- 33 years old
- Date of birth: May 7, 1982
- Date of passing: Jan 30, 2016
|Let the memory of Johnny be with us forever|
"Hey baby, its been a year today. I've always heard two things.....first the first year is the hardest. I hope so, I don't believe that its true, cuz everyday is just as hard as the day before. I think about you every minute of everyday. I cry each night until there aren't anymore tears to fall.I hope you know and always have known how much you meant to me. I loved you from the moment I first learned I was pregnant, then I loved you even more the first time I saw you and held you in my arms. From that moment you were mommas precious baby boy. The second thing I always heard was that no parent should ever lose a child. There is an order of death that should not be broken. No parent should ever bury their child.this couldn't be more true. When you passed a large part of me passed with you. Your loved ones not only lost you on this day, but they also lost as part of me. I will never get over losing you. I will never be the same again.someday we will see each other again ,then I can ask god why him? Why did he have to suffer? I love you and I miss you more than you'll ever know. I'm going down to see your kids next week. Hugs and kisses from you to them.love you my precious baby boy"
"Even though we never met, you were my 2nd cousin.
when your dad & I were little we use to be close, I'm sorry I didn't ever get to meet you but I hope you Rest in peace lil cuz."
"My name is cynthia coyne I was 24 yrs old when I first had breast cancer I was horrified and so upset but the lords healing hands took care of me ed and was cancer free for 5 yrs until just resent in December of 2015 I was diagnosed with stage 2 uterus cancer and again I was lost so on upset but I had alot of faithand positive thinking and beat cancer again as of now im in remission for 3yrs cancer free imso very sorry for yourloss my love and strengh go out to the family and cancer ugly and nasty illness love toall the family ive been there I trully have muah"
"Even though we never meet, we are second cousins, may you REST IN PEACE."
"It's been awhile since I've been on here. We had a birthday celebration at Winn River Casino. The strawberry shortcake was great. The company was great , but we all lost our asses. I think we're going to make this an annual celebration/memorial/birthday party. The following weekend the nieces and nephews and I ate strawberry shortcake and wrote messages on balloons and sent them to you. I visited Johnny and Dawn, Do Dah couldn't make it, we went to a excellent bbq restaurant in Nice, then off to the movies. " Angry Birds" I thought oh great angry birds, but it was their choice. I loved it. I was so glad we went. I purposely went down on the anniversary of Michaels passing to support Deana. Lately I've not been dealing with losing you so well. I was shopping at Safeway, thought I could buy the white raspberry filled donuts and the kids and I would say cheers. I put them in the shopping cart, I placed them on the counter, then I had a complete meltdown. I told the clerk that I couldn't buy them. I hadn't bought any since your services. I thought I couLd, but it's too soon. I just wish that I would have been anywhere but Safeway when I lost it It been almost 6 months, but the pain is still so fresh and strong . Most of the holidays have passed. I've always heard thatt the first year holidays are the hardest The last 2 weeks have been exceptionally difficult. Your picture is my screensaver on my tablet, whenever it pops up I cry. It wasn't this bad right afterwards. I think it's actually getting harder . I use to think that I would do anything for just one more hug, one more kiss or one more I love you mudda. But just one more would not be enough. I want to see you, smell you, touch you, visit with you everyday. I believe in the after life, everyday I wish that this is the day that Johnny will come to me. No matter in what form or even in a dream. I miss you so much, I know that I will get thru this, but I don't know how that can be possible. It's not getting easier it becoming impossible. I do know maybe it's just now starting to hit me .I love you so much,I can't believe your gone. This is a cruel,cruel world. God blessed me when he gave you to me, then 33 years later he devastated me when he took my precious baby boy back."
"So sorry for your loss....my deepest condolences to the Doverspike family. Cancer is a horrible medical condition and sadly 9 out of 10 people lose the battle with cancer. I have you in my thoughts and prayers, I hope that u all of you wishes were granted and that life treated you well.
Again I send my deepest sympathy to your beloved family."
