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This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Kathleen (Kay) Clutson, 88, born on January 17, 1925 and passed away on August 11, 2013. She was just a beautiful person in every way and we will love and miss her always. Every Xmas, every Birthday, every special event that she would have shared with us we will miss her and never a day will go by that we won't think of her.  She was the true meaning of the word Mum...xxxxxxx

January 17
January 17
Mum Happy Birthday to you. I can't believe I haven't wrote on here for a year, so sorry but I have left tributes for you other places online (right now I hear you saying Karen it's ok I know you love me). I visited your grave on your Anniversary this year I guess thats why I forgot to write on here. Lisa, Marie and I went together. 10 years, how can you be gone so long. I miss you no differently now as I did then. Lots has happened this year, I expect you know anyway but Taylor moved to Leeds with his lovely girlfriend Becky and they are so happy. Jamie did amazing in his Alevels and is now at Sheffield Uni studying Law. Martin and I are so, so proud of both our boys and I know you and Dad would be too as you loved them both so much. I wish you were both here to share their achievements.
It is a very quiet house without the boys and both Martin and I miss them so much.
Thinking of you today, if only heaven had a phone. Love you.
January 17, 2023
January 17, 2023
Happy Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my darling Mum. I sang Happy Birthday to you earlier I hope you heard and saw me. I miss you so, so, much. The 17th of January is etched on my heart forever and will always be your day. Hope Dad has had a Birthday hug with you. Mr & Mrs Rose are there with you now too and Les, so you have lots of company with lovely friends. So sad you have all passed away. Love you Mum miss you every day
December 23, 2022
December 23, 2022
Merry Christmas my darling Mum. Another year without you nearly over. So much has happened but I will save that for the end of year. I purchased a poinsettia and cried, as I always do, as every Xmas I used to purchase 2 one for you and 1 for me. It is crazy how the little things just make me cry even now after all these years. I just miss you and Dad so much but I hope you both are looking down on us. I know you would be so proud of Taylor and Jamie. Lisa remains a star too always there to help anyone who needs it and looking after Marie.
Merry Heavenly Christmas love you and Dad forever and miss you both beyond words.
August 11, 2022
August 11, 2022
9 years today Mum since you passed away and I miss you as much now as I did then. I will never get used to you not being here. You were an amazing Mum always there for me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you did for me.

If only you were still here,
if only dreams came true'
If only I could hold your hand
and sit and talk with you.
If only I could see your smile,
If only I could hear your laugh
If only I had known that call
would be our very last.
If only I had been warned,
but still what could I do?
For God had decided
your earthly days were through.
If only we just had one more day,
I wonder what we both would say?
For so much has happened since you
passed away.
One more day to hug.
One more day together.
One more day that I would want to
last forever and ever.
But 'if only' changes nothing
for I know it cannot be
and it is just my way of coping
on this your Anniversary.
An Anniversary that took you
and a little piece of my heart,
and because of this Mum we will
never be apart.
A little bit of me is there with you
and you left your memories here
with me,
and one day they will be
reunited for all eternity.





May 15, 2022
May 15, 2022
God I miss you so much. You were my voice of reason, my advice giver, my friend, my safe place, my no secrets place...my amazing Mum.
January 29, 2022
January 29, 2022
Well you and Dad are looking after me. I got my MRI results and all clear. I really could do with a chat with you both today, I feel so sad. Miss you both so, so much. You were the best parents ever and you are both never out of my thoughts.
January 17, 2022
January 17, 2022
My Birthday gift to you Mum

