Lacey Larissa S-----, (1985 - 2013) - ForeverMissed.com Online Memorials

A heart of gold stopped beating,
two shining eyes at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove,
He only takes the best.
- Author Unknown

28 years old
Born on January 1, 1985 in Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Passed away on November 12, 2013 in Toronto, Ontario, Canada

This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Lacey, 28, born on January 1, 1985 and passed away on November 12, 2013. Sister and treasured friend, godmother and aunt, Lacey was one of a kind. She will be forever remembered.

May you find peace. Love you always, Lissy.

Please feel free to leave any special memories, pictures, and thoughts you might have of your times with her. You may also use this site to say goodbye.

E.T.A. (11/2014): The Paint photos (in the pictures gallery) were created by Lacey herself, self-portraits of sorts.

E.T.A. (11/2014): (09/10/2010) @laceyeh: If I don't survive, remember this: I love you, #gutterbrain and booze are keys to happiness, #nohabsno and #goleafsgo! :D *muah* :)

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June 7, 2019

Raptors are one game away from winning the 2019 NBA Championship. They're doing it, Liss, they're actually going to do it.
You're cheering like crazy up there, I know it. I love you. I miss you like crazy. <3

January 1, 2019

Hi Lissy,
Happy birthday!
I may not have posted on this remembering page for a while, but you have never once left my thoughts. I see you and think of you constantly - you're in Matty Max's smiles and laughs, you're in every Leafs and Raptors win. You're right next to me when I need to be brave and strong, and you're holding me when I cry. I love you.
I miss you more than ever. Everyone has been super supportive it is getting easier. I may even close your Twitter account, I'm not sure. I really wish you were here.
I love you. I miss you. Happy 34th <3

December 16, 2017

TFC won the MLS Cup. The first Canadian team to do so. You'd be so proud, the streets of Toronto were all red for them.

The Argos won the Grey Cup this year. Leafs are 2nd in the division. Raptors are also kicking ass. Toronto sports are thriving, just like you always dreamed.

Everything is nothing without you.

November 12, 2017

4 years. :'(

I love you, dearest.

April 10, 2017

Leafs made it to the playoffs, Liss. They play the Caps. You'd be so happy and exciting; the kids are so much fun to watch. It's going to be a great first round.

I miss you more and more everyday. Some of your online friends have contacted me, and they miss you, too. Especially one from Toronto; I don't know who he is exactly (he wants to stay anonymous), but he writes really well and from what you've told me, I have an idea. You were blessed to meet such great people.

I miss you. Alina was telling me that she hasn't been the same since you've passed, that losing you just makes her ache with sadness that is there but masked. I know what she means; it's how I am. A constant pain. You'd be the first to tell us that life goes on. We're trying, I'm trying.

I just miss you. Love you, xoxxxox.

January 1, 2017

happy birthday, liss. love you. miss you. <3

December 1, 2016

Liss, TFC won the MLS Eastern Championship. They did it, hon, ten years in the making, They're playing the MLS Final next week.

They're winning for you, love. <3

November 12, 2016

I miss talking to you...I can't help but think you would be a huge voice in my current situation. Somehow I can't help but think that you're subtly sending messages through others.

Smile... :)

November 11, 2016

i miss you. i've been getting better, but it still hits me that you're gone. and i can't do anything but cry.

i love you, liss. three years :'(

ring the bells that can still ring.
forget your perfect offering.
there is a crack in everything.
that's how the light gets in.
- leonard cohen, rip :(

July 17, 2016

I stumbled upon this today and I kept digging deeper and it's extremely sad. I know you don't need me telling you it's sad because I know that you know it's sad. I promised myself I wouldnt cry because I don't have that right. I didn't know her at all, but it's heartbreaking to see someone pass who has so many loved ones. Morgan... You seem like a great friend and I can just tell you loved her with all your heart, cancer sucks a lot and it took my grandpa last year. Lacey seemed to be a lovely girl who's life was taken away from her. It sucks so much that death surrounds us, that we have to deal with it everyday. I can't help but cry as I look at each and everyone of Morgan's post. Her love for Lacey shines through all of the darkness of death. I'm very sad for your loss, losing a friend is awful, it feels like losing a part of yourself. Stay strong and live your life- Mark Welch

February 27, 2016

There are times I miss you more than seems possible, or bearable. It's better, I know it's better because it's not every moment of everyday, or even every day, every night. But there are times I realize, again, there is no Lacey Larissa in the world, in my life, and it chokes me.

I don't know how much better it gets, or how long it takes. I don't know how to get through it. Minute by minute, then hour by hour, then day by day. Friends are comfort. Life is for the living, you and I know that.

I'm trying, Lissy. Some days are easier than others, but I'm trying. I love you. And I miss you so goddamn much.