"Hi baby, I miss you everyday. I cry for you everyday. Your birthday is coming up soon. You wanna bet that it is going to be an exceptionally hard day for me. I won a jackpot at Win River the other day and besides the money they gave me a T-shirt and a 1 night stay at their hotel. I am going to book it for the 7th, I haven't decided if I want to invite a few friends or all of your friends to come celebrate your 34 th birthday. Its even worse to see It in black avd white that you weren't even 34 when you completed your journey.I Am not only inviting you to join us, I am pleading with you. I need to see you, or feel your touch, smell you or feel your presence.. I have to know that you are OK, that you are happy, and k now if you have any regrets. I have to,have to know if Ali is with you. So pplleeaassee be there. I know you know where Win River is so no excuses.lol. Every time I' listen to your song I will start crying. And I'll think at any moment johnny is going to reach down here and smack me in the back of the head and say mom you've cried enough already. Now knock it off , but so far you haven't. I don't know how to go on without you. I know that I have to, but I swear I can't. I wish this were all a bad nightmare , but I know its not. I havent lost my mind yet. Sometimes I just wish that i could lose just enough of it to where I was still functioning but not hurting every minute of everyday. you are the lucky one. You can be with us every minute. You can guide us. you are not missing us..you are not lost in a fog of sorrow. your wait for us to join you is only a blink of an eye. For more reasons than that I would have gladly traded you places. I would have taken the pain and misery you suffered and I would have taken my final journey if it meant that you could still be here with all of your friends and loved ones. You would be the one mourning me. For the record I would have already snacked you in the back of the head for crying, and I also would let you see, touch, Snell and since me. So you need to get on the ball and bring me some comfort. Love you so much ,until next time,you are and always will be " my precious baby boy''"
"When does it start getting easier? Tomorrow will make 6 weeks and it still hurts as much as the day you passed. I am happy, releived and thankful that you are no longer in pain and that you have reunited with loved ones that have passed before you. Until we meet again just know that I love you, I miss you and I think of you every single minute of every single day . I know that you are in heaven watching over all those loved ones left here on Earth. I know its no easy task to make sure we all take the right path , but if anyone can do it you can. My birthday will be in a few days and I know that I won't receive that call that I have received every year since you were little guy. That is going to be so hard on me, waiting for that miracle, so maybe you contact me another way. Again if any one can do it, you can. I love you so much. You have always been and always will be " MY precious baby boy" A big part of my heart left with you, but that's OK because it's with you"
"We had your celebration of life on Saturday at the Lion Hall in McArthur. Uncle Boyd flew in from Texas. He And Emma drove up together. Uncle Donnie, uncle Jim and Cousin Donnie, Jamie and Samantha all came up. Aunt Debbie and Derek came up Friday and left yesterday. Melody,Dave, Do-dah, Johnny and Dawn left Lake County early and were at the hall before I was. I gave them their keepsake necklaces. I also gave keepsakes to our family as well to Tony and I will be sending one to Justin. The local family members and many friends all came to pay their respects. My pastor officiated. Aunt Debbie catered and decorated.Troy and Dena were in charge of the music. They are giving me the cds of all the songs that were played. The girls aunt Kimberly Davis sang a beautiful song accompanied by Sylaz Doverspike. Many friends stood and gave testimonials. Denas mother wrote a poem for me. She said that it was a one of a kind and meant only for me. She was right, I know that my pain is no greater or less than any other mothers that has lost a child but this poem is definitely mine. Denas mom wrote the words but they came straight from my heart. I didn't know if I would be able to read it or not but I did. Scotty said some very emotional words that brought tears to many. Alyssa wrote a poem that is so beautiful that it would be published if she submitted it. She was too emotional to read it. There was a little excitement that upset some , Including myself. I do however understand why it happened. If a family member ( members ) ask someone to leave, that person should leave Immediately and not stay and deliberately antagonize a grieving family member. You would've not expected anythig less from these two given their history. I hope we did right by you, giving you the best send off we could. You are loved by so many. You will always be remembered and in our hearts."
May you RIP bro. Know you will be missed.