The 17th of January is a truly special day,
and as I look towards heaven I hope you can hear me say
'Happy Birthday Mum' from the bottom of my heart
and I am blowing 8 kisses now, one for each year we've been apart.
Today is your day wherever you may be
and I will raise a glass to you later and hope that you can see.
You will never be forgotten Mum, you truly were the best,
full of love, kindness and affection and a cut above the rest.
Words will never truly explain what you gave and meant to me,
but if you could see my heart it is etched, with every wonderful memory.
How lucky I was to have you and that is why I love today,
as it is the day you were given to the world
and nothing can take that away.
A day to be thankful, a day of memories too,
of wrapping my arms around you and Birthday songs for you.
So I am singing now Mum and I hope that you can see
that this crazy daughter of yours loves and misses you so much,
and that is the way it will always be.
December 29, 2021
December 29, 2021
Well Mum, this Xmas message is late as I have not been well got fluid around my optic nerve and have had a pretty scary time. Back to the hospital tomorrow. Hoping that you and Dad will be watching over me. Right now all I really want is to have you here with me nobody like your Mum when your not well. Missing you so, so much. I didnt get to the grave, so sorry but Lisa and Marie went and put a lovely wreath and candle on it from us all. First Xmas with Dad there with you in heaven I will never get used to not writing a card or giving a gift to you both. I truly cannot put in words how wonderful parents you both were and I will love and miss you always.

ps If you can see me right now and know how scared I feel with this eye problem, send me some strength as I could do with it.
September 15, 2021
September 15, 2021
Reunited

Well my darling Mum Dad has left us to be with you, he went on his onward journey on Sunday 12th September. We will all miss him so much, he has been so brave since you left us. I cannot believe I am now an orphan He fought a good fight but his body could take no more and finally you are together again❤ He was the best Dad ever and give him a huge hug and kiss from me. I love you both so, so much
August 11, 2021
August 11, 2021
Dad is in hospital broke his hip, I think Mum if you asked him he would say he wants to be with you now and who could blame him. 8 years ago today he lost you and he has battled on, but he misses you so much. I saw him today Mum and it was heartbreaking to see him looking so frail, so lost. I told him I loved him and if he wanted to be with you I would understand, we would all understand. Selfishly I would keep him here forever, as it is so hard without you, how would I cope with him gone too. Then I thought I would, as you gave me the courage and strength to carry on when you went. I hope you like the roses I left at the grave, I felt your presence there and with you by my side I know you will get me through all of this sadness. Love you always.
August 11, 2021
August 11, 2021
8 years today we lost you and today my world actually stopped, anyone who has lost a parent knows what I mean. For when you lose a parent from that moment your world as you knew it has gone. You enter a new world, which takes a long time to adjust to, but because they did such an amazing job you have the courage to carry on. To my amazing Mum thank you for giving me this courage. Love you Mum this poems for you...

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A whisper away is all you are
but a whisper away is still too far,
for I cannot see you or hold you tight
and life without you never feels quite right.
For you were my Mum, my constant, my friend,
always thinking of me and others right to the end.
You were a Mum who exuded love in every way,
that is why it is still hard every day.
As who knew me better Mum than you,
the person who held in me in there arms the first breath I drew.
The person that held my hand the whole of my life,
and to my Dad was the perfect wife.
The perfect Wife, Mum and Nanny too
you were there for all of us when we needed you.
Always kind, always strong, always smiling even when things went wrong,
Always there with a loving smile,
or to sit and chat with all the while.
This is why I miss you today and every day,
but I know your looking down on us and
still guiding us along the way.
Love you Mum from the bottom of my heart, always will, even though we're apart
January 17, 2021
January 17, 2021
Happy Heavenly Birthday Mum....

The 17th of January is a truly special day,
and as I look towards heaven I hope you can hear me say
'Happy Birthday Mum' from the bottom of my heart
and I am blowing 7 kisses now, one for each year we've been apart.
Today is your day wherever you may be
and I will raise a glass to you later and hope that you can see.
You will never be forgotten Mum, you truly were the best,
full of love, kindness and affection and a cut above the rest.
Words will never truly explain what you gave and meant to me,
but if you could see my heart it is etched, with every wonderful memory.
How lucky I was to have you and that is why I love today,
as it is the day you were given to the world
and nothing can take that away.
A day to be thankful, a day of memories too,
of wrapping my arms around you and Birthday songs for you.
So I am singing now Mum and I hope that you can see
that this crazy daughter of yours loves and misses you so much,
and thats the way it will always be.
December 23, 2020
December 23, 2020
Well Mum what can I say another year without you and what a year it has been! 2020 the year the world was plunged into a pandemic. We have been in lockdowns due to Covid19 and I have not been allowed to see Dad and I cannot even see him at Xmas, it is all so hard and so sad here in the world. I wonder frequently what you would have made of it all.

