ForeverMissed
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His Life

winter

October 14, 2012

i was thinking today about how much you liked it when it snowed, you  would say to me we dont hav e to go anywhere let it snow.....then you would tease me about making sure id go down and shovel the car out.....but thank god we have good neighbors, and they always did it for us.......you used to like when it snowed and you worked.........

our shopping trip

August 24, 2012

I was thinking of the day we went shopping for matts birthday he was little and he wanted a talking barney, we went everywhere that day and finally found it at the watertown mall(the last place left to look) but it was worth it to see the look on his face when we gave it to him...a few years later Ashley was born and from day one you called her shelly, and no one else could that was your special name for her....she wouldnt answer to shelly un less you were talking to her.....

Your Job

August 12, 2012

Today i was thinking about the storms we had and you had to work, i was always so worried,but i also knew that was your job, and you liked it..as long as you were safe i was happy with it..you  took pride in what you did always...but that was the type of person you were if you did it it was done right....

Just Missing you

July 25, 2012

IM just sitting here thinking of how much i miss you,, you are always on my mind, every second of every day, my heart is just breaking without you....No matter what i do my thoughts are with you, we were together for a long time, and some days i just dont want to go on without you, i miss you terribly...a piece of me went with you when you died..love and m,iss you always....

OUR LAS VEGAS TRIP

July 21, 2012

I was thiking about our trip to Las vegas and how you hated the airplane ride, you had my poor mom crazy, telling her we were going to crash...We finally got their and had a great time with all the other Elks...iT WAS VERY HOT THEIR THAT YEAR IT WAS MIDNIGHT AND STILL100 OUTSIDE....we had a great time tho, and of course on the way home you were nervous, but allin all we had fun.......

COLORADO TRIP

July 16, 2012

I was thinking of our Colorado trip and what a great time we had, with everyone...You even ordered breakfast-in-bed-for me one morning...We had a great trip, and a ;lot of fun and laughs... even tho you had to go to mandatory meetings and night time a couple of dinners, we still managed to go out at night, i remember the horse carriage ride, the day they closed down all the stores in colorado because  the humidity was  so high but it didnt bother us all the elks we were friendly with up on the roof top for lunch and all of you went in the pool, some of the people couldnt beleive they didnt realize we were from boston, and used to the humidity....that night we all met for supper, and then went to the dog  track, and after that went back to hotel and went to the hospitality room.  We just had a wonderful time...............

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

July 14, 2012

i sit and think and i know we were lucky to have all those years together,but i guess i  am selfish i wanted more, I want you to be here i want to hear you call me, i want you to yell at me i just want you....My heart is breaking without you, i know your in a better place, but it dosent take my pain away.. I miss your smile, your laugh the way you teased me. You were my rock, i know im a strong person, but i always had you their. I hope you know how much i love you......

OUR WEDDING

July 9, 2012

I was thinking of our wedding today, how Frankie told his teacher he couldnt come to school Friday because his mother and father were getting married,we had a nice wedding and came back to my mom and dads house down the lynde, all our family and friends were their, i loved you so much then and i still do. I couldnt imagine my life without you then and i still cant belive your not here with me.you have to know how much i love and miss you.

WHEN I GOT ANGRY

July 1, 2012

You knew how to get back at me , you always knew how to push my buttons and 
make me furious.. I came to pick you up and when i walked in some girl was sitting on your lap, i think you thought i was going to cry and carry on, i walked over to her and told her to get off your lap she said no, and lets just say i made her get off,when i think back on it you did it on purpose because i rememb er looking at you and you had a stupid grin on your face likde yes thats what i wanted you to do.i was so mad at you i left you there and you took a cab home, and i didnt speak to you for 2 weeks no matter what you said or did i wouldnt budge. when i look back it was so childish, but through it all we always loved each other, i dont think back then the other of us realized that.

GIRLS NIGHT OUT

July 1, 2012

i Remember a girls night out i went to with a group of girls i worked with we were only married about a year, you were so mad at me, you followed me where we went and were mad at me because i wouldnt leave with you.  i guess what you didnt know that it didnt matter who was their, i loved you and that was the way it was. When i think about it i probably would have left if you didnt demand that i come home.  but you honestly acted like a caveman and i was so angry, after that we both   realized that neither of us could act like that or the other wouldnt respond well..I dont that you were used to someone saying no to you, and i was always pretty much independent.  you went to Peggys house and you told her how mad you were she told you not ot act that way because i loved you. you didnt believe her if you only knew how upset i was that you left without me, but i couldnt let you know that i think that was the first time you realized i had my own mind, as much as i loved you it had to be 50 50 or it wasnt going to work, i wasnt used to someone telling  me what i could or couldnt do. i wasnt a teenager i was an adult.





