Well, I am not sure how I missed this tribute and memorial before, but I am glad I stumbled upon it tonight. As always, you are sorely missed. However, I come to you tonight with yet another tragedy for your family. I just cannot believe that your mom has left us so soon. Sometimes it feels like your family has a dark cloud looming over it and tragedy is never far away.

Your dad called me to inform me of this horrific news and it was honestly the last thing I expected. My only peace is thinking that you and Derrick came to your mom and her broken heart has missed you both so much that she went towards you believing your dad, sister, kids and the rest of the family would be okay. Well, I think it is safe to say since the day you passed no one in the family has ever been 100% okay. Things began to shift on October 2, 2009, and have been difficult ever since.

As far as I know, all your children are doing as well as can be expected. I think many of us are just in shock and disbelief. It just doesn't seem possible. Why? How? I just don't understand. Though we only live an hour away, I am ashamed to realize how little time was spent seeing/talking with her. Sometimes it felt difficult and distant, other times it was like she was the Julie I met 22 years ago.

I always admired her - for a woman who had been through so much and was still very much the glue of the family. I know it was a role that was sometimes difficult as she had to process through her lifelong grief to be there for others. I am sure there were times she felt disconnected or alone from some of the family and I wish I could say we had spent more time with her. It's unfortunate how much life is driven by financial means and much less focused on family and human connection. I do not have guilt about the quality of our relationship but I certainly wish she and I had more time and memories shared.

My detest for pictures means I don't believe we have any actual pictures together but, I was proud and loved to share the photo Susan Bush took of her a few years ago. She looked so beautiful and proud alongside your sister and niece. I know her grandchildren were the fuel that kept her ignited through the grief she encountered over her life. That combined with her amazing daughter and husband who always had her back and supported her through it all.

You know, I always realized how special it was that those two had each other to go through all the grief and loss that they encountered as a couple. Of course, no one deserves to go through that much pain. But, their love story and connection was one many of us long for. I found comfort in knowing they had each other. Not once did I even consider that eventually one of them would be facing that grief alone while grieving for the lost partner. It is beyond heartbreaking and I wish it wasn't happening right now. Your mom was too young and she and your Dad had so many more things to do and experience together.

I know she is with her boys, parents, sister, mother-in-law, beloved pets, and lost loved ones which brings me some peace in this devastating time. I will continue to pray that she stays near your Dad, sister, nieces, and children so that they may continue to have strength on those difficult days that will undoubtedly occur.

Please give her a big hug for me and tell her thank you for allowing me to be part of her family and never turning her back on me even when we had disagreements. She is truly one of a kind and I will miss her forever, just like I will miss you forever.

Happy Birthday Marty. We love and miss you. Love Dad and Mom

Hello , just want to wish you a heavenly birthday , wish you were here to celebrate your 40th birthday, live and miss you everyday RIP my nephew take care of Derrick and grandma, and whoever else you run into

Hey Lil Marty, today youve made this a very hard day for your whole family , your children , i miss you so much think of you everyday , where you would be right now , you and Chrissy would be together raising your kids , god i cant imagine how your kuds feel its been 11 years it breaks my heart everyday , well youve made your choice we cant go back now ,miss you everyday , take care of derrick gram and all the others in heaven with you , miss you both everyday ♡♡♡♡♡ love aunt mic

Hey dad, its been a while and I miss you so much. A lot has happened in my life and its been really crazy. Happy late birthday I really wish I could say it to you in person. I really hope you and uncle Derrick are in a better place. I have tried to learn more about you since I entered high school. It has been the hardest 10 almost 11 years. I wish I had more time with you, I also wish I was able to have a lot more family time. At this point in time we always sit in our own rooms. Also yesterday moms dad died and me and her have had mixed emotions I wish you were here with all of us to see how much we have changed. Well I love you so much dad and I really miss you. 

Still missing you everyday,love aunt mic.  Take care of derrick

Well here we are again except it's 8 years later, stI'll missing your sweet smile and I'll never forget that or your laugh,we have so many memories of you growing up and as a adult I am keeping them for my memories and keeping you alive with me, I hope your taking care of Derrick he needs you the most, I will never ever forget you ,or all the fun times we had , love and miss you forever in my heart always. I lI've and miss you Aunt Mic

8 years ago baby you took you life. 8 years ago I lost my best friend. you will never know what you meant to me. I miss you so much boober, you were the one I could always talk to, I always knew how much you loved me. I seems we were always their for each other. the day you died will be forever be etched in my mind. a big favor I am asking of you take care of your little brother for me. you kids are my life. watch over your sister, let her know somehow you are with her. I am so empty inside. when we see each other again I will be the happiest mommy in the world. I love and miss you boys with all my heart. watch over daddy for me. he loved you boys soo much. I love you my babies.

Happy Birthday Marty. I wish you were here to celebrate. The kids are doing great. I know you watch over them. Celebrate with your brother and remember that Dad and Mom love you very much.

Well Marty another year has past by us without you, I hope that your comfortable up there in heaven, and your taking care of Derrick also , he needs you , we needed you but you thought life would of been better without you , I wish I could have found you the day I was looking for you , but you weren't around, I wish we could have talked but I guess your mind was made up , it's difficult here without you missing you everyday and wanting to hear your voice , not a day goes by since you left us I don't think of you and Derrick , it's breaks my heart for you boys to be gone , we'll I hope your rocking the clouds up there and staying out of trouble , no worries everything down here which I'm sure your watching ,is fine , rip bud I love and miss you dearly rock on ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

You are in my thoughts every day. Alex bought his first car today, wish you were here to see him deal with the guy I know you would be proud. All of your kids are doing well and we all miss you. I know you have been watching over them. I love and miss you. Dad

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hi baby, well another birthday without you. 7 long years without celebrating your birthday. the love I had for you should have held you here for a lifetime, but I guess my love wasn't enough to keep you here. my heart breaks every year that you are not here with me. but I know you are where you are supposed to be right now. looking over and loving us from the arms of God. have fun celebrating your birthday with your brother, grandpa and grandma. I love you little one with all my heart and soul. your are surly miss down here. happy 35 birthday honey. mommy loves you with all my heart and soul.

