Its been almost a year... on tuesday I will be thinking about you the whole day. I'll probobly cry. But its okay. You're watching me and telling me not to cry sadly, but be happy you are healthy and have a whole heart now. I think about a lot. When Uncle Marshall told me that your mommy was pregnant I couldnt help but be so happy even though I didn't know the family that well right then. I had a feeling you were going to be important. I asked how Heather was and checked up on her and you all the time. By the time you were going to be born I was grounded but I still Checked to see if we had any news on if you were born yet. When I finally found out you were born I was so happy and excited that I could finally get to see you. I heard you had to go into surgery and I was confused at first but then I started to understand what was wrong. You made it through and I was excited. I went to see you on my 16th birthday. I went into the room and you were occupying yourself while mommy and uncle Marshall were fast asleep. Not crying or anything. Just being quiet and looking around. We came in and I just looked at you and you smiled. Youre always so smiley. I had the best birthday I could ask for. I got to see you and it made my whole day amazing. Time went by and you had another surgery.. this one was hard. You did good but then everything went down hill. Uncle marshall told me it doesnt look good. He said you stopped breathing. I was in school. I went to the bathroom and cried, hoping you are going to be okay. I didnt know you for long but I loved you already. I went to see you in the hospital and I cried. They were making handprints and footprints of you. I seen you and wanted to just save you. It was such a hard time. Our angel Jaxson. He became whole. Uncle Marshall texted me and told me that you joined the angels. October 14 will always be a hard day in my heart. It is going to be a year in a couple days... and man is it hard. I can't imagine how your mommy and daddy feel. I love you and everyone in the family. We are a lot closer and know each other very well. All because of your special time here on earth. We love you jax. Fly High and keep us safe.