Party hard and we will see you in Heaven.
Love Troy & Dena....."
"Love you my friend. I'm thankful for all the years that you were here and all the laughs we had. Rest in paradise❤️"
"oh yeah i miss it all. love ya johnny. From rearranging the rooms to make you comfortable, to laying for hours with you after the seizures just talking to you, laughing at dumb shit, and seeing the looks of appreciation from you for doing these things. I feel like at times i owe you the gratitude of being able to do these things for you. I needed to be caring for someone n i got to, i never really even noticed days i didnt wanna feel sad. they were fewer. Oh my friend I wouldve fought every day to just come by a say high.....AYE. lol i miss it all johnny but we would sit for hours shooting dice, playing slots, n listening to hella music... i will remember it all i love ya lots my friend im sad your gone."
"Johnny was my grandson, he was a very nice guy. I hated to see him go so young but with cancer, he is better off. He will be missed forever. Johnny, you are where you will be taken care of, until we meet again.
"Johnny, I remember the day I first met you... Never did I think you would become like a brother to me. And actually closer to me then my own blood brother. You are so awesome, and always welcomed me into your family! Thank you for that. I know your in a better place and your no longer in pain. You will never be forgotten and always be missed!!! I will take care of your brother the best I can. I'm not sure he knows what to do without you. It'll never be the same without your jokes and sense of humor... You always kept me laughing (sometimes even wondering if you even were joking, lol) I love you Johnny and will be seeing you again!"
"Today is the first day of the rest of my life,so many memorys flooding my mind.... both good and bad.I love u Johnny,n the way I feel,words couldn't explain...I'm happy ur pain is gone,but mine has just began....can't say ur name,look at ur picture,talk about u...or even thinking of u makes my heart hurt literally hurts to breathe.I know ur happy n pain free,n Ull never hurt again.I can feel ur vibe around me,all the things we got to do,n all the things we didn't get the chance to do...all I kno,is there is no better big bro.I love u,Ull never b forgoten.ur my best friend,my big brother,shit talk-smoke'n hater n a half,out of every thing n every one...I can feel ur energy...love u. Xoxoxo, Alyssa. Aka(ur boss's boss)"
"I know are time as friends may not have been as long as others but your friend ship is was and always will be the truest that iv ever had besides my crazy wifes lol never forget that nght with the truck. I knew you was goin to pass but i dont think a hundred years would have prepared any one for it. Love you brother party like a rock star thak you lil jonny"
"I will cherish forever every minute we ever spent together. As kids we take for granted all the times we had but now that your gone all I want is to hear your laugh or see you smile. I'll never forget all the moments you and Justin would dance to shania Twain or claim to be gods gift to woman. You had so much confidence which is something I always admired about you. Thank you for choosing me to be your sister for letting me be a part of your life. I am truly honored to have known you. Until we meet again I love you big brother and will miss you every second of every day."
"Far to young to have been taken though I know your worry was how the rest were going to cope. Such a selfless and caring man, you are missed deeply."
"Johnny, some of my fondest and funniest memories are of you! Oh the crap you and Justin put your mom and I through! However, my love for you is just like my love for my own children, unconditional, you always showed me so much respect and love. My respect and love for you will forever live in my heart!! I love you Johnny, yesterday, today and always!!"
"You were my heart and soul. You were my everything. I could not have loved you more. You were my "precious baby boy" and I was your "mudda" I had close to a year to prepare for your passing. We said everything we wanted to say. We each knew how the other felt about one another. I knew when the time came that I would be ready. I would no doubt be devastated and would shed a few tears, but I was going to be ok. WRONG . When you left a big part of my heart and soul left with you. I know that someday we will meet again (please don't be late meeting me at tphe gate)but that will seem like an eternity, it's been only11/2 days but it seems like forever. My heart aches so bad I don't know that I can go on. I have an endless stream of tears. I would have never thought it would be possible for that many tears to come from one person, with no relief any Time soon. What I would do for one more hug, one more kiss and one last time hear my "precious baby boy"" say I love you too "mudda""
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