It's December 22, Christmas will be here soon. It's been a hectic month. I had a surprise party for our daughter that turned 40 this month! Where did the time go! You were missed Larry. You would have enjoyed it so much, especially happy all the food I made! We got a puppy last month It's been two years since Belladonna passed, it was time. Smart girl! Another lovable, comical pitbull. Beautiful dog. Long legs! I'm thinking she'll be a big girl. The house came alive again when she arrived. Lots of work but worth it. Our kids are doing fine. So are our grandkids. Our first grandaughter was promoted to Assistant General Manager. So proud of her! She's 21 now, beautiful and ambitious. I have our son on the phone right now. Making the Christmas day plans. We're doing a ham and a tenderloin. Our niece and her kids will be here. She's a grandma now!! Remember how she loved to stay with us when she was little and he!ped me with the kids. Great memories. We love and miss you Larry, Have a blessed Christmas in heaven. Give my love to family and my girls, they're all missed so much.

Our middle granddaughter turned 18 yesterday. You've been gone so long I wish you could see the beautiful young lady she's grown up to be. It's been challenging for her at times but she's on a good path and I'm proud of her. We all went to dinner and when we came home I slept for 4 hours and had a dream about you. Our second granddaughter was in it too. I want to thank you for that dream because it's been awhile. You should know our granddaughter was protecting you in that dream, she always loved you so much. She was so little when you had to leave but all these years later she still talks about you. She remembers you teaching her how to fish putting her in that fishing derby before you passed away. You'll never be forgotten Larry, really wish you were here. Our kids are all doing well, our grandkids too. Cali is an assistant manager now, plans to go to college in the Fall. Wish you could have met our youngest, Braya, what a doll, so independent and smart. My biggest concern right now is their future, this country is in a bad place and I don't see it getting better anytime soon. Give my love to all the family in heaven, special love for our dogs,miss everyone so much. Life has been so different but we're all doing the best we can. Much love to you. Kim.

I know its been awhile since I left you a note but I write you letters by the thousands in my mind all the time. This past year was difficult, My husband was seriously ill over the summer and we really thought we'd lose him. I'm thanking God for his grace and mercy and the healing hands of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He's doing so much better. Your grandchildren are all doing great. Our 1st born granddaughter is 20 now, unbelievable and she's so beautiful and smart, same with Abby, she'll be 18 in a couple months. Wish you could have seen our youngest, she's comical, so much like Our middle granddaughter when she was little. She'll be 5 next month. Smart and beautiful. They all are. Our kids are doing well it's our country that isn't. Feel like we're heading into an abyss and we need the power of God to stop this administration in it's tracks. In all my years I've never seen such incompetence, Inflation at a 40 year high, food gas and utilities through the roof. It's an awful mess and the American people are struggling. Stolen elections have consequences. We lost our beautiful Belladonna a year ago October 18. She was the best dog and so were Ko and AVA, miss them all so much, it's heartbreaking. Belladonna was 11 1/2, I still listen for her bark when I come home. Just really miss her. We didn't get the boat out much this past summer with Charlie being sick but we stayed on it quite a bit. Looking forward to next summer. How are youngest granddaughter loves the boat, she thinks it's hers because we have her name on a kisby ring that hangs off the back of the boat, lol, she's just too cute.  The holidays are coming up and you know how much you'll be missed. Give my love to all in heaven, please keep watching over us and particularly our daughter Sarah, love her so much, she's doing great with her career but I know how much she misses you. I think I may have told you our son works where you did before you lost your eye sight. There are guys there (the old timers) that remember you and tell him great stories about you. He loves it there and I think it's for that reason. He said it's like family. You'd be proud of him. Much love to you Larry.

It's mothers day and I thought I should leave a special note for you. I'm proud of our children Larry and know that I'm blessed to be their mom. I thought about their births this morning and was thinking how I had you in a head lock when our first child was born and I broke your glasses. Remember how she had her fist in her mouth when she was born and just looked at us with her big beautiful eyes.  Beautiful memories of all of them. Our daughter and her boyfriend are going to smoke a prime rib today. I bought a great dessert you would love, a heart shaped short cake topped with strawberries and cream. Looks delicious! I'm so sorry you are not here but know that your spirit lives on in our children and grandchildren. We are going into our 11th year without you and the tears still flow when I sit down to write these notes to you. Much love to you Larry.

