Happy Birthday, Jeremy. We're still here, still missing you, thinking of you.

It remains unbelievable, Jeremy. What a loss to the world and us.
All my love, Mom

We are thinking of you at this time of year, missing you always. 

Dearest Jeremy - Happy Birthday. You are so missed -- there are many things we'd love to share with you -- exploring Wyoming, holidays and so much more. It's still difficult to comprehend a world without Jeremy Hayward in it.

Your 36th birthday, Jeremy. What would you be doing now? Your company was always such a treat. It still feels unbelievable that it's gone forever. I think of you so much and long for you to be here.

Thinking of you with love on your birthday -- you would be 35 today! We still miss you very much. 

Another year without you, Jeremy. So much love, Mom.

I can't say how many hours I've spent crying over the loss of you, man.
You have no idea the lengths I would go to have you back, and to just be able to talk again. You were in many ways my mentor, and one of my best friends. I know get closed lipped about your losing you. But you've remained in my mind and heart since your passing. 

Jeremy, I wish I could say happy birthday, darling. I miss you every day.

Thinking of you today Jeremy and the Christmases we shared <3

Happy birthday dear Jeremy. We miss you very much. 

33, Jeremy, and the world goes on, unbelievably, without you. You are still so young. How we miss you, every day, every minute.

Dear Jeremy -- after four years, we all still miss you so very much. Now that we are living in Laramie Wyoming, in the midst of your beloved Rocky Mountains (Greg part time and Julian for visits), I wish that you were nearby to take us on guided hikes to explore the wonders of the mountain environment, to join us for fly fishing expeditions, and maybe even conspire with Julian to continue with your potato gun experiments. It is still hard to comprehend that you are no longer on this earth, but the sense of wonder and joy that you brought to our lives lives on in our hearts. Missing you always, Kathleen, Greg and Julian

My dear Jeremy,
We've been out of touch for years, so I didn't know until now. I was just looking you up thinking about this decade coming to a close, remembering our great adventures at Carleton College together. Long nights in the arb, listening to coyotes, running back in time for the campus-wide primal scream before finals, sneaking into the forbidden tunnels (and getting caught), setting off the alarm in that abandoned building (not getting caught), and how many endless hours of racquetball...Even after we broke up you would push me to Philosophy of Language in my wheelchair after I broke my ankle. I started traveling the world with you. You dazzled me with your travel stories and weird humor and stunning intellect and skiing. You were my first and you really changed my life. Thank you for everything.
Phillipa, Emma, my heart goes to you. I'd be happy to share stories together if you would ever like to. Email me at rblood@umn.edu and we can exchange numbers. <3

Thinking about how time moves so quickly and it has already been so many years since you helped me with my research and amazed me with your unending knowledge... missing you and grateful to have known you

32 today my darling incomparable Jeremy. Missing you gets no easier.

I was going through my photos and found one more that I had not posted earlier from Emma's wedding. Despite all of the wonderful images on this site, none can replace Jeremy's presence. It would have been so interesting to see where he was now and to share in his continued intellectual and personal development. Life goes by too quickly.

Jeremy,
How time has passed already.. I hope you are enjoying the view from above. I wanted to let you and your parents know that your camp/field hammock has been in good hands and served me greatly on some recent adventures to Molokai and some on-island camping here on Oahu.  Also I've been circling back to soil sampling for mycorrhizae and of course I thought of you given that's how we met.  The work continues and your name is still heard in the forest here. We miss you Jeremy
Aloha,
James

I think of Jeremy all the time. Can't help it when working in the lab at SUNY-ESF. He is dearly missed.

Going through old emails recently, I realized I never contributed to this memorial page. I had the pleasure of working alongside Jeremy in Nicole Hynson's lab during my final semester in 2014. His enthusiasm, patience while teaching others, and knowledge of fungi remains unsurpassed in my field experience. To this day, when I encounter an unknown fungus, I always think of him. My greatest memory by far was a simple day in the lab prepping samples for me to measure their spores -- whenever I'd prep a sample I'd ask what species it was, and he never skipped a beat. That day, there was a tiiiny little mushroom that, when I asked what it was, he told me he didn't know, and he was very excited to see the spores under the microscope. They were the most brilliant shade of yellow, absolutely breathtaking. I wish I had taken a screen shot to capture them forever, but the memory will always live on ♡ Mahalo Jeremy :)

Happy Birthday Jeremy -- you are so deeply missed. It still seems impossible that you are not here on this earth - loving friends and family and exploring the marvels of this world. I look through your photos and am continually amazed by all that you experienced in your life. You were so much a part of our time as a young family (and beyond) -- Greg, Julian and I will always miss you.

31 today, my Darling.

