches over us all and one day soon will call us home. Until then, stay strong...allow no one and nothing to rob you of the joy that that day will bring. Paul and I said a prayer for you guys today and we said one for ourselves as well...as this day will forever...until we are all reunited again...be embedded in our memory but knowing that Jesus is keeping us until that day. Love always...until that day let us declare as one..." Even so come Lord Jesus!"...GOD BLESS!

Erin today marks 21 years since your Dad and I had to make the worst decision that any parent has ever had to make. If I could go back in time I would try to change the chain of events that led to this decision. Fate has a strange way of dealing the cards. You were, are and always will be a part of me! Gone from my physical world but never from my heart! Your bright light shines in my soul! I receive your messages and am grateful for them as they keep me going! There are some that condemn my beliefs but I don't let them get to me anymore! Those who cast stones have never had to deal with this kind of loss and hopefully they never will experience such deep sorrow. I will always remember 11:11 and 'never say never'! Sweet girl I hope that you know how much I love and miss you. My sweet rosebud who became a beautiful rose that wilted before her time! Loving and missing you, Mom xo

Sitting here this morning watching the clock and remembering the hour that you made your entrance into this world! It is 39 years ago on this very day Erin and it only takes a second to be back there! As fate would have it we would only get to celebrate 18 of those precious birthday celebrations. You will always be 18 to me! Trying to imagine what your life would have been should you have been allowed to stay! Today there will be a special dedication in your honour by MADD Canada! They are placing an inscribed, very beautiful granite bench in front of the emergency center in our community in your memory! I want to make every possible mark on this earth to remind the people of this world that you were here!! Your presence was always noted everywhere you went and I will make sure, as long as I am breathing, that your presence will continue into eternity! I love and miss you beyond imagination my little rosebud! Mom......  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Christmas is here again but it doesn't feel much like it! I hold precious memories in my heart and look for any small sign that you are near. It is lonely without you and the rest of the family. I hope that you are sharing Christmas with your Dad, grandparents, aunts and uncles and cousins. This year I keep remembering the Christmas that I was ill and we had a Charlie Brown tree! I thought we should all be able to see things through the eyes of a child. It didn't matter if the tree was perfect to you! You and Shannon were just happy to have a tree. You were only four years old and such a sweet little girl. To say I miss you is an understatement! Merry Christmas beautiful! Love you always and forever! Mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

So here I am once again about to put into words how much your leaving left such a major impact on my life and changed who I am forever. Erin it is getting more difficult to express in words just how much your passing has changed my life and many lives around me. It comes down to the fact that you never, ever should have died. What happened to you 20 years ago was wrong and totally unacceptable. If I could have given you my remaining years on this earth I would gladly have done so. If I could go back in time and prevent what happened I would do that too! All of these things I would gladly do but we both know that can't happen. I look for signs of you around me everywhere I go. If you can send me confirmation today that you are near I sure would appreciate it. Loving you, needing you and yearning to hear your voice...........  Loving you and missing you always and forever.........  Your Mom... xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Baby girl you are now 38 years of age on this earth but in heaven you will always be 18! Where would life have taken you? Still have the image of those beautiful eyes looking into mine the day you were born. Magical moment and now haunting. It is raining today as it is in my heart. Will put flowers at your grave and make a wish as always.  Sending kisses to you on butterfly wings. I don't need to tell you how much I love and miss you because you already know. Send me a sign today!! 
Eternally in my heart, Mom  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

It is Mother's Day Erin and, as always, I am missing you today as every other day in my life. My mind wanders to a happier time when you and your sister were tucked under my wing. It is hard to express my emotions. I am forever changed because you were taken from me and this world far too soon. I look for signs from you constantly and some days they are so obvious. One more hug, one more smile, one more day with you..... Would never be enough!! Loving you and missing you today and through eternity! Mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Erin: I just posted a video on facebook of Mr. Blue talkin to you, Dad and ZigZag!! Thank you to You'se all for the LED candle!! I'll treasure it forever!! As always, words can't express how much I miss you. I can ask why so much, but I'm not gonna get an answer. Either way, I hope you're proud of who I've become. So often I wish you would be just a phone call away, or that you lived close by so we could all be together. I know you wouldn't want us to be sad, but, that's easier said than done.

So between now and then,
Till I see you agin,
Ill be lovin you…
Love me.
Your lil big sis. XoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoX!!

Merry Christmas Erin. Another year has passed and my heart still aches for your presence in my life. Hope you are spending the day with your Dad, Ziggy, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and friends. Life has had many changes for everyone and I find myself recalling memories from Christmases past. No words can express how much I love and miss you. I live, for now, with the hope that one day we will be together again. All my love, Mom XOXOXOXOXOXO

How can it be that you are gone from this world for 19 years now. My heart is so broken. My world changed forever on this day and I will never be the same. I dread summer now. Summers were once so special for us. You, Shannon, your Dad and I would have so many adventures and I would be sad to see school go back. To say I miss you ... well, there are no words for that. My heart aches for what might have been. My life was so enriched by you Erin. This is wrong, so wrong. You should have seen your dreams fulfilled and be living life the way it was intended. So much has changed since you left and has changed me forever. Maybe one day we will be reunited and I can hold you again. My love is forever baby girl! Loving and missing you more than anyone can see, Mom xoxo