It's Easter Sunday Larry and I'm looking forward to our children and grandchldren being here for dinner. Steak and crab legs today! Our son said he can eat crab legs all day long. Wish you could be here. Your youngest granddaughter is growing fast. Going on 4 now, you would have loved every minute of being with her. We colored eggs together and she played with the coloring for 2 hours and all the eggs came out camouflage, too funny! She dropped a few on the floor and had a great time. Derek's going to do the grilling today and Sarah's bringing the dessert. Not a day goes by that we don't think of you. Our granddaughters are beautiful young ladies now. Our middle granddaughter really misses her papa, so does our first born but I know it has really affected Our middle 1 you not being here. She was 16 in January, a very pretty girl, all of them are. It's been a long time my friend but someday we'll meet again. Charlie misses all the good times we all had in the summer in the yard. It's not the same without you. The world isn't even the same anymore. This plandemic needs to get over with. It's done more harm than you can imagine, especially to the livelihoods of people. Masking up and social distancing isn't a normal way to live and people don't realize the harm it's doing to their immune system. I could go on and on but just want you to know how much you're loved and missed by all of us. Happy Easter is Heaven Larry, give our love to all, My Dad , my grandma, my brother Butch, Our nephew and our precious grandsons, and always our beloved dogs. 

Christmas is fast approaching Larry. We're still masked up and in a battle for election integrity. It's unbelievable the fraud that has occurred and all that we are finding out about corruption in our government. Patriots are crying out to God to put his hand on this. His voice needs to echo around the world. Trump is the greatest President in my lifetime and the biggest threat to the deep state. They've been trying to get rid of him from the beginning. If he doesn't do 4 more years I fear for the future of our children and grandchildren. People are blindly giving up freedoms for a false sense of safety. Like I've said, this isn't about a virus, it's about control and the weak minds are mind boggling. Our youngest granddaughter is growing so fast. You should see how she demands the "tickle bug" from Charlie. Reminds me so much of you doing that with our first two. Anyway, we're not at a good place and time in this country. I wonder how you would feel about it. Maybe you could tell God how much his people need him right now. Wish you could be with us Larry. Have a blessed Christmas in Heaven, give my love to all. 

We're into the end of September and are still wearing masks and social distancing. Charlie and I finally went back to work but it's different now. I think if the people don't start standing up and fighting this mask bs we'll be wearing them forever. This isn't about the virus and it hasn't been in a long time. It's an election year, all political. Regardless, we'll get Trump re-elected. We miss you Larry. Our grandkids are getting so grown up. Our firstborn graduated high school this year. Wow, that went fast didn't it? The second will be 16 next year. She still loves to fish Larry. She miss's fishing with you even though she was so little the last time you went. I think it was a derby at Tiff farm and she won that little rod and reel. She really reminds me of you. Our precious youngest one will be 3 soon. She's an independent one. What a doll. Wish you could have met her. She's tough, smart and beautiful. Our son is an amazing Dad, you'd be proud.  We'll be putting the boat back into storage in a couple weeks. We found a new marina that we really love and I think we finally found a permanent home for our boat. We'll definitely go back next year. Charlie's sister passed away earlier in the month. It was such a shock Larry. I know it's been hard on Charlie. I feel bad for him. Give her our love. Give our love to my step dad too and Grandma, my brother, our dogs and our grandsons. We miss you. Much Love, Kim.

I'm sorry it's been awhile since I've left you a note. We entered into a pandemic this year and nothing really is the same. Trying to temporarily adjust. I think often what you would think about all this. Probably the same as I do. It's all bs. Having to wear masks, social distance, not see our grandkids, kids. Today is my birthday. I woke up to tons of Flamingo's on the front lawn. Our firstborn put them there during the night. That was thoughtful of her and it really made my day. But we can't celebrate. Not sure what's going on in this country Larry but none of it is any good. I pray for President Trump, he's doing an excellent job leading us through this crisis. I haven't worked in a month and a half, the weather hasn't been great so I take advantage of any day that I can get outside and do things around the house. They finally decided to let the marina's open up so soon I'll have plenty to do and I can't wait. I miss seeing our grand babies, our son pulls into the driveway from time to time so I can see our youngest but can't hug her. It's really awful. Whatever this Chinese virus is I think it was let loose on purpose in Wuhan and I think the Chinese and the Democrats are behind it. Our precious middle granddaughter is moving to Georgia. It breaks my heart but I think it will be good for her. I told her she can come home if she doesn't like it but I think the warm weather will change her mind. Our firstborn granddaughter has been out of work too. I did get a chance to see her briefly but not long enough for me. We miss you, we miss everyone in heaven. Please give my love to all and continue to watch over us. 

Christmas came and went and it was a beautiful one but you were missed. Our daughter got us a huge TV, I was shocked, it's amazing. She has a huge heart Larry, she always did.  I think everyone had a really nice Christmas. My sister was here and she had a great time. I enjoy what time we can spend together. Charlies been sick and it worries me. I know he will get better but we are getting older and don't shake things as quickly. Our youngest granddaughter turned two this month and we took her to a party at the bowling alley and she bowled, she's a natural, carried the 6 pound ball up like it was nothing. She bowled 4 1/2 games! Her first game she scored 114 and had a strike!! You would have gotten a kick out of seeing that. She's a doll. Brings so much life to this house. She will be here shortly to spend the night and I can't wait. It was great to have all the family here yesterday, I can see how you live on in our children and grandchildren. I see so much of you in them. I hope you had a nice Christmas in heaven Larry, give my love to all and please continue to watch over us. Merry Christmas Larry. Much love to you.

