- 57 years old
- Date of birth: Jan 8, 1959
- Place of birth:
East St. Louis, Illinois, United States
- Date of passing: Jun 10, 2016
- Place of passing:
Splendora, Texas, United States
|Janice's wish was for everyone to be kind and try to be nice to each other. To try your best to get along with everyone and... "Don't sweat the small stuff!" There was only ONE Janice Renee Darnell-Knowles. After she was born the Lord broke the mold.|
This memorial website was created to honor the Life and Memories of our loved one, Janice Renee' Darnell-Knowles, 57, born on January 8, 1959 in East St. Louis, IL and passed away peacefully in her sleep on July 10, 2016 in Splendora, TX at the Hope Cancer Retreat. She is sorely missed and survived by her mother, Pat Darnell. Her two sons and daughters - in - law, Kristopher and Bethany Moore, Kyle and Bobbie Moore. Her four beautiful grandchildren who she thought the world of and loved so much, Katie and Anabelle Moore, Kaidyn and Mila Kellye Moore. Her brother and sister - in - law, Kevin and Cheryl Darnell, along with their daughter, Janice's neice, Grace Darnell who she loved so much. The man she saved, who loved her so much, myself, James Peterson All who will love and cherish memories of her, forever.
"Janice my Love.... it has now been six... six very long months since you left to be at peace with the Lord, which I know you are. That is the only thing I DO KNOW for sure anymore. It is that knowledge that maintains my sanity. You were my "Northern Star", my direction, my inspiration.... my purpose. I still miss you so much every day that you are not here. This past Sunday was your birthday baby... the roughest day I have had since you left. I took your picture to church with me, sat it in the seat beside me and took it to the alter when I prayed. I think I just sat there a cried to whole service... it is sort of a blur now. I know your family misses you as much if not more. Especially the grandkids. They are growing up so fast. They are all so beautiful. I know you are watching over everyone. I feel you near me so many times. Thinking back to our time together, you always seemed to question my love for you, how strong it was.... accusing me of desiring other women... on TV!!!! That is soooo funnnyyyy now... irritated me then, but funny now. We were never, ever apart.... I have to laugh. I am sorry that I made you feel that way, but now I know, that you know, what you were to me.... my EVERYTHING. You will ALWAYS have my HEART! You are the only woman the ever truly did. Sweetheart, please help direct me now. I feel so lost and hopeless most of the time. I really have no plans, no dreams... NO DIRECTION!!!! I know, not your problem anymore. I do understand. All I can say baby, when my time does come I hope, no, I believe you will be there to guide me into heaven. I really do and I can't wait for the day. I love you Janice... Always have and Always will. I will do my best to make you proud. Love you!.... oh.... BTW Baby, you have had almost 2,200 views to your memorial website... As I always told you...EVERYBODY LOVES YOU BABY!!!!!"
"Oh Janice, baby girl.... It has been 4 long months since you went home to the Lord. I still miss you soooooooo damn much. I still cry over losing you every day... You were talking to me nightly in my dreams... but that has stopped. I remember you telling me that you only had a time certain period to be able to come and talk to me.... I guess you moved on to Heaven's next level. I love you so much, Janice... I truly do. I am now cancer free... and today I am getting my dentures... I know you would be so happy about this. You were so worried about me getting any treatment... As soon as you left everything fell into place, like I told you it would. Just wish you were here to see this happening so we could be celebrating together. The car is back to it's normal great shape... $2,000 later... It didn't make any sense spending that much on it.... I just couldn't get rid of it. Too many great memories in that car. We practically lived in it. LOL... Anyway, I want you to know how much I love and miss you. Please watch over me and try not to let me do anything too stupid. As I have always told you... I did, I do and I will always LOVE you. You will never be forgotten, my dear.... NEVER!"
"I am so sorry for you loss Mr.Peterson. I didn't know Mrs. Darnell-Knowles personally, but she seemed to have so much support and love around her. She will be greatly missed. The Bible offers much comfort in times like these. One example of comfort that it offers is found at John 5:28, 29 where it says "Do not be amazed at this, for the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out, those who did good to a resurrection of life..." This scripture shows that God wants to bring back those who we have lost. And when he brings them back to us, they will be free of sickness and pain of any kind. This article goes on to offer more comfort for times like these. Please let these thoughts bring you and your family the comfort that you need to get through this hard time. https://www.jw.org/en/publications/magazines/watchtower-no5-2016-september/need-comfort/"
"A beautiful person from the inside and as well as out! She is irreplaceable and still alive up there helping all of our loved ones who are already there:) I sense she is happy:)"
"My deepest condolences to the family and friends of Janice Darnell-knowles .The death of a loved one can be very painful and weight heavily on our hearts ,gods holy word provides comfort for you,(Isaiah 25:8) "he will swallow up death forever"...and (Revelation 21:3,4)"he will wipe every tear from their eyes,and death will be no more,neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore the former things have passed away ".may you all find comfort in the memory of your dearly beloved Janice and know that Jesus Christ ransom sacrifice is our guarantee that our dear loved ones are held in gods memory and very soon we will see them again."
