- 54 years old
- Date of birth: Apr 17, 1957
- Date of passing: Aug 21, 2011
|Let the memory of LANCE CONRAD be with us forever|
This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, LANCE CONRAD BATHALON, 54, born on April 17, 1957 and passed away on August 21, 2011. We will remember him forever. Lance was a wonderful brother and father of three.
"Hey Lance, by now you know Allie is with you. Her funeral is on Sunday. It's weird to talk to Keisha as she's grieving for the loss of her mother, and Lilyah the loss of her 3rd grandma, and yet here I sit wanting so badly to be a part of their lives. They want nothing from me. I simply don't know what to do or how to act. And one reason I've not pushed harder to get involved with the family is my teeth. I don't want anyone to see . I'm embarrassed by it. Life just gets a little bit worse everyday. Erin is in prison don't know why or how long, I'm kinda surprised she didn't write to me knowing I'd write back & visit her. Maybe I should write to her. Maybe not if she hasn't wanted to get in touch with me I should leave it alone. Maybe she really does hate me. Guess I can't blame her. But her mom and sister are gone and she's locked up for both she's got to be sick inside over it. Well I love you and miss you everyday. Keep an eye on tony for me. See you soon."
"Hey Lancelot, went to see my doc today gonna start physical therapy next week for my leg. Should be good to go in a month! Just letting u know. Tony sure does sound all grown up lately. I miss the little boy and Keisha. It's a shame that the state destroyed my family. I wish I had known you would have taken them I gladly would have gone that route and even moved back there myself. Life would have been so different for all 3 of us. But the lord knows better than I what is best for us. I have to accept what is reality. But it still hurts. Just like what mom did to me. I have to accept it, faith in God that what is , is best for me. Even tho it hurts and has fucked me up so badly. Thanks for loving me Lance. I love you very much. Miss you. Janet. Xoxoxo"
"Hey Lance , how's heaven? As you know I broke my leg , this Friday I see the doc about putting weight on it and therapy. It's been a long 3 months. I'll be glad as hell when I can walk again. So many things I've been planning to do when I can walk. I'll be very busy which is good and easier to quit smoking. I miss you so much. I've never needed you more, but I look for the signs you send me so I know which way to go. I love you Lance, so very much. Save a spot for me in heaven. Your loving sister, Janet"
"Merry Christmas Lance love and miss you very much"
"I was thinking about feeding the reindeer in elk Grove, and snowball fights we had as kids. I really miss you so very much and regretting that I let all those years slip past without a word. Of coarse it went both ways. But forgive me for not keeping in touch. I'm so glad I was there at the end and you knew how much I loved you. I hope you have a very Merry Christmas and keep watching over all of us to stay safe. Love u forever."
"Lance, I'm so out of sorts. Losing control of the only thing I have and it's destroying my esteem. My house, is not being kept to my standards, everything is put away wrong in the wrong places, it's driving me insane. The trash never gets taken out, bathroom isn't being cleaned, it's a total pig pen. I'm getting so mad that I think I'll explode! And then I find out rent goes up $10 a month and income goes up $3per month.$3.00 per month can you believe it $3.00. It's crazy. I'll be eating canned cat food sooner than expected. And Fay didn't leave me the house soon I won't have a place to live. Think anyone will care? I know they won't. Not 1 family member wished me a happy Birthday or happy Thanksgiving they'll forget me for Christmas too.so why would they care if I lived in a box? God I need you! I'm all alone and scared. Love you bro!"
