Thanksgiving has passed and Christmas is almost here and I'm sadder than usual. I always miss you more this time of year. More depressed, especially because of your Dad being gone too. He cried more than me when the holidays came. Just wanted to say I love you so much! Take care of Dad and Ashley until I get there, don't think it will be too much longer.

Today our little Dakota graduates high school. I can't believe she's so grown up. She was so little when you left us. I know how much you loved all the girls but you had a special connection with Dakota. I also know you will be there with us and just as proud as I am. I love you baby girl.

Today is my birthday, but I'm not smiling. I miss you and Dad so much. I know you would have made a big deal about my birthday. The way my health is going it won't be too long before I'm there with you and Dad. I can't wait to wrap my arms around you! I love you so much ❤️

12 years have passed but it feels like today. I can still see you in the hospital bed. I still feel the tears running down my face. I still see your Dad's tears. It broke him. He would think of you every day and cry. Where he listened to music and a song came on that reminded him of you, he would cry. He didn't cry in front of anybody when his Dad died nor when his Mom died. Your passing changed that.

I miss you everyday. I talk to you all the time, do you hear me? You were my heart, my light. I'll be there before too long, be sure to greet me. I love you baby girl. Wish I could hug you again.
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Happy birthday baby girl. Days like this tend to undo me. I miss you so very much and now missing your dad. Your dad loved you so much! He talked about you nearly every day. It makes me feel a little better that he's with you and Ashley. I think about you every day and talk to you. Sometimes I feel you hold my hand or touch my cheek. I love you so much! ❤️

There's two of these for you and I've been leaving motes on the wrong one!

I'm sure you were there to meet your Dad on December 13th. It's been hard on us but he was suffering. Only took a few hours for him to go. We're going to have a memorial for him on January 14th. I know you will be there with us. You and Ashley Rose take care of him until I get there.

Miss you so much now I'm grieving for your Dad too. I love you so much baby girl! ❤️❤️❤️

Dear babygirl, tomorrow will be 10 years without you. It feels like you just hugged us and left the house never to see you again. I have never felt such pain as the day I said goodbye to you. I hope you could hear me even though you were in a coma. I still believe if Richard would have dialed 911 right away you would still be here. I will never forgive him for that. I will never forgive him the heartache he caused you. I will never forgive him for turning Nathan onto drugs. He is a worthless idiot gipping veterans out of money so he doesn't have to work. I can't stand the sight of him. Sorry, I just needed to vent.

Bekah is getting married tomorrow. Backyard wedding you wanted. Of course she's done little to help get the house and yard ready. Or paid for anything. My impression of her new husband is almost as bad as I thought of her last asshole. Wears his pants with his ass hanging out, no job. Supposedly left his id in chicago, but told others he lost it all.

Enough bitchjng. I just wanted you to know how much I love and miss you. You are still my light.

Happy birthday my love. It's a hard day for us, you should be here with us. My heart breaks everyday missing you. Bekah told us she's getting married. Don't know who she's chosen, no one has met him. Just know he doesn't have a job, hope he's not another bum. She wants to marry April 18th, it will be hard for me. She thought it a way to include you in it. I hope I can handle it.

Your birthday is one of the hardest days for me and your dad. Your life flashes through our minds. From the day you were born until the day you left us. They are happy memories. Happy birthday, we miss you.

Another Christmas without you. Never gets easier. We don't even have a tree this year. Covid-19 has helped damaging the holidays even more. Each holiday is just a reminder you aren't here. I think of you every day. I talk to you every day. The pain is still too much. Hopefully you are visiting with Grannie, Pappa, joshua and Ashley. Maybe you're having a beer with Scott. That was a shock too. I love you baby girl with all my heart .

I know it's been a long time. It's hard to write to you, tears won't stop. Especially at Christmas. I imagine you and I watching it's a wonderful life and miracle on 34th. I don't like putting up the tree or decorations, it hurts because you're not here. I still blame Richard, he should have called 911 not me. If he had I know you'd still be here. My health is getting worse, I'm sure I'll be joining you soon. Your dad is pretty bad too. I love you so much! I miss you every second of every day.

Happy birthday baby girl. It's been a dreary rainy day, fits how I feel today. Missing you everyday but your birthday and Christmas and thanksgiving the worst. Guess I nearly left this earth in December. I wouldn't have minded if I knew I'd be reunited with you. I told them to let me go. I love you so much baby!

Summer coming to an end soon. Can't enjoy bar b queing and the kids without you. Sherry and the girls living here again, she lost her job in June and hasn't found another yet. The girls are growing up fast! Both have your qualities. Dakota is just like you with being more athletic and active. She has your body build too. Sierra has the same eye shape and so many of your mannerisms. She has your quiet side, Dakota them ore out going side. Both can sing like you. Sierra was in the bathroom singing one day and it made your dad cry because she sounded just like you. He remembered listening to you sing in the bathroom is why he cried. We talk about you everyday. Sierra and her boyfriend got a puppy, he's adorable. Our 3 won't have nothing to do with him, so jealous. Yes he still has puppy breath! Miss you so much baby girl, I can't even explain how much. My health is not too good so I may be joining you sooner than expected. I can't wait! Good night sweetheart, I love you.

