Janessa Shauna Cox, (2010 - 2010) - ForeverMissed.com Online Memorials

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Born on March 9, 2010 in Utah, United States
Passed away on March 9, 2010 in Utah, United States

This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Janessa Cox, born on March 9, 2010, and passed away on March 9, 2010. We will remember her forever.

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March 9

Happy 14th Birthday in Heaven Janessa! You should be our last not adult kid in our home and I hate that I got kicked out of the mommy of kids club early. I'd love to be going bday shopping with you today and taking you out for lunch. This past year has been tough and there's been days when the stress has been overwhelming. Please watch over our family. We Love You! We Miss You! We will never forget you! Love Mommy

March 9, 2023

Dear Janessa,

Think of you today! You are missed! I wish you were here to celebrate your birthday. We still have a little celebration to remember you but its not much fun without you. The other day I recalled deeply your birth and there are so many hard memories for example the doctor had me cut the cord from the placenta that was hard. I remember you were placed on the scale to see how much you weighed and washing your body without you in it and so many more memories. As Hard as these memories are, I also trust in a living God and that He ... He knows best, but that doesn't mean I don't miss you and would love to see your face and be with you. I look forward to the day when I can.
I love you!
Dad

March 9, 2023

My precious Janessa, how could 13 years have gone by already? You would be an official teenager today! I left the traditional 13th birthday crown like I've given your sisters on your headstone. I have had a lot of tender mercies this year reminding me that you and Heavenly Father are watching over me, love me, and our aware of my grief pain today. Have loved that I found the huge bundle of flowers that had enough roses to decorate your grave but also gave me flowers to keep and enjoy. Loved that 2 of the lilies bloomed and opened up right before your birthday. Loved that there was a heart cloud in the sunrise this morning and loved that there was such a beautiful sunrise which was unexpected because it has been so cold, snowy and miserable weather wise leading up to your birthday. Love that we have SUNSHINE today!!!! The biggest tender mercy was when I flipped the countdown blocks to when your sister comes home from her mission and realized that on your 13th b-day she has 13 days left until she comes home!!!! What a miracle that is!!! I wish with all my heart that when we were going to pick up your sister at the airport that we were picking you up too from your 13 year mission!!! But, your mission is different from your sisters and it is still ongoing! I know you will be with your sister as she comes into the airport to help her cope with all those emotions she will be having as she leaves her mission--I hope as I hug your sister I will be able to feel you close by too. I wish we could celebrate your birthday here, but, I am slowly learning to trust Heavenly Father that you are okay and that we will see each other again. There will still be tears today as I remember our first meeting and our goodbyes. I miss you like crazy!!! I LOVE you forever!!! You are remembered!!! You are always in my Heart!!! Happy 13th Birthday in Heaven!!! Love, Mommy

March 9, 2022

Janessa,
Happy 12th Birthday.
As I ponder over the day you were born and the events of that day and the short time we had with you, I have many feelings and emotions. I also wonder what would look like now as a 12-year-old. What would you like to do... someday we will get to meet and I can see into your eyes and see your smile. I look forward to that day. until then, know you are missed. I love you.
Love,
Dad

March 9, 2022

Happy 12th Birthday in Heaven Janessa <3
No sunrise this year--snow again! I have felt so scatterbrained this year that I don't really have any plans today. Would have liked to watch the sunrise or made my sidewalk chalk b-day card, but, that's been canceled. I might try my hand at a snow art b-day card instead. I just have such mixed emotions that I really don't know how to think or feel or act today. I really don't like that it has been so many years since I last saw you. I guess it does mean that as I age it is getting closer to when we will see each other again. Please watch over your sister on her mission in Indiana that has been really hard to cope with too. I Love You! I Miss You! I Remember You! You are always in my Heart <3

March 9, 2021

Happy 11th Angle Birthday.
Thinking of you on this day.
Many Memories of the day you were born..
I hope you are doing well in Heaven.
You are missed.
Love you,
Dad

March 9, 2021

Happy 4th Angel Birthday to Janessa. I feel so honored to leave a tribute to your sweet baby girl. This is such a beautiful page and place for friends and family to gather with their thoughts and prayers and memories of Janessa. It is truly an awesome way to honor her memory and I am glad to participate in this every year. It is an extremely special tradition. May you find other meaningful ways to reflect on Janessa's life today that bring you peace and comfort.