January 1, 2016

Happy Birthday, Lissy. I love you. I miss you so much. <3

December 25, 2015

Merry Christmas, Lissy. Another birthday without you. I miss you, so much.

It's getting easier - I keep telling myself that. I'm just fooling myself, really. There's a big hole in my soul and I'm trying and failing to mend it. I never thought we'd ever be apart and it's finally sinking in that I'll never hear you laugh or feel your hugs or just be in your presence. I hate it; every day I wish you were here.

But I know you're somewhere better, somewhere where you're not hurting or suffering. I can't fault you for that. I know you're looking after me, and I will always miss you. I'm still keeping you close, I don't think I'll ever be able to let you go completely.

I love you, Lissy. <3

November 12, 2015

2 years. :'(

November 1, 2015

Hope is alive while we're apart,
Only tears speak from my heart.

We shall be forever bound...
And I shall not walk alone.

October 4, 2015

All you need to know is I'm so sorry.

I wonder what you'd say if I told you I cry each day.
It's hard enough to be so far away.

I wish I wasn't cold. I wish I wasn't alone.
But the party is over. How will I move on?

All you need to know is that I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry. I love you. I miss you so desperately.

October 1, 2015

They did it, the jays clinched the AL East. They're going to the playoffs, just like you always hoped. <3

I miss you. I thought it'd get easier. It's not, everyday I think of you and wish you were here. It's so hard to live without you.

I can't do it, Liss. It's been almost two years, and still it feels like yesterday I held your dead body in my arms, How do I move on? How do I survive? I can't bring myself to do anything. Even baby Matty Lace, he's getting older and I'm not there. How do I go back to him? I don't know how. It's like I've died with you, but my body remains alive.

Oh Lissy, I need you. I need your help. Please. You know what to do, you always do. Help me. Please. i love you.

September 2, 2015

I told you when you left me that there's nothing to forgive,
but I always thought you'd come back to me...It's hard for me to say.
I'm jealous of the way you're happy without me.

I miss you. :'(

August 14, 2015

It's not getting easier, being without you. Even getting on the computer is a struggle.

I am not living without you. I am not living. You aren't here and I am essentially dead.

How do I survive? I need your help. I need you. Because right now, I'm all alone and I'm ceasing to be.

Please Lissy, I need you. i need you.

June 4, 2015

I just really thought I'd see you again.
i know i haven't been around in a long time, but I'm always thinking about you and I knew you were always out there,
Now it just feels empty. Realizing you're really gone.
I miss you.

May 21, 2015

I miss the sound of your beating heart. Skips and all.

I miss you.

April 21, 2015

Life is a pending funeral.

God, I miss you.

April 9, 2015

You're breaking my heart all over again.

I miss you. :'(

April 9, 2015

You're breaking my heart all over again.

I miss you. :'(

March 22, 2015

I found him, Lissy. At least, I think I did. It's in his hands now if he wants to contact me, I really hope he doesn't; I'm still angry with him for hurting you. But I'm keeping my promise. I miss you. I hope I'm doing the right thing. Maybe now you'll come back to me. I love you.

February 2, 2015

Know that I'm with you. Be still, and know that I am here.

Remember all the words I said. When you went through the valley, the shadow fell down in front of you. Morning never came to be, and you stayed still.

I've forgotten the way to go, and lost where I came from. I know you're standing beside me. Know that I'm with you.

I miss you so desperately, and will love you for all eternity.

January 9, 2015

YOU CAN NEVER BE REPLACED, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED FOR WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU'VE DID FOR SO MANY PEOPLE. I WILL MISS YOUR STORY'S OF YOUR LIFE EXPERIENCE. I LOVE YOU LACEYEH, YOU WERE VERY SPECIAL TO ME.

January 8, 2015

You're gone and I gotta stay high all the time, to keep you off my mind.
Spend my days locked in a haze, trying to forget you, babe,
I fall back down.
I gotta stay high all my life, to forget I'm missing you.

I miss you so much, Lacey. I love you.

January 2, 2015

I miss you, Lacey. Twitter's not the same without you.

January 1, 2015

Happy birthday, Lacey, I love you.

December 25, 2014

Merry Christmas, Lace. It's been a pretty craptaculer birthday for me; we were supposed to be 29 together. But I had to make it a special Xmas for Matty and everyone. It's his second Christmas, and he's starting to really focus on it. He loves the Xmas lights and the tinsel - he's really into shiny things, just like you were.
I miss you. 29 won't be the same without you here, just like 28 wasn't and 30+ won't be. Every day is hard without you, and it's just getting more difficult. I constantly listen to the tape you made me and read your letters and diary, just to hear your voice and feel you near. It's a constant heartache.
I love you.