"HAPPY THANKSGIVING LANCE! I want to ask so many questions that I don't even know if you could answer them. I have always been the baby, Lance. Someone always there to care for me. Now totally alone I'm not sure how to behave. I have never had to cook an entire turkey dinner before , from scratch. Probably never will either.Always wanted to give the traditions to my kids but they will most likely die with me. I miss you Lance, I wasn't prepared to lose you. I thought we had our whole lives to straiten things out. I never stopped loving you. My hero! Your lil sis, Janet"
"Hey Lancelot, I am now older than you! I turned 55 yesterday and I promised my son that I would start taking better care of myself. So guess what I did? I broke my right leg same place as when I broke my left leg. Ironic huh? I miss you so much. Not one member of our family wished me a happy Birthday yesterday and when I posted a thank you to all that did aunt Kathy liked my post! Why? She wasn't included she sent me no wishes, WTF? I tell you this fay is nothing like her sisters.can't believe they are related! But I got my family loyalty beliefs from you not fay. Anyway I love you & miss you but not quite ready to be with you ,need a few dozen more years down here! Love always, janet"
"Lancelot, I have so many questions and no answers. Mom has screwed me up so bad ,what do I do? How do I get past this? How do I know what's true? I can't hardly stand it anymore. I've been seriously thinking about ending it all just need to figure out if I should wait for Tony to get out or do it while he's in? I'll let you know.love you."
"Wow! 5 years! I love you so much lance. I wish it had been me instead of you. Today is all about you. I am now officially your big sister! Totally unimagined my whole life. Thought we'd be old and gray laughing about how stupid we we're as kids. So so so many good memories, a few bad ones but not many. Ride free bro and save a spot for me. I'll be there before too long. Watch over Tony for me!!"
"Hey lance, me again. Not much new happening, got stung by a wasp yesterday and thought of you! The beehive at aunt germaines and uncle Jim's in new Hampshire. I miss you so much. Don't know why I never knew that everyone hated me so much, dad, mom, arend even you. But I still love you. Guess I'm a lot dumber than I thought. Even your kids hate me. I don't fit in. Never did.I think I'm going to delete this site as why should I tell you things never spoken aloud, when you don't care anyway? Your little sister still."
"Happy 59th Birthday Lance!!! I miss you so much. Needing to talk to you and figure things out. I talk to you all the time but you don't answer me. You know how much I hate to be ignored, do you do it on purpose? Layla is getting so big. My god she was just an infant. And Mary is the proud owner of your trailer, I know that's upsetting to you. But I wasn't ready to move back there then. Wish I could now! Happy Birthday Bro! I love you very much and miss you everyday!!!!"
"Hey Lance, it's National Siblings Day! This is the only way for me to tell you how much I love and miss you still! I think of you everyday at least once, usually something happens to remind me of you. Most times I think it should have been me not you that left so early. I wish I had been able to spend time with you at the hospital just me and you. I couldn't have asked for a better big brother than you, Lance. Thanks for everything you did for me. Your the best! All my love, your little sister, Janet"
"I love and miss you so very much. It should have been me not you."
"Hope you had a Merry Christmas Lance. I was sick in bed never even picked up my phone so I'm late. Sorry. It happens. Have a great New Years. I love and miss you so much. Wish you could let me know your watching over me. Love always, your little sister, Janet"
"Hey Lance, I've been getting into the survival life thing and trying to be prepared but it's all so expensive. No vehicle, no place to bug out to, I'm starting to think I should do nothing and pray to be the first taken out. I don't think I would fare very well, I don't even know how to shoot a gun! I love you and miss you so very very much."
"Happy Turkey Day!!! Almost got to go have thanksgiving with my daughter, Almost. Oh well, maybe next year. She doesn't make any effort toward a relationship with me. As much as I hated dick, I still took time to get to know him. I don't even have a name to my granddaughter! I miss you Lance. Wish we could talk like the old days..... Love you, happy thanksgiving bro. Watch over all of us, keep us safe! Xoxoxoxo"
"Hey Lance, how's heaven? You keeping busy? As you know my mind is tripping hard about turning 54,and wondering if I share your fate... Change subject: Guess what? Tony wants to be a minister! Preacher of Christ! I think it's perfect for him, oddly enough. I love you Lance. Have a great thanksgiving and please watch over Tony and try to guide him, keep him safe. Miss you. Tell Paul hi for me OK. Love you so much."
