I am realizing now that my cat King Velcro Clingon Wahoo is in a better place and is not in pain,is not blind anymore and is not in any sort of Trauma any longer.  I still do miss my cat terribly but I am starting to heal from all of the grief I am feeling for my cat for the last 9 month's.

     I am working everyday now and when I come home at night their is no longer a hole in the pit of my stomach over missing my cat.  

     I have started feeding Feral Cat's again....it is good to connect with other animal's again.  But I have decided that I will never wn a pet again....it is too emotional and painful for me!

   January 13,2015.

     I have moved on in my life since King Velcro was put to sleep..but again since after the Holidays....I have been thrown into a grief period over my cat again!  

     I am working part-time again as a caregiver and I am fine during the day when I am working,but when I get home I miss seeing and holding and being with my cat....King Velcro!

       It has been 4 month's now since I had to put Wahoo to sleep.  Now I am going through a guilty period where I cry alot about him again.  I am feeling guilty that I put him to sleep.  I no that putting him to sleep was the right decision....I just miss my cat in my life so much....sleeping next to him,having him be there when I get home from work....he was my constant companion for 7 year's.

     At the beginning when I put my cat to sleep.  I would cry on and off for the first couple of month's....even though I was out trying to stay busy!  I have found that walking for an hour every morning helps to relieve my grief some how!

     There is a fantastic website called Recover From Grief .com and says that you are grieving to concentrate on 4thing's which are hydration,rest,nutrition and lots of exercise.  I had a very hard time tonight .  I went out with a friend tonight to a church where we ate dinner and listened to a great band!  The songs that the band played at the very end where sad and I went outside because I missed my cat so much and started crying.  All of my friends where really understanding!  It is still hard to believe that Wahoo is not here with me right now!

     Our life was very calm and uneventful for about the next 4 year's until I spoke to the Vet assistant and I asked her how I could make my cat  an outside cat.  The next day I started letting go outside and everyday he came back for 3 week's.And then the next day I noticed him gone over 7 hour's.  I became frantic and I even looked for him in the dark.  He had a chip and I registered it with the Humane Society and alot of other places.  I went to Humane Society every Wednesday and Sunday,until I paticular Wednesday I came into Humane Society and he was there.  He had been blinded and paralyzed from the waist down,  Most likely he had been hit by a car.  I was sobbing by this time....I had been so lost and alone not being with him for over a month and a half.  The Vet told me that I I took him home I would have to take him to Emergency before we went home.  I said to the lady at the Humane Society that my cat is not eating anything at all and he can no longer have a bowel movemrnt on his own anymore.  And he cannot see and look at thing's like he used to.  I knew that no type of surgery could fix his eye's or his being paralyzed from the waist down and plus he was the most Feral cat in the room.  He had also been traumatized by something terrible!  I decided that the best thing to do was put him to sleep....obviously he was in a tremendous amont of pain.  I decided for him that he would not have to feel anything terrible agan.