Hello my beloved Kenny… Tis is I again. Thought I forgot -huh… Nope, surely did not. Just waited a few days after to leave my thoughts. Fourteen years, that’s quite a long time … especially as a single/widow lady.

I must say that you are still missed, by me -continuously. I think about you and the things we did and the plans we had for our future together, as one, even though, living life, here on earth, for me, still goes on. Kinda adapting to the Las Vegas venture, but still missing NJ -the familiarity of the last 36 years… prior to my relocation here.

All in all everything is well… finally debt free with the exception of the car, rental and normal household expenses for living/survival purposes. Still haven’t spoken to D/E… but Que Sarah Sarah. I have spoken to Mary a few times this pass year.

I surely do miss you though -our time together. However, the memories do live on forever. I am still single -no prospects… it’s a scary world and the men… well they are lacking in so many areas. Plus I really have yet to venture in the arena that encompasses meeting men.

One day God will intervene -waiting patiently. Simply remaining connected to God, through living the life of Christ. Staying connected with Central Church and the wonderful community groups that are hosted weekly.

Also, venturing into entrepreneurship-two businesses that I will journal about later… Holy Spirit’s guidance willl definitely lead and direct this venture for its resonates helping people help people. So you know my love for people…and helping others. I pray for God’s strength in the midst thereof as I embark upon this journey. And until the next time… as sung by Ms Whitney Houston… “I will always Love You” forevermore! Kisses. Hugs and Love ❤️

Oh Ms. Vivian, What a Beautiful tribute to Kenny. What wonderful memories of Love and dedication to one another. I Love you! What a Glorious day it will be when you both reunite in the Kingdom of our Father.

Such a beautiful tribute to your husband Vivian. What a great place for you to come and write letters and reflect on your time together. Sending you all my love and prayers always but especially today

As I remember and celebrate my beloved husband, John Kenneth (Kenny) Smallwood’s birthday, on this day, as he rest peacefully in heaven…06/12/1941-02/10/2010

Thirteen years and still forever missing you my love!!! Nevertheless, surviving here on this place called earth. God is forever in the midst of my life…and I thank Him continuously for blessing us together as one. Through our obedience of God’s Covenant together… till death do us part… His promises -Yes & Amen reigns within the life that I choose to live through Christ Jesus. Even in your absence, your spiritual presence is with me… TGBTG!!!

As Whitney sings, “I will always Love You”!!!

Hello Mr. Smallwood… today, 2/10/2023 has approached us again. Thirteen years of doing life solo as you rest in peace, in heaven. Still missing you mightily, but, also know that God is forever with me. For it is His strength that I survive and live this life through Jesus Christ. Life has its way of humbling a person. And, may I say that the last thirteen years, so much reflection of yesteryears are remembered.
This ripe age of 67… continuing, if it wasn’t for Christ and His love for me… well… you already know without any explanation. One day, soon, I will revisit this site and share with you my thoughts. As the good times, even the trials and tribulations approach… I continue doing God’s work in the midst of everything by rejoicing and thanking Him for keeping me safe. For His promises are always yes & Amen. Again, missing you dearly. Lovingly loving and missing you forevermore…

Hey My Love… twelve years today… WoW, who would have even guesstimated the day of your ascension to heaven?. Only God! I miss you dearly, but I must say that you are in a better place. There is so much to share since the last time I left you a tribute. So many changes since 6/2021. Some changes better than or less than. I will share a little later ALL the happening within the last several months The cankerworm & locust stoled from me, as I am sure you know. I will be back soon to share this story and many more… Breaking the Silence. So until, I miss and love you. Thank you for listening. love and missing you!!!

06/15/2021… Hey Love… I did not forget your birthday tribute 6/12/41… thought about you all day and missing you in the midst. So much to share, even though, since you are in Heaven, I am sure that you are aware. Aware of the many daily encounters… the good and the not-so-good. Nevertheless, with God and my having the knowledge to endure and come out victorious; For with God all things possible. Not gonna write much today, but will return later and continue my thoughts. All is well❤️