Happy Birthday in Heaven Larry. Wish you were here to celebrate. We would have gone to the Brickyard or some other place you enjoyed. We celebrated your last birthday there. We think about you often Larry. It's coming up on 9 years and still seems like yesterday. Very difficult you not being here for our kids and grand kids but you know Charlie is being the best grandfather that he can be and I know you would be grateful for that. Our youngest granddaughter will be two in December, can you believe it? Two. Time is really flying by isn't it. She is an independent little one. So full of energy, so curious about everything. She's a beautiful baby. She has the bluest eyes like our middle granddaughter that really grew up Larry. She's a beautiful young lady. I love her so much, love all of them so much. You would be proud of what a great father our sin is. So very proud. Wish you were here for him. Enjoy your birthday in heaven Larry. Find my nephew and go fishing. Take grandma too, you know she always loved to fish. Give my love to all, much love to you dear friend and Happy Birthday. Kim.

I'm sorry I haven't been here much but you know I talk to you everyday. I'm keeping busy with our granddaughter. She really keeps me going. Beautiful toddler now. So curious about everything, amazing personality and the happiest baby. I have a crib and tons of toys here for her. The house looks like romper room and so does the yard. My sister gave me a big play house for her and she loves it. Your birthday is coming up next month. Wish you were here. Give my love to all in heaven. Continue to watch over our children and grandchildren. 

I know I haven't been here since your birthday. The holidays came and went, Our youngest granddaughter first birthday was in December and our eldest granddaughter got her license in February and is driving! She has her own car and has been working and going to school. Our middle one has grown so much, beautiful young lady, they are both so artistic. Our Son turned 30 in February. I don't like to think you are missing all this, hoping you are watching over all of them. Our daughter is doing good, staying busy. I started a new part time job, not so crazy about it but getting use to it. Charlie and I are both home sick today, nasty stomach bug. We miss you Larry, we all do. Give a kiss and big hug to my furbabies. All the family up there too Larry. So many of them. I will leave you another not soon, just not feeling that great today. Much love to you in heaven.

Happy Birthday in heaven Larry! Really wish you were here. It's hard to believe next month will be 8 years since you left us. People say time heals all wounds. I don't agree when it comes to losing a loved one. It gets more difficult every year with all that you are missing here. I so wish you could be here for our youngest granddaughter. Wish you could see her. She looks so much like our son. She is so much joy. We are over the moon in love with that precious baby. Our son is an amazing Dad! I am so proud of him! Our daughter, well she loves being "auntie crazy" and is the best auntie ever!!! Continue to watch over our children and grandchildren. We will see you again someday Larry. Rest easy my friend and please give all my love to our grandsons, our dogs, my grandma and my brother. Also, my nephew. I think you two should go fishing today!! You both loved it so much!

I know it's been awhile.  Our youngest granddaughter will be 9 months old tomorrow and our oldest that turned 16 got her driving permit. She is really a great driver Larry. We went shopping yesterday and she did all the driving. Life is changing Larry, nothing seems to stay the same.  Some of it has deeply saddened me.  I know you know what I am talking about. I was shocked at first and very heartbroken but I know God has a plan. It just doesn't seem fair. Never thought that joy would be stolen from the person you know I am talking about. But I tried to warn them years ago, although I knew it would happen it still breaks my heart. I feel some anger about it too and really have to think before I express any opinion about it. I know you know what I would really love to do but I want you to know that I am well aware that it is out of my control and I wouldn't want to make it worse. Miss you, wish you were here to talk to.

I have been busy dear friend but you are on my mind. Our beautiful new granddaughter is growing like a weed! Five months now. Oh my Larry, she is so beautiful!! Your granddaughters are beautiful young ladies now. I wish so much you could see all of them. Abby was at the marina fishing this week. We have the boat in now and have it in town. You would absolutely love it there. Our middle granddaughter takes so much after you. Fishing is in her blood. Time is passing quickly. Our daughter has a boyfriend. I love saying that you know. I hope so much that it all works out for them. I still watch the video Billy made of you when you all were fishing out on Lake Ontario.  I want so much for our daughter to be happy Larry. She deserves it more than anyone. She really does. She does so much for this family. I really don't know what I would do without her. Our son is an amazing father but you knew he would be. I love seeing him with his daughter. We waited a long time for that blessing. He chose the perfect girl to share his life with. She was only 17 when you met her and I wish you could have gotten to know her but I know you knew she was the one for our son. We waited a long time for that blessing too. Watch over all of them Larry. They all mean everything to me. I am heading to the boat soon, made a roast in the crock pot and my mom is coming down for dinner. I wish you were here. I miss my Ava Larry, miss her so much. Give her the biggest hug and kiss for me.  Hugs and kisses for our grandsons my step dad, my grandma and my brother. So many in heaven, must be a beautiful place with all of you there. Miss you my friend. Much love, Kim.