March 9, 2021

Dear Janessa,
I woke up to watch the sunrise, but, it is snowing instead. That's a first. I guess the weather wants to repeat being stormy and yucky just like it was 11 years ago. This is the first time your birthday has been on a Tuesday since the day you were born. I have dreaded this day since 2010. I thought 11 years would be plenty of time for it to be easier on me, but, it is not. Time never erases the hurt and pain of the memories of your birth and death. I wish you were here. I feel so empty on your b-day--I tried to do some of the things to remember you earlier in the week like decorate your grave and do the sidewalk chalk b-day cards because I knew the weather wasn't going to cooperate, I hope you saw them. Now I'm left with nothing to do today but, remember and cry and watch it rain and snow and feel the agony of pain from the hole you left in my heart. I know you are safe and happy in Heaven and I look forward to the day when we can see each other again, but, it really hurts to have you there and not here with us. I Love You! You are Always In My Heart. Happy 11th Angel Birthday!
Love, Mommy

July 10, 2020

Hello Janessa <3 Just missing you today. Wish I could go back in time and relive the last little bit of time with you knowing now what I do. I would complete a bucket list with you of things for you to enjoy while you were inside of me. Some days it feels so unfair that you are not here to interact and play with your sisters. You are missing so much, experiences that can never happen again. I LOVE you! Love, Mommy

March 15, 2020

Dear Janessa,

Thinking of you today.
Hard memories but important ones.
This is the day we had your grave side service.
I remember clearly seeing your little coffin strapped down in the hearse. I remember picking up your coffin and caring it and you in my arms as I would make one of the longest walks of my life my arms hurt for many days after. But I was grateful to have held you one last time. Placing you over the grave so very hard. It was hard to look at your little casket knowing this was the last time I would be this close to you. Little did I understand that part of my heart and so much of your dear mother's heart would be buried with you.
I clearly remember as each of us placed a rose upon your casket symbolizing part of heart would be buried with you and that we miss you.
I remember as if I were there right now as we circled your little coffin and it would be the last time we were completely together as a family. And then we had family prayer. I clearly remember and overwhelming peace that came over me as I prayed. I knew you were safe with Heavenly Father and I knew that Heavenly Father was aware of us and mindful of our pain. I am so very grateful for these memoires I miss you very much. These memories don't bring you back or let me see your face or spend time with you. But they remind me you are still part of my heart and no matter where I go I can remember you my little angel. I often wonder how much you can see of me or your mom or your siblings. Can you help when we are having a rough day. Can you be God's hands to help influence us for good? There is much I do not understand of the life to come, but I like to think you are near by, as well as others from the others side who try to help us stay on the right path.
I look forward to the day I can see you and hold you, my precious little angel.
My dear Janessa.

I love you,
Dad

March 9, 2020

Dear Janessa,

Thinking of you today and your birth and all the many things that happened. It was a very sad day.
I wish we were having a birth party to wish happy birthday in person.
Know you are loved and missed.
Happy 10th Angel Birthday!
Love,
Dad

March 9, 2020

Janessa thinking of you and your sweet family today. 10 years is a long time.You are loved and missed sweet angel.

March 9, 2020

Thinking of you and your sweet Janessa today on her 10th birthday. May you find comfort in the love and support that surround you and the bittersweet memories you have of her. Hopefully, she and Autumn are doing something extra special in heaven to commemorate such a special day.

March 9, 2020

Happy 10th Angel Birthday <3 Janessa <3
You are Loved, Missed, and Remembered!

Gone, but not Forgotten, Although we are apart, God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart.

