- 73 years old
- Date of birth: Mar 29, 1939
- Date of passing: Mar 26, 2013
|Let the memory of John be with us forever|
"Papa, Thinking of you always. Ok Nannie passed away the other day. Everything is just a blur at the moment. I just don't understand any of this. I hope the both of you are together again. I love you and miss you so much."
"Hey Papa, 2:45am here. I cant sleep I am in alot pain. Just wishing this cancer journey would end already. My tumor marker is so high again! I can still hear you whisper in my ear" Everything will be fine". Wishing everything was. I heard you came through the other day, which is so nice to hear. I love you very much. Guess what? I saw "Heaven is for Real" the movie. Remember you wanted me to read this when we were diagnosed, but I just couldn't. You would of loved the movie. See you Saturday. I Miss You more and more every second. I Love You. Sweet Dreams. xoxoxo"
"Hey Pop, In two days Im going to the Relay for Life walk. We have raised $665.00. I know you would be proud. I miss you so much. I love you more than anything. I'll see you later...."
"IF I COULD KNOCK ON HEAVEN'S DOOR, I WOULD ASK TO SEE YOU ONCE MORE. THERE WOULD BE SO MANY THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO SAY....THE MOST IMPORTANT IS THAT I MISS AND LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERYDAY.
THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS. TODAY IS A BEAUTIFUL, SUNNY BRIGHT DAY. A PERFECT DAY FOR YOU TO BE IN YOUR GARDEN. INSTEAD NANNY IS PUTTING FLOWERS IN YOUR GARDEN.
I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU SO MUCH."
"Hey Papa, Thinking of you. Just wanted to let you know that I love you and miss you more than anything. I am going to the Relay for Life walk for the both of us. I am so excited! I wish you were here.
Love and think of you always....
Your favorite granddaughter :)"
"Happy Birthday in Heaven Papa. I miss you more than anything. I love you so so so much. You are always on my mind. I wish you were here to celebrate your Birthday. Tonight we are having cake and your favorite sherbet! I love you so so so much. Please watch over me."
"Happy Birthday in Heaven my Papa I love you so so much and miss you every single day. Today we are celebrating you, wish you were here to celebrate with us. Xoxox"
A year ago TODAY, you left this physical world. Till this day, I still feel like this is just a nightmare and I just didn't wake up from this yet. Seeing you pass away right in front of my eyes was the most horrifying moment of my life. Seeing you suffer killed me. I still remember the day I was diagnosed you were crying and you said " Your going to be okay". Days later your cancer came back like wild fire and you still had such high hopes. I have no idea how because I couldn't even believe any of this. I guess I was just in denial at the time. You said " We are going to get through this. Over and over again. Then I finally believed what you said. Never in a million years did I think I would ever have to go through this. Instantly, life just changed for the both of us. But, I am grateful that we became closer during both of our diagnosis. You understood why I was sick all these years and how debilitating all of this is. You always understood everything. I remember days before both of our treatments I broke down because I knew I couldn't be around you and the family for 2 weeks. I didn't get to see you during treatment because I was at the hospital. I am glad we spoke everyday, and I will remember our "talks" for the rest of my life. I remember the first day I got back to the cancer center after treatment I was so weak to pick up the phone but I just had to know how your first day of treatment was.
Days after you passed away, I went to "your chair", on the porch. I saw my blog. I had no idea you were reading my entire blog everyday. Thanks for all the love and support. I never got the chance to thank you. And, I am so angry for that. But I really need you to know everything you did means more than you will ever know to me.
I miss you more than ever. I wish I can go back in time. I am so glad we went to the " healing mass" together which I said no to twice and I am so so so glad I went with you. But, I didn't know that was going to be your last time at church. I still have the blanket and the prayer book which you said " It is so important to read." " St Anthony" and the "Healing Prayer." I never read it, nor will I ever open this booklet because its so hard to "Believe" when your not even here. I am sorry I hope you forgive me. I really do but... how can I believe? how? You were our rock. Your not here and I hate it. You meant the world to me. I just wish I can wake up from this nightmare. So I could see you wave to me from across the street while your going to work or even hear you knock on my bedroom door asking me "How I am feeling." Or hearing that whistle. I whistle to JJ and all he does is smile. You and Nanny did it all for all of us, especially me and I am so so grateful for the both of you. You are the best. I am so thankful you were in my life. I will honor you for the rest of my life and I hope someday I get to see you again.
I will always have the " survivors guilt." Always.
I love you Papa more than anything in this world. I think of you every second that goes by. There is a huge hole in my heart and I will never ever ever get over this EVER. I will honor you for the rest of my life. I am so glad you love my "shadow box". I just want you back!! We need you. Nanny needs you!!!
I hope you LOVE the Balloons....
You will always be A SURVIVOR to me.
Rest Peacefully.......I Love You!!! I Love You!!!
Love you always and forever,
( As I always said " YOUR FAVORITE GRANDDAUGHTER") :)
PS: Heaven Is For Real ( your favorite book you wanted me to read) well, the movie is coming out before Easter. I know you would of loved it. I am going to see it for you."
"RIP, Sir. I do my best to keep the promise I made to you.
nel nome del Padre, del Figlio e dello Spirito Santo"
"I love and miss you every single day. I still can't believe your not here. Wish I could hug you and you tell me everything will be ok. Xox"
"i love you papa and miss you so much!!!!!"
"I just miss you so much."
"I just miss you so very much"
"To the first man I ever loved, my Daddy, I miss you so much each and every minute of every day. Your death has made me realize all too well that "family" is most important thing and I cherish all our talks we had, your love and guidance and your presence each and every day. I miss your whistle in the morning and mostly your smile. I cannot believe that a year has gone by already. Until we meet again. Love you forever, your daughter Debbie. Xoxoxo"
"Missing you so much. I love you Papa."
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