Taylor and Jamie have grown so much. Taylor's 1st and 2nd year at Uni has been interrupted by Covid so much and Jamie's GCSE years have been chaos. You would be so proud of them both though if you were here, but I hope you are looking down on them and can see their achievements. Martin is now working from home and I am just constantly cooking and baking, remind you of someone.

Marie has a lovely little flat now and Lisa, Jay and the kids are doing fine. Lisa has been looking after Dad through all this madness JT has had a tough year but getting there.

I miss you so much still, you were always there to offer advice, help and love and nobody can replace you. Thank you for everything as you were the most amazing Mum.

Merry Heavenly Xmas Mum, I hope you are up there with family and friends enjoying yourself, which this Christmas down here we are not able to do easily but we will do our best to try to enjoy it as best we can. Love you to heaven and back, your always in my thoughts and I feel your presence often.


ps I cannot believe I will be 60 soon, how did your baby get this old.
August 11, 2020
August 11, 2020
To my Darling Mum 7 years ago today we lost you. 7 years how can it be so, so long since I have spoken with you, laughed with you, hugged you I miss you every day. Martin, Jamie and I are in Cavtat, Croatia amidst the covid19 pandemic. Taylor is home with his girlfriend Becky dogsitting our beautiful dog Bella who you never got to meet. The boys are growing up 'my boy' as you called Taylor is 21 now and at Uni. How proud you would be of him and Jamie. Dad made it to 90 but he has never really got over losing you.
I love you Mum now and always
January 17, 2020
January 17, 2020
Happy 95th Birthday Mum. Missing you as always. Wrote this little poem for you.xx

Happy Birthday

I am not sure if you can see this Mum but I hope that you can,
for I am looking up to heaven and holding out my hand.
In my hand there are flowers that I want to give to you,
if only you could take them then I wouldn't feel so blue.
You see your Birthday without you is just not the same,
I miss wrapping my arms around you and speaking your name.
I know I have the memories, and they are precious thats for sure,
but it breaks my heart that we will never, ever, make any more.
No more laughing together, no more cake and tea,
no more putting the world to rights, no more Mum and me
But I know you would hate to see me sad, so I am going to smile and raise a glass to you,
to you Kathleen Clutson, my Mum and my best friend too.
December 26, 2019
December 26, 2019
Sitting here thinking of you Mum, another Xmas without you. I will never ever get used to not buying you presents and writing you a card. You always read all the words in the card. You told me the picture means nothing its what the words say that counts. I miss you Mum so so much. Visited Dad on the 22nd he was on good form. He is so deaf now he hears nothing it would drive you mad. Popped to the cemetary left you flowers in a basket for Xmas. It still breaks my heart you are not here to see the boys growing up. You would be so so proud of them. Taylor is at University now and Jamie in Year 10. Mum you were the best Mum ever. Love and Miss you every day.xxx
August 12, 2019
August 12, 2019
Your 6 year Anniversay was yesterday. I still miss you as much as I did the day it happened. Love you always Mum❤❤❤❤ (There had to be a poem right?l

The Longing....

I still miss you Mum each and every day,
they say that times a healer, but the pain never goes away.
It is not so much a pain really, but a longing down deep inside,
a longing for you to be back here standing by my side
A longing to pick up the phone and have a real long chat with you,
a longing to hear that cackle of yours when we shared a joke or two.
A longing for the norm to return, as that went the day you passed away,
as a piiece of my heart went with you and it is there with you to stay.
A longing to share a cuppa with you and dunk gingernut biscuits in our tea,
and to laugh at an old Only Fools and Horses at Xmas on tv.
A longing to see you roll those eyes at Dad,
in the way that only you could do,
as he knew that was his cue to stop acting the clown,
as you had told him too
But the thing I long for most Mum iis to give you a great big hug,
for although the years may move on
and I may outwardly seem ok
my Darling Mum this lionging for you never ever goes.
August 11, 2018
August 11, 2018
So Mum its 5 years today since we lost you. I have been to Reading and been to the cemetary and left you flowers. Its been hard surrounded by so many memories today but I know you would hate me to be sad. Will raise a glass to you later Mum. I wrote this little poem for you. I hope you like it. Love and Miss you always.
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For my Mum who was taken so suddenly 5 years today. Love and Miss you always.