Give special hugs and kisses to Ava. Tell her how much I love and miss her. How home is not the same without her. How it will never be the same without her.

It was our sons 29th birthday on the 20th. Last friday we all went to the Golf Dome for dinner. Him and you use to go there for fish fry's. It was a really nice time but you were missed. I really enjoy seeing our children with their children. Means a lot when we all get together. Our granddaughter is going on three months already. Her precious little face, what a doll! Her smile really fills my heart with joy. I love seeing our son being a Dad. He is an awesome one! Braya is so blessed God gave her to him. His girl too Larry, she is an amazing mom. Perfect little family. You would be so proud!!  You are deeply missed by all of Larry.

Our beloved Ava crossed the Rainbow bridge Larry. On February 8th. The same day our beloved KO passed five years ago. Cancer. I don't know how long she had it Larry, she never let on that anything was wrong but the vet said she had been suffering. I am devastated. Heartbroken. The only comfort I have is that she is with KO and both have plenty of green grass to run in and plenty of treats. And I will see her again one day. I will see both of them. Neither of them are suffering anymore. It's the journey of grief for me which I know will never end. So much heartache I live with every day. I wish so much we all could go back in time. I miss those days so much. Our children and granddaughters were really heartbroken over Ava. I know how hard it is for our granddaughters, they were raised with her. Our newest granddaughter is over two months old now. Growing.....so fast. She is so precious. Looks so much like her dad. Please put your arms around Ava, give her a huge hug and kiss from me. Tell her I will be there someday and we will all be together. Tell her how much I love her and will miss her, everyday. Tell how deep she is in my heart and will never leave it. Much love to all of you in heaven. Kisses for KO, and our precious grandsons. Special love for Ava today. My heart is completely broken.

Our youngest granddaughter was born on December 3rd. There was a super moon that night. It was a long day waiting for her but wow, she is beautiful Larry. Sorry it has taken me so long to tell you about her. She looks like our son, her mom too.  Tears are flowing as I tell you this, wish you could be here to share the joy but I know you are watching over from heaven. Sarah is so excited and is an amazing Auntie. She waited for a long time for this. We all have. I baby sat her last night. Just looking at her precious face fills me with joy. I can't wait to watch her grow. It's going to be amazing. Precious little one, so loved. The best Christmas present since our daughter was born. Both December babies. Much love to you my friend. Give kisses to Hunter and Gunnar, I know the moon is their cradle and heaven their playground. Merry Christmas in heaven to all of you. Merry Christmas Larry. You are a Papa again.

Our granddaughter is going to be born today!!! Her mom went into labor this morning at 4:30 a.m. I am so excited!!! I can't wait to meet her! I find it interesting that our son is having his child so close to the day that our firstborn was born. Her birthday is coming up. She is so excited to be an aunt. She has always wanted to be one and she has already spoiled her. I know this day means everything to her. We wish you were here Larry. I know the joy you would be feeling. Our third grandchild!!! Much love and hugs, watch over our son and Austyn and precious Braya. Kisses and huge hugs for our grandsons. I can't wait to get to the hospital!!! Congratulations Larry!!! Wish you were here!

Thanksgiving is just a few days away. I sure wish you were here to peel the potatoes. You always enjoyed doing that. And guess what? Our granddaughter will be here in about 10 days. I can't wait to meet her. Another precious granddaughter. Our son is so excited. I know he will be an amazing father. I can't believe he will be 29 in 3 months. Where does the time go. Our daughter and I went shopping today for Thanksgiving. She looks so much like you. Don't know what I would do without her. I know I am getting older and probably annoy her with my questions but I appreciate her being there for me. She is always there for everyone. Huge heart Larry. I haven't been feeling so well lately. Not sure what it is. So much on my mind, exhausted most of the time. My Bella has been sick. Had to take her to the emergency vet hospital the other night. So worried about her but I think she is on her way to recovering fully. I pray she does. Can't imagine life without her. Well buddy, I am getting everything ready for Thanksgiving but wanted to share my thoughts with you. Take care of all of our loved ones in heaven. Huge hugs and kisses for our grandsons and my beloved dogs. Rest easy my friend.

Your angelversary is coming up next week. The years are flying by. Too fast Larry. Our granddaughter will be here in about 8 weeks. Wish you were here. So much I would like to tell you. I am so proud of our children. I know you would be too. And our grandchildren.  Today is my brothers birthday in heaven. He has been gone almost a year. Wish him a happy birthday for me. Tell him I often think of the time when we were kids and fished in the quarry at Sherkston beach. We used bologna for bait and caught sun fish. We would throw them back. That's a fishing story for you Larry. Your granddaughter stills shares your love of fishing. She caught quite a few over the summer in the Niagara River. We haven't put our boat in storage yet. Next month we will. I want to change marinas for next season. I would like to be closer to home. It will cost a lot more but worth it in the long run. The boat won't take such a beating because we will put it in a no wake area. I have done so much work restoring her. You would love it. Going to do some fiberglass work in the Spring and put new rub rail on it. I made a new bimini for her. You would be impressed. It was a job but looks beautiful. I thank my grandma for teaching me how to sew. Give her a big hug for me. I know she would be proud of it. I miss all of you. Miss you all so much. Rest easy my friend. Give my love to all of the family in heaven. Special hugs and kisses for our grandsons. And our beloved dog.