"Dear loved ones of Mrs.Knowles I'm so sorry for your loss.please accept my condolences.Very soon Jesus Christ will use his God given power to awaken your loved one who has fallen asleep in death.John 5:28. How thrilled Mrs. Knowles will be to awaken to a beautiful paradise earth filled with healthy, happy and God fearing people. Psalms 37:9-11&29. May these promises comfort your hearts until they become a reality."
"I never knew this lady & have just reconnected with James after decades have pasted after high school & growing up as youths in the Ozark's! This is nice way to celebrate one's loved one's life! My prayers are with you!"
"TO ALL OF JANICES FAMILY, ESPECIALLY MY BEST FRIEND, HER MOM, PAT DARNELL, I LOVE YOU ALL AND THIS HAS TO BE THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD TO HAVE THROUGH. SHE WAS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERSON, JUST KNOW THAT SHE WILL NEVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THE HORRIBLE PAIN THAT SHE WENT THROUGH ANY MORE. THATS THE ONLY GOOD THING THAT MAY HELP YOU DEAL WITH THIS LOSS BETTER. YOU WILL NEVER GET OVER IT, JUST GET THROUGH IT. GOD BLESS YOU ALL. EVEN NOW AS I WRITE THIS I AM LISTENING TO THE BEAUTIFUL SONGS YOU POSTED , WITH A TEAR IN MY EYES. IM SO SORRY FOR YOU ALL. SHE LOVED THOSE BABIES, GOD BLESS"
"What a beautiful tribute! Thank you for letting all of us be a part of her memory!"
"When asked to provide a memory of my mother that could be read during service my mind started racing and I panicked a bit. My mother had so many wonderful qualities and we shared so many great memories how could I ever come up with just one?! Over the past week it became pretty clear what I'd write after reliving the lasting memories of my mom shared with friends and family. The memory of my mom that kept coming up was just how "cool" she was. Kris and I really did have the "cool mom"! One of the fondest memories was on my 13th birthday. Mom had talked Leonard into letting me have a sleepover with about 15 of my best friends. It was a camp out theme and of course, she had the coolest camping cake ever made to help celebrate my day! She worked at the school down the street from our house and one of her closest friends was the gym teacher...so she negotiated opening of the gym so we could play basketball, football and dodgeball into the night...basically anything we could get into in that gym we enjoyed. As my friends and I got worked up on soda, cake and pizza the fun couldn't stop when the gym had to be closed...that's when the plan was launched. My mom and our gym teacher decided they would pile me and all of my friends into their cars so that they could "teach us how to toilet paper " another teachers house they knew would be a good sport. Right of passage in becoming a teenager back in that day I suppose...and my friends and I were super pumped!!! Although 15 young boys hyped up on sugar weren't as stealthy and quiet as you can imagine - we wrapped that house and all the trees from top to bottom. I remember my mom attempting to show me how to throw the roll over so it would stream down the other side of the tree...only problem she could not throw very well...and her accuracy was not all that great...the entire roll was lost upon her first attempt captured by the lowest branch just out of arms reach. Lol...good thing we had come prepared with lots more toilet paper! That was one of the best birthdays ever. Heck, it was one of the most rememberable nights of my childhood. To this day I still have old friends say "remember when your mom took us TP'ing?"
My mom was definitely young at heart. She related so well with my friends and I and was always available when we needed to talk. She was not judgmental and I knew I could tell her anything and that she'd have my back no matter what. She didn't sweat the "small stuff" as she would say. That's what made her so cool! She was the best mother a kid could ask for. I only pray i share the same bond and friendship with my own children. She was not only my mother, but in a way she was also my best friend. I love you momma!"
"Thank you, Jim"
"Janice's son Kris asked me to write "something" to be read at her memorial service / Celebration of Life. At first I didn't know what to write or what form it should be in. I didn't feel worthy to even be discussing Janice's memory at that particular time. The following is what I wrote and what was read. The grief I am burdened with make these the hardest words I have ever had to put to paper... especially without Janice first proofing it before anyone else read it.