5 years ago Mum my heart it broke in two,
one part was left with me, the other went with you.
My half is filled with memories and it reminds me every day
of all the things we shared before you went away.
Sometimes it has me shed a little tear or two, when I sit and think of how life is without you.
It reminds me ofen what love is all about
and to not take people for granted as one day you will be without.
It has taught me also Mum to live each day as if it's your last,
as tomorrow is not guaranteed and I learnt this when you passed.
So your leaving a part of your heart with me was the best thing you could do,
as its still teaching me and showing me things
which was certainly true of you.
I hope the part that went with you Mum is a window to what's happening down here
and it enables you to also see that we miss you more each passing year.
So after 5 years I know the broken heart is here to stay
but I am never letting go of it as it does an amazing job every day.
June 4, 2018
June 4, 2018
Hello my darling Mum. I have been thinking of you so much these past few days. It was Taylor's 19th Birthday on Saturday how proud you would be of him. He is working now he has an Apprenticeship and a girlfriend, a lovely girl called Becky. Oh Mum I so wish you were still here. You were the best and I bloody miss you. Jamie has grown up too its so sad that you never get to put your arms around them.. Dad cant hear at all now so I dont get to speak to him on the phone anymore
January 17, 2018
January 17, 2018
Happy Birthday my darling Mum. I miss you so so much. I will never get over losing you. Every day I think of you. Thank you for everything you were the best Mum. There was nothing you wouldn't do for me. Oh to be as good a parent as you were. Love you always.xxxxx
December 27, 2017
December 27, 2017
Miss you Mum. Another Xmas without you. Miss you still so very much. Miss our daily chats, our hugs, our laughter. Dad is just not Dad anymore either bless him. He misses you so much and I think he died inside the day you died. Taylor and Jamie have grown up so much now Mum. Not the boys who shared your life. I hate that you have missed so much of their lives Mum. Love you and think of you always my darling Mum.xx
August 11, 2017
August 11, 2017
4 years today I lost you Mum.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ time does not make it easier its just a reminder of all the things you have missed and we haven't shared. Love you Mum you were the best.xxxx

If I had just one more hour what would I say
I would thank you for all the little things you did for me before you passed away
For the times you stood outside school to collect me in the rain,
for sticking on a plaster when I had fallen over again.
For giving me a hug when I was feeling sad,
and saying its ok wee girl its really not so bad.
For paddling in the sea with me and making castles in the sand.
For singing along with me to my favourite band.
For enduring my playing my recorder morning noon and night,
as I had to practice until I got it right.
For making snowmen with me until your fingers went blue,
then making me hot chocolate as I was frozen too.
For taking me to see Jungle Book until I knew all the songs off by heart
you see its the little things I remember now we are apart.
Of course I am grateful for everything you did for me
and when I close my eyes its wonderful memories I see.
So I thank you Mum from the bottom of my heart
I couldnt make a list of all of them but this is a start.
January 17, 2017
January 17, 2017
Well Mum Xmas, New Year and my Birthday went and of course you were always in my thoughts as nothing is never quite the same without you. So today is your Birthday and I just wish I was able to sing Happy Birthday to you but my gift to you is a poem. I hope you like it.xx

