John was born on February 21, 1992 & that was the most blessed day because he was my first born nephew. I was so thrilled to be his Aunt.  I remember the first time I held him in my arms,  The joy that filled my heart was more then I could ever feel.  As he began to notice his feet, hands & everything around him, brought happiness to my heart.  I couldn't wait for him to walk, talk, & begin his life.  I remember when he went for his drivers permit.  He called me up & said, "Ce Ce, I can drive now"  The excitment in his voice was overwhelming.  I was so happy for him & I knew he was ready to start his life.  When he bought his first car, I was thrilled.  With him being John, he said, "Ce Ce, it is just a car" but it was his first car.  I couldn't wait to see what his life was going to bring him.  Couldn't wait for him to get married, have children so I could be a great Aunt & so much more....but all that changed on November 3, 2012.  That day changed my whole life.  I lost my first born nephew that evening & my heart tore into a million pieces.  I will never see him get married, have children, & see where his life was going to take him.  He was like a son to me & I miss him so much.  The grief that I carry since that day, has really torn my life apart.  I miss him watching movies together, watching him play his games, cooking his favorite meals, rolling my eyes to his jokes & so much more.  He left quite a legacy in his life & that smile will never be forgotten.  He made so many friends who miss him so much.  I will never understand why God had to take such a young happy going handsome man.  We weren't done with him.  He will be forever missed & dearly loved by all who knew him.  The day we had to say good-bye to him, was the hardest day ever.  His passing changed our lives forever & we will never be the same.  We love & miss you so much our sweet John.   ALWAYS IN OUR HEARTS!!

I Love You,

Ce Ce

I NEVER GOT TO SAY GOODBYE

~Wish that I could go back to the day, when angles came and took you away

I wanted to hold your hand so tight, kiss you gently and say good night

And then just before you had to go

I would tell you how much I love you so

I don't know how, I don't know why

I never got the chance to say goodbye~