Don't let them say I wasnt born, 
 that something stopped my heart. 
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,   
I've loved you from the start. 
Although my body you cant hold, 
It doesnt mean Im gone, 
This world was worthy not for me,
God chose that I move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face.
You have my word, I'll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.
You'll hear that it  was  "meant to be
God doesn't make mistakes"
But that wont soften  your worst blows,
Or make your heart not ache.
I'm watching over all you do, 
Another child you will bear,
Believe me when I say to you
That I am always there
There will come a time, I promise you
When you will hold a hand
Storke my face and kiss my lips
And you'll understand.
Although Ive never breathed your air
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn't mean I never "was"
An Angel Never Dies              
           

We found out I was pregnant with our first baby on February 2, 2012. We were so happy! April 25th we found out we were having a baby boy! April 26th we found out our baby boy was going to be an angel. April 26th was the day we found out about the anencephaly. May 2nd 2012 we went to an Oklahoma city hospitel and the doctors comfirmed our baby boy had anencephaly. Our wosrt nightmare had came true, our much loved and wanted baby boy couldnt be ours to keep. He was going to be an angel. May 3rd 2012 our baby was ripped from us, we never held him or got to tell him we love him. Baby boy mommy and daddy love you so much.   




Here's a poem I found a couple months after losing my baby boy, its called my angel baby. 
  
      
MY ANGEL BABY
I never got to see your eyes,

or hold your hand, or hear your cries.

all I have are my dreams of you,

those of which, will never come true. 

My heart sank the day I knew,

I would never get to met you. 

I had made plans, and had aspirations,

if only I had a little more patience.

I never thought the Lord would take you

away from me so soon.

But, I'll never forget that dismal day,

around 9 in the morning.

The day I knew something was not right

and through many tears I would have to fight.

Now, all I do is dream everynight

about how life would be like.

What if you really had been born? 

But all we have are dreams of that,

and all we can do is mourn.

We will not mourn for you though,

because we know you're where you need to be,

even though it isn't here with me.

You are my angel baby because God wanted you with Him.

Now, forever with his angels, His praises you will sing.

None of my dreams for you will ever come true,

because of the day God chose to take you.

But, my angel baby you will always be,

in my heart forever, forever a part of me.