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I miss you Mum there is nothing more to say,
I miss you every minute of every waking day,
I miss our conversations, I miss our hugs and laughter too,
I miss just being with you, but there is nothing I can do.
For there are no stairs to heaven and no plane that flys that far
and its not a Sat Nav destination so I cannot drive my car.
All I can do is hope that this message gets to you above
and that God gives you flowers today and says they are sent from me with lots of love.
As on this your Birthday I just wanted you to know
that I will never stop missing you and really love you so.xxx
August 11, 2016
August 11, 2016
3 years Mum, how did that happen? Just sitting here thinking of you not that I don't think of you every day because I do but today it just hurts a little bit more as I hate the 11th of August it stole you my Mum, my best friend. I so miss you. I have so many things to tell you and I can't. I miss our daily chats well I just miss everything really. I hope you know how much I am grateful to you for and how much I love you.xxxx
January 17, 2016
January 17, 2016
Happy Birthday my darling Mum. I haven't posted for a while not because I don't think of you as i do that every day but sometimes its just too sad to put my emotions into words especially over Xmas. I miss you more and more it gets harder without you not easier there is just so much now you don't know or haven't been here to share. I love you and miss you deeply.xxxxxxxxx
August 11, 2015
August 11, 2015
Getting through the day, you sent me the strength that was needed.xxxx
August 11, 2015
August 11, 2015
I would just love a hug Mum, can't believe you have been gone 2 years. You would be so proud of everyone Dad is trying his best without you and Lisa does so much for him running him around everywhere. I feel so guilty that I am not there for him being 2 hours away is hard. Taylor and Jamie have grown up so much and there is so much I would love you to know...who knows maybe you do. I love you and miss you every day. You were the best Mum ever.xxx


Your Presence

I miss you Mum each and every day
but I don’t need to tell you this as you know it anyway.
You know that I still cry for you when driving in my car,
when laying in my bed at night or gazing at a star.
When shopping in the supermarket, or just sitting watching TV,
yes those tears just creep down my cheeks so unexpectedly.
But the reason I know you know this is I feel your presence by my side,
for I may not be able to see you Mum but from you I cannot hide.
When making a decision I hear your voice within my head,
whispering words of guidance like you always said.
Reaching out to me when I need a helping hand
and I know some of you won’t get this but others will understand.
It’s like you know when I am undecided or I don’t know what to do
then all of a sudden its clear, my minds made up when I think of you.
Your face comes into my head and then the problem just disappears,
for you have paid me a visit to take away my fears.
I sometimes smell your perfume and I know that this sounds mad
and maybe its just wishful thinking but it stops me feeling sad.
I gaze at your picture and I hear you asking ask me to step inside,
so we can have a chat like we used to and you can wipe the tears I have cried.
I just feel your presence Mum in everything I do
and maybe that is because I am not prepared to say Goodbye to you.
Or maybe there is another reason but that is one you will only get told
when God calls you to heaven and from there the earth you behold.
For who really knows what lies ahead and what our passed loved ones can see
so here is a message to you Mum that comes with love from me.
Thank you for all the memories which I will keep safe within my heart
And with them locked there forever we will never really be apart.xxx
August 10, 2015
August 10, 2015
My Darling Mum 2 years tomorrow since you left us. Never a day goes by that I do not think of you. I will miss you forever. Little poem coming your way on here tomorrow.xxxx
March 30, 2015
March 30, 2015
The sun is shining today Mum. Its the start of the kids Easter holidays...was thinking how you loved to bring chocs and pressies for the boys when they were at home. I was thinking also off how you always bought me those toffee eggs when I was a kid as I loved them so...I miss you more with every passing day there is a part of me that always feels Ionely, I love you.xxx.
January 17, 2015
January 17, 2015
To my darling Mum on your 90th Birthday...what is there to say except Happy Birthday in heaven, I miss you more than words can say and think of you every day. I have written a Birthday poem for you and will post later on here. Love you always.xxxx
December 14, 2014
December 14, 2014
Mum its nearly Xmas again and our second one without you, I miss you so much Mum, you were always there to help me through everything so I will never stop missing you. I never understood what the word loss meant until you left us.. I miss and love you so, so much. You were the best Mum ever I will never get over losing you I will just hide it well.xxx
October 9, 2014
October 9, 2014
Hi Mum was sitting here having a coffee and just wanted to pick the phone up and have a chat like we used to...I miss you, I hide it well from my boys but when I am here by myself I still shed tears for you. I know you wouldn't want me to be sad but its your fault for being such a great Mum.x Just rang Dad and he can't hear hardly at all on the phone bet your laughing up there at me trying to get him to understand what I am saying. He misses you so much too. Love you Mum.xxxx
September 4, 2014
September 4, 2014
Hi Mum...September now and I miss you more than ever. Little Jamie went back to school today..he is in year 5 now, you never even saw him start year 4..Taylor goes Tuesday and its his GCSE year..so sad you will never know how he gets on.. I just want you back Mum. Love you.xx
August 13, 2014
August 13, 2014
It was a year on Monday the 11th August a day etched in my memory and heart forever. I miss you so much Mum, I will never get over your not being here to share my life...Love and Miss You Always.xxx
July 15, 2014
July 15, 2014
Hi Mum....I have been thinking of you so much, can't believe its now a year since I last saw you in Reading before you left us all. A year how can that be, a year without you! Its so hard Mum, I smile because I had you in my life for so long but because I had you so long it makes it so much harder to not have you here. You were the best, the best Mum, the best listener and my best friend..I love you.xxx
June 16, 2014
June 16, 2014
Hi Mum...Just wanted you to know that a poem I wrote about and to you has been published. It is in a book called Candlelight Thoughts...here it is for you...