Today is our first born grandchilds 15th Birthday. Can you believe is 15! Wow, remember when she was born. I remember how you doted on her. We are celebrating at Texas Roadhouse tonight. She is so excited. She had her hair and nails done and bought a new dress. She is beautiful Larry. She looks so much like our daughter. She always did. Which means she looks like you too. Our daughter looks so much like you. I really wish you were here. Breaks my heart Larry. We have our 3rd granddaughter coming in December. Due date is changed to the 5th. Can't wait to meet her!!!! Our son is going to be an awesome Dad and our daughter will be that aunt that will just love her to death. This will make Sarah really happy. You were gone too soon Larry but I know the joy that would be in your heart today celebrating our granddaughters birthday. Much love to you in heaven. Please kiss and give huge hugs to our grandsons for me, hugs and kisses to Rich and my grandma, my brother and our beloved dog. Please keep watching over us.

Fathers Day is coming up so I think this is the perfect time to share some really great news with you. Our son is going to be a father!!!! I am so happy for him and Austyn! A baby girl will be here in December! It's going to be an amazing Christmas!! I am sad too though Larry because you are not here to share in this joy. Can you imagine our son as a Dad! What a great father he will be! And A, a loving and devoted mom!  :) What a blessing Larry! And our daughter is overjoyed, what an amazing aunt she will be. She has wanted to be an aunt for so long! I wondered if I would live long enough to see any more grandchildren. I know you watch over the two we have in heaven. Those precious boys! Our granddaughters are doing well. Getting so grown up. Our middle grandaughter is taller than our daughter now and actually fits into my clothes. She is a beauty. So is our middle one Beautiful girls. It has been so long since we have had babies around. I know that Charlie will be a good grandfather to our sons daughter but he knows it's you who will always be Papa. We miss you Larry. Much love to you and hugs and kisses for our grandsons, for my stepdad and my grandma and our beloved dog. Happy Fathers Day in Heaven.

Wow Larry!!! Our daughter had a surprise party for me for my 60th birthday at the marina. I was so surprised!! I just couldn't believe it. I don't know how everyone kept that from me. She worked so hard preparing all that food, the decorations were beautiful and the cake was absolutely gorgeous!  I am so proud of our daughter Larry. She has such a huge heart. Don't know what I would do without her love. Made me feel so special. She is our child that has the biggest heart. All great kids but her heart is huge. I missed seeing you there Larry. You would have enjoyed it. I have some other great news for you but can't say it yet. Hopefully in a couple of weeks I can share it with you. The boat is going into the water soon. Looks like a great summer coming up. There will be a pig roast at the marina at the end of this month. That should be fun for our grandkids. Our second granddaughter loves to be around the water. She still loves to fish and swim. We miss you Larry, kisses and hugs for our grandsons, my step dad , Grandma and of course our beloved dog.

Today is my birthday Larry. I think you tried wishing me a happy one when my land line cut out. It is a beautiful day today. Going out to dinner with my sister and mom tonight to LaGalera and then with the family in a couple days to Salvatores. We may have some good news coming soon concerning our son Derek. Praying I can share it with you soon. Charlie is doing well, we all are but you are always missed Larry. When Charlie and I sit on the front porch we think of you and I know he misses you too. Larry, you were gone way too soon. Much love, hugs, kisses for all in heaven. Kiss our grandsons for me. Tell them the day will come when I will be there and they will know all the love I have for them. Rest easy my dear friend.

I tried to log into this site yesterday but couldn't. Our nephews angelversary was yesterday. Can't believe it's been 7 years. It will be 7 years in October since we had to say goodbye to you too. Tell Adam how much he is loved and missed. I think about him all the time. His birthday was last month, hope you took him fishing. You two loved fishing so much. Boat's going in to the water soon. Wouldn't know it by all the snow we got last night but that will disappear soon. It's suppose to be warm next week. I think our granddaughter will make high honor roll this marking period. Praying for her. She is so smart Larry. We will be happy with honor roll but I know our daughter is really counting on the high honor roll. It's making her anxious waiting for her grades. I understand though. We are all proud of her. There will be a big pig roast at the marina next month. Sure wish you could be there. We are raising money for the new roof that is going on the club house. Should be a lot of fun!! Life has been good lately Larry but your absence is always felt. Easter is coming soon and I am going to cook for the family. I remember our last Easter together. Rest easy my dear friend, hugs, love, kisses to all of our family in heaven.