"Lance, I missed the 4th anniversary of your passing and I'm sorry. I've been sick and very depressed. I've been keeping in touch with Kyle, he misses you very much. Layla is so big you wouldn't believe it. She looks so much like Tiffany and myself. I miss you very much. Lots of love. Your sister always. Janet"
"Just dropped in to tell you how lucky I am to have had you for my brother. I love you so much Lance. My heart breaks seeing your grandkids grow up, Layla is so big you wouldnt know her. Altho she looks alot like me at that age, just like her mom did. Miss you so much everyday."
"Hey Lance, nothing much going on right now. Quit my job cause the boss wasn't paying me (she's going broke) haven't figured out what to do with myself now. Need money, also need to plan and follow budget and what to do about job. Miss you everyday! Ride free Lance, love you!"
"Lance, I'm not alone but feel like I am. I know it's weird but Anthony is my best friend, he will be gone for 4-6 years. I'm scared that I won't be around when he gets out.what will happen to him? I want to get life insurance and final expense insurance but I can barely afford to pay my current bills and eat each day. What am I to do? I'm so scared and Scott is no help, I'd be better off alone. Again, my dreams for myself are dead. I love and miss you so much. Watch over him, please, keep him safe."
"Happy 58th Birthday, Lancey!!! I love you and miss you so much! I wish I had made a few different choices and we had never lost contact for so many years. I am so glad I was there for you at the end and you knew how much I loved you. I take great comfOrr knowing that you knew. Watch over my son, keep his dumb ass safe. Love & miss you alot, bro. Ride free........."
"Happy Easter big brother! I love you!"
"Lance, I miss you so much. You know what's happening to my son. Please watch over him and keep him safe from harm so he can come back to me. I have lost so much because of him but he is my son, I cannot turn my back on him. Am I wrong to be that way? Is it in his heart to destroy me because of the past? I need to know the truth. Help me, please.I love you lance,you've always been there for me .please help me now. Your lil sister. Janet"
"Hey Lance, Moms birthday today. Don't think she ever really loved us once she divorced dad. We were a reminder of him. Still can't forgive her, probably never will. Please keep watch over Tony and I, keep us safe from harm. Help my son, Lance, he needs so much help and love and to feel he belongs somewhere. I can't do it alone, it's too much for me without help. Love and miss you so much. J"
"Lance, I really wish mom hadn't ducked me over the way she did. I should have been living "right" for 2 years now instead I'm still dealing with the bull shit. Everyone in the family has ducked me over and thrown me out with the trash. Why? What have I done to deserve this? Haven't I paid enough? Your daughter won't even send me some of your ashes! She treats me like I'm a piece of shit. Why???"
"Merry Christmas! I think I miss you most this time of year, I always think about rudolphs red nose in the night sky when we lived in Evanston, all the silly things you told me about! Brown cows and chocolate milk. Wrapping boxes of different sizes inside each other smaller and smaller. Hope your watching over me everyday like you used to! XOXO"
"Hey lance, just wanted to tell you I miss you and love you very much!"
"Hey Lance, sorry I didn't visit you on Thanksgiving. I've been dealing with a bunch of bullshit and depressed. Hope you and mom had a nice Thanksgiving and that you both watch over me and Anthony and help us move on. I still miss you very much. And love you even more. I'm learning that mom lied to me about more than just the house I don't understand why? What did I do so wrong, that made her hate me? XOX"
"3 years today, Lance. I miss you so much. I remember every detail of this day and still don't want to believe your gone! Still ave so many questions left unanswered. Ride free bro, I'll see you again. Love always,your lLil sis, Janet"
"So hard to believe your gone. I miss you so much. Always thought is be able to lean on you when mom died but all I have is this website. I love you lance."
"Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you! Love you! Miss you so much!!!"
"Happy 57th Birthday!!! I ducking miss you so much Lance. I really needed you when mom died, I have so many unanswered questions. Did I ever really know you? So many things don't make sence, just don't add up. But you convinced mom I can't handle money so I got nothing once again. Ill never own a house or car again. Yes I blame you for part of that. Your daughter is just as greedy, she feels she don't owe me a thing. Not even as a gesture or token. Total bullshit. Same with Cyndi and Millie. Love you & miss you."