THANKFUL
A poem dedicated to my Mum (Kay Clutson) who passed away on 11 August 2013


I probably should have said it more,
but I hope you always knew,
that I was oh so thankful to have a Mum like you.

I thank you for the little things and for everything you did.
For holding my hand so tenderly when I was a small kid.
For tucking me into bed at night and teaching me right from wrong.
These are the things I will remember now you are gone.

I thank you for listening to me when I was feeling blue,
for a Mum makes everything better and
that was certainly true of you.

I thank you for giving me guidance.
I thank you for giving me love,
for that is the greatest gift you can give someone
and it is sent from God above.

I thank you for just being you and a truly wonderful friend,
for that is what you were Mum right until the end.
Someone I could confide in who knew my every thought,
who truly loved their daughter and that really can’t be taught.
For I could ask you anything, no matter what it may be,
and you always had the right answers to say right back to me.

So even though your not here with me I still talk to you every day
and I hope that you can hear me and will guide me on my way.
For I know that angels look down on us and I hope that you can see
that you being an angel is so very hard for me.
But amongst all the anguish and amongst all the pain,
I want you to know I am thankful Mum,
even though life will never be the same.....


Feel so proud that words about you are here forever. Love and Miss you so, so much.xx
June 2, 2014
June 2, 2014
It is your boy Taylor's 15th Birthday today, first one without his beloved Nan. You loved him so much and I have cried so much today remembering all his lovely childhood days we shared with you. You were the best Nan as you were the best Mum...I love and miss you with all my heart and no it doesn't get easier.xxxx
May 7, 2014
May 7, 2014
Been thinking of you Mum....here is a little poem I wrote to let you know how we are all doing. Love you.xxx

Gods Test.....