Not much new Larry. Heading to the boat on Sunday to do some work on the water line before she goes back in the water in May. I am really looking forward to it. As usual I made new curtains, this time insulated and bought more furniture for the Salon area. Our granddaughters are growing! Can you believe little Abigail is as tall as me now! Cali is too! I really miss when they were little Larry. They grew up way too fast. Cali is 14 now and Abby 12. When they were here the other night for dinner and Sarah was saying something to Cali, Cali said, swear on Papa? It's her way of remembering you. I think it's cute. We all miss you Larry. Wish you could have enjoyed the boat with us. You would have loved to sit on the deck and catch fish. You also would have enjoyed the marina. The beautiful sunsets. Hugs and kisses for everyone in heaven Larry. There seems to be so many in this family. Special love and hugs to our grandsons Hunter and Gunnar. Tell Rich and my brother I love them too. And a huge hug for our beloved KO. Rest easy my friend, one day we will all be together again. Give my love to Grandma too.

I know that if you were here things would be different. Rest easy my friend.

In a couple of days we will be heading into another year. I pray 2017 is a positive year. 2016 has ended horribly with the loss of my brother and Charlie losing his twin sister. I got a part time job that I really enjoy. It's really fast paced and it's what I need right now. Need to stay busy. Spring can't come soon enough for me. Even with the heartache this year for the first time in years Christmas was peaceful for me. Give hugs and kisses to all our family in heaven. Rest easy Larry.

My brother entered the Kingdom of Heaven yesterday.....we are devastated Larry. Don't know how much more this family can take. My mom is so heartbroken. Never seen her so broken. I wish there was something I could do to take her pain away. My sister is so hurt. I don't even know what to think anymore. So many gone too soon Larry. Kiss our grandbabies for me. I think of them every single day. I imagine what they would like today. Sweet precious little babies.  Much love to you dear friend.

6 years...still seems like yesterday. I suppose it always will. Our daughter really missed you at her housewarming party. She cried Larry. She really wished you could have been there. We all do. She did a great job with the party, had chowder and will continue your family's tradition of a chowder party in fall. I really look forward to her next one next year. Not much new here. Going to the marina tonight to finish packing some things up on the boat. Will probably put in storage next week. We keep putting it off, the weather is just too nice right now. Our grandaughters are doing great. I had them for the weekend. Getting so grown up! They miss you too Larry. Rest easy my friend, kiss our grandbabies for me, kisses for our dog, Rich and my grandma.

I want to wish you a happy belated birthday. I didn't forget, things just get hectic sometimes. No good news to share. Your secondb daughters IVF wasn't successful, not sure what the plan is now. She still has eggs frozen so we will see. It's heartache. I really thought this time would be successful. The cycle was perfect so I just don't know. I wish I knew Gods plan. Summer is winding down, boat will go into storage soon. I am not looking forward to that. We got a kitten to liven things up around here. The dogs seem to enjoy her. She is a daddys girl, loves Charlie. She is just fun to have around. She is sitting behind me in the chair, she is usually right up to the screen or walking on the keyboard.  It's getting late, need to get some sleep. Rest easy my friend, kisses for our grandsons and our dog, Rich and my grandma.

Our daughter is moved into her new home!!! I am so happy for her and girls!!! God is good! Wish you were here Larry. I know how excited she feels in this chapter of her life. She has great friends that helped with the move. She is blessed. I helped with cleaning the old place, wish I could have done more but I can't lift anything. Well, all of our kids are in their homes and happy with their lives. I was thinking our girls are in their early thirties now and our will be 30 in three years. Wow, where does the time go.  Your daughter is going to try again for a baby. She will go through IVF again in a couple of weeks. Can't tell you enough how worried I am. Losing our grandsons was devastating. I pray for a beautiful, healthy baby. A beautiful bundle of joy for her and her husband. Well, we are enjoying our time at the Marina but before you know it, will have to put our boat in storage. It's been a really hot, dry summer. Haven't had a summer like this in years. Even though you can't read these notes Larry it helps to think I am sharing the happiness of our children with you. Their accomplishments, etc. I could go on forever. Rest easy my friend, hugs and kisses for our grandsons, our beloved KO, my step Dad Rich and my grandma.

It's been a fast summer Larry. We are enjoying the new Marina and have made many new friends. It's a beautiful spot on the Niagara River. Sarah is moving into a house next weekend. She is planning on buying it after a year. I am so happy for her. She so much deserves it. She works so hard and has her hands full with the girls. Cali is a beautiful teenager, with typical teenage angst. Abby is getting so tall! So beautiful, won't be long and she will be a teenager too. I am having a surprise party for Charlie's 60th. Something to look forward to. I think of all of you in heaven. Especially Hunter and Gunnar. Still feel heartbroken Larry. Kiss those precious boys for me, tell them grandma loves them and will see them someday. Rest easy my friend.