"Hey Lance, I've thought a lot about what you said about Dick and Arend. I'm sorry, having been so young, I don't remember what life was like with Dick and I never thought about it. Mom never talked to me about it unroll after I was married. I feel I let you down, like maybe I didn't really know you after all. I love you very much and miss you every day."
"Almost a year since mom died, I'm so sad lately, thinking how much I missed not being with her at the end.makes me cherish that time with you even more.I hope I was a comfort to you, that me being there helped you in some way. Love and miss you so much Lance"
"HAPPY VALENTINES DAY, LANCE! Lord I wish I could talk to you. So much left unsaid between us,, the day you died, never said goodbye, forgot to tell me about mom and sisters I never met. I miss you so much. Love you even more. Janet ps your the bestest brother!!!"
"I think of you daily, Lance. Remembering that brown cows give chocolate milk, and if I swing the cat hard enough he will fly! And he did, right threw the window!! I wish you were here I need to talk about mom. Did she ever really love me? Did you? You never told me at the hospital and I dont know for sure. Miss you ........."
"Merry Christmas Lance!!!! I love you very much and miss you more than words can say!!!!"
"I need you lance, im so screwed up from moms lies. What do I do? How do I forgive her? I love you and miss you. Merry Christmas!!!!"
"Lance, im 52 today, life is so diffiuclt. Walking everywhere sucks! Still mad at fay. I miss you so much. Love you forever!"
"Well lancelot, Aunt Kathy is going to bury moms ashes on October 12th in Chester,Mass. Naturally i wont be going. Its a wonder i even know shes dead. I feel so betrayed by her, i always thought we had such a great relationship only to find out the last 30 years was a lie! I hope she regreats what shes done to me. Maybe you regret what you did to me too? I hate her for this !!!!"
"Hey bro, i got a part time job! Should make life a bit easier after i get some bills paid off. Then a vechile. Then a place of my own.thwn life insurance! I know i dream too much. Would have worked with moma help but you and mom decided against me . I hate her. She lied to me my whole life,lance."
"I cant beleive its been 2 yrs! I miss you so much."
"Almost 2years lance, seems like yesterday! I miss you so much, i dont have anyone to turn to since mom hung me out to dry. You told me you owed me, lot of good that does me,but it was comforting at the time. Cant forgive mom for her lies and betrayal. She used to punish us for lying wonder if shes being punished for her huge lie? I miss you lance everyday. Love janet"
"Happy 4th of July!! Say hi to Paul, opa, Steve, daddy, & dick. Look for art Macnab my father in law. Guess he's been there about 8 years. He was great. Lance, I love you. I been reading some of my old letters, all I can say is you can see inside my heart and now you know what's up, too bad it's too little too late. If only I could go back........love, janet"
"lance, thanks for keeping tiffany safe. Still think of you everyday and miss your dumb ass! Things are steadly getting worse for me but thats what i expect from my life anymore. Wish i could talk to you. This website helps me alot for which im grateful. Love you so much. Say hi to mom, dad, dick, steve, paul and opa for me."
"Hi lance, i need to talk to you. I dont know if i should commit myself to the hospital or not. Im so fucking depressed. I cry everyday almost all day long. Ive lost almost 20lbs without trying. I dont care or find enjoyment in my life. All i think about is i want to be dead."
"Hey lance, hope you and mom, dad and dick are getting along. Have you met paul and our cousin in law steve? How are they? Is my opa there too? I miss everyone. Went to the gun show sunday, saw lots of cool ass knives and found a couple guns that intrest me. Wish dick had taught me to shoot. Maybe ill take a class?? Love you & miss you."
"Im so sorry i missed your birthday lance. Just very depressed about missing moms funeral and everything going all wrong again in my life. Still wish it had been me instead of you!"
"hey lance by now you already know mom is with you, does she feel anything for what shes done to me?ill be there before too long anyway.happy easter!"
"deal with me when mom dies. well have a great day lance. i love you anyway, and miss you alot!!!"
"HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY LANCE!!! i really miss you lance, dont drink too much green beer today wouldnt want you sick!! lol. im glad i set up this site for you, gives me a place to talk to you and gives me a little bit of peace. wish i knew if you hear me or not cuz if you dont then this page is pretty silly. but i dont want to believe your gone. i still say you died so you wouldnt have to"
"HEY LANCELOT! its me again, i know you thought i wouldnt bother you anymore when you left, but being true to myself and as your little sister, hahaha, fooled you!i left north carolina 7 mths ago and the wounds are still gaping holes in my mental, emotional and spiritual being.im still crying about it everyday, and top it off my dog ran away 3 weeks ago. watch over mom for me. love you lots"
"hey lance, your sister here, just letting you know that i miss you, i need either you or mom to give me some advice. im still in shock that mom cut me out of the will and that your dead! god why couldnt it have been me instead? please help me lance im stuck and have not a fucking clue what to do????"
"HAPPY VALENTINES DAY LANCE!!! i miss you so much! i hope to hell your watching over mom-ive not seen or heard from her since i left north carolina in october 2012. keep her safe lance! i get mad at you sometimes for leaving me so soon but i always love you!"
"lancealot, moms 85th birthday just passed and i miss her so much. i wish she would write to me this no contact with her no messages via cyndi, nothing at all, just kills me. touch her heart please, lance. im scared to lose her right now. and her GREEDY fucking sister- makes me absolutly sickens me. miss you every day lance!!"
"Happy new years lance! I love and miss you everyday! Wish it had been me instead of you."
"Merry Christmas Lance! I love and miss you so much. I don't understand what's happened to mom or why she hates me. I'm not doing well and do not see myself getting past this. I question my whole life.30 years of lies is a lot to sort threw I can't do it alone. Please watch over mom."
"Lance I don't know what happened to mom that she has turned her back on me. Things I've beleived for many years are now untrue. I am beside myself with grief over all that has happened this year. Mom is not the same. I love her very much. I'm so sorry that I was 3weeks too late to keep her out of the nursing home as I had promised her."
"I tried lance to be there for mom but she sent me away. Watch for her.love you bro."
"Lance, I just found out that mom broke her hip and is in rehab.we both know her health isn't so great, I'm afraid she might be joining you sooner than id like. I don't want to lose her. I always used to think at least id have my brother when I lost my mom but you checked out early. Please help me deal with all this."
"I really miss you lance. I live too far away to watch your childern and grandkids grow and making sure they don't forget you but I'm working on changing my location soon."
"1 year ago today you passed from this world to the next and ive missed you every minute of every day! ill go on missing you and never forgetting. i love you bro! thanks for all my memories!"
"To your resting place we visit, place flowers there with care.... But no-one knows our heartache, when we turn and leave you there,.... w/love Auntie Addie,........."
"hey lance-your sister here-steve such has joined you in heaven, hes our cousins husband. please show him the ropes and help him adjust. i love you and miss you both! i hope i dont have you look out for anyone else for awhile. say hi to dick and daddy for me please!"
"Lance, Hard to believe its been almost a year since you rode on to Heaven, Yes it was way to soon, I know you are watching over your family, Rest in peace, w/love, Auntie Addie,..."
"its been a year since ive seen your face or heard your voice but in my head and heart your still here with me, i miss you so much! why did you have to go away i wish you could have stayed. i love you so much! someday ill see you again till then my memories will remain!"
"lance, i didnt know you but i am very close to janet and she talks about you all the time and we are cousins. i wish i knew what to say, your children and grandchildren will miss your presence all their lives and that is truely sad. watch over them forever! ride free!"
"This tribute is from our cousin Patricia Ann Krause-I remember Lance as a very sweet, gentle young boy and young man.Kind and gentle hearted, always happy to be with his family.He loved Grindle.He was fun to play with.I remember him running around the yard with his sister. He was a gentle spirit. I am sorry for his loss and any pain. God Bless, Lance. Amen."
"happy birthday lance! i miss you so very much!"
"A freebird you were always on your bike. Ride 4ever Lance"
"RIDE FREE BRO! LOVE AND MISS YOU EVERYDAY!"
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