memorable date(3rd july) my 1st born, my only son, loved from moment i held him,1st of 3parts of my life, i wld hav  gave my life 4 him, and still wld if i cld turn back time and it was possible,, still cant talk about losing him, can say his name with lov /pride but  talk about him dying kills me,  i died with him, so beautiful a person, to watch him die destroyed me, am still so angry with the world,  he had all his life in front of him and all 2 live 4, his son/sisters mum/dad, i hav cried every day since he  got told he had cancer, i new rite there he was handed his death sentence, although i still prayed i was wrong(hope)i watched my beautiful son take his last breath and leaveus, i watched his fear nite after nite round the clock but cld do nothing,i felt so helpless, i speak 2 him every day /nite, gone but never forgotton kev, i loved you with all my heart/soul kevin, i wld hav killed 4u, one of thebest ever 2 walk this earth, i pray u r by my side always, till i see and hold u again, all my lov kev, my 1st love, lov mum xxx