It's our sons 27th birthday today and I sure wish you could be here to celebrate with us. The last time you celebrated his birthday was when we had that huge 21st birthday party for him. That was a lot of fun Larry. Great times. I really miss those days. More than I can explain. I am really proud of the man our son has become. I miss him being a little boy but I am so thankful he has a great life. It is still difficult for the kids to talk about you and it's been almost 6 years. Hurts all of us that your are gone. Much love to you my friend. Rest easy and know you will never be forgotten. Kiss our grand babies, kisses for our beloved dog and my step-father Rich. Grandma too!

I signed onto this memorial site earlier and panicked because your memorial wasn't here! Now when I think about it I was talking to you and asked you to give me a sign if you heard me. Maybe you did! Too funny Larry now that I think about it. Our son moved in to his new home Dec. 30. I can't tell you how great it feels to see the happiness in his face. Our daughter really pushed it through at the end. Her and her law firm did a great job. Happy he has a big sister that always looks out for him. Feel blessed that way. His home is beautiful!!! I am looking forward to his housewarming party that he will have next summer. We are starting this New Year stronger Larry. Happy New Year Larry! Kisses for our grandbabies, kisses for our dog and much love to my step father. Heaven has to be beautiful with all of you up there.

Praise God from who all blessings flow. Feeling happy for our son. He won the bid on the house! You would be so proud of him Larry. This is an exciting time for him and its a big deal! The house is perfect for him and his girl. Absolutely perfect. It's like brand new, he can just move in and enjoy his life. Have some grandchildren for us someday! I can picture their lives there! He so deserves the best Larry. All of our children do. I am just happy and proud this morning, it's something good and positive.  I know he thinks I am crazy because I cried when he told me but it was a huge relief because I prayed so hard all day because I want him to have what he wants in this life, what he deserves. He works so hard!!!
I wish you were here to share in the joy Larry. I know you would enjoy the beautiful yard he will have. I could picture you with your smoker out there, smoking white fish or something. I miss summers in the yard with you and all the great food we would make. Give kisses to our grandsons and our dog.

5 years Larry......Your fifth angelversary in heaven. Sad today but on a more positive note our son has put a bid in on a house. I am so proud of him. The house has many offers on it so we just have to wait and see. He is doing this on his own and is doing a great job. You would be so proud of the man that he has become. Very smart young man, dedicated, committed to his relationship and I will always feel blessed that he is our son. He reminds me alot of my grandpa. So much integrity. I am praying all goes well for him. He is so deserving of the best. He has our work ethics for sure. Anyway, I don't know where the last five years have gone but they have gone by fast. I wish you could actually read these notes I leave you. But I believe that you already know everything I tell you. I have to believe that Larry. Rest in Peace Big Guy. Kisses for our grandbabies and our dog.

When I got up this morning I thought how I always believed there was a reason for everything. I am finding it far to difficult to understand any reason why our grandsons could not live their lives....here. I feel I can barely participate in my own life lately, I feel disconnected like I am standing on the sideline, paralyzed....waiting to be rescued. Who can rescue anyone from grief??  It's not just grieving our grandsons, it's also grieving the part of your daughter that I know went with those boys. I can only imagine her grief. Ryan's grief. How they are forever changed by this loss. But I know how strong they are together. They will give each other all the support needed on such a painful journey.  I don't even know what to say anymore Larry. Charlie is the only one I can talk about it with. No one else seems to understand. However brief their lives were, they are our grandchildren. They have their place in our legacy. We have four grandchildren...two are angels. Forever loved, loved always and in all ways. We were in a restaurant the other day and a baby was at a table behind us. I couldn't see him but I could hear him babbling. You know how babies do that. Well the tears started to flow and I dreaded having to walk by that baby when we left the restaurant. But I did. And I looked into his eyes and said "precious baby". Of course the family smiled and nodded their approval, little did they know my heart was breaking getting those words out of my mouth. Not looking forward to the holidays Larry, it's like 2010 all over again. I thank God for Charlie. I don't know what I would do without him. I do know the reasons God put him in my life and put him there when he did. He has loved our grandchildren like they are his own. He has stood by me through everything. He knows how sad I am right now and I see the little things he does to assure me he is here for me. It's a journey Larry. Someday, when we all join you, we will have the answers.

It's coming up on your 5 year Angelversary Larry. We put the boat into dry dock yesterday. It saddened me to see Charlie drive her out of the marina and down to Blue Water. I will miss it and look forward to bringing her back to the marina. Charlie and I always say you would have been on the Valkyries more than us, fishing! When I sit on the deck and look out onto the beautiful view, I think of you and our grandsons in Heaven and I pray. I pray God is guiding our daughter and her husband with his grace and healing their pain. I never thought this would happen to any of our children Larry. Not ever. We all miss you Larry. Kiss those precious babies for me. Kisses for our dog too.