Seven years has gone but the pain burns like it was today. I miss your sweet smile and loving hugs. Sara, Brian's girlfriend brought me s beautiful bouquet of flowers to cheer me up. Got a beautiful teary eyed hug from Sierra. She left you a nice note on Facebook. Sherry left a sweet note too. I am not on your Facebook, would like to be so I an see all your pictures. Spent a few hours at ER with Matt. He's been having some health issues. Something neurological, maybe even MS. I;m pretty scared about it. Your Dad was real quit today, didn't talk much which is unusual for him. He usually doesn't shut up. LOL! My COPD has been acting up and I had a heart attack a week ago. Age and smoking catching up to me. Maybe I'll see you sooner than we thought. Guess I better try to get some sleep, didn't get much last night and it's been a long day. Just wanted to tell you I love you and miss you so much it hurts. As Willie says you're always on my mind. ,

Happy new years baby girl. Very quiet night, not too many gun shots. Started before night fall though. Your dad managed to stay up til midnight, I can't get to sleep. Had you on my mind all day. Especially tonight watching the Thin Man marathon. I imagined you sitting next to me. Goodnight sweet girl, I love you so much!

Christmas come and gone again without you. This year has been really hard. You are on my mind every minute of the day. The decorations make me sad because I know how much you loved it all. I couldn't listen to Christmas music because I would hear you singing. I didn't put up your village because it makes me miss you even more. Your dad and I talk about you all the time, especially your dad. This year the baloons shot up quick as if you reached out and grabbed them. I miss you so much baby girl. Even after all these years I can't believe you're not here with us. I love you sweetheart.

Six years gone without you. Sometimes I can't even breathe missing you so much. We talk about you, share our memories of you. Time will heal they say. How much time until it's bearable? Your tree has grown high. I like to think you are encouraging it's growth. Everyone moved out now except bekah but she's hardly here. Wish you were here to talk to her about how she's living. She would listen to you. So it's nice and quiet around here. Wish I knew how
Nate is. He won't respond to us. In rehab last we heard. I love you baby girl, no words to say how much I miss you!

One more birthday. Oh how it hurts to not have you here with us. There isn't a minute of the day you are not in my thoughts. So many things remind me, a smell, a song. All the girls have some of your characteristics and mannerisms. Dakota is so much like you! They talk about you often. I love you baby!

Another Christmas passed without you. I held back the tears until I was alone. The girls were good until we released the baloons with our notes to you. Sent notes to mom,dad,aunt Joann, aunt ginger, mitch and gerald.of course Ashley and Joshua. The notes are getting harder to write because of the tears that come. I miss you so much! Everything reminds me of you.

Five years today have passed since I hugged you. I miss those hugs so much! If I had even imagined that would be the last hug I would never had let you go. I can still feel that hug and hear you say I love you. It has been so hard going on without you.

I know I have not kept up notes to you, the last one on your birthday didn't stick. I cry whenever I visit here. We have your urn still, your dad just can't let go of you. Richard says you wanted to be scattered at the beach. I sit and listen to your songs with my eyes closed and I can see you. I often feel you here. A few times you held my hand didn’t you. I imagine that last hug the day before you left. I'll always love you baby girl.

another night I can't sleep, missing you. wishing I could talk with you, hold you. I wonder if it will ever get easier? I love you baby girl.

Even after 4 years sweet sister I wait for you to walk in the door a mom and dads for a barbecue, a holiday, or just by chance. The hole in my heart and in my life will never be filled, the hole in the lives of your beautiful nieces will never be filled. We all miss you so much.

I know that wherever you are that you are smiling down on your girls, that when they aren’t feeling well that you wrap you wings around them and protect them, and that your gentle kiss helps make them feel better. That they feel you love every day, we all think about you every day.

I would give so much to just see you again, to wrap my arms around you so that I know everything was going to OK. I miss and love you so much Sis.

Until I see you again
Love You
Your Big Brother

Four years ago today I spent the day with her. We shopped, went to the casino for a bit. We talked and laughed. She set in the family room with me and her dad speaking of past times. She hugged us tight and said goodnight. Had I known that hug would be the last she would give me I would have never let go. Had I known life as we knew it would forever change I would not have let go. If only I had known it would all be gone the next day and all left would be pain and tears. I would have never let go.

Happy Birthday my Angel. You are still the light of my heart. You are a constant in my thoughts. So many times I speak your name and wish you were here. I have felt you hold my hand, touch my cheek to stop the tears that come everyday. I love you so much baby girl.

You left us without warning. Not even a good-bye. And I can't stop asking the question why? I didn't see this coming, it hit us by surprise. And when you left for heaven a small part of me died. Your smile could brighten anyone's day. No matter what they were going through. And everyday for the rest of my life, I will be missing you.

