Solamente pasar por aquí para expresar cuanto desearía mi hijo viviese y pudiese estar conmigo esta navidad. Que triste todo sin el. Nunca nada sera igual. 

Missingnyou my son. Its going to be 9 years you are gone Johnny. I love you my baby. Love forever Mom.  

Dear son. I miss you so much. People said to me move forward forget. But how can I forget my boy? Soon yourself birthday will be coming and Marilyn and me are crying and crying you know how much your aunt and buddy MY sis Marilyn loved you. Johnny this tragedy of loosing you has destroyed our lifes. I love you sister like I love you andso many times I wonder if she realizes cause my grieve is so bad maybe she don't see my love. Your sis grieves too dear Johnny. Asphalt it sucks!! It's not fair you are gone! What did I did wrong I ask myself everyday. Sometimes I feel so guilty of not staying in Peru with your dad. Maybe if I wouldn't divorced you still be with us. I hope you are in peace sleeping and not see my tears my pain my dad eyes. Oh baby I need to remember all our days each and everyone was a blessed for me.When I took you to the fair skipping school. When I took you early to get you a white rabbit. When you skip school and I made you soup as we painted lonely bear. Then when you introduced me your first and only sweetheart Amber Rubin. Oh my child what did I did all wrong raising you kids?  All I wanted was your happiness that's all. Now lonely bear mom will never have another happy holiday cause you are not with us. I wish God let me die so many times but then I think of your sister her kids and it's not fair I must go on. They think am strong! No! Am a chicken! A grieving survivour mother and your daddy the same. If this letter gets to you, pls send me some energy so I could goon. I love you to the moon and back and never will forget you. Forever missed my second child. Love hugs and kisses your mom always and best friend. Diana Capo.