Happy Birthday in Heaven Larry. Not so happy down here on earth but I am sure you are having an amazing time. You know we would have had a big 60th birthday party for you! I put our grandsons name on our boat, in honor of them and in loving memory of those precious boys. Hold them close for me Larry. You all were gone too soon. I miss Rich and KO so much too. KO always loved our granddaughters Now Bella follows them everywhere when they are here. Our second granddaughter started 5th grade and our first born 7th! Can you believe it! We have beautiful granddaughters and a teenage one!!! Where does the time go????? Your children miss you Larry and I really miss celebrating this day with you. Happy 60th Birthday in Heaven Big Guy!!!

Feeling broken and missing how life was when you were here. Hurts to open my eyes in the morning and think about our grandsons. I am trying to understand why they had to leave so soon and not know the love of this family. All the hopes and dreams shattered. Their first steps, first tooth, their first birthday. Going to kindergarten. Becoming teenagers, graduating high school and going to college. Getting married and having their own babies. And all the hunting and fishing in between. And all the love those boys would have felt. Just heartbroken Larry.

I know I don't have to tell you. You already know our twin grandsons are in heaven. I am devastated Larry. Just beyond all comprehension. Our grandsons passed July 29th and were only here for a brief few hours. Your daughter had complications and my heart aches for her and her husband. I don't even know what to say. Our daughter and son are heartbroken for their sister. Hold them close for me, kiss those sweet boys and tell them I love them with my whole heart and I will see them someday.  I know they would have had the best life here but God had other plans for them. Rest in Peace precious Hunter and Gunnar. Larry, I am so heartbroken. I pray for strength and grace for them, that they get through this heartbreaking experience. I pray for our daughter and son. I pray for this whole family. Our grandsons are loved and valued and will never be forgotten. Not ever.

Wow Larry, I really wish you were here. I know the joy you would be feeling knowing you have twin grand babies coming. I just can't believe it. A miracle!! Your daughter really struggled with infertility issues but her and Ryan will be blessed with twins that are due Christmas Day!!! My heart is heavy that you are not here. I know you would have me take you shopping to buy them rods and reels. No worries though Larry,they fish all the time. They have two boats! Charlie and I bought a big boat, its like a condo on the water. You would love to fish in the marina with your precious granddaughters. She caught her first bass last night!!!! She knows she learned how to fish from you, Charlie is guiding her too but she is a natural!!! Much love big guy. Watch over your daughter Larry.

You have been on my mind a lot with fishing season here. We were down in Wilson last weekend and I saw your buddies boat and remember all the times our daughter and I drove you there or picked you up from a great day of fishing. Charlie and I bought a big boat. You would love it. I wish we would have gotten it before you and Rich had to leave us. You both would enjoy it!! We will be putting it in the water in a couple of days....watch over us out there Larry. I miss you and our dog and Rich so much. Not a day goes by that I don't have thoughts of all of you.

2 perfect AA Blastocysts were transferred into your daughter today. Wouldn't that be something if they both attached and she had twins! Maybe a granddaughter and grandson for you! God is good Larry and I really think this will be the year for them. I know how excited you would be!!! I know you will be with her in spirit through this journey. Miss you and KO and Rich and everyone else up there.

Our granddaughters are here sick today. Little has a fever and our first born has an upset stomach. Probably the flu. A seems to be feeling better, we just made jello. I have been busy growing vegetables and flowers indoors in preparation for the garden. I can't wait to transplant them outside. All is well Larry. I count my blessings. I know in my heart you look over all of us. I think you know the things that need your attention here. Thoughts you can pass along in heaven. You know what I mean. I know everything is according to Gods plan. If it is his will....it will be. Give our dog a big kiss, tell Rich how much I miss him and love him.

We layed another great man to rest yesterday Larry. My step father Rich lost his courageous battle with cancer. It was sad to see our children lose another wonderful loving person. I know you all celebrated his arrival and I am sure our dog was there to greet him too. It was sad seeing our son as a pall bearer walking with his casket knowing 2 of the great men in our childrens lives are now memories. But precious memories Larry. I thank God we still have Charles that our children and grand children can look up to and know he will always be there for them. My heart aches....just aches.

Another year has gone by. Christmas was good this year Larry. Seemed joyous for the first time in a long time. The kids and grand kids were happy. You were missed but I know you just want us to be happy here. Our daughter bought me a new stove! You would love it! And our son got me new phones so I have one in the computer room and one in the living room. I feel blessed that we have such thoughtful children. You would have loved the turkey our daughter got for me to cook. It was delicious this year. Your granddaughters are growing like weeds Larry. I look at them and just cant believe how fast they are growing. Beautiful and precious they are. Charlie loves those girls. He loves them so much Larry and is an awesome grandfather figure to them. I know you knew when you left that he would watch out for them and you would watch over them. Happy New Year in Heaven Larry. Give our beloved dogs hugs and kisses. We miss you both so much.