Love, Mommy

March 4, 2020

It is 5 days to your 10th Angel Birthday and I am really struggling. I am remembering all the hard memories surrounding your birth and death. Reliving these memories every year for the past 10 years has been a living hell for me. The weather prediction for your b-day is not good--cold and rainy--it is going to prevent me from doing what little I can for you on your b-day, watch the sunrise, make a sidewalk chalk card and decorate your grave--it is so unfair! I pray the prediction will be wrong and it will sunny and warm instead. I wish more people remembered you--it hurts that you are slowly being forgotten. I wish you were here so that we could go b-day shopping and out to lunch and out to get a traditional b-day shake. I wish I was able to decorate you a cake in your favorite color and flavor and we could have your favorite ice cream and b-day meal for dinner. I don't know what any of that is. I wish you were here to play and hang out with Karena--you two would be sharing a room and you would be the best of buddies keeping each other entertained. It makes me sad that she is missing out on that experience with you. I wish I could say the last 10 years have been full of peace, joy, and healing, but they have not! I have gained 30 lbs, more grief from miscarrying your siblings, more emotional trauma, more issues with your living siblings, and lots more debt adding on to our house to move your grandma in with us because your grandpa is in Heaven with you--that has been hard too loosing my Dad. It has been a really, really, hard 10 years. I long to feel the peace I felt on your first b-day. I long to find moments of joy instead of just heartache and pain. I wish I could just see you for just a moment to hold you in my arms and know that everything is going to be okay. I know I will see you again someday, but, right now someday seems way too far away :`(

<3 I Love you <3

<3 Love, Mommy <3

March 10, 2019

Dear Janessa
Happy 9th Birthday. I miss you. May you know of my love. I have pondered about the things that we are missing with you … but the thing I miss the most is holding you close, being able to tell you in person that I love you. I missing being able to play with you and be with you. I pray for you, I know you are safe, but I still miss you.
Love,
Daddy

March 9, 2019

Happy 9th Birthday in Heaven Janessa <3 Words are so inadequate to express how much I still miss you and the sorrow that I feel that you are not here. I hate that the weather has prevented us going earlier to decorate your grave and that we have to do it today on your birthday. This is not the way I want to celebrate your birthday, I want to decorate your cake and be able to watch you open presents, not decorate your very lonely grave. It hurts so much that it has been 9 years since I've seen you and held you. At least we are 9 years closer to being together again. I LOVE You! Love, Mommy <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

March 10, 2018

Dear Janessa
Happy 8th birthday!
I love you

I remember so very well this day 8 years ago when we saw you and then said good bye. There are so many things I wish we could do together I miss you.

Love dad

March 9, 2018

Happy 8th Angel Birthday

<3 <3 <3 <3 Janessa <3 <3 <3 <3

You Are Loved!

You Are Missed!

You Are Remembered!

This isn't how I pictured your 8th Birthday would be. I should be busily making you a doll cake and planning your baptism. Instead I am planning how to decorate your grave and how to avoid being at church when the other kids your age get introduced in Sacrament Meeting as the newest baptized members of our ward. That is going to be hard. I actually didn't want to be living in the same area when this birthday came around but, we are still here. I never dreamed that my Dad, your Grandpa would join you this year for your 8th angel birthday. It does bring me some comfort knowing you are together, but, it also makes my grief even harder this year as I mourn you plus my Dad. The years pass and soften the grief somewhat, but, the angel birthdays never get any easier. I miss you more than words can express. I wish you were here for your birthday because nothing I do today will even make up for that. It will help some and be a way for me to remember you, but, in the end I will still feel empty and sad and cry myself to sleep remembering meeting you and then having to say goodbye to you all on the same day March 9th, 2010--8 years ago.

I LOVE YOU! Love, Mommy

March 9, 2018

Janessa Happy Angel Birthday. You are loved and never forgotten. May your family have love and peace always.

March 9, 2018

Shauna,
Happy 8th angel birthday to your sweet girl Janessa! May you and your family feel her near & feel the comfort of the Savior.