So its nearly 9 months now since you passed away
and so much has happened since then there is so much to say.
So I have decided to write this poem and send it to you above
and hope that you will hear it as its sent with so much love.
We are looking after Dad Mum but he misses you every day
as after 62 years together would it be any other way?
But although he is very lonely he is doing ok
and we are all going to lunch on his Birthday on the 10th of May.
As its the first one for a long time that you have not been by his side,
so it will be strange for us all but our feelings we must hide.
So your boy Taylor went to China how lucky was he?
It was one of the last things we told you of but the photos you will never see.
Jamie joined a football team and he is doing really well,
he has scored a few goals for them, oh Mum there is so much to tell.
You will remember that Martin changed his job just before you went away
he seems to be enjoying it and doesn’t drive so far each day.
Marie and Lisa look after Dad they take him wherever he needs to go
and you won’t believe he came to me for Xmas for a week you know!
Everyone does the best they can do, but we think of you every day,
And for me life is not the same since you passed away.
I just feel a little lost without you I have even gone to pick up the phone
And then I just remember that there is now only Dad at home.
I call him every day Mum just to make sure he is ok
but its not very easy as he is so deaf and can’t hear a word I say!
I know we used to laugh at this, for you were his ears,
and now its so frustrating Mum and I think of you and have tears.
But I don’t want you to worry Mum as we are all doing our very best
Its like God took you away from us and gave us all a huge test.
So there is only one thing left to tell you Mum so I am saying it very loud
I think that we have passed the test and you would be so very proud.xxx
April 7, 2014
April 7, 2014
Hi Mum...Well got through another milestone Mothers Day, how strange it was not having a Mum here to speak and say those words 'Happy Mothers Day' to..I said them to you though Mum I whispered them in the wind and hoped that they would reach you. You were the best Mum ever and my missing you does not get easier it gets harder. I still cry every day for you, I just would love a little chat..My days are just not the same.xxxx
March 24, 2014
March 24, 2014
Not sure now whether I am leaving a tribute anymore or just find this a way of telling you things. Taylor went off to Work Experience today...you should have seen him Mum all dressed up in a suit, you would have been so, so proud of as you called him 'your boy'.....Maybe you were with him taking that journey. Its a hard week this week 'Mothers Day' coming up...bless you miss you more and more each day.xxx
March 11, 2014
March 11, 2014
Hi Mum its 7 months today and I am having a bad day. I just so desperately want to talk to you, you my lovely Mum. Jamie goes on his little 3 day school trip that I told you about before you passed away. I just know you would have been calling him today and telling him to have a lovely time...I hate not sharing anything with you anymore...we were such best friends. Love you now and forever.xxx
March 6, 2014
March 6, 2014
Hi Mum...Well I came to see you at your resting place at the weekend. Breaks my heart to go there but that is where you are now and its very hard. We will get the grave looking nice as soon as we are able to plant it out. Its nearly Spring and it will be 7 months soon since you left us all...I miss you so, so much and it is always harder when I have just been to Reading and to the house we all shared as I miss you being there. I love and miss you with all my heart. I am sorry if you see me crying often but I just can't help it...had you not been such a wonderful wonderful Mum then I am sure this would have been easier but you were and I thank you for that. Love and Miss you every day.xxxxxxxx
February 17, 2014
February 17, 2014
Mum we are all missing you so, so much...Dad is so very lonely without you and its so hard for me as I feel helpless and so far away. I can hear you telling him off when he makes me sad..you so hated it when he used to make me feel bad about moving....I miss you and you will never know how much, what an incredible Mum you were...I just hope you knew how much I loved you and still do. I miss telling you what the boys are doing..Taylor has a Work Experience Interview today and I know you would have been ringing him up and wishing him luck....thats it in tears again...Love you.xxxxx
February 11, 2014
February 11, 2014
Love and miss you, so, so much, I can't believe its 6 months already since I last spoke with you, heard your voice and just had you here........I will never ever get over losing you Mum, I am trying so hard but you were such a huge part of my life it hurts so bad....xxx



6 months on and the pain does not subside
it is there with me every day and its hidden deep inside.
For you think you understand, but until it happens to you,
I am sorry to have to tell you, you haven’t got a clue!
For I really thought I understood before it happened to me,
but it is not how you imagine it is much worse you see.
You think you will get over it and carry on the same,
but every day there is with you that hidden hurt and pain.

For when you truly love someone and they are here no more,
a little piece of you dies with them and for this there is no cure.
For you cannot bring them back no matter how hard you try
And it is the little things that set you off and then you start to cry.
So I am making no apologies for the days when I may shed a little tear,
as its really so very hard for me as it hasn’t even been a year.

I know it may get easier but I also know it will never go away
As how do you get over someone that was there for you every day.
There is no replacement and I wouldn’t want there to be
for no one can replace my Mum and the love she gave to me.
So until we meet again Mum just know this,
I miss and love you so much and I am blowing you a kiss.xxx
January 28, 2014
January 28, 2014
So January is nearly over Mum and its been hard. A New Year, My Birthday, Your Birthday...I miss you so deeply it hurts. I cry every day, lots of these tears are when I am on my own! I long to hear your voice and the thought of living the rest of my life and never seeing you again just breaks my heart. Love you so, so much and miss you so, so much.xxxxxxxx
January 17, 2014
January 17, 2014
Mum today is your Birthday and didn't know what to do so I wrote a poem for you. I Love and Miss You so, so much.

