My Dear Son. It's your Birthday.  The day you were born into this world. What a joy you were to me. Oh how I miss your hugs, smile and to hear "love you, Mom". So, I treasure all the years we had together but as your song goes, Gone too soon.  Your sister Gail choose that song for your remembrance.  When we were upon Mt Washington this past June, as always, I placed wild flowers upon your site.  Looking out across the mountains there I felt you at peace in the arms of Our Loving Lord.  Rest my Son, be at peace at your final resting place.  Your Mother loves you till the end of time.  My Love, Mother

It was very nice to read my brother's memorial poem aloud and to place daisies at his resting place high in the mountain.

"Remember Me"
To the living I am gone,
To the sorrowful, I will never return,
To the angry, I was cheated,
But to the happy, I am at peace.  
And to the faithful, I have never left.  
I cannot speak, but I can listen.
I cannot be seen, but I can be heard.
So as you stand upon a shore,
Gazing at a beautiful sea,
Remember Me....
Remember me in your heart,
In your thoughts, and the
Memories of the times we loved,
The memories of the times we shared,
For if you always think of Me,
I will have never gone.

While Gail and Brad were in the USA visiting from Australia, we visited George's site where his ashes were spread and the wildflowers were laid upon his grave.  We picked the Daisies, wild, in the fields of New Hampshire.  We each had a silent moment there remembering George as brother and Son.  That was Gail's first visit to George's site 5500ft up on the Mtn. since his passing 2013. She and Brad were both so happy to see where I spread his ashes.  Fred and I visit George's site each year as we come to stay at camp in New Hampshire.  I miss you, my Son.  Never, ever will I forget you and the gentle soul you are.  Rest in peace George, till I see you in the later life.  May you rest at peace in the arms of our loving God. I love you my Son. Mother





 

Wonderful and joyful things are happening in our family at the start of the New Year. I so wish you were here with us George.  My thoughts are with you and remembering you, my son, with loving memories and the many happy times we shared.  They will go on and on.  So, to you George, I send my love. Your Mother

George, with mixed feelings and loads of love to you today.  Yes!  Gone too soon!  I can't yet "grasp" that I won't see you here on earth one day soon. An answer, yes, in a dream, yes!  But to touch and hug you, not yet.  Sadly that's been taken away until, one day I'll see you in heaven, at peace, and the joyful, happy face will be there.  So, yes George, you are so missed here in my life on earth.  Know that I'll always love you my Son.  In loving memories of you, Mother

Lit a candle this morning for George, placed some photos I took of  George next to it. 

The photos were taken about 13 years ago at my apartment in Silver Lake. 

He had stopped by to hangout, we would just look at fashion magazines and talk about art. There will never be another George in my life, a true artist and a true friend.

I miss him, when I need guidance, I always ask George what to do, he's not here but the answer always comes and I try my best to listen. 

When I think of him now, a huge smile always comes across my face, 

He was so amazing! 

Miss you George ! Xoxo 

-Paul

Today on the third anniversary of your passing, I want to thank you for bringing Brad back into my life and opening my heart and eyes to the possibilities of love. Because you kept pestering me to join Facebook, I met Brad Langendorf again. Because of your good forgiving heart, I gave him a chance. You two got along so well! It was so wonderful to see you both in smiles and fits of laughter. Thanks for your help in our wedding as well. The photo I just posted was from that time period in 2011. Love to you in heaven from your sister Gail. I know you are at peace.

Oh to have you here to hug you for your 44th Birth day!  I'd wish for that.  But, I know where you are now and I know you are at peace there.  My thoughts are there with you my Son.  All the days of my life I will have loving thoughts of you. Love you, Mother

Knowing your birthday is tomorrow makes me happy and sad. .. happy because we celebrated so many together and sad because I Now have to celebrate your life by myself. Love and hugs all the way to heaven. .. your nieces are growing up so fast but they know their uncle George. Is watching over them. Love you. . Till we see each other again

I placed another bunch of wild flowers, Black eyed Susans, upon George's site, 5,000ft by the Wamsutta Trail high up along the auto road.  There George's ashes were layed to be forever missed.  My heart sings with joy for George!  As we always said to one another, "I love you".  Mother

Today 7/10/15 I visited my Son's Memorial Site upon Mt Washington, N.H. the highest peak on the Northern Coast of USA where I spread his ashes last 7/10 upon the lush green grass.  There stands a ginormic Rock to know the site when one approaches George's site.  Memories, sweet ones and very sad ones filled my heart as I knelt there and placed 2 bright orange Marigold flowers upon the ground.  One is from his sister Gail and the other is from his Mother who loves him so and misses him so.  I know my son is at peace now with our Lord but I'm feeling cheated of his hugs.  So, till next 7/10 may you rest peacefully my son.  Love never ending, your Mother

I know how much you loved the holidays.  Baking cookies, trimming our just-cut-down Christmas Tree.  So much George.  Why? Why?  I miss you so.  It's so wrong not having you here with all of us.  My prayer is that you are in the comfort of our loving Lord and Savior.  Forever, your Mother

My thoughts are so oft of you George!  My heart aches for you.  I want to talk with you and hear you laugh.  My soul is lonesome for you.  I pray that your soul is at rest peacefully now.  Lovingly said, your Mother

I have been friends with George for over 20 years, having met him in Philadelphia while he was attending Kutztown.
We often  used to watch movies on my "big screen 65" tv, which was quite huge in those days.
Spending lots of time together in Phila we would visit the Phila Museum of Art, whgere George worked for a time before moving to Calif, and NYC where we enjoyed attending many cultural events.
A few years ago it was a pleasure for me to meet his mother Annemay at a casual dinner at my home attended by the three of us.
I am so sad to lose George. 

