September 21, 2021
September 21, 2021
mamaw this really did scar me for life u were my best friend, my mamaw, my everything.It's just so hard without you here and its like when u were here everything was just so easy and i felt like i was something and i was very loved and you know mamaw I don't feel like that much anymore without you...It honestly hurts so badly its so hard to breathe whenever i cry about you and i know u didn't want any of us to cry but mamaw you was my rock I could count on u for anything and now i dont have anyone that i can count on it's like my life literally fell apart without you it's really not the same thank you for everything we shared alot of memories!:( 6 years of memories mamaw we did it! ur home now ill be up there before you know it!:)oh and mamaw i gotta tell u something i have a girlfriend now..and im very happy with her she actually shows me what being loved feels like and of course mom wouldn't understand that all because she's far away and because im young oh and mamaw im 14 now! every single of my birthdays after u passed away wasn't good like the last 3 were terrible and so much has happened ever since u left and nobody believes me about the whole jordan thing but its true mamaw it is and to be honest im scared because he's gonna be getting out soon and i'm scared......but ya wanna know how i got thru it all? because you i knew i was strong enough to make it thru it! and i finally got away from him. and there was some more bad things but anyways i miss u mamaw i really do and life without u isn't the same:(my heart hurts mamaw u meant everything to me and i remember so many memories that we shared:) it makes me happy thinking about them but it also makes me sad because ur jot here to make more..i love you mamaw rest easy and fly high i bet its beautiful up there i love you:(