......

So its your big day today and what do I do,
Never had the 17th of January without saying Happy Birthday to you.
So today will be no different I will whisper it and hope you hear,
But I hope you will forgive me if I shed a little tear.
For I can't give you a present and I can't give you a card,
I can just send you my love, oh Mum without you it's so hard!
I know that if you were here beside me just what you would say,
"Please don't cry Karen" and you would wipe my tears away.
So I will paint on a smile and try not to be sad
And think of all the wonderful Birthdays we shared that you had.
Then I will have some cake and raise a glass or two
And hope that in heaven you are doing it too.xxx
December 18, 2013
December 18, 2013
God bless you Kay,remember all the fun times we all had all those years ago,but never forgotten love Les x x x x
December 18, 2013
December 18, 2013
What a lovely Memorial wall it's very touching and the music is so nice fitting in with it all your Mum would be very proud of you I am sure.

Thinking of you & your Dad & family at this sad time xxx
December 18, 2013
December 18, 2013
Kit you are a lovely lady and I have many fond memories of you espically when I was younger when we used to visit nearly every weekend. When we used to go the the post office club and burghfield club on boxing day where you used to have a drink & dance with my mumand the laughs we had in your garden espically roy chasing us round that tree. Hope you have a lovely xmas up there looking down on your family & friends stressing out. Xxxxxx
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January 17
January 17
Mum Happy Birthday to you. I can't believe I haven't wrote on here for a year, so sorry but I have left tributes for you other places online (right now I hear you saying Karen it's ok I know you love me). I visited your grave on your Anniversary this year I guess thats why I forgot to write on here. Lisa, Marie and I went together. 10 years, how can you be gone so long. I miss you no differently now as I did then. Lots has happened this year, I expect you know anyway but Taylor moved to Leeds with his lovely girlfriend Becky and they are so happy. Jamie did amazing in his Alevels and is now at Sheffield Uni studying Law. Martin and I are so, so proud of both our boys and I know you and Dad would be too as you loved them both so much. I wish you were both here to share their achievements.
It is a very quiet house without the boys and both Martin and I miss them so much.
Thinking of you today, if only heaven had a phone. Love you.
January 17, 2023
January 17, 2023
Happy Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my darling Mum. I sang Happy Birthday to you earlier I hope you heard and saw me. I miss you so, so, much. The 17th of January is etched on my heart forever and will always be your day. Hope Dad has had a Birthday hug with you. Mr & Mrs Rose are there with you now too and Les, so you have lots of company with lovely friends. So sad you have all passed away. Love you Mum miss you every day
December 23, 2022
December 23, 2022
Merry Christmas my darling Mum. Another year without you nearly over. So much has happened but I will save that for the end of year. I purchased a poinsettia and cried, as I always do, as every Xmas I used to purchase 2 one for you and 1 for me. It is crazy how the little things just make me cry even now after all these years. I just miss you and Dad so much but I hope you both are looking down on us. I know you would be so proud of Taylor and Jamie. Lisa remains a star too always there to help anyone who needs it and looking after Marie.
Merry Heavenly Christmas love you and Dad forever and miss you both beyond words.
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NEVER HUNGRY

October 24, 2013

My Mum was just so funny in so much as that you were always fed until you were fit to burst.  No matter how many times you told her that you really had enough or you didn't need feeding as you had already eaten, it made no difference as the plate would arrive with the huge dinner, the huge sandwich, the chunk of cake.  It was just her way and I think her Irish roots played a big part.  

At my Mum's funeral in her eulogy we wrote a line saying that to eat at the Clutson house for Sunday Lunch was reminiscent of the Vicar of Dibley Christmas special where for those of you who have not seen it the vicar gets invited to Christmas lunch by many of her parisioners and not wanting to upset any of them she accepts all the invitations hence has to crawl back to the vicarage...well that just sums up the times I left my Mum's feeling fit to burst....and her generosity was no different in any other area of her life...She was just simply the most kind and generous person.x 

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