Marty, I wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas before chaos starts.
I hope you and your brother are doing well up there with the angels.
I think of you constantly. I love you and miss you with all my heart.
I love you.
Dad

my darling precious boy. it has been 6 long years since you left us. I cry for you and derrick all the time. my freaken heart is so broken I can't stand it. why boober? didn't you know how this would effect us all. the pain and heartache it would cause to those who you left behind. I am so sadden and angry for the choice you made, but I guess this was your way of coping with things. I love you and miss you terrible boober. you were my everything. take care of your brother for me, he loved you so much. and please watch over your sister. she is a broken soul without you two in her life. please I beg you do everything in your power to make her happy again. the kids are doing fine. I love you honey with all my heart and soul. it's just a very sad day for me. love you baby.

Well it's been 6 years now since you left us. I miss you so much not a day that goes by I don't think of you or Derrick we all miss you terribly , so wishing we could of helped you in your struggle , but nothing will change that now except we all have broken hearts. Rip boober take care of Derrick as I know you will today is a very hard day for all of us cause we miss you so much keep watching your kids they are all beautiful and have so much if you in them live you always and fiver in my heart ❤️

Marty I hope you are doing ok up there. There is so much we had left to do. I think of you everyday. Your wonderful children are doing so well. Each and everyone of them carry something of you. I know you are watching over them. Keep your brother smiling up there as I know you can. I love you very much. Love Dad.

happy 34th birthday baby boy. we will be up today to send you your birthday balloons. this is so hard for mommy. God how I miss you. the ache in my heart is overwhelming. I love you so much. send a birthday wish to your son tomorrow. loving you always and forever.

boober tomorrow you turn 34 years old. this has been the hardest 51/2 years I have been through. I miss you bright smiling eyes. you had and still have a special soul. I miss you so much boober, it's like I am living in a fog. not knowing what to do and not knowing who I am anymore. the day you were born was the greatest joy I have ever felt. you were such a beautiful person whom everyone loved. some days I can't stand living without you. you left us too soon honey. happy birthday my beautiful boy. say hi to derrick for me, tell him mommy loves him with all her heart and soul. i wish you were both here with me just once more.

hi my two loving sons. well here we are in maine. i brought you both here with me to find out who i am suppposed to be. i have lost myself and don't know how to find myself anymore. with you both gone i have no idea who i am. all i wanted was to be a mom and a good wife, and it seems i have screwed up royally. i am hurting your father, i love him so much and i hope he understands i can't live in bennington anymore. the pain i have endured in the last 5 years is incredible. first you boober then daddy, aunt annie, mom, derrick and now tucker. it seems everyone i touch dies. i am so unhappy please i beg you both to help mom through this. i have tried so hard with your sister and it's like she blames me for all her problems. i can't be there for anyone anymore, because i don't know who i am anymore. boober and derrick you were and still are my world. help your sister get over the problems in her life. love your daddy as much as i love him. i know one day he will join me in maine, but i can't be there anymore. i love you boys with all my heart and soul.  love mommy

hi baby well it has been really tough on mom lately. I love and miss you so much. please watch over your baby brother for me. God how I miss him. it is so unfair that he is gone. can you ask God why for me. neither one of you didn't deserve this. how is miss and love you so much. my heart is broken boober. I can't believe my family is disappearing on me. had to say goodbye to your aunts and uncles today. couldn't take it anymore. I love you both so much. love to my baby boys

well baby boy it has been 5 years since you left me. it hurts every day to know I will never see you again on this earth. but one day we will meet again. I want a big hug and kiss from my little boy when I get there. the pain in my heart is overwhelming. I know why you did it, but that doesn't make it any less painful. your kids really need you right now. please watch over them and take their pain away. I love and miss you baby boy with all my heart and soul. love mom

After 5 years I still long to see your sweet face and hear your voice. There is not a day that goes by that I think of you and miss you dearly. Wish you were here. I love and miss you always

happy 33rd birthday my beautiful son. I miss and love you more each day. you were the love of my life. we shared so much together and I thank you for being my son. it was a God send you were in my life for 28 years and it was a privilege for me to have the most caring and loving son in the world. I love you my baby boy with all my heart. say a prayer for your brother for me and have God watch over derrick through all the test he has to go through. and make him better. I love you boober with all my heart. come visit me sometime so we can talk like we used to. love mommy.

Still sitting here after these years have past still missing you wishing you were here to see your kids and wishing you would come by to see me and uncle Chet miss spending time with you and having a few drinks you are always on my mind and in my heart missing and living you everyday forever in my heart Aunt Mic

I remember when he came to the farm house over vacation and chased the rooster around until it flew at him, he always thought it was fun to chase the roosters and chickens he really did love the farm animals and never wanted to go home Marty always had to carry him out R.I.P. Boober

I remember sitting at the kitchen table at Aunt Mary's when Uncle Lee passed away having a conversation with little Marty. He was telling me about his children. I said they sound wonderful but you're so young and he looked me right in the eye and told me his children were the best thing he'd done in his life and that he had NO regrets when it came to them. I left the conversation thinking what a nice guy he was... He was a good Dude. I think he didn't know how God loved him SO much and had a Big and wonderful plan for his life. But....he knows now.how much he loves him. <3 RIP lil Marty

I miss you so much and think of you everyday wish you were still here with us love you firever

We miss you dearly.