As I sit here each night letting my mind wonder, the fact that I will never get to hear your voice or touch you hits me a little harder. I am so lost, lonely, and scared in this big crazy thing we call life without you mom! I catch myself wanting to look up and scream "No Mom, No Don't Go Mom!" I want so bad to have you back. It hurts so bad mom and I am not quite sure how to handle it. I need you to know that you were the strongest most pleasant woman I have ever known. You are not only my mother but my best friend and I wouldn't have traded you for the world! I am and always will be proud to say that I am your one and only daughter. I would give anything to have you here with me again and to never let you go, but I know that is not reality. The beautiful and precious memory of you will forever live on in me. I will carry you with me every step of the rest of my journey! I love you with all that I am mom and I miss you so very much. "Until We Meet Again Mom" Missing You, Your Daughter, Shantella Lyn Benavides-Schoenmaker