George and I attended KU together and George was the main person I hung out with other than my boyfriend.  We had a lot of fun together and got into a lot of harmless mischief. We explored the local cemetary in the middle of the night, broke into the fifth floor of Old Main which was reportedly haunted so we could find out for ourselves, went to many parties, raves, and clubs in New York and always had a good time.  He lived with me for a while in Kutztown and I had plans to move with him to California... until I met my husband.  He visited me in Atlanta and here in Philly where I was able to meet his lovely mother.  He was a wonderful watercolorist and truly a loving, very intelligent man.

The year that we spent Christmas together at his apartment in California I had a special wish that the 2 of us would attend Christmas Eve Service together at the magnifisent Chrystal Cathedral.....Wow!  It was wonderful.  And, my son looked so handsome in his red Christmas sport jacket!  He was a knock-out that evening.  I was so proud of him.  The service was beautiful.  I was so happy to be there together with him.  We had dinner before the Service at a nice restaurant "The Kitchen"  not far from George's apartment.
That is an unforgetable time, one of many, but not enough, that I spent with my son.  I love my Son so much.........  Love, Mother

On another one of our trips to the National Forests in California, we heard there was a possibility of snow during the night.  We stayed at a Lodge in the National Forest, very soundly........We were travelling in George's new car he just bought......a Nissan "Cube".  What a cute car that was!  In the morning when George left the room to get a cup of coffee for me, he knew I enjoyed that "first" cup, lo and behold Mother Nature turned the Cube into an Ice Cube!  How neat was that?  We both laughed at how wondrous that was!  Snow and ice had covered the entire car.

Our favorite place to go when we could not think of what to do (which in LA should not happen...) we would enjoy a smoothie from the farmer's market, walk around, visit the bookstore, Barney's & our favorite the Fresh Fragrance store: also the cineplex here was good. During the holiday season the lights, water fountain & music at The Grove are pretty nice.  http://www.thegrovela.com/

One summer we went white water rafting on the Kern river.  We were placed in a boat that totaled 8 people.  The river guide put us in the front of the boat, so we had the responsibility to set the pace, steer & of course got to see all the scariest bits right away!  We did a great job with the boat & the guide was really credit for that.  The river was very swift.  I remember then telling us it was normally a level 3 in that part of the river but this particular year it was a 4, which is pretty rough for a first time! 

We had a lot of fun in the mountains.  The night before, the lodge was very hard to find!  It was at the top of the mountains & honestly a complete dive.  We had to drive all the way back down the mountain at 5am to make the rafting appointment on time. 

I wanted George to teach me roller skating (he was an excellent dancer too!!) but I am just so uncoordinated.  We went to the closest place we could find with skating in LA & the live music that was playing was an old organ, like they really used to have in skating rinks.  I took a lesson but I was pretty dismal & he didn't want to go back every week, he didn't like the music at all, & wanted it to be more hip. :-)

When LaDanian Tomlinson (LT!) was having his stellar year with the San Diego Chargers, we saw almost half of the home games that year.  It was fun driving down to San Diego & tortuously slow driving back, but we enjoyed ourselves talking & listening to music.  The games are great in San Diego with a good CA vibe (not at all like going to see the Giants in NJ...)  LOL.  One time our friend Brian came with us & we had a yummy picnic in the parking lot before the game.  I rented a soccer mom SUV that week so could have a true tailgate with lots of space.

I remember we wanted to see this movie with Ashley Judd called "Bug" (2006). We were both fans of horror movies. It was hard to find though, we located it playing way up in Agoura Hills in a tiny theater & we were the only ones in the showing that evening. We really enjoyed this movie a lot although it was quite disturbing. We had conversations about it long after because of the ambiguity of whether the Ashley Judd character was really experiencing the bugs, or did she start hallucinating the same hallucinations as her twisted boyfriend? We felt this was an underrated movie & a great performance from Ashley. Generally speaking we both enjoyed movie nights & would typically see a movie every week, while I was lucky enough to be working in LA from 2006-2007.

I remember fondly the dinner at Gails house in New Jersey It was either 1997or 98. 
I had not sean George for many years and he was there along with both his sisters and many other family members.  George and I had volunteered to help with the setting of the tables.  We made a good a team and we had a few laughs as we tried to figure out all that would be needed and where the guest were sitting.  But what I remembered the most was how nice It was to meet George as  he was so grown up and he was such a good person.  rip George 

Lolly


 

Remember our trip to Northern California?  Those GIANT pine cones that we collected on the way home to your apartment? I somehow got 2 of the largest ones home with me to Florida, on the airplane.  How they ever fit in my luggage.......:-)  Love, Mother
 

I have so many stories to share from our times in LA.  But right now this one really stands out.  I had a long layover in LA & we wanted to go to Magic Mountain to pass that time together.  Well we arrived & paid for park passes but the line for the newest roller coaster, the X2 was so long, that it took up all of my free time.  We rode this coaster after standing in line for 3 hours.  It was the worst I mean scariest ride in really both of our lives.  I was frozen with terror.  Next to me, George screamed the whole time.  The ride is conducted backwards, your chair is on its own ball joint pivot, & you loop & twist on tracks in addition to the ball joint looping & twisting on its own.  The ride is diabolical.  We were glad we did it but we sure never wanted to do it again!

I remember visiting George in college & I really loved the paintings he was making with actual branches from trees in them.  I do have a few of his paintings, but none like that.  He also loved taking photographs.

George liked to eat everything on his plate one item at a time. Sometimes he would be upset that I served him 3 things.  He couldn't understant that but if there were 3, he was only going to eat them one at a time.  :-)

George was a really happy baby boy. He was always laughing! His first word was "yellow". He always loved colors, it was clear early on that he was artistically inclined.