2/10/2021.... eleven years my love. WoW... I can remember each second so vividly. You are truly missed. Your daughter, Elaina, expressed, December 2020, in love, that I was still married to a dead man and needed to let go. And oh, how so true did that resonated within my soul. Of course the expression was out of love for me... Elaina & I talk quite often...sometimes on the phone for hours (3+ or more). She is her father’s daughter and misses you greatly. Debbie & I talk occasionally, and it’s from the heart. Qawana is into her own... we talk occasionally as well. Reseda and I FaceTime via what’s app a few times a week... an hour or so. 
Now, what’s going on in my life? Well, completed my MA -12/18/20. Graduation is scheduled for May/2021. Still serving at church... Deacon duties, and community services as a Chaplain. This pandemic, COVID-19, has kept me from traveling. Not only to Cali.. but also MD and other places for quick getaways. So being in the house, continuously, has been a bit disappointing. Nevertheless it’s for our own safety. Possibly going to California in March 2021 and will keep you posted. So much more to share, but will save that for another day... soon. All the grands are doing exceptionally well. Trevon teaching middle school (Math). Cequan just completed Auto mechanics. Ciana’s last year of High school. Can you believe that. She was accepted at NC University’.. with her pursuit to become a veterinarian. Danielle has two kids and about to get married. Amber obtained her BA and living on her own. She has a free spirit. And Ms Nadia..14... is growing up wisely...She wants for nothing. Elaina has ensured that she is living her best life. Of course Barry & Elaina are divorced 12/20... So much going on in this world... your probably better in heaven vs being in the midst of present-day society. Okay that’s it for now...will post again soon And, please know that I will always love you, even in the midst of embracing another opportunity at loving again, whenever that possibility becomes a reality...! My darling... forever love you! ❤️❤️❤️

Hey Kenny, it’s 12/29/20... and the year is almost over. Waiting patiently for the New Year...2021 to begin with hope that the (my) days going forward will be greater! God just spoke and said, yes it will be.

It will be eleven years that you went home to be with the Lord...2/10/2021 and I thank God that through His strength... I am still surviving! 

Society, amongst all nations, are still exhibiting chaotic behaviors due to the pandemic, COVID-19, that entangles sicknesses & death. There are a few people who have survive and hopefully more survivals are to come.

My prayers continues to intercede for an outpouring and an embracement of God’s love upon His people. Also upon me... since He is no respecter of person. Just know that you will have a special place in my heart... forever love -forevermore!

Blessings my sister, you have been in my thoughts and now I know why. I believe I can say I know exactly how you feel. Earth has no sorrow that Heaven cannot heal. I know it seems like only yesterday, when the tears seem like they just won't stop falling even when you don't want them to. But for us as believer's it is a release. So go ahead and release the tear, then allow the laughter to come because it will be good for the soul. Although I am still grieving my husband, I am here for you my sister! Love you dearly!

Hey My love of yesteryears... missing you much, but God has me in the palm of His hands. God is ABBA Father and still my first LOVE! He is the ruler of my heart that keeps me from wondering amiss the slippery slopes of life! I continuously praise the Lord with honor, glory, worship and love...in Jesus name -Amen!

Kenny, present-day society Is at its worst ever... in history. I thank God daily for His love and blessings that prepared me for a time such as this. I so love the Lord and I know that you did also.

The family is surviving and doing well... even my bonus family. Your daughter, Elaina & I talk weekly and you would be so proud of her... actually you would be proud of the endeavors achieved by everyone. Reseda is in Qatar -teaching abroad. Qawana is still mothering... Lorenzo & Debbie are pastoring, their own church in SC. The grands are all well. Other family members (Yours & mine) are all well. I hope you know that Jerry is up there in heaven, along side all others who made the transition to the land of Glory!

Oh, by the way, I just completed my MA degree In Pastoral Counseling with a Community Chaplaincy Cognate -5/8/2020 -yay for me. The degree focus is community Chaplaincy & Pastoral counseling. And, you know the love that I have for people, especially, those who are hurting.

As a Chaplain, “ministry of presence“ is key to being there in the midst of another’s trials & tribulations, listening & not judging. God’s Spirit is ministering to the heart of a person with hopes of drawing them closer to Christ, and their acceptance of Salvation.

I may continue studies for a doctorate in ED.D Community Chaplaincy, next year 2021 summer/fall term. This will be a three/four year venture, but it is for the glory of God to service His kingdom, and people in pluralistic settings. Also, hopes of being an adjunct professor teaching on-line biblical studies. Prayer I will complete this journey before and/or by age 70.

All is all, life is a journey and knowing that God will never leave or forsake me... I will continue to survive. Remember Trevon prophesied over my life at his young age of five... that I would live to be 109...which I received . And with God in the forefront leading, guiding and directing the life that I have chosen to live through Christ Jesus; all things are possible.

Finally, Haha -Happy Birthday (79 yrs) as you Rest In Peace, in heaven. (Betcha thought I forgot -huh?) Nope, I did not... I just saved the best for last! I love you my love -forevermore! ❤️❤️❤️

Hello my love, ten years, a decade. WoW, the memories are the best. I am still serving God, with Him being first in my life, in all things.
Trials & tribulations continue to be in the midst, but, in Christ, peace is restored daily.

The devil is busy, but he is cast into the pit of hell with each attempt of destruction. As the Bible say, be led not into temptation, but be ye delivered in the midst of the adversary seeking to destroy, steal or kill.