March 9, 2018

Shauna, Happy 8th Heaven Birthday to sweet, Janessa. I hope you and your family will find a way to celebrate and remember Janessa that will bring you comfort and peace. Hold your memories of your time with her close and dear. Big hugs and thoughts coming your way.

December 21, 2017

Merry Christmas Janessa. This is our 8th Christmas apart--it doesn't get any easier. :`(
I wish you were here and that there were presents under the tree for you to open Christmas morning.
Love you my Precious Angel <3 Mommy

December 21, 2017

Merry Christmas in Heaven sweet Jenessa! Keep watching over your sweet family! Im so thankful to know that families are forever!

March 10, 2017

Janessa,
Happy 7th Birthday!
Miss you. I love you!
Love,
Dad

March 9, 2017

Happy 7th Angel Birthday <3 Janessa <3 You are Loved, Missed, and Remembered! I'm a little more emotionally sensitive this year on your b-day because of my Dad's stroke. It has been a big reminder of the changes that life can suddenly drop on you. It has made me more aware of the empty hole in our family that your death has left. I really, really, MISS YOU :`( I can't wait until that day when we are reunited and I get to see you and hold you again :`) Love, Mommy

March 9, 2017

Happy 7th birthday sweetie. Your family loves and misses you. They are trying to be strong. Keep sending sweet angel wishes and messages. Love Shawna Funk

March 9, 2017

Happy 7th Birthday in heaven sweet Janessa! May your family be comforted & feel peace today & always! I think of you every time I walk past your house. I think you would have been a great friend to my little boy. May your family feel you near & know of the Savior's love for each of them.

February 14, 2017

Happy Valentines Day my sweet little angel. Made me so happy to get valentine cards in the mail for you and your siblings. I LOVE You! Wish you were here so I could "heart attack" your door and give you a homemade box of candy and crazy heart socks. Love, Mommy

December 22, 2016

Merry Christmas in Heaven Janessa <3 This is my 7th Christmas without you--I long to hold you in my arms. I wish I could watch your excitement on Christmas morning as you unwrapped gifts of dolls and barbies--instead I decorated your grave--just doesn't seem right or fair. I Love You my precious princess!!!! I Miss you more than anything and I am remembering you always and forever in my heart. Love, Mommy <3 <3 <3 <3

July 4, 2016

My Precious Janessa, I am really missing you today. Holidays are always really hard for me because it is when I notice you and Hope, Jason, and Rae Anne are not here to celebrate with our family. There is always an empty spot at our table and it HURTS! It hurts that I don't get to see your excitement at seeing fireworks or playing with glow sticks. I don't get to see you wear the blue star dress like all your sisters did. Our family is such a mess right now and I don't know how to deal with any of it. I wish you didn't die. I wish celebrating the holidays with you wasn't just decorating your grave. I MISS YOU! I LOVE YOU!!! Be near me today. <3 Mommy

March 10, 2016

Shauna,

Thinking of you and your family as you remember Janessa on her 6th Heaven Birthday. May you create special memories on this day that comfort your heart.

Tiffany

March 9, 2016

Happy 6th Angel Birthday Janessa!!
I LOVE You!!! I MISS You!!!
YOU ARE ALWAYS AND FOREVER IN MY HEART!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Love, Mommy

March 9, 2016

May your family have peace & comfort especially today! Happy 6th Angel Birthday Janessa! I know you will be reunited one day as a family!
With love,
Alyson Colton

March 9, 2016

Happy Birthday Janessa! Thank you for watching over your sweet family! They love and miss you and look forward to a beautiful reunion some day!

March 9, 2016

Happy 6th Birthday Janessa!!! We miss you!!
Love ya,
Aunt Valerie

March 9, 2016

Happy birthday sweetie. You are loved and missed every day.

March 9, 2016

: Happy 6th Birthday Janessa, We Love you! Grandma & Grandpa Johnson

March 9, 2016

Dear Janessa
Happy 6th Birthday! I miss you. I remember holding you as if it was today.
I love you!
Love Dad

March 7, 2016

Thinking of you and your dear mommy today, sweet Janessa, and praying for peace and comfort to fill her heart as we remember your angel birthday this week. You are loved and missed.