December 14, 2014

I'm reading your diary, slowly, carefully. I wish you had shared those things with me, instead of going through it all by yourself. You were never alone, Lissy, you had me.
I wish I was there for you more. I wish I had more time with you.
I wish I was a better friend for you.
I should've been a better friend.
I'm sorry. So sorry.
I miss you.

November 19, 2014

I miss you.
I've been reading your diary/tweets, trying to feel you close again. Been adding some onto your life page.
It's not the same as you here, I miss your sense of humour and fun times.
I miss you so much. Be in peace, Lace.

November 15, 2014

I never knew you only in odd text on Twitter. But With us both loving the leafs made it good. I thought something was wrong but never knew what. It broke my heart. Miss u!!

November 12, 2014

And I will swallow my pride.
You're the one that I love,
and I'm saying goodbye.

Say something, I'm giving up on you,
and I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you,
and anywhere I would have followed you.

Love you, Lacey, I miss you.

November 12, 2014

Hard to believe it was a year ago we lost our dear friend. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her.

November 12, 2014

Tears... If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. No farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye, you were gone before I knew it, and only God knows why. My heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow, what it meant to lose you, no one will ever know. - Author Unknown

I love you, Lacey, can't wait to meet again.

November 12, 2014

May your soul rest in perfect peace. Love you, Lissy.

November 12, 2014

They say time heals all wounds - they're wrong, it doesn't. Time only makes it easier to live with them. Not a day goes by that I don't miss you, L. So many times during the day, I wish I could just call for a moment to say hi, or ask your advice, or share a triumph, or have your calming voice take the sting out of something that hurts. I miss your laughs and fun times. Mostly, I miss my best friend, my confidant, my love, and your beautiful face. I miss you, L. Rest in peace.

November 12, 2014

I love you Lacey.. I miss you. everyday. You still make me smile still so much.

November 12, 2014

A whole year has gone by without you. The hardest year of my life.

I don't know how to survive without you. You are my person. The other half of my soul. My right hand. Everyone tells me that I need to move on. They don't understand. You made me brave, you made me strong. You gave me life. Yin and yang, that's what we are, what we were.

I need you alive. Because how am I supposed to be without you? I feel empty, a shell of skin and bones, no soul or spirit, no liveliness. I'm not Morgan, not Mellie, not anything without you. I need you.

I miss you so much. You don't even visit me anymore. Your clothes have started to lose your scent, your things feel like things that aren't yours. I've tried to find you again, but you're gone. You've left me.

I'm not ready to let you go, I don't know if I ever will be. I love you, Lissy, I love you. I miss you so much.

I am broken without you.

November 7, 2014

Hi Aunt Lissie,

Dad said I could talk to you here. I miss you. scouts isn't as much fun without you. I miss our drives and hotchocolate surprise. and camping! No one wants to go camping with me.

We had to write about our hero in school. I wrote about you. you were so cool and fun and silly. I miss that, we always have lots of fun together. i hope you miss me too. Aunt mellie red the essay when she came over. it made her cry and smile and cry. I think she misses you too.

I have to go. Mom wants me to do my homework. I just wanted to say hi. and tell you I miss you. and love you. I know your better now. I just wish I was there with you.

your boy, Max

p.s. Chrissie and Jo miss you too
p.p.s. I miss you most.
p.p.p.s lots of hugs and kisses

November 7, 2014

I miss you. I love you.
I love you. I miss you.

November 3, 2014

Sometimes the hardest part isn't letting go but rather learning to start over. - Nicole Sobon

I miss you. I think of the what could have been, and I know we would have been very happy together. The time we had together wasn't enough, yet that short time is so precious. You changed my life, defining it. Enriching it. Enlightening it.

You taught me to be strong, and to always go forward. This past year has been one of the most difficult years of my life. I think I'm ready now, to move forward. I'll always love you. Always and forever.

October 15, 2014

The Leafs spoiled the NYR's home opener 6-3, Reimer with the W. This is especially satisfying for me, since our mutual online friend had been saying some pretty egregious things about you.

It's been very difficult not having you around. I can't let you go, no matter how much people say I should. I don't know how to. I miss you.

It's so hard to breathe without you, I miss you so much.

October 11, 2014

I have ordered all the words to surround you and speak in turn,
the best that they dare state, the things that I can’t say.

I’ll always burn a light for you, of the constant kind,
of the constant kind.

I miss you desperately.
I'll always burn with your love for me, my friend, constant love.

August 28, 2014

Ours was an epic love story. There's no one like you. I know you told me to let you go, that I'd find someone, but I don't want anyone other than you. No one gets me like you did. Lacey Larissa, you are my everything. You have my heart, you are my only one. I love you.

August 28, 2014

We live in a universe devoted to the creation, and eradication, of awareness. Lacey Larissa did not die after a lengthy battle with cancer. She died after a lengthy battle with human consciousness, a victim of the universe's need to make and unmake all that is possible.