mum today is easier than i thought..the memories are still with us, they say time heals and in some aspect it is true but others not so they take a little longer...

Terran is coming over this week for a visit. lots of things  to do for her, meetings with your brothers and sister all sorted and days out.

i hope you are  happy up there, although i know you are with us everyday. 

i miss you mum love you lots.

Hi mum this feels like the only place i can talk to you, i miss you so much and everytime i think about the pain and tears just wont stop. there is so much i want to tell you although i know you are watching all around.
Me and the kids,barbara and julie went to isle of white for a holiday, at times i think you were there with us, we had a brilliant time ,the kids did so much cj liked riding the horse on the beach,we met monkeys and pengiuns, went go carting that was hilarious watching all the kids going round and round, and little jack smashing into the edging so hard thst he hsd to be taken off for his own safety and other users on the track. Denny loved it as he got used ti it got more faster.
we had a party cj got a little tipsy bless but she was funny. 
i have found myself a new job,just like maria said i would, i am looking forward to starting that, learning all new things to help me stitch, but something in the back on my mind it keeps niggling at me.
i finally got my level 3 health and social care diploma through.i left qaulity because of some stupid bitch accusing me of things that were not true,if i had met up with the bitch i dont know what i would have done!! so angry was not the word.... the thing that hurt the most is she used service users to do her dirty work . I miss working with Di and the service users but feel it was a good move to leave for me.

we finally finalised everything with the estate. at the end of ther day mum i feel we could have had everything sorted out alot more qiuckly by doing it ourselves.the solisitor just kept dragging his heels then it was the dwp!
i have started to get the back garden done,i cant wait to get my hands in there for next year, mak had two weeks off to make a base, which actually took him 3 weeks to do!! his dad is helping him do it, i have noticed he has taken a step back and lets mark do it for himself,hich is good, he needs to learn. i am looking forward to sitting in the garden in the summer time.your gonna have to help me find a plot for the roses to go in,
We need to sort out your haed stone but finding the right words is difficult but we will and soon xx
 love you always x