BY BEN JONSON
Farewell, thou child of my right hand, and joy;
My sin was too much hope of thee, lov'd boy.
Seven years tho' wert lent to me, and I thee pay,
Exacted by thy fate, on the just day.
O, could I lose all father now! For why
Will man lament the state he should envy?
To have so soon 'scap'd world's and flesh's rage,
And if no other misery, yet age?
Rest in soft peace, and, ask'd, say, "Here doth lie
Ben Jonson his best piece of poetry."
For whose sake henceforth all his vows be such,
As what he loves may never like too much.

The void that Jeremy's absence has created will never be filled. 
At least we have some fond memories.

Greg, Kathleen and Julian

30 today, my Darling.

There is a pain - so utter -
It swallows substance up -
Then covers the Abyss with Trance -
So Memory can step
Around - across - upon it -
As One within a Swoon -
Goes safely - where an open eye -
Would drop Him - Bone by Bone -
(Emily Dickinson)

Emma and Philippa
Peace and Love
Thinking of you
Kate Wickham

Although I found out about this a bit late, it's still very shocking and upsetting. Jeremy's part of the reason I'm studying mycorrhizae and I can only strive to be a quarter as enthusiastic as he was.

29 today, my Darling.

Jeremy always knew exactly who he was, which was amazing to me when I met him in high school. He is responsible for my favorite memories of that time, and for imbuing me with a love and respect for nature that has led me to my current career path. My favorite thing about Jeremy was that he made my wildest dreams possible. Slingshooting ice cubes into a cornstarch model of the earth, copper-plating my car keys, and tickling rainbow trout for our backpacking dinner were just everyday adventures for Jeremy and our group of friends. I'll always cherish my memories of those times, and strive to incorporate some Jeremy-style wit and adventure into my life. Love, Talia

Dear Phillipa and Emma
My deepest sympathies to you both.
The photos are beautiful and full of happy memories I am sure.
Peace and love. Kate

Dear Philippa, Anthony and Emma,
Belated condolences on your loss. Emma you are to be congratulated for creating this Memorial Website. I hope that the love expressed by friends, colleagues and family will, with time, contribute to your healing process.

I had the good fortune to take Jeremy to a very special place on Oahu in March of 2015. We had a nice field day together looking for individuals of a native Hawaiian orchid on Mount Kaala in a misty, high-elevation bog. Jeremy spoke about his reaserch with passion and confidance. It was a joy to have met him.

Dear Philippa, I knew Jeremy through your stories and photographs - his journey was one of wonder and profound delight. What a joy it was to hear about his life through you. I treasure those moments we shared. I am so very sorry. You are in my heart. Love, Nikki

Philippa,

My love to you and your wonderful family. Can not begin to understand how you all must feel during this time. Love and grace as you walk through this.

Dear Philippa,
My deepest condolences to you and your family. I never had the good fortune to meet Jeremy but he seems to have inherited your genuine love of higher learning and academic pursuit. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Susan McHugh

I was only beginning to get to know Jeremy through the Hynson and Amend Labs, but it was immediately clear that he is a wonderful and unusual soul, vibrant, witty and energetic. My deepest sympathies go out to you, his family, in this unimaginably difficult time.

Jeremy always stood out with his keen sense of adventure, dry wit, inventiveness, and unconventional personality. In preschool with Danny Lewis, we were like three musketeers, creating our own adventures, frolicking in the swimming pool, playing with Mouse and Cheese, and getting into mischief (though Jeremy and Danny took most of the credit for the latter). We reunited in high school at GW, eating lunch every day on the front lawn, working out chemistry experiments in Dr. More's class, and going bowling under the names from the Big Lebowski. Though it's been at least a decade since we'd seen each other, Jeremy had never left my thoughts. It comes as no surprise that he excelled academically and never stopped exploring the natural environment. My deepest condolences to Emma, Philippa, Anthony, and all your family and friends who miss Jeremy so much. We will never forget him.

Dear Jeremy, I will always remember playing with you when we were kids. Emma and I were the tragic princesses and you, the evil wizard, would kidnap us and make us clean your room. I remember how you repaid us by being the only one brave enough to rescue the spiders from the pool before we would go swimming. I remember when you invented a Kevlar glove that was meant to be worn when using power tools and was completely saw-proof. I remember your uncanny ability to spot things in nature that the rest of us would have totally missed and not only did you point them out but you then gave us a detailed explanation of their natural history. I remember how you always caught the most and largest crayfish in Cherry Creek. I remember when you identified and catalogued all the fungi in the Carleton Arboretum--just for the fun of it. I remember when you became a vegetarian with the one exception, on ethical grounds, of road-kill. I remember the lovely impromptu nature tour you gave all the guests at Emma's wedding. I remember you being the only person I've ever met who not only enjoyed graduate school but made it look disgustingly easy. You were a delightful mix of intimidating intelligence and disarming kindness, and you lived your life as though it was a great adventure. You will be deeply missed. All my love, Allison.