There is a special angel in Heaven that is a part of me, it is not where I wanted her to be. She was here for just a moment like a night time shooting star. And though she is in Heaven she isn't very far. She touched the hearts of many like only an angel can do. I would have held her every minute if the end I only knew. Please take care of my angel God and send her all my love

One more New Year has come and you weren't here to celebrate with us. We miss you so much. No one knows how our heart breaks everyday since you left us. Tears everyday, memories we cannot hide.You were the light of our lives. We love you so much!

Another Christmas with out her. Lights, presents and a tree only remind me more. Her ornaments she made. Her little village she spent days painting to get just right. She loved Christmas so much she would have kept the thousand decorations she had up year round. A heart so full of love and kindness. The day God took my Jodie he stole my light. Merry Christmas my Angel.

Tonight we continue our Christmas traditions. Joann may not have been with us physically but her spirit was as it always is. Thank you Richard for bringing her home for Christmas. We Believe as she does.

Another holiday season is approaching sweet girl, another without you. They get harder every year. I remember how happy you got this time of year. Planning all those Christmas decorations of yours and us shopping for more. Thinking about how big the turkey will be for Thanksgiving and should we have ham or turkey for Christmas or both. We usually went with both. You coming to my house and decorating for Christmas to surprise me. Even covering the walls with plastic table cloths that looked like snow scenes.I can barely look at Christmas stuff in the stores without a tear. I miss you everyday but the holidays are the worst because you loved them so much. Oh to go back to that one last Santa Christmas and see the light in your eyes when you walked in the family room and saw all the lights and toys and a piece of Santa's pants caught in the fireplace. Had I known that Sunday when you left our house that would be my last hug from you I would not have let you go. I love you baby girl.

One more year without you Baby Girl. The pain is the same. Miss you everyday, the nights are so long. You should not have left us, God should not have taken you from us. Everyone says how compassionate God is, how full of mercy God is. Not true. If it were you would still be with us. Most days I can't even breathe it hurts so bad. Life is nothing since you left us. I don't know how to loose the pain. I love you Baby.

Another birthday since you left us. Missing you so much, still hard to get through any day, but this day harder. The day you were born forever etched in our minds. The sun shone brighter, the world at peace. Time is supposed to heal, how long does it take? I dream of you, talk to you everyday, cry everyday. My life changed the day you went away. So proud of the woman you became. Happy birthday baby girl. Love you for eternity, Mom

Baby Girl, Christmas has come and gone again without you. Nothing is the same we miss you too much and can't get the spirit. We sent you our love in notes attached to the balloons. Notes to Granny and Pappa to watch over you and Ashley. Uncle Gerald, Aunt Ginger, and all the others were sent notes too. We cried as we released the balloons and hoped you would get all our notes. It won't be too much longer til we join you and I can put my arms around you once again. Love you Jodie.

hey jodie,i remember you and i shoping in fresno and you picking out my shirts that where in style,a black one and a green one i had those's shirts up to just a few years ago and everytime i wore them i thought of you and the day we had together,i also think back to the time you would sing at curtis's.i bought a clock there and i still have that clock on my wall,as i do the memiores of you

JoAnn I know that you were the light of your families life. I remember when your Mom got pregnant with you and how happy they were. I remember in 1974 our Grannie made you and my little sister Linda matching red gingham dresses to wear to my wedding and how cute you both looked. I know your legacy continues in heaven and you are needed there too. I love you cousin!

Two years since you left us. You are thought of everyday, missed everyday. Songs remind us of you, places we go, smells in the air. You are every where. I wake in the morning with your hand in mine. You are with me everyday and night, always on my mind. I cry for you everyday. I love you so much.

Your Birthday has come and gone. I still feel the pain. Many posted tributes on face book. It was a hard day, continues to be a hard month.

I had a dream last night, you held my hand. I woke and you weren't there. And as the teardrops filled my eyes your presence filled the air. I tried to reach for you but you were too far away. I am waiting for the day when I see you once again. I’ll gently grab you by the hand and make my dream come true.

Too jodie you will always be remembered as a kind hearted young lady even as a child you always cared how people felt and if they did"nt feel good you made sure to try and make them feel better by giving them a hug and saying just what they needed to hear,it was an honor to know you for the short time you where here and I will always remember as the angel you were and now are.miss you girl

"She did not need much. Wanted very little. A kind word, sincerity, fresh air, clean water, a garden, kisses. Books to read, sheltering arms, a cozy bed and to love and be loved in return."
Starra Neely Blade

A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam,And for a brief moment its glory and beauty belong to our world, then it flies on again.And though we wish it could have stayed, we feel so blessed to have experienced it.

A beautiful daughter, wife and mother. Always there for her friends and family. Most everything in her life was a struggle. She left us far too soon. JoAnn loved Christmas. She collected ornaments for years and filled her house with Christmas every year. I think of her everyday, I cry for her everyday. She made all of us feel loved and special. How I miss you baby.