Hey mom today was like all the other days that I wish I could share with you in person. Found out that Auntie Bunny has stage 4 cancer and the she said that the doctors are giving her 6 months to a year to live. Yeah this is a pretty hard one to deal with. I know what I was taught and what I believe in is true but it still hurts. I wish I had words of encouragement and comfort to tell her but honestly this is harder than I thought. I keep flashing back to the road you traveled and it was rough. Tonight before I go to bed I will pray to God and ask him for strength and understanding not only for me but for her kids and their children and the rest of the family, cause only God can do the impossible and I know I can't go wrong with him nor his word. My heart is heavy and my spirit is sadden but I will continue to grow and be strong for all those around me. Today I found out that another friend of mine's wife passed away on her birthday and I can't even imagine the pain that he is feeling right now. I'm scared mom of going through that if something like that happened to me. I don't never want to feel that pain, but I know I love Keisha with all my heart and some and if it happens that way then I can say thank you for allowing me the opportunity to love her whole heartily even if it's only for a short time. I've asked her to marry me and she said yes. I wish you could see her face when she talks about it and see how she glows when she gets excited thinking about it. She truly does make me happy and the girls are my pride and joy. I am going to be the most proudest man ever to have her as my wife. I've seen my girls in my dreams again and this time they have gotten so much older and it seems like they know that they are with me in my dreams. I wish I could have a real relationship with them. I miss them so much. Well I also wanted to tell you that Clint passed away earlier this year too. Yeah another hard one to get through but I didn't have to do it all by myself thanks to all those around me. The 4 of us are doing a pretty good with each other. We keep in touch with each other and we stay on each others heart. Well I can go on and on talking with you but as you know I got a few things to take care of before I go to bed so good night mom. I love you.

Where should I begin my dear loving Lil Soldier of a sister,, Happy 61st Birthday, how I miss you especially this past Friday, your beautiful granddaughter had a fantastic prom send off I know you were with us in Spirit i could feel you grinning from ear to ear, your loving son Kevin made her a fantastic banner the house was decorated so well and yes your last cookie shared the occasion, Tavonna did a great job on this special day, you would have been so proud of everyone., you will never know how much you are truly missed, I cry so much like I'm doing now over losing you and my son,God knows I wish you were here and I was with my child, this pain is unbearable and it won't go away until I die., Love You, Miss You,, my number one fan,❤❤❤

I also wanted to tell you that our dear sister Lena Mae is no longer suffering we lost her in January and Ronnie her last son suffering has also ended we lost him in May the day before his​ birthday., so you now have more family members to preach, and also teach God's word to.as only you can do., that is if Francie will let you, lol., please tell my son how much I miss him i had Antonio do some painting for me and he did a really good job, guess you were working his hands so I wouldn't be too disappointed in not having my son my real painter available, although I did shed heavy tears knowing I had to move on and try someone else., thanks to your prayers I'm sure, things worked out ok., you are truly missed.❤❤❤

More Family news, your favorite niece Wanda who you helped raise as if she were your own has found herself a Man who loves her and her children and he has PUT A RING ON It.,, I know you would be so happy for her he truly is exactly what she needed, well Louise is still Louise. , LOL., our big brother Sammie still holding on,, I now have your big shoes to try to fill which we both know is impossible but due to who our Mother and Father were I will definitely do my best,,we have another funeral to attend so soon after Ronnie, now Helen has lost her husband Albert his health finally got the best of him.,add him to your Heavenly Choir., I think I have brought you up to date on most of what's happening,oh yeah J.P is also still J.P,, Lol.,❤❤

Hey mom well Martrice went on prom yesterday and she looked beautiful. We wished that you was there in the physical form to see her but we all felt your presence. Auntie Martha was there to stand in your place and to be proud for you. She has many more chapters in her life ahead of her and I know that you will be with her. Yes your cookies pulled it off for her and I couldn't believe that this was the same little girl who used to run around the house with a pacifier hanging out the side of her mouth yelling "Vonna mama want you". She has taken another major step in life and it's all thanks for the guidelines that you set up for her early on. I looked at her today and seen that she is becoming a beautiful woman and a smart one cause she made an important decision to make sure her life is better and a little bit more easier by accomplishing this goal. I'm not sure what my future may hold but I will always remember this day and stand proudly to be her uncle. Everybody has their own roles to play and slowly we are starting to fill in those spots and take on other roles that we didn't know about and excel in them. I am so proud of my sister's for using the knowledge that you put in them and for being as independent and headstrong as they are. I have to make it over to the house today to spend some time with your last cookie and just look at her face and smile so she can ask me why you all in my face smiling and get on TaVonna nerves and just have a good time with them and let them know that I love them. Well while I was laying here dreaming I thought about you and just had to write you about today. Thanks for everything that you have done and the love that you shared and the knowledge that you put in all of us, we love you mom.

