15 years ago today I sat in picu at Tulane hospital with you in my arms and watched you take your last heart beat!! It killed me that day to see you go!! Only God knows how I truly felt!! He needed an angel and called you home!! There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about you!! I always think on how it would be to have you here with us!! To see you smiling, laughing, running, playing, growing up just like the rest!! Would love to see how beautiful of a young lady you would be!! I always wonder how your personality and your attitude would be!! When God took you he also took apart of me!! All I have is the memories and the love that we shared!! God does things for a reason and his reason for taking you we will never know!! I'm glad that you are my daughter, now my guardian angel!! You are not suffering and sick anymore!! I will see you again when it is my time!! But until then keep shining down on me!! I remember our midnight snack peanut butter and jelly sandwiches every night!! We shared our own little special bond that no one could take from us!! You are such a beautiful lil angel up in heaven!! A million times I've needed you!! A million times I've cried!! If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died!! In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still!! In my heart you hold a place, no one else can ever fill!! It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone for part of me went with you the day God took you home!! If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane I would walk right up to heaven and bring you back again!! No farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye!! You were gone before I knew it and only God knows why!! My heart still ache in sadness and secret tears still flow!! What it meant to lose you no one can ever know!! But now I know you want me to mourn for you no more!! To remember all the happy times life still has in store!! Since you'll never be forgotten I pledge to you today!! A hallowed place within my heart is where you'll always stay!! Although I miss you badly and remember you every day, I know you're safe with Angels and watch over me each day!! God called your name so gently that only you could hear no one heard the foot steps of the angel drawing near!! Softly from the shadows there came a gentle call you closed your eyes and went to sleep, you quietly left us all!! Your story ended and you flew away!! But here in my heart, you are still alive today!! The moment that you died my heart was torn in two!! One side filled with heartache the other died with you!! I often lie awake at night when the world is fast asleep and take a walk down memory lane with tears upon my cheeks!! Remembering you is easy I do it everyday, but missing you is heartache that never goes away!! I hold you tightly within my heart and there you will remain!! Until the joyous day arrives, that we will meet again!! Time slips by and life goes on!! But from my heart you're never gone!! I think about you always!! I talk about you too!! I have so many memories but I wish I still had you!! Just because I cannot see you does not mean you are not there!! Just because you are in heaven does not mean you do not care!! You often see me crying!! I often call your name!! You want to hold me tight!! You want to ease my pain!! It's easy for you, for you know heaven is real!! If I knew the truth how much better would I feel!! One day we will meet again but only when the time is right!! When I step out of the darkness you will be standing in the light!! You are like a whisper a song on the wind that I listen to!! I can't forget that fateful day, you had to leave you went away!! A sadness filled me up inside emotions that I could not hide!! Tears they came, sadness too, all my emotions just for you!! Time will heal, so I was told, but time could never fill this hole!! Here in my heart, there is a place, you're always there keeping me safe!! It's filled with love and happy times!! It's never dark your light it shines!! In heaven now you do reside!! To watch over me with love and pride!! I know one day we'll meet again!! Until we do just know how much I miss you and you are always with me!! I hide my tears when I say your name!! But the pain in my heart is still the same!! Though I smile and seem carefree!! There's no one who misses you more than me!! Everyday I sit here and miss you more and more!! Only the Lord knows how heavy my heart is!! He helps me get through each day without you!! He needed an Angel and he chose you!! I never wanted you to go, but I had to let go!! I can talk about you everyday with a smile on my face, but no one truly knows the pain that I face!! I Love You Jessica Renee' "Pee-Pie" Sonnier!! Until we meet again baby girl!!

On August 14,2001 I gave birth to a set of twin girls. I watched my girls grow everyday. They were so energetic, loving, caring, and unique in their own way. Just about a week after they turned one Jessica fell sick. I brought her to 4 hospitals in 2 days with a fever of 104. They all said it was a virus and sent us home. I then brought her to her doctor and that’s when he put her in the hospital. We stayed in a hospital in New Iberia, La. We stayed in that hospital for 2 days before we were transferred to New Orleans. I almost lost Jessica in September of 2002 before they diagnosed her with a rare blood disease. She lived with that for 8 months. Her  little body fought everyday till it couldn’t fight anymore. I would stay with her and every weekend my grandparents brought her twin sister Jasmine to visit us. Until that day came and the doctors told me that there was nothing else they could do. Then I was stuck to make the hardest decision a parent ever has to make, and that is to unplug the machine. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about her and what she would be like growing up onside of her twin sister Jasmine.