March 4, 2016

I feel so empty right now--I don't want to decorate your grave or blow you love bubbles--I want you here happily celebrating your 6th Birthday with barbies and dress up clothes and cake and ice cream. 6 Years is such a long time to be apart. I MISS YOU! Please help me through the next hard couple of days. I LOVE You! Love, Mommy

March 11, 2015

Shauna, I'm so sorry this is coming two days late. Thinking of you and Janessa on her 5th birthday in heaven. I know this is a hard day and hope that the support of all of your friends and family help to give you the strength to get through it. Big hugs.

March 9, 2015

Happy 5th Angel Birthday dear Janessa! Our hearts are filled with love for you and your dear family. Please send down love and peace to your sweet mommy today. She is a remarkable woman, and I'm so proud of her for being so faithful and strong. I know you're proud of her too. You are so loved and missed.

March 9, 2015

You are loved and missed little angel forever and always.

March 9, 2015

Thinking of your family today. Janessa, you are a beautiful gift and have touched so many lives.

March 9, 2015

Happy 5th Angel Birthday Janessa! I long to see you and hold you in my arms. You are Loved! You are Missed! I can't wait to see you again! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

March 9, 2015

Janessa, Happy 5th Angle birthday!
I love you and miss you.
Love,
Dad

March 9, 2015

Happy 5th angel birthday Janessa! We Love You!

Aunt Pam, Uncle Lee, Spencer, Tiffany, & Tabitha

March 9, 2015

Happy 5th Angel Birthday Janessa!!! We miss you!
Love,
Aunt Valerie

March 4, 2015

Janessa, tomorrow is the 5 days before your 5th Angel Birthday. If you were here I would begin to leave little notes and gifts on your bed to celebrate each day before your b-day. Now I just hide in my closet and cry each day as we get closer to that very hard day. I miss you--I wish you were here! I Love You <3 Love, Mommy

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October 16, 2013

HOPE

is not pretending that troubles don't exist.

It's trust that they will not last forever, that hurts will be healed and difficulties overcome.

It is faith that a source of strength and renewal lies within

to lead us through the dark to the sunshine.

Janessa's Little Angel Brother

October 16, 2013

On 10/10/2013 Janessa's little brother Jason Nephi slipped quickly and quietly out of our lives and joined her and Hope Abigail in Heaven due to miscarriage at 12 weeks. I was so looking forward to his due date 4/25/2014 because it would have been right between Janessa and Hope's angel birthdays and been such a healing moment. I looked forward to feeling him kick and move, seeing him in more detail on an ultrasound, holding him alive when he was born and hearing his first crys and seeing him open his eyes.

One thing I did get is I got to see him twice on an ultrasound and see his little heart beating. The first time I felt Janessa and Hope in the ultrasound room with us as the doctor found Jason's heartbeat and I burst into tears because it was such a healing moment!

I wish I had gotten more time with this baby, but, like my other 2 angel babies I know that all of their missions in life are over even though it was such a short time. They just needed a body and a little time to experience life and they are here to teach me lessons that have been hard for me to learn. I am so grateful for all 9 of my children. God has just given me 6 living kids to raise on earth and now 3 angels to raise during the millennium.

I don't understand why God has chosen to take another one of my children and left me with 3 holes in my heart. I feel empty, heart broken and grief stricken to loose another precious baby, but, I am NOT distraught. I know where my babies are and I have hope! :`)

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August 6, 2013

Sometimes the pain of losing a child is so bad that we feel like throwing in the towel and giving up. It hurts too much to face each day without our child. However, we know that to stop living is to stop honoring our child, and so we cry, scream, sob, have meltdowns, and in the end, we face a new day praying that somehow, some way we will make it through. Hour by hour, minute by minute......sometimes that's all we can do. Child loss is a forever pain in the center of our heart that doesn't go away! It's the most piercing, gnawing, constant, lingering pain that will not go away. Every thought we have is wrapped in the pain of child loss!-Silent Grief--Clara Hinton

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