Hey mom I was just thinking about you on my way home and wanted to call you up and tell you the good news that all I have left is 4 more classes then I'm going to try and get my license back. I know that you would be so proud of me right now. I plan on getting them and going to truck driving school and be an over the road driver. My first trip I'm taking you with me, we get to see this country together like we always wanted. Mom this is so exciting to me to be this close to making a dream come true. I know you are with me and you never left that's why you are going with me to help me read the map and road signs. I know that we are going to have so much fun on the road together. Mom I love you so much and please let my kids know that I love them too. I will keep you posted on everything going forward. Love you.

Hey momma I love you. Thank you for the many blessings and teachings you left for us to follow. This day is going to be awesome. The family and friends have shown me a lot of love and especially my sister's. I know you speaking to me right now and laughing at something one of us said or did. We truly miss you and love you.

Hey mom I know that you know by now that you are a Great Granny, too bad neither of us got the chance to meet her. Happy birthday mom. Lil Kevin has a baby girl and she looks just like him. Maybe one day I'll get to meet her and tell her about how wonderful her Granny is. Her name is Zaria Renee Giles, she's about 4 soon to be 5.Now I am starting to understand the feeling that you have about your grandchildren. I'm working towards getting my license so I can be a better provider for my family. I'm not sure what the future will bring but I know that you are watching over all of us. I love you mom.

My beautiful little sister today would have been your 60th birthday,i so wish with all my heart that we could have celebrated this milestone in your life together but alas it was not to be,i'm so heart broken and still saddened by your shocking and untimely death,we had so much planned for our old age together,now it's nothing left for my life but the daily sadness that i experience without my son or my beautiful little sister.,,rest on my sister,definitely gone too,too,soon.,love you,miss your,

Another sleepless night,another day filled with the pain of your loss my sister,i still see your smile,i still hear your laughter, I still hear you calling me just to hear my voice,,telling each other of our love for one another, missing our Thursday pick ups from the hospital, our girl talk on the ride to your home,,still not grasping this new painful heartache,while i'm still hurting from Gene's loss.,, life right now just not worth it my sister,,,just not worth it,,why you?? why Gene ??? so unfair to our family to lose you both so soon.,,,it should have been me

Dear Ma I miss you so much . I miss all your kind words your prayers and long conversation about everything.Our Saturday going to the mercy store,grocery shopping just missing all the time we shared .. There will never be a Sweeter ,spiritual, understanding & caring mother to your children. And every one that met you loved u and u love them to.

It never occurred to me that when I told you & Martha about this site you would be making a person visit. It is a lonelier road without you here with us. Sleep on my love, I know I will see you again.

I don't even know where to begin. You gave love & support to those in need. You had a heart that was giving & pure. How I miss you calling me Cookie. I know heaven got a whole lot brighter when you went home. Thank you for loving me all these years Tee Tee.

You were more than my little sister,you were my shoulder to lean on, cry on,laugh on,you were and will always be the best friend I ever had,truthful,trustworthy,loving me with all your heart,so thankful to God for allowing you to be my sister for 59 1/2 yrs.,you were my soul when it was torn from my heart,when I lost faith you continued to pray for me,,really wish I could have gave you my life in that hospital room,you deserve to still be here with your family,,i am so sorry i'm still here instead of you,..LOVE YOU,MISS YOU,MY ANGEL,MY LITTLE SISTER,,,

Through everything you stayed a support for the family. I could even feel your prayers moving through me. I love your smile. It feels as though you should still be here but I know it was his will. I love you and I thank you for all the late night chats and prayers you will forever be missed auntie.

Hi mom, it's been a while since we've last talked. I have so many things I want to ask you but I want you to know that I love you and I deeply miss you. Everybody's missing you and your bff's have been keeping a close watch over us. I just wanted to say thank you for being an awesome mother. We've shared so many different experiences together and planned many more. I know that you are still watching over us with your warm smile and loving arms wrapped around us. I look at your pictures and I think about all the times we've laughed and cracked jokes. I've never thought that I would be writing you a message this way. This is very hard for me to write about. I miss you so much and I love you.