Families are well, but much Prayer is required to bring them back to their first love...GOD!
No need to go into details about the wiles of this world that has encompass family, friends and foes. I continue to intercede and pray for everyone to come into the glory of who and whose they are in Christ Jesus. Pray for their obedience to God, through Christ, and to have overcoming faith.

This era of society, people are going astray, which brings to mind a song, “The whole world is a stage and everybody playing a part; the hunter gets caught and is captured by the game!”

2 Chronicles 7:14 voices, “If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.”

I truly miss you, but as I remain in Christ, He continues to sustain... okay, I love you, forevermore, and we will talk later. ❤️❤️❤️

Hey Love, as the years go by the memories we shared together are never forgotten. You will always have that special place in my heart -forevermore! Our Spiritual love is greater than. Continually rest in paradise with all the Angels dancing in the heaven above with our Lord, for freedom, joy and peace is in place! Happy Heavenly Birthday Kenny Smallwood! ❤️❤️❤️

What a wonderful tribute. He was a special person to receive  your care and devotion.
May God continue to bless you and give you the desires of your heart.

Hey Honey, nine years and counting. Today, is a good day even in the midst thereof! Still praising and worshipping God, who allows His Spiritual strength to continue the direction of the life that I am living through Christ Jesus! Hallelujah! Your memories and love will also remain within my heart -forevermore! Love & miss you dearly! ❤️❤️❤️

Hello my Love

Hey Love -it's your Birthday 6/12/1941 - Happy Happy is the Lamb above the Heavens realm. Oh how you are missed, but at the same time -God has me. And I could not have ask for a loving Father -greater than. I know you sent him to me -told him I was a good women/daughter I betcha. So, I ain't mad at ya. Love you tenderly my love. Send all my loved ones that are with you watching over me, a hello, sending kisses & hugs. Tell them that I love them each & every day... and ditto the love to you. I truly love & miss you so much Kenny -but the cherished memories keep me smiling!

WOW -Kenny, it is that time of year again. The memories flood the heart remembering the days up to your ascension into heaven. I love you today, just as the days before. You are with God and I know God is forever with me, directing, leading and guiding here on earth! All is well! Love, Hugs and kisses as you rest in peace!! Blessings Kenny -forever missed my love! 2/10/2017

WoW -Seventy-five my love -6 years and still counting -Happy Birthday and love from your wife -Vivian, who still misses you dearly. I know in that mighty cloud of witness -you are with God watching over me daily and I thank you -just as I continuously thank God, even in your death. Again, love, hugs and kisses as you rest in peace! Blessings Kenny -forever missed -6/12/14

Wow, Kenny, my Love -six years of life in Heaven with God, family and friends. I think of you daily, with a smile and sometimes sadness, but, the memories of our union with God reigns forevermore. At-the-sametime, I am happy that you are amongst the mighty witnesses and I will see you again. When I turned on the radio this morning -our song by Be-Be and Cici Winans, "I Found Love" was playing... but now the ironic part here… I clicked to hear their song via U-Tube while leaving a tribute and Whitneys Song started playing "I will always love you" and I honestly do not know where it is coming from via my computer. Oh the tears are flowing with a smile as I know this is a sign from God through His Spirit -there is no other answer.. And, yes, I will always love you too. Thanks Holy Spirit for intervention -no questions asked, just receiving -IJN -Amen

Hey Love, today is your birthday which would have been 74 years of life. Did not want the day to go by without saying Happy Birthday, I miss you!!! I will always love you, even with thou art in Heaven!!! Forever Missed 6/12/15

Hey Honey, today is the fifth year of life, and needless to say the love within my heart still resonates and I miss you dearly. I am a strong survivor, busier than ever, an even though we are not together in the physical realm, always know that we are spiritually connected in the midst thereof ~ Our Hearts, One together ~ In Unity ~ Forever Missed, You & I!

I love and miss you, but knowing my Beloved Kenny resides in the arms of God, there is a peace bestowed upon me that surpasses all understanding. Blessings Kenny ~Forever Missed 2/10/15

Hi Kenny,

I woke up with you on my mind this morning. I could not stop the tears from falling. Some were sad tears and others tears of joy from replaying memories. Continue to Rest In Paradise. I love and Miss you much. MUAH!!

"Happy Birthday my beloved Kenny -today would have been 73 years of life in the natural. Missing & remembering the years we had together, but even in the spirit, our love will be in the midst of the heart -forever missed! Blessings unto God for a marriage until death as the memories continue forever! Love & missing you much! June 12, 2014"

In the midst of life continuing -You, my beloved, are always in my heart.
You are forever missed -but knowing that you reside in the arms of God Almighty -All is Well! Much Love, Hugs & Kisses as you rest in peace!
Blessings Kenny -Forever Missed! 2/10/14