Janice, where do I begin? Saying goodbye has not come easy, thus far… Don’t worry my Dear, I am working on it… I remember 32 years ago, waiting at the Springfield, MO airport for my boss to arrive… I saw this beautiful blonde woman working at a rental car kiosk. After 5 minutes of walking in a circle, building my self confidence up, I approached you asking about car rental rates??? I Didn’t need to rent a car, just had to meet this gorgeous girl. Amazing how a single moment… a single decision made so long ago can lead to such life changing events in our present life… We were so young then and you were such a free spirit… we dated for over a year, enjoying each other’s company and companionship. Our life paths took us in different directions, which I would call unfortunate but I can’t… As we have discussed before, we both realize this was all out of our control. The big picture… long term plan designed and already put in motion and worked by God. This we agreed and have to believe.
Fast forward to July 31, 2014... I am on Facebook and I see a message from you. Unbelievable… 30 years later, just seeing a message from you made me all nervous and excited… So I message you back…but then I notice you have your cell phone number listed in your Facebook profile? God love you baby, not the best idea, but it worked to my advantage on that day. My impatient personality couldn’t wait for your response… so I just called…. And you answered…. And we spent hours catching up with each other’s lives. That evening / night I told you; “Baby, I never forgot about you…I loved you then…. I love you now and I will always love you. Then for the next 6 months we burnt the phones up, spent hours, daily on skype, flew you to Florida for a visit then finally I was able to move to Dallas… and then our “ride” started, didn’t it Babe? And what a ride it was. We became a team, we had to do something, being together 24/7 and all. We were each other’s ‘Yins” to each other’s “Yangs”, I was supposed to be Superman and you were supposed to be Supergirl. You are my beauty and I am yout beast. All the trips we made to Houston and back made me feel like we were Bonnie and Clyde, on the road again. Oh Janice, I do love you so much. We made a GREAT team.
Cancer… I have grown to despise the word, in any form. I thought we were giving it Hell… I thought we were winning??? We always tried to get a plan together… Seems like as soon as we get something that resembles a plan figured out, we catch another curve ball that throws a glitch into the plan that we just figured out. As difficult as it was… we refigured and re-planned so many time but with God’s aid, no doubt, we were never at want for our needs. Maybe we didn’t get all of our wants… but God did provide, in one way or the other, for our needs.
Janice, I do know you…I… we, were fighting so hard to get control of your cancer and the pain in inflicted on your body. I know you were doing your best to be with me, by my side with my own cancer battle. Go figure? Both of us having to deal with all the concerns cancer dumps on a person… at the same time. Who would have thought… What are the odds??? When we were at MD Anderson we tried to find other couples battling cancer together, at the same time. No one we spoke with or ask about it could remember an exact account, but were all sure they had seen it before… just not sure when? It would have been nice to have found a couple that had / were facing all the challenges we have to deal with daily. We sure could have used the advice. Regardless Baby, we gave it our all. The best we had…. I swear, I thought we were winning the battle . Silly me?
I just want to thank you for being such a blessing in my life. When we found each other again, on Facebook, I was a broken man. You gave me a reason to pick myself up, brush myself off and get back in the game with a focus on you. You made me fix myself so I could be the help and support your needs. Sweetheart, all the times you told me I was your hero and all the times I scuffed the comment and told you that I wasn’t a hero, I was just a man who loved you so much, that I was lucky to get the opportunity to care for you. The honest truth is that Janice, you are my hero…You shared your love and gave me the strength to deal with all the daily craziness that goes along with battling our disease. You are such a brave soul, still fighting so hard with little “positive results“. I know I have told you before but I don’t think you ever realize just how much I truly depend on you… how much I truly need you. I should have told you this daily . For this I am so sorry.
Baby, writing this fills my head with our memories. I could go on… I could write a novel, but not here… not now. Now I have to do the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. I have to say goodbye to you, for now. I know you are in Heaven, where you are supposed to be. Where you are happy and I know you are not in anymore pain. You are finally at peace with all. For this I Praise and Thank God. I guess I will continue to seek treatment for my cancer, though I really don’t feel much like doing it… especially without you. No fun in it at all, now. I know this is what you want, so out of respect for you and your wishes I will do my best to eradicate the cancer in my lung. It is going to be so hard to do this without you, babe… please help guide me whenever you get a chance, you know I need it. With that said, Sweetheart, you know you are my life, you are my love, you are my EVERYTHING. I am lost without you but I will find the strength to go forward.,, attempting to fill the void left in my heart… my life with the wonderful memories of the life and love we share. I miss you baby, I miss you so bad! Please forgive me for my selfishness.
Farewell, My Love, Goodnight,
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