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ANGRY WORDS

June 29, 2012

i remember one fight we had i was so mad at you, i told you i didnt love you,we went to the elks that night you to call bingo and me to play when Dotty came thru the line she wanted to know what was wrong with you, you werent your usual self, you told her i told you i didnt love you, she came downstairs and give me hell, i didnt realize it would hurt you so much.  I told you then and ill tell you now i loved you unconditionally then and still do.  i just said it to get a reaction from you,and i did, we c ould push each other buttons.  i never stopped loving you n ot for a second.

June 25, 2012

I THOUGHT OF YOU WITH LOVE TODAY,BUT THAT IS NOTHNG KNEW, I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU YESTERDAY, AND THE DAY BEFORE THAT TOO. i THINK OF YOU IN SILENCE I OFTEN SPEAK YOUR NAME. ALL I HAVE NOW  ARE MEMORIES, AND YOUR PICTURE IN A FRAME.IT BROKE MY HEART TO LOSE YOU, BUT YOU DIDNT GO ALONE FOR PART OF ME WENT WITH YOU THE DAY GOD CALLED YOU HOME. LOVE MARYANN

YOUR GRANDCHILDREN

June 24, 2012

I was thinking of how excited you were when your grandchildren were born, first Jillian, you were so excited and proud. When Matt and Ashley came you were over the moon, you doted on those kids, and they you.  Ashley was always your Shelly and no one else could call her that,Matt always spent weekends with us, he loved smokey and smokey loved him, when Matt was little he thought Smokey was his playmate(as did the dog)we used to get the biggest kick out of watching them.Ashley was afraid at first he was a big dog and she was afraid he was going to eat her. we had a hard time convincing her that wasnt going to happen, then she got used to him and she also thought he was a playmate, we used to sit and watch them play together. They were very lucky to have you as their grandfather.

YOUR SMILE

June 21, 2012

Though your smile is gone forever, and your hand i cannot touch, i still have many memoriesof the one i loved so much.. Your memory is my ke-epsake,with which ill never part, god has you in his keeping,i have you in my heart. sadly missed but never forgotten.

our cruise

June 21, 2012

I Was thinking about our Boston to Bermuda cruise and what fun we had,Bermuda was so beautiful, we were married 25 years in feb and then we went on the cruise in June, so much has happened in 12 years. We bought the condo the year before, our grandchildren grew up into young adults, we all miss you so much.

Terris wedding

June 16, 2012

 i  was thinking today of the time we went to my friends Terry wedding and you were so mad because i caught the boquet, and you went to catch the garter and told my friend Steve not to try to catch it. You did catch it, you never beleved steve and i were just friends.  when i came home you went home and i went to the party at the Freelove house, and you went and told my mother, i didnt love you, i went to be with steve, she told you that wasnt so, but you didnt believe her, I tried to tell you he wasnt even at Terris house and you were so madat me for a few days.Even then you couldnt read me, i loved you so much and you just were so jealous. 

Exalted Ruler

June 16, 2012

Today i was thinking of when you were exalted ruler and how proud you were, you ere happy to have all of your children their.They were very lucky to have you because if nothing else you had a lot of integrity and was very honest. you  took pride in whatever you did, and had a wonderful year,you put your whole heart and soul in everything you did.You prided yourself on your honesty you wouldnt take a free drink you always paid, you said i cant make money for the lodge if i drink or give away the profits.You had a nice service from them, you deserved that and more, i just know how proud you were to call yourself an Everett Elk.














a different side of you

June 14, 2012

I saw a different side of you when we lost our daughter,  you werent that tough boy from Charlestown,you held me while i cried and cried,even tho you were also in pain.  i remeber coming home from the hospital and we had to tell Frankie his sister died and you told him not to be sad because thank god we had him.  you always didnt show that side  of you i saw it then and then when you lost Peggyand Danny, then your mom and Joanie and then your dad.You didnt want anyone to know that you really were a softie.And then when my mom got sick, you  said you wished we had room and they could come live ith us....No one really ever saw that side of you,because  you wouldnt let them it had to be your way.My townie didnt want anyone to know he was a caring person, but we all knew and we loved you more for it. thats the kind of person you were truly were. u werent an angel by any stretch of the immagination, but then again nor was I I could give as good as i could get, but we never stopped loving and caring for each other.You loved your children and your grandchildren it showed when you talked about them.I saw the  look  on your face, you ere so happy to see kevin when he came and Colleen. and Frankie, you were so glad just to spend time with them.

When we met

June 12, 2012

We met January 6 1973,at the Palm Garden cafe one of my friends knew of a live band  playing their so we  went to listen to them play, Frank was a bartender their, the first nthing i noticed was his blue eyes.   After a while he and some of his friends came over to sit with us, we danced and we all had a good time.  I was driving  that night so when it was time to go I drove everyone home, he asked me for a ride home ,on the way home he took my number and the next day was a sunday he called me and we went out, after that we went out more and more. The first movie he took me to see was the posidon adventure, we got engaged feb 14,1974 we were married feb28,1975.