Jeremy, .
My thoughts and condolences go out to your family, friends and the Hynson Lab.
I as the rest of us am saddened and disturbed by your untimely passing. In the short time that I knew and worked with you I admired your fastidious nature when it came to research and staying up to date with the work and research in your field. I enjoyed working with you in the forest and helping you collect soil to help answer questions about our efforts to preserve what is left of Oahu's native forest. On a personal level, I remember how you would often smirk and sigh in passive accord with my commiseration about academia and it's quirks as we hiked through steep slopes and loose ground. You had an odd likeness to Quentin Tarantino that I never shared with you but I often thought about. You were a man of few words but when you had something to say it made sense. You were a great mind and we are at a loss without your future contributions. I appreciate the short time that we worked together and for the the work that you put in towards Hawaii's forest conservation.
Will will miss you Jeremy.
Rest in peace.

Jeremy had been in Hawaii for about a month before it became obvious to me that he was on his way to knowing waaaaaaay more about Hawaiian fungi than anyone else on the island. He was a whip-smart guy and a throwback to the old school naturalist who never leaves the house without a write in the rain notebook and a loupe around his neck. In his short time here he searched for elusive mushrooms in soggy valleys and on sketchy cliffs that probably hadn't seen a pair of human feet in quite some time. We'll all miss his adventurous spirit and drawers full of dried fungi. Aloha.

I have had the pleasure to work with Jeremy on cutting-edge research on microbes in our Hawaiian soils. Jeremy was a brilliant scientist! We talked about how as a child he loved to dig and play in the dirt and his career path certainly fit with that love. He was also my go to man to identify mushrooms that I have been observing in the forest in Hawaii. He could always identify it to at least the genera level and would always add his recommendations about the mushroom's edibility. He knew I always wanted to find a delicious edible mushroom and would encourage me to try it by saying things like, "No members of this group are known to be poisonous so the worst thing that could happen is that you could throw up." I did not know Jeremy well but I will certainly miss his contribution to conservation in Hawaii and days digging in the dirt with him. My thoughts are with his family and friends.

Philippa and Emma-

I am so very sorry to hear this news. While I never knew Jeremy, from these pictures it is clear he shared the same passion and love for knowledge so characteristic of his strong, loving family. My deepest condolences to the two of you during this difficult time.

My memories of Jeremy are as an energetic and curious little boy, traits that appeared to follow him through the years into adulthood. I was lucky enough to enjoy his lively company, conversation, and thoughtfulness over our few shared family meals. My deepest sympathies and hugs to Pippa, Emma, and those closest and who knew Jeremy well.

My deepest condolences to you and your family. I can't imagine the challenge of getting through such a tragic loss. I only knew Jeremy through Philippa, but I'm very sorry for this most trying moment. My thoughts and hopes are with you and your family.

Mark

I was just getting to know Jeremy, but as I am a brand new postdoc in Hawaii, he was completely wonderful, and made me feel welcome and at ease, and just a little out of my depth. See, it took about two conversations before I realized that Jeremy was intimidatingly intelligent, but the more we talked the warmer he seemed and I felt glad to have him on my side. That will not be forgotten.

Dear dear Philippa and Emma,
We knew Jeremy through stories and book recommendations (all excellent, of course) and now these extraordinary photographs. The loss is incalculable. You are in the hearts and thoughts of everyone here.Love, always - Mary and David, Zack, Will and Annie

Jeremy, I will always remember running around you in waist deep snow with our BB guns while you taught me so much about the world around me. Through you I discovered a fascination for the world we live in and the people that live in it. You were and are one of the most inspiring characters I will ever meet. I Love You.

Jeremy, you came to the Syracuse lab running and left at the same pace for your postdoc in Hawaii. You were so full of energy, ideas, and commitment to doing science. You cranked out papers like no other. Yet you also had your fun. You spent a great deal of time in the woods and much of that time was spent studying and learning all there was to learn from nature. You came back with bird skulls that still adorn the PCR machines (and I do mean adorn...they are beautiful). I do not know anyone so adept as you at finding prime edible mushrooms. My graduate students learned a lot from you. On more than one occasion you clarified a difficult concept in a graduate seminar with laser precision. Undergraduate students also benefited greatly from your advice as part of their early ventures into a research lab. A good number went on to graduate programs around the U.S. I could go on, but suffice it to say... we wish you were here.

"Lord knows when the cold wind blows it'll turn your head around"
James Taylor

Jeremy, King of All the Wild Things. You are a person of great beauty and sensitivity. You will be greatly missed. Dearest Philippa and Emma my heart goes with you in this loss. My Love, Steph

My life was definitely richer for having known you, Jeremy, from a little one through a brilliant, fascinating young man. My days with you were filled with wonder and humor, as was the world around you. I am glad I had a chance to be in your life. Thank you Jeremy, for making my life richer. With love and hugs to Philippa and Emma....

Jeremy once responded to a happy-birthday message: "A belated thanks. And as always may your cup runneth over and your brooks run silver with fish, unless you find fish a little slimy and gross, in which case we can probably arrange to replace the fish with something on the graceful end of the bird spectrum, like flamingos maybe